( Lemme start with a welcome )

Thank you so much for even wanting to read " I'M NOT YOUR WOMAN. " The love I have received — even after months of completing it has completely blown my mind. I'm forever grateful to every one of you that adds it to your reading list, that leaves comments & likes and just engages with me.

So thank you, and for my first time readers — I hope you enjoy reading my story.

( Dedication : to Wise, )

Your heart and your grace and your unique way with words has always inspired me. Thank you for giving me the courage to write. This book is yours, sis.

( Status )

⇸ 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐃:

February 21, 2020

⇸ 𝐏𝐔𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐃:

March 3, 2020.

⇸ 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐃:

September 16, 2021.

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( Playlist )

sza , drew barrymore ⇻ snoh aalegra , i want you around ⇻ jazmine sullivan , girl like me ⇻ wizkid , no stress ⇻ olivia rodrigo , drivers license ⇻ daniel caesar , transform ⇻ billie eilish , lost cause ⇻ wens , take ⇻ nao , make it out alive ⇻ brandy , say something ⇻ jessie j , petty ⇻ jessie reyez , imported ⇻ mahalia , sober ⇻ doja cat , kiss me more ⇻ stormzy , lessons ⇻ frank ocean , lost ⇻ beyoncé , start over ⇻ summer walker, cpr ⇻ drake , too good ⇻ sabrina claudio , i don't ⇻ summer walker , girls needs love  ⇻ h.e.r. , as i am ⇻ jazmine sullivan , pick up your feelings ⇻ col3trane ft raye , honesty (interlude) ⇻ mac ayres , easy ⇻ berwyn , trap phone ⇻ demi lovato , sorry not sorry ⇻ sza ft. ty dolla sign , hit different ⇻ wens , romantic ⇻ enny , same old ⇻ ariana grande , pov  ⇻ snoh aalegra , love like that ⇻ anne marie , breathing ⇻ mahalia , no reply ⇻ tiwa savage ft brandy , somebody's son ⇻ wiz kid ft tems and justin bieber , essence.

Use the barcode to access the full playlist :)

If you can't access it, my Spotify username is @ajxmes.

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( Epigraph )

Neither of us knew what it meant to fall, burn and love but he ruined me, in the best possible way.

A short excerpt:

He did that often.

The stinging of her core was evidence that last night's sinful romp had bound even more invisible ties to the heartless yet sexually dominant lothario.

The images of the sexual mesh of their sweaty bodies were seared into her skull and badgered her like a never ending dream. His supple lips had landed on her pink nipple flesh and had bit, licked and suckled all in one action. His piece had also claimed her as his property, constraining her to take his entire length both in her core and in her mouth.

Before we start,

∙ This book is mature ( references to smut, explicit language, death etc )

∙  I'm not fluent in either French or Spanish but there are references to both languages in this book. If any of the translations are wrong ( likely to be as I used google translate ) I'm sorry. I'm happy for you to drop the correct translation in the comments as long as you keep it respectful. Thanks. 

∙ Consent is echoed throughout this entire book. 

 ∙ This book is fictional, any reference to anything is real is purely coincidental. 

∙  Ebén is jarring for large parts of the book ( I know some people hate the toxic male trope ). If this isn't something you want to read, I get it. He does get better, though. 

∙ Can I just say... I'm in no way fatphobic. Every single body type is beautiful and should be celebrated. I'm drawing attention to this as there's a comment Ebén makes in one of my chapters and has attracted a lot of interest and controversy. 

∙ Please DON'T steal my work. If you see my book or any of my ideas on a site other than Wattpad, please lmk me. I don't play about my work. 

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MAYA ANAÍS ST. THOMAS.
age: twentytwo.
𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 : 𝐛𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬, 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭

EBÉNEZER JÁVIER CÁSTRO.
age: twentythree.
𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 : 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐟𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞 & 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐛𝐚𝐝 𝐛𝐨𝐲.

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Since writing this book, I have been convinced now more than ever, that hidden deep inside of us, we all have shades of Maya within us. The sins of heartbreak have us refusing to give our hearts up for someone else to love and nurture as we attempt to crowd out anyone that might prejudice that peace.

We often self sabotage too because vulnerability is effin scary when you really think about it.

Just a little side-note:

Those same scars have us disguising the true nature of our feelings as a means to protect our hearts from hurt. Then, we become experts at fortifying our hearts without good reason to. We group everyone under the same umbrella rather than getting close enough to figure them and their motives out.

You deserve love in all its forms.

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