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│︎𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐇 𝐀𝐓𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀📍│︎
│︎𝐕 𝐀 𝐒 𝐒 𝐈 𝐀 𝐇   𝐖𝐈 𝐋 𝐋 𝐈 𝐀 𝐌 𝐒│︎

"𝐒𝐈𝐀𝐇"
𝐉𝐚𝐧𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐲,𝟏𝐬𝐭 𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟗
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"Getcho drunk ass up..." I shook Mazzi while he laid in between my legs.

"i'm not even-" His sentence got cut short when he emptied his insides on my stomach; triggering me to quickly sit him up.

I quietly huffed, beginning to stand up; not really upset because I know he couldn't necessarily help it.

As he sat up he began hunching his back over as if he was about to throw up again. I lifted him up by his shoulders the best I could considering that does tower over me a bit.

Bringing him into the bathroom I sat him down allowing him to keep throwing up.

"How much did you drink? My god," I mumbled the last part as I began running the shower, sitting on the edge of the tub.

He looked at me tiredly with hooded eyes before wrapping his arms around my waist and sitting his head in my lap.

aww if he wasn't such a asshole we could actually be friends.

I began rubbing his back— back and forth before taking his hat off and gently messaging his scalp;trying to soothe him.

"You tired?" I asked immediately regretting my dumb question when he ignored me.

After a second or two I left the bathroom allowing him to shower while I cleaned his clothes and went to get some of Taes clothes he bought before he moved.

BITCH IMA MOTHA'

Being impatient; I opened the bathroom door after knocking about five times.

"Um, I got you some clot-" My sentence cut short as I dropped the clothes seeing him naked as he rubbed one hand down his face.

det dick slanging huh sis

I really wish you would shut the fuck-

"You just gon' stand thea' or..." He looked me directly in the eyes making my stomach clinch a bit. Wrapping a towel around his waist he tilted his head slightly making me realize I probably looked stupid as hell standing here.

Speechlessly I kicked the clothes into the bathroom quickly shutting the door in hopes I didn't make him uncomfortable from clearly over welcoming my stay.

I walked to my room in a rush to take my clothes off and get in the shower before remembering Mook was sleeping in my bed.

Grabbing a oversized hoodie and my night shorts I walked back out closing the door gently making sure to not wake my baby up. I walked into the bathroom making sure that Mazzi wasn't in there before I turned on 'normal girl' By SZA letting the lyrics speak to me as I began taking this well needed shower.

This time next year I'll be living so good
Won't remember your name, I swear
Living so good, living so good, living so good
This time next year I'll be living so good
Won't remember no pain, I swear
Before that you figured out, I was just a normal girl...

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"Why are you in here?" I questioned with a mug observing how comfortable Mazzi was laying in my mamas bed. "It's a whole nother' room in hea' and you choose this one," I finished off talking shit under my breath as I waltz to the bed.

He hushed me before pulling a pillow over his head, relaxing into the bed.

Glad that we reached a certain comfortably level with eachother being that we have been in this same predicament twice before; me not waking to wake Mook up.

I got into the bed, snuggling underneath the covers and pulled my bonnet over my eyes. Feeling the bed move I already knew what was next.

"C'mere," His deep voice called out, purposely not moving I kept my eyes closed. "I heard yo stupid ass stop breathing, I'm not saying the shit again," He some-what sounding closer than before.

I slowly turned over seeing him positioned up right on his elbow starring down at me. I swiftly moved into his bare chest getting a smell of his deodorant as I snuggled into his warmth, he wrapped his arm around me before speaking lastly

"Stop sniffing me creep," He said seriously before sniffing my bonnet making me bust out laughing. I looked up seeing him wear a lazy smile with his eyes closed.

"Smell good don't it," I smiled childishly before he mushed my head playfully.

Maybe he's not that bad...

girl if you wanna suck his dick just say that.

BITCH SHUT UP...damn ho

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"Sah..." I heard before turning over. "Sah sahhhh..." The voice I soon recognized as Mooks began pulling the covers up a bit before crawling into the bed, proceeding to laying in between me and Mazzi with a sweet smile on his face.

"You hungry papa?" I asked him calmly but inside I was going crazy.

I've noticed from all of the times I've been around him his vocabulary was very small and he wasn't good at pronunciation; I started teaching him words and how to pronounce them whenever I saw him at Mama Dee's house with the help of Meek and it's finally paying off.

Ever since the first time he saw me it was like he was drawn to me, anytime we were at Mama Dee's house he would immediately come and try to play with me and apparently it was unlikely of him to be so comfortable with people, when ever he wanted to see me he'd facetime me even though he couldn't talk much i still found other ways understand him.

It was weird at first because he reminded me so much of my late baby cousin; He didn't talk much but he had the same tendencies as TJ.

And him saying 'Sah' might've seemed so small and adolescent to other people but everytime he learned a new skill I couldn't help but to be proud off my ass, it reminded me of all the times I'd be so happy to see my cousin flourish as a child and finally come out of his shell.

He shook his head no before climbing on his brother's chest giving me an idea. "Smack him," I said lowly enough for him to hear before I watched his face turn into a smirk.

I woulda' did it but I know he can't stay mad at TJ for too long.

"3...2...1" I nodded between each number observing him pull his little arm back as far as he could.

He slapped him as hard as could creating a loud noise and a slight red mark to appear on Mazi's caramel skin.

he been waiting for this moment

After that woke him up I left the room to get myself cleaned up to go to work. Not too long after that Mazi and TJ left to 'handle business'. What business...? Not mine.

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I shut my eyes imagining myself living my dream life. That was the only thing keeping me going these days but imagination don't get you shit, Hustling does and that's exactly what I'm doing and will continue to do until I get everything I want and most importantly show any bitch that doubted me that I don't need nan soul to help me out.

and that's on Mary had a little lamb!!

Now that I was really alone, 17 years old and in this cold ass world I had to strive for nothing but greatness.

Blessings, Money and most importantly Happiness doesn't just fall into your hands and I'm thankful I learned that at a young age, shit I'm still young as hell but I gotta make this shit happen whether I liked it or not.

I damn sure wasn't happy juggling two jobs and school while trying to stay mentally sane but if I have to survive I'll do anything to do it and everything I have to—to accomplish that.

When my shift ended I quickly made my way to the bathroom changing out of these greasy ass clothes into something comfortable to walk to home in.

As I made my way home I figured I'd something to eat, crossing the street into the gas station I saw DJ and Latto standing in front of the doors. DJ acting a fool as always and Latto keeping his calm yet slightly intimidating composure.

"Yeaaaaaaa, I been waiting to see ya crunchy ass outside throw ya shit up Ian forget," Dj yelled out to me while pulling up his jeans all the way up to his chest bent down in a goofy ass fighting position with his arms swinging in circles.

"You ain't forget what?" I called back acting oblivious. Last time I saw him I cut a piece of his hair off because he didn't buy me a new wig for Christmas like he promised, but who's fault is that.

"Get out my face," I mushed his face pushing him backwards when he tried to slap the back of my head.

I leaned in to give Latto a hug while he opened the door for me. "Go head and get whatchu' want I got it,"

I gently smiled and thanked him quietly before continuing into the store. 

we love a gentleman.

"What you do today?" Dj asked as they walked around the store with me.

"Nothing really, took my ass to work and now I'm bouta' head home now ain't shit to do," I shrugged begging to pick up the things I wanted.

"Jaybee having a party for new years tomorrow night," He suggested as we continued to walk to the front of the store.

I smacked my lips. "You know I don't do party's,too many people," I shivered in disgust at the thought of it.

I'm not that social unless I need to be and besides party's here always result in a shooting, don't get me wrong I definitely love ghetto shit but I love my life more.

"Girl let loose for once you know we ain't gone like shit happen to you," He wrapped his arm around my neck. "And it's not even a party for real you know Jay don't fuck wit' that many people,"

I looked up at him squinting my eyes with an unintentional mug." I'on know shit 'bout him or his preferences but I'll think about it," I was only halfway agreeing.

"Ight thats good enough for me," He shrugged as I watched Latto pay for our stuff.

"I gotta get my hair done frien," I looked at myself in my front camera making weird faces until I felt eyes on me and of course me being curious I looked up.

Catching me by surprise Latto was staring down at me with a certain look in his eye, I couldn't necessarily figure it out but I definitely wasn't backing down from this little stare off.

After a while I started to hear my stomach grumbling so I looked back down with a slight unintentional pout hearing him chuckle as he passed me the bag.

"Let's get yo li' ass home." He told me looking out the doors of the store seeing it start to rain.

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"Bro that shit burns move it," DJ complained as I filed his nails.

I pointed my finger at him. "Stop being mean to me, and no it doesn't your just not use to it and why are your nails so long?" I asked scrunching my face up.

"Helps me roll easier and why you didn't do this to Semaj instead?"

"First of all illiterate- and who the fuck is Semaj?" I questioned confused, I didn't know anyone by the name of Semaj.

He nodded his head towards Latto who was already staring back at me.

"You've known us for how long...about a good year and you still don't know our names,Disgraceful I'm highly disappointed in you," DJ said shaking his head like a old woman.

"I do know your name Darrel and I picked you because he already has his nails done and you don't, they look dirty," I said emphasizing his name.

"Now stop talking to me so i can finish your nails," I rolled my eyes snatching his hand back before we started pulling it back and forth. "Darrel, I'm not finna keep playin' witchu'. Act right," I popped his hand earning a 'owe' in return making Semaj laugh.

"Can we play a game?" Dj spoke up again.

"What game?" Semaj called out looking up from his phone as he slowly moved his legs in and out while taking a look at me making me feel hot.

What is in the air today-

dick.

Can you stop, I swear your like a horny ass demon on my shoulder

bitch- technically it's you speaking, well us and say something hoe you just staring at hi-

"Yo mama neva' told you starin' was rude huh?" He raspy yet deep voice spoke up before I could look away.

"She did but you wouldn't know I was staring at you if you wasn't staring at me, and you been watching me all day as far as I'm concerned, " I replied with a slight playful smirk. "Right?"

He locked eyes with me before licking his lips with a small but noticeable smirk then laughing lowly while shaking his head. "You right," He stated making me look back down at DJ's nails and starting up again to hide my blush. 

"I know, I always am," I said.

"Can y'all stop flirting, we supposed to be a family and we don't do incest around here, "DJ said seriously; frowning his face up in disgust.

"Ain't nobody flirting with that boy," I rolled my eyes still feeling his hard stare.

he wanna fuck usssss 😛

Girl with all disrespect. Shut thee fuck up!

I finished his nails off putting cuticle oil around it. "See how clean you look now," I smiled.

"Stop playing with me shit face, and mhmm, bouta' go snatch all the hoes." He danced in his seat playfully sticking his tongue out making me laugh.

what a day.

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I stayed up until 4am writing this bullshit y'all better not ask me for shit else 😐 and bitch did you vote...no? ok well go do det. 
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