𝙚𝙭𝙘𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨...

"Rest easy Betty" My mama danced around her backyard as Betty Wright's Tonight is the Night blasted through the speakers of her stereo.

"Get it old man!" Kai laughed as Mr.Danny came up behind my mom and started to grind into her.

I'm nervous and I'm tremblin'
Waitin' for you to walk in
I'm tryin' hard to relax
But I just can't keep still, no

"Might as well get up and dance with me because this is the song that we'll be making our babies too" Kai smirked as he reached for my hand.

"Babies? More than one?" I scoffed before taking his hand and dancing along with my mom and Mr.Danny.

"Y'all don't know nothing bout this, sit y'all asses down" Mr.Danny playfully laughed.

"I know y'all not out here dancing without me?"Dior laughed as she walked off of the porch.

She just got done putting baby Amir to sleep with the help of Kamari who offered to watch him while we all enjoyed ourselves.

Jason ended up going back to his hotel room, and I'm guessing that it's because he and Kairo still aren't talking.

"I got one more song for y'all before we end this little gathering," Kori said into the microphone as if he was some kind of DJ. "Light another one up for me Kai!" Kori said before Rick James' Mary Jane played.

"This is my shit" Kai mumbled as he lit three blunts, passing one to Dior and Kori, one for Danny, and one for us two.

I'm in love with Mary Jane
She's my main thing
She makes me feel all right
She makes my heart sing

And when I'm feeling low
She comes as no surprise
Turns me on with her love
Takes me to paradise

"Do you love me, Mary Jane? Yeah, whoa-oh-oh do ya? Do ya? Do ya? NOW DO YOU THINK YOU LOVE ME MARY JANE?" We all sang loudly.

Kairo passed me the blunt before wrapping his arm around my neck as he began to kiss all over my face and neck.

We were all lit with except for my mom since she's a recovering addict.

After a couple more blunts we all helped clean up the backyard and the dishes as well.

"Come on Mari, it's time to go" I shook Kamari's shoulder as she laid next to a sleeping Amir.

"Can I just stay here? I really don't feel like getting up" she whined.

"Girl you are something else" I shook my head before grabbing Amir and heading back downstairs.

"Here you go" I whispered as I passed him to Kori who then put him in his car seat.

"Kamari is too sleepy to get up she says, is it okay if she stays here for the night? We'll come back to get her in the morning" I asked my mom.

"Hell no-"

"Of course she can, there's plenty of room and trust me I need the company," my mama said, cutting off Danny's sentence.

"Poor girl won't ever go home fooling with her" Danny mumbled.

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"No, he's mine mommy!" Serenity mugged Milan before attempting to pull me towards her.

"He was mine first" Milan stuck her tongue out before pulling me back towards her.

"That's not bewy nice mommy" Serenity pouted before stomping away.

"Hey come back, you guys can share" I followed after Serenity.

"Bu-Bu-But her not sharing Nazzy" Serenity stuttered as she pointed to Milan standing behind me.

"I was just playing Ren, quit being dramatic" Milan walked over to her before picking her up.

Over the course of time, I ended up meeting Milan's daughter Serenity, and Milan, and I started to get serious.

A lot of men always use the same excuse that a certain female is "different" but they never have an explanation behind it. With Milan, I feel like she's way different from the females that I used to fuck with before.

She shows me patience, love, and reassurance. Sometimes I feel like I'm dating an older woman because of how mature she is. Milan listened to me vent about my relationship with Neveah and she took notes from it, not necessarily but it did guide her.

We both agreed that we didn't want to repeat what we went through with our past relationships, we wanted to be better...

One thing that she also taught me was communication because at one point my communication sucked.

"What's up with you Nas?" Milan asked once I opened my front door.

"What you mean?" I asked confusedly.

"Why you keep dodging me? and you can't ever pick up the phone. If you don't want this then you need to say that now, but don't lead me on" she folded her arms.

"I do want this and I'm not leading you on" I sighed.

"Then what the fuck is the problem Nas? I finally start to let my guard down and now you acting weird. I'm not your grimey ass ex Nas! I'm Milan, get your shit together" she scoffed before proceeding to walk back out of the door.

"Nah come here" I lowered my voice as I softly grabbed her arm so that she could face me. "I'm sorry aight? I'm not used to this, I'm scared of being fucked over again" I shook my head.

"Well you better get used to it Nas because I'm here to stay, you got me locked in boy" she smiled causing me to smile as well.

We've also had our moments where I would have to put her in her place because she doesn't understand how she sounds sometimes. To others, she may seem mean or stuck up but in reality, she's just a very "get in and get out" person.

She's also an Aries, and they're most definitely know for being headfirst in situations. That's the same thing with Milan, she sometimes has tunnel vision when she speaks, she doesn't realize how she might sound in another person's perspective.

"Just watch how you talk to me Milan, I'm not your child" I warned.

"You're not my child but you're going to listen to what the-"

"Milan just listen man because you really about to get me tight, you don't realize it but you sounding real disrespectful right now man" I sighed.

All in all, we've both learned a lot about each other, and we're still learning. Seeing her parenting skills has also made me feel fall for her even more, who would want to be with someone who they don't see having their kids? She's a perfect example of a mother to me, maybe because she reminds me of mine.

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"I honestly don't understand why you just won't quit this street shit. You have more than enough money to invest in yourself Koriyon" I shook my head as I watched him get dressed in his all-black attire.

"I'm not trying to hear that shit right now Dior" he waved me off before slipping on his timbs.

"You have a whole son that looks up to you, that should motivate you to quit," I said.

"You don't understand Dior so just forget it" he sucked his teeth.

"Well help me understand Kori, how come Kai quit the game and you didn't? Kai is out here investing in business while you in the streets risking either your life or your freedom."

"Go find a nigga that works in the big ass offices then Dior, when you find him let me know."

"I don't want them though, I want you! I wish you could see what I see, you could do so much more the LEGAL way." I scoffed.

Nothing boils my blood more than seeing black males throw their life away for money. It's like they always fall into the white man's trap and I hate it.

There's a whole lot of gangs in this world but the biggest one of them all is the government. They make money off of our lives, every time our people go to jail or sell a drug, they make money off of it.

Kori could do so much with the amount of money that he makes a week, sometimes I wish that he'd leave the game just like Kai did.

"This is all that I know Dior! My dad wasn't making money anymore so I had to put in the work! I've been doing this shit for years so excuse me for being so hesitant on giving all of this up" He snapped.

I nodded my head slowly as I took in everything that he said. "Do what you have to do then, but I'm done, I'm not about to sit around and watch you throw your life away" I said as I grabbed my charger and spend the night bag.

"So you leave? Instead of having my back you just leave?" He scrunched up his face.

"I've had your back Kori but I'm tired of not being able to sleep at night because I'm up wondering if your alive or not. I've kept everything to myself, from the baby mama drama, the drugs, the money, the not coming home until 3 o'clock in the morning, EVERYTHING!" I yelled.

"You knew what this was when I first told you about my occupation, and you told me that you were down to ride," He said.

"What else did I say? I told you that eventually, you'd have to change your life around before it's too late."

"Man whatever you not going nowhere so I'll see you when I get back," he said before grabbing his phone and walking out.

"I can show you better than I can fucking tell you," I said following right behind him.

"Bro go back in the room, you're not leaving me Dior" he tried pushing me back.

"Kori don't fucking touch me" I huffed as he blocked the door. "Let me go before I snap the fuck out," I said feeling my heart start to beat rapidly.

"Since motherfuckers think that I'm playing, let's fucking play then" I sat my bag down before picking up a lamp and throwing at the door meaning to hit him.

"Yo, what the fuck? That's my fucking lamp" He yelled.

"Ima break some more shit if you don't move out the fucking way Kori, I fucking hate you, bro!" I screamed as I started to throw some more shit anyway.

"You hate me?" He asked once I stopped throwing things.

Of course not

"Just please move out the way Kori" I breathed heavily as tears start to fall from my eyes.

Once he nodded and moved out of the way, I grabbed my things and left out and got into the car where I eventually broke down.

I never meant to snap like that but I was immediately triggered, Kori never harmed me but feeling like I was trapped brought me back to my past relationship.

He controlled me 100% and ever since I left him, I vowed to never put myself in a situation like that again.

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I have really been slacking with these chapters 😭😭😭 I have a new story coming along though so be on the lookout for that!

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