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November 9th

"I tried to drink it away." India sang as she sat in the center of her bed and rolled up quietly, nodding her head as cranes in the sky played on her loud speaker.

It'd been a weird few days dodging Jade and everyone else. She'd zoned out completely, spending the last 6 days crammed inside of her room.

After leaving Jades she went to school and unenrolled then took the subway to the nearest GED testing facility. Passed with flying colors. $120 for all of the exams and paper work. Then $250 on all of the weed she'd bought to numb whatever this strange feeling she had was.

Life caught her by surprise. She didn't know what to do with herself anymore... it was like she genuinely had no one. Xander was a phone call away but he had a life that she didn't feel important enough to interrupt that.

Well it's like, cranes in the sky. Sometimes I don't wanna feel those, metal clouds.

India's phone had been ringing non stop all week. Of course she knew it was jade, it became even clearer when he knocked and slammed his fist against her door for hours at a time almost everyday for the past 6 days.

It was a conversation she wasn't ready for, she felt like she'd never be ready for it honestly. Seeing him would replay the whole night in her head in detail.

Instead of moving to answer the door she stared at the wall in front of her, drowning at the sound of him calling her name through her front door as Cranes in the Sky played loudly.

"I'm sorry, just talk to me." He leaned his head against the door and ignored the ache in his chest from knowing that she heard him and out right refused to speak to him.

When the song ended she still didn't have it in her to move and play something else. She just wanted to sit there and now she was being tortured by Jades shameless and endless begging outside of her door. Of course she could just answer but if she did that then the conversation would be forced on her. She knew him, he didn't let anything go.

"Fuck it bro I can't make you talk to me. But don't expect me to kiss ass when you ready because I tried. Fucking hate this shit!"

She heard him screaming and cussing her out through the other side, followed by two or three violently hard hits at her door. Then it was quiet.

He'd left.

-

Jade laid in bed staring at the ceiling, not doing or thinking anything really. He felt like if he thought too much he'd spaz out and do something dumb so he just stayed really still.

Then he couldn't help but think.. why was she pushing him away? Yeah what he did was stupid but he couldn't convince himself that it was this deep.

He had a weird feeling in his gut, like Ray had said something that hurt her feelings or made her uncomfortable about being with him. That's the only thing he could think of.

Maybe he insinuated that he'd cheated as a joke and she took it seriously? Maybe she saw the condom wrapper and assumed it was his?

But at the same time Jade couldn't even use Magnums because of a latex allergy and she knew that. That's why he didn't clean with cheap gloves.

Plus most girls disliked them too, Ocean had told him her boyfriend liked magnums and they made her insides itch even though she wasn't allergic. So he never had to bother or try wearing them with her, anything else was fine.

Of course he knew about the condoms. They were Zeik's. He'd thrown them in there because he was on his way to Brians house and didn't wanna forget to toss away the days previous adventures. He noticed everything that went on in his home and if he didn't the cameras did.

Jade sat up and grabbed his lap top when he looked in the corner of his room and saw the camera he forgot he had until now. If Ray wanted to keep lying it was nothing to just look himself.

"Duh nigga." He mumbled, looking through the saved footage from that night.

His stomach turned as he the video played and he blinked hard make sure he wasn't hallucinating from lack of sleep. The video clip was replayed, then replayed, then replayed, almost as if he hoped what was on it would change.

Instead of doing something reckless he shut the MacBook and pushed it to the side then called Zeik and Ray.

"Come look at some shit with me."

"Look at what nigga it's 3 in the morning?" Zeik made a face in the camera.

"Yeah that. It's late just show us that shit tomorrow."

"If I wanted you to see it tomorrow I would've mentioned the shit tomorrow so come now." He said plainly, hanging up the phone.

"Nigga so mean all the time I didn't even do anything." Zeik's sucked his teeth before hanging up too.

Jade didn't wanna believe Ray would do something like this but it was obvious. It was right there. On camera. Clear as day. He couldn't even say India was coming on to him, the idea hadn't even formed in his head until this second and it still sounded like some bullshit.

He wanted Zeik to come to see if he had any idea that it had happened. He doubted it though. With the way his child hood was set up he had no idea but it was better to be say than sorry.

There was no doubt in his mind that she didn't want that and it was very clear that he didn't care and forced himself on to her anyways. He couldn't flip it to be anything but what it looked like and he wouldn't try.

When he his mind traveled back to India he almost wanted to cry because no one was there to help, she jumped and flinched all night whenever he is body brushed against hers that night. He felt stupid for not knowing and he hated thinking that she probably didn't want to so him.

After almost an hour Zeik and Ray walked in and saw Jade sitting on the couch patiently.

"What the fuck do you want?" Zeik complained, plopping down on the couch with Ray.

Instead of responding he picked up the remote and stood as he played the video, the black screen fading into the footage from that night.

"What kind of weird shit you on? Why you got this?" Zeik asked, still confused about the video and who was in it.

"Ask Ray. I mean shit it's him in the video. You know about this weird ass obsession he has with India? Because I swear to god I'll kill both of you niggas right now, but you got it coming anyways bitch. So sit real still because I'm really about to fuckin snap." Jade laughed, turning back to look at Ray.

"I'm not obsessed."

"That's all you have to say? Bro you're deadass on camera trying to rape my girlfriend and that's all you have to say? What kind of nut shit you on?" Jade grabbed him by the front of his shirt and he still didn't say anything, just stared back as the other searched for some sort of answer in his eyes.

"I didn't know.. swear to god. And you trippin, like all the way. Y'all can do what y'all want but you don't got a friend in me at all, niggas buggin." He rubbed his head and watched the two stare each other down.

"Bro you supposed to be my other best friend.. fuck is wrong with you? She didnt do shit to you, she don't do nothing to nobody so what the fuck you do it for?" He held onto his shirt tighter and got the same unamused stare. He couldn't believe it if he was being honest, they'd been bestfriends since he was 15. It was fucking ridiculous.

"You don't treat her right and I could but she don't see that. She called me crazy, I'm not fucking crazy. Why I gotta be crazy for loving her?! There ain't shit crazy about that! But she keep pushing me away and I hate that shit.. so I kissed her anyways. And I touched her anyways. And no matter what you do to me I'm happy that I got that because I deserved it."
Ray explained calmly, almost as if he believed everything he was saying was okay.

Then he decided to keep going when Jade let his shirt go and broke eye contact. He didn't even wanna touch the nigga no more.

"She smell good, her skin real soft, I almost left a hickey. That's all the footage you got? Shit. How it feel knowing I got to your bitch in your house? Her virginity? Mine. Her first kid? Mine. I would've fucked her mouth but she didn't seem to be in the mood. All that shit is mine, not yours. The toy ain't new no more. I finally got to a girl before you.. and it's the one you actually like this time. Hell I feel accomplished." He laughed, sitting back down.

"Aight." Jade shook his head knowing everything Ray was saying was a lie. He didn't even wanna talk anymore, just get the shit over with.

He had sex with Ray's mom in 11th grade after she damn near begged then he told Ray before hand that his mom was coming on to him to be a friend. Ray said he didn't care if did but obviously he lied because he was bitter as hell about it.

"If you feel a way then do something but I doubt you will because you scared of me and you always been scared of me."

"Fuck you." He said plainly, putting his middle finger up.

"I came in the bitch you came out of you basically my step son. So chill." Jade joked, seeing anger flash through Rays eyes.

When a shot rang off Jade turned to look over at Zeik then back at Ray, seeing him slumped on the couch.

"I don't like weirdos." He said flatly, catching Jade off guard.

He didn't respond with anything else and just shook his friends shoulder before walking over to Rays body. Zeik was quicker about getting people like him out of the way.

"I got it." Zeik pushed his hand away when he went to grab the body off the couch.

"Aight."

This was his thing. Sometimes it scared Jade but he didn't say anything and let him do what he wanted. Whenever something happened his friend was quick to want the body. He stayed one day and saw that Zeik didn't do anything sexual and gross, but just plain weird. He'd listen to music and dispose of whoever it happened to be.

It wasn't strange if you considered what they did, but at the same time it was. Jade didn't enjoy being this way but sometimes it seemed like Zeik did.

"You one weird ass nigga, you know that?"

"Yes." He mumbled, throwing Ray in garbage bag and heading for the front door.

"This man is sick." Jade busted out laughing as Zeik laughed to himself on the way out.

-

India stood by a group of men as they continued talking her ear off, slipping money into her hand everytime they called her back over to say a lot of nothing.

"And my wife hates when I come here, getting angry about what I do with my money. Shit is ridiculous." Noah laughed and she gave him a fake smile.

If there was anywhere she could be besides here at this current moment in time she would. There were men everywhere and she genuinely was freaked out, asking for more space than usual as Noah talked to her.

"You okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine." She put on a smile again.

He could tell she wasn't. He talked to her all of the time and she never seemed genuinely interested but it was different today. She seemed more distracted. Her not having interest didn't bother him because he wasn't even interested, coming here and seeing her was almost like a breath of fresh air. He could get away from everything he hated about life, and marriage.

"If there's any advice I can give you, don't have kids. I let her pressure me into it and it's the worst decision I've ever made. My son is 5 and my daughters 3 and I can genuinely say I don't enjoy being around them. That little heart clench I'm supposed to feel when they learn a new word or learn to do something isn't there. It just annoys me. I like that you don't respond because there's no good way to reply to anything I'm saying. I'm a pretty shitty person. I just need someone to rant to and I'm glad it can be you, I don't feel judged." He rambled drunkenly, looking down at his phone as 'Tasha' texted him for the 5th time that night about bringing ice cream home.

I guess you could say liked a swirl.

"Oh.. I'll be back." She lied and walked off awkwardly.

People like him came in all of the time to talk about everything wrong with their life. To her it was bullshit.

Poor you, you have everything you want in life except a sugar baby and a wife that is okay with swallowing cum, now your only option is to cheat and act like the world is doing something to you. It was ridiculous and annoying.

India decided she was done for the night and headed to the back, noticing how quiet the room got when she walked in.

"Hey." Neicy and the others waved and she gave them a head nod before continuing to pack her stuff. She was tired and aggravated, all she really wanted to do was go home.

They weren't being funny towards her but they noticed her attitude and decided to just let her be. If it were them they wouldn't want somebody talking all loud in their damn face when they clearly weren't in the mood to be bothered.

"Y'all defended the bitch and she don't even like you. Look at that." Phara said snidely.

"Oh god. Here this bitch go." India rolled her eyes not caring if she heard her.

"When you get bold?"

"Why are you such a hater? Girl I don't even know your name, you're a fan. A whack old bitch. You'll probably never leave this damn club so don't worry about me taking your customers, you'll be here way longer than me. Talking about my nigga beat me, he don't beat shit but I promise he'll beat the fuck outta you. So carry on if you don't wanna fight me. Sick of this ghetto ass shit." She snapped as she walked out, wishing somebody would follow behind her to repeat the bullshit the girl would utter out to get back at her.

"Indi-"

"What the fuck do you want oh my god!" She threw her hands up in annoyance, not turning around to see who was talking to her.

When long tattooed arms went around her waist she flinched then relaxed, automatically recognizing them as Jades.

"Let me talk to you.." he said quietly, pulling her close as they made contact for the first time in a week.

"Talk about what?" She asked shakily before trying to pull away. Her anxiety was through the roof at his words. The last thing she wanted to talk about was that night and that's probably exactly what he was about to start off with.

When India turned around to face him he held her hand and leaned his head down slightly, placing a soft kiss on her lips before saying anything. It surprised her but it didn't make her uncomfortable so she moved her lips against his, standing on her toes just slightly when their height difference made it hard for her to get the kiss she wanted.

Her arm went around her neck as she deepened the kiss herself, tasting grapefruit in his mouth. It was what he ate when he didn't feel like eating, which was most of the time. Grapefruit wasn't anything she enjoyed on her own time but for someone it was sweeter and a lot more likable coming from his tongue.

He always tasted sweet, like fruit or candy because he refused to kiss her after eating actual food. She wasn't sure why all of these thoughts were popping up right then, but her mind began to wonder. Maybe this was God telling her just how much she liked him, she knew most of the small details about him that he didn't even know himself.

"I'm sorry."

That was the first thing he said.

"I'm sorry for letting my ego fuck up our night and I'm sorry for leaving you alone. And I know that you probably don't wanna talk about it but I just want you to know that I know, he won't be problem anymore, and Tracey won't be a problem anymore. That's all." He said quietly, rubbing the back of his head as he looked away in a different direction.

"You asked me to be honest with you.. and to trust you. But I didn't and me not being honest with you stopped us from talking for a week. Me not trusting that you'd believe me stopped us from talking for a week. For that, I apologize.. and I never wanna not talk to you." She spoke softly as her head leaned against his chest.

India smelled him and laughed to herself when she felt his eyes on her, knowing he was probably looking at her crazy like he always did when she sniffed his clothes.

"Can you come to my house tonight? I have a lot I wanna tell you about..."

"Yeah." He shrugged, swinging his keys around his finger as his right arm went around her shoulder.

She blushed as they walked to his car. Things felt better again despite what Ray did to her. The worst part of it was feeling like she'd be on her own again if jade found out and now she was just happy that, that wasn't the case.

Getting over it wouldn't be as bad if she had the support of the person she felt cherished by the most, outside of her family of course. She didn't even want them to know.

"Guess what this girl said the other day?"

"What?"

"She was like 'that nigga probably be beatin on her' like what is wrong with people?"

"You should've told her I'll beat her the fuck up. The hell."

"I did!"

"Good. Smack the dog shit outta these bitches."

"Then some other girl was like 'I thought you said he was different because he respected women blah blahblah' stuff just gettin on my nerves because I never even said that."

"I know you didn't because I never said I no shit like that. I said I respected my girlfriend, don't know where women in general came from." He made a face, not remembering those words at all. He was very specific.

Jade didn't hate women at all, he felt the same way about women as he did men. Call him what you wanted but most people got on his nerves.

He wouldn't lie and say he thought all women were queens in his eyes because that shit would be a lie. A lot of them were annoying as fuck. The only woman he could deal with all day was India, even his mom pissed him off.

If you were on his nerves he would cuss you the fuck out regardless of your gender. It didn't matter if you were a cat, dog, mouse, girl, boy, they, transsexual, roach, young or old.. if he didn't like you, you'd know.

He wasn't sexist, he hated everyone equally and believed everyone had equal rights. Which is why anybody and everybody was eligible to get their feelings hurt.

"Can I get another kiss?" She poked her lips out playfully when they got in the car and he gave her a smooch before turning his attention back to what he was doing.

-

"Get yo wet naked ass off me." Jade laughed when she plopped down on him in nothing but her underwear, sighing dramatically.

"I don't feel like it. I should move to like Thailand or something and be a naked minimalist because I hate wearing clothes I really don't require a lot." She shrugged, laying her head on his chest.

"Shut up." He put his finger up to her lips and shushed her just to be annoying.

"I'm not even doing nothing you just wanna talk..aggravating."

"Tell me about what you did the whole week because you didn't come out the house at all."

"I-"

"I don't care."

India sat up and mushed his face when he cut her off. It's like he