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January 31st

"Annoyin." Xander chewed slowly as India sat back down next to him.

"I'm not annoying." She mumbled, dipping her fry in wing sauce and stretching her jaw.

"You can eat fries with braces on? Metal mouth."

"I can do a lot of stuff with braces." She damn near whispered but he still heard her and snapped his head in her direction.

"Like what? You can do a lot of what? Eating?"

"Duh that's what I meant. I can do everything Jay did when she had hers o-"

"Imma punch the shit outta you, she grown she do a lot of shit with braces on but I bet you won't. The fuck."

"I'm almost grown.." India rolled her eyes and he side eyed her mid chew.

"You got a boyfriend?"

"Nope."

"So why you taking pregnancy tests?" He asked casually, still looking down at his plate as she froze up, obviously caught by surprise.

She wasn't pregnant but sometimes she'd check just to be safe. A lie began slipping off of her tongue but he cut her off.

"You know lyin piss me off. You got a boyfriend?" He asked again before turning his attention to her.

"No I don't but I'm not a virgin anymore." She said softly, showing him the hand purity ring she'd taken off a while ago but had kept in her pocket. A frown came to his face and he took a deep breath like he was annoyed.

"When? Talk to me."

He wanted to be judgy mcjudgy but he remembered when he'd taken Jays virginity and she almost got pregnant because she was too scared to tell her parents and get on birth control.

They were having sex with condoms at one point then when they really started fucking it was they didn't exist.

"A month and some weeks. Then we broke up not long after." She said lowly, slightly embarrassed.

"He took yo shit then broke up with you? Where he live?"

"I broke up with him. B-but we're still close friends that.. do stuff." India fumbled.

"Oh you think you grown? You not allowed to enjoy sex, first time was a mistake but you ain't mean it. Put that shit back on." He mugged her and grabbed her hand reminiscing on when a ring used to be there.

"I do. A lot. I wanna get back together but I know he's not ready to be in a real relationship right now and I'm not either. I know I love him but I only think he loves me even though he says it. I'm not confident in us and it makes me sad because I'd do anything for him." She spoke quietly, eyes beginning to water as she just covered the surface of her feelings.

Words couldn't genuinely explain the way she felt about him.

Xander didn't know how to respond because he was still caught off guard that she had a boyfriend and was having sex, then he just let what she said sink in and nodded. From the sounds and looks of it she really loved mystery boy.

He understood the weird dynamic of their relationship. It sounded like him and Jaylani, or them at first at least.

"Me and Jay have been together for almost eight years and the first four she was convinced I would cheat on her or just get bored. I never told you but I did cheat maybe two or three times when I was 15, like right at the beginning of our relationship. I still apologize for it now because she's still insecure about it now. Has he given you a reason to be insecure? Or are you just a conclusion jumper with unnecessary paranoia?"

"Well.. he never cheated on me but his ex-"

"That's enough of that already. You acting like a dumb ass over bitches he's not even talking to anymore. I'm embarrassed." He side eyed her.

"I know, what should I do to you know.. feel better?"

"Apologize for bringing that bullshit up every chance you get. Now what did he do again?" He said plainly.

"I don't know.. he's just mean. Sometimes he'll just not speak to me all day because I did one thing or he'll be sarcastic and snap at me for small stuff." She muttered.

"I'm biased already.. I think you should stop acting like a damn crybaby but that's impossible so I suggest.. I'm tryna think of some shit Jay would say.. uhh.. tell him your feelings are hurt and when he keeps doin it beat his ass. Or at least that's what she do."

She rolled her eyes at his terrible but very Xander-Like advice. His New York accent had become almost non existent and he sounded straight from Atlanta. The only time you really heard it at all was when he was talking fast and loud, usually angry.

"Beat his ass? Boy.."

"It depends. If he's the calm type I can guarantee you he'll hit yo ass back but if he's more aggressive and short tempered like me he'll sit back mad but shut up. It's real backwards I know. If he's more calm you gotta talk to Tay because-"

"No!"

That's the last thing she wanted to do. Out of everyone the only person she really just didn't wanna know about her having sex or a boyfriend was him.

"Scary ass. Well you just gotta give that shit time because niggas only change when they want to. Not een gon hold you. Tez still gettin on Oli nerves and Chubbs still cheat on his baby momma, we grown and they on bullshit. Either wait or move on dassit." He shrugged, picking her phone up and unlocking it.

"What are you doing?"

"I wanna meet the nigga duh." He clicked on the contact that said bubba and it began ringing. He answered on one of the last rings.

"Speak." He yawned into the phone not after answering and not looking at the caller ID.

"Aye. India what this nigga name is?"

He turned to her but before he could get an answer the line went dead because Jade had hung up. Not even seconds later a text came through.

Bubba💙 get tf out my call log stupid bitch you highly confused and lettin a nigga call me like I'm the one to put on for. Have a good night cause I will you blocked.

Xander read it with his hand to his chest in shock.

"He called you a stupid bitch and blocked you. I think he don't know I'm yo brother.." he busted out laughing while India grabbed her other phone with her jaw still dropped.

"Oh my god why you always doin stuff!" She pushed him over and called back.

"Don't call he gon be mad as fuck, yo this nigga is wild I might've liked him if he wasn't your lil boyfriend." He couldn't stop laughing even when he heard the FaceTime call come through.

"The f-"

"That was my brother. See." She grabbed Xander and pulled his face next to hers so Jade could tell. The looked alike but Xander was dark skinned and she was light skinned.

Xander and Jade looked at each other before twisting their faces up.

"I know this nigga from somewhere ion like that."

"You the nigga with the crackhead daddy right?" He asked bluntly.

"Yeah. You got my sister pregnant?"

India looked at him with her mouth open again and began saying something about his lie until she felt Xander rub his gun against her back.

"... she pregnant?"

"Yeah."

"Oh. Aight." Jade shrugged casually.

"You only saying that because I'm on the phone." He mugged him but India shook her head at Xander to tell him that's really just how he was.

"Nah I'm good."

"She not actually pregnant anyways..."

"Okay. That's all?"

"You miss Mooshky?" He used his nick name for her and Jade didn't say anything for a few moments.

He got quiet because he didn't wanna answer. Of course he missed her romantically but they were still friends and it seemed to him that she'd completely moved on from their breakup. Yeah they had sex but she didn't even say I love you back anymore, it was starting to seem like just sex to her, in his eyes at least.

Even though they broke up if wasn't just sex to him because he loved her and wanted her back, based on how she was acting she must not have felt the same way.

"No." He said simply before hanging up, making a sad frown come to her face. She wasn't expecting that.

He didn't mean it. She didn't know that though.

-

Jade walked in and everyone turned to stare at him, looking him up and down as he kept a plain expression on his face.

Jaylani and Laylani looked at him then at each other before whispering something that looked like 'damn bitch.' and laughing.

Taylin and Xander just kept a mug on their faces.

He didn't understand why they wanted to meet him. They were broken up and not even speaking that often despite her feeling like they were. He was irritated and didn't wanna be there, he didn't wanna be around her or her family because it just reminded him that she had almost no sense of reality.

She broke up with him and damn near rubbed that in his face every chance she got and this seemed like her doing that but on a much bigger more embarrassing scale, even if she didn't realize it.

'Hi, meet the nigga I broke up with but remain distant friends with that stays around hoping I'll take him back even though I obviously won't no matter what he does to reach out to me.'

That's what it felt like. He loved her but he was quickly developing the urge to block her and never speak to her again, maybe he could move on if he did that. He meant it when he said he didn't wanna be her friend but he went along with it to just get by her, that wasn't enough.

"Hey." Jaylani put her hand out and he shook it, blinking twice to make sure he wasn't seeing things. She was so... small. The other one was too.

"I'm Laylani, sure you know him already." She rolled her eyes to herself and looked over at Taylin.

"Yeah, basketball player. L.A lakers." He walked to the kitchen and grabbed a bag of hot fries off of the top of the fridge then sat back down. Everyone else was eating actual food but he was picky and didn't want that right now.

Jaylani and Taylin were going back and forth outside of Xander's conversation with Jade.

"I don't care if you my nigga I'm not paying shit I don't wanna pay, especially if you making demands for other shit. You wanna be the man of the house pay some fucking bills." She rolled her eyes.

"Y'all love traditional roles until you realize you gotta shut the fuck up, clean, cook, and stay in a woman's place." Taylin mugged her and she flipped him off.

"How old are you again?" Xander asked, looking over at Jade who looked maybe twenty.

"Nineteen. I turn twenty in like five months."

"Kids?"

"One kid. He's three."

"How did you two meet?" Tay questioned knowing India was more introverted, shying away from his type. He didn't know him but he could tell him and India were polar opposites.

His cold and cool demeanor was nothing like her shy anxiety filled one. They leveled each other out.

"A friend who's no longer a friend. When I first met her I thought she was annoying and I didn't like her, we had fun and shit once she grew on me though." He forced a smile on his face. He didn't wanna talk about their relationship.

"Awww why did you two break up you two were so cute. She used to call me and tell me-" Laylani began to say something but India cut her off stuttering.

"I- th-th- no I di-"

"We broke up because we're not meant for each other and we're both happier apart than together." Jade said clearly, ignoring India's eyes on him as he spoke.

"Oh. At least it wasn't a nasty break up and you two still love one another." Laylani smiled softly.

"We don't. I love her platonically. She's done and I am too, it was a great learning experience and I made a long time friend."

For some reason that made her sad. She don't expect him to answer like. At all. Again.

"When are you getting it removed then?" Her attitude had sky rocketed to one hundred and before she knew it the words had slipped past her lips in attempts to dish out subliminal hurt he did. You couldn't hear the attitude in her voice but it was there.

Xander looked in between them and the others did too, noticing how they both politely jabbed at each other with intent to be hurtful.

"Never. It's just a tattoo." He gave her a tight lipped smile.

"Isn't it funny how we both have a habit of letting people we don't care about in or on us?" She smiled back and Laylani and Jaylani's lips parted in shock.

Xander and Taylin made face and got ready to say something but their wives slapped hands over their mouths.

"We have so much in common, wow. You know how we're different though? The last time I had sex I didn't have to shower and get the fuck out because the other person actually wanted me around." He laughed and she did too, both of them smiling at one another.

"I think this is why they broke up." Jaylani whispered.

"You're right. You're a very dynamic person, things change with you really fast, like how you have two kids but you're about to have one." She shot him a smile and nodded, looking up at from her cup.

Xander and Taylin's eyes got big before they stood up and tip toed out of the apartment with Jay and Laylani scurrying our behind them. That was enough for the night.

"What?"

"I thought you liked math, apparently not if you can't add and subtract." She rolled her eyes as he walked towards her.

"Repeat whatever the fuck you just said."

"There's two things I don't li-"

"Stop fucking around bro you pregnant?"

"No I was just being mean. I took four and they were negative now move out my face Santana." She put her hand up to his chest when he got further into her space.

"You lyin bro-"

"I'm not. I'm seventeen fuck you and them kids."

"You kill my kid over some petty shit you a dumbass."

"Watch yourself. You said don't love me, you don't care about me, and you don't wanna be around me so go stick to your word. Get the fuck out my house sir." India pointed to the front door.

"Ain't nobody tell you to take my first statement so personal. Fuck you wanted me to say? I love you? So you can change the subject or just blatantly not say that shit back like you been doing? I don't know who you take me for, a dumb simp ass nigga or something?"

"I didnt say it back because I didn't think you meant it. Either way you just did the most because your feelings was hurt so tried to hurt mine, I won and now you mad. Leave." She began walking to her room and he followed her.

"You acting like you ain't try to hurt mine. Stupid ass att-"

"Eat it out of me then."

-

India sniffled as she sat in the tub with her nose hiding beneath the bubbles, looking down into the suds as Jade sat on the lid of the toilet and stared down at her.

"Stop all that sniffling I don't give a fuck." He mugged her, hearing her stop immediately.

"I didn't say you did." She mumbled and leaned forward when he put his hand out giving her the Advil P.M. She went to reach for it but winced instead, keeping her hand beneath the water.

They had sex even though it wasn't the most appropriate thing to do if you considered everything that had happened before hand.

"Tell me you love me." He snatched his hand back and gave her a look.

"No." India stale faced him.

"So sit yo sore ass in the tub all day." He stood up as if he was gonna leave and she burst out in tears, not in the mood for jokes.

"Jade stop I'm tired of doing this just give it to me and take me out of this tub!" It wasn't an angry scream, she was crying like a big baby, face frowned up as tears fell.

Jade felt bad and put it in her mouth, handing her the water bottle as she chugged it down then pursed her lips. He picked her up and ignored the water dripping down her body as he carried her to her bed and began drying her off, watching her let go of the deep breath she was holding.

"I do love you." She said sadly as she rubbed her eyes and sniffled.

He pulled her shirt over her head and stressed his bottom lip in between his teeth as he prepared to apologize.

"I'm.. sorry for how I acted last night. I didn't mean anything I said, I was just frustrated about all of this and I took it out on you. I have a habit of throwing gas on fire when I don't like whatever is going on and that's not fair to you.."

India nodded and rolled on her side, feeling sleepiness take over as the blankets moved over her body. Jade was right behind her, chest pressed up against her back as he pulled her close.

"I took four, three came out negative." She admitted, hearing his breath still. Seconds later it resumed and he relaxed again.

His hand traveled to her stomach, rubbing it because he simply had the urge to as a worried feeling took more than half of the happiness he found in what she'd said.

"I'll take you to the doctor in the morning.."

"I'm not ready, I'm not." India whispered before reaching up to wipe her eyes. He took in what she said and nodded even though she couldn't see him.

"Do what's best for you.." he didn't want her to spend her eighteenth birthday at home in bed because she was pregnant before she could legally have something in her name.

Jade meant it even though he didn't. Of course she wasn't ready to be a mom, no one is ever ready. But she just wasn't emotionally prepared for it and if she really was pregnant he'd try his best to not be upset with whatever decision she made.

His words were simple but clear. She was aware that is was something he didn't wanna talk about but the subject was really worrying her.

"If I did make that choice would you stay with me?" She whispered, finding herself crying again.

"I said pick what's best for you, not what will make me stay or leave. Go to sleep."

So she did.

Throughout the night she'd wake up for a few moments, hearing Jade typing on his phone but eventually falling back to sleep.

Who is that? And he'd respond nobody. It was someone because he obviously wasn't texting himself but she wouldn't ask any more questions. He wouldn't lay next to her texting another girl, that's what she reminded herself when her insecurities began tearing at her.

India woke up for the final time and stretched, feeling around the bed for Jade but feeling cold sheets instead.

"Bubba?" She yawned, sitting up and looking around in confusion. He hadn't left because his phone was sitting there unlocked on the nightstand.

She squinted her eyes feeling like god was testing her or something. Instead of reaching for it and going through it she sat on the edge of the bed and readied herself to stand.

Walking wasn't impossible but it was uncomfortable, a soreness in between her thighs and back reminding her of the previous night with every step she took. It was definitely the roughest he'd ever been with her but it felt great so she was gonna shut the hell up and hope for it to happen again.

"Come on. I gotta take you to the doctor." He