alr ima start doing other people's pov, i was just letting y'all see saige for a minute cause she's the main character.

- 𝙼𝙰𝙲𝚈 𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙰𝙽.
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"Unt unt. No." I pushed Hakeem back out the door. "You ain't coming in hea."

"Man why?" He scrunched up his face.

"You only here because you finally figured out Saige never gon go for yo sorry ass. You not finna keep treating me like I'm some wack ass bitch. I put up with you for way too long. I put you first while you put me last, ain't no more of that." I shook my head.

He really think I'm finna let him back in? All it took was for Saige to move here and he started treating me weird. Even before she came it was always like that. I know my worth now and will be putting myself first from now on.

"Bruh whatever, don't come calling me when you figure out ain't nobody else gonna want you."

"Really? That's literally what you doing to me right now. Bye Hakeem." I shut the door in his face and rolled my eyes. He's so weird and I don't know how I didn't realize it before.

I was young, dumb, and blind. I put too much time and effort into that relationship when I shouldn't have. I learned from it though.

I went back up to my room and seen Poochie on his phone. When he seen me he put it down and pulled me over to him.

"That lil nigga gon get shot at, keep playing." He put his hands on my waist and looked up at me.

"Don't even worry about him. He ain't no type of threat." I said.

"He soft." He laid back and I got on top of him.

Poochie was only two years older than me so we been knew each other. I was going through it with Hakeem and he was there for me.

A shoulder to cry on becomes a dick to ride.

This was honestly unexpected but I don't mind. I really see myself being with him so, we'll see.

- 𝚂𝙰𝙸𝙶𝙴 𝙼𝙾𝚁𝙰𝙻𝙴𝚂.
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𝙰𝚝𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚊, 𝙶𝚎𝚘𝚛𝚐𝚒𝚊

"So you just finna starve yourself?" Marco asked as him and my mom walked into my room.

"Yes." I pulled my cover over my face only for them to take it right back off. "Mmcht."

"You need to forgive that damn boy." My mom said and I looked at her like she was crazy.

"But he-"

"I know what he did Saige. I know."

"So why do I need to forgive him? He the reason for.."

"He's not. And technically you wrong for blaming him like that. You remember how you felt and blamed yourself?" She asked and I nodded.

"Yeah. I hated it."

"Imagine how he feels. Probably exactly like that. Y'all both did dirt baby. At the end of the day, how could he have known somebody was gonna come after you? You can't put it all on him. His intentions were pure. Selfish, but pure. He loves you and he didn't wanna lose you." She explained. "And you knew his lifestyle when you got involved so don't act brand new. You knew what he came with but you put it aside because you love him, right?"

"Yes."

"Exactly. Sometimes things just happen, whether it's good or bad. It happens. It's all about how you react to it. I know you miss Brianna, shit we all miss her every day. But who we really can blame is whoever did it, shouldn't have been targeting a child in the first place. Some people are just so heartless." She said.

I wanna know what Serg did to the point where it got me involved. That's all. But I don't wanna ask because it's too late. I already lashed out on him.

"I guess when you put it all like that." I shrugged.

"We all good? Alright come eat before you turn anorexic or some shit." Marco spoke up.

"Leave." Me and my mom said at the same time.

"For what?"

"Because you irritating, always saying shit. Be quiet." My mom waved him off.

"Alright I'll come eat. Gimme a minute." I told them and they left out.

I sat up from my bed and turned on my phone. I sighed because my lock screen was a picture of me and Serg.

"I'll keep it." I mumbled and got up. I got out my clothes so I could take a shower and walked into the bathroom.

Do I miss him? Yes. Do I love him? Yes. Do I wanna forgive him? I don't know. My mind don't want to, but baby that heart. Your heart can get you in trouble sometimes.

I feel like the hardest battle to fight is between what you feel and what you know. I know all relationships go through it but this was beyond me.

50+ votes.

this short cause i been blessing y'all a lot lately, ima take a break.

(watch me be back.)

also i'll start updating dial tone click when this book get around to like 15 chapters.