𝐌𝐢𝐚𝐦𝐢, 𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐚 📍
𝙺𝙰𝚂𝙷𝙻𝚈𝙽𝙽 𝚂𝚈𝙼𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝙼𝙾𝙾𝚁𝙴 | 𝙺𝙰𝚂𝙷
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3 Weeks Later

"How you feelin," Jehnai questioned me as he rubbed circles over my knuckles.

I scoffed, "I'm not feelin nun ... I'm just numb Jehnai. That was my right hand, my best friend and all because of some shit wit Gen, he dies?"

"Shit doesn't make any sense." I continued.

He lost his fucking life cause a miserable ass bitch couldn't move on.

"I love you, and I know I can't bring him back but if you need to vent, yell, scream ... whatever. You can do that and if you want Gen dead all you gotta do is say the word." Jehnai spoke to me.

I chuckled, nigga stayed ten toes behind me.

"I love you too," I mumbled as I leaned up and pecked his lips.

Jasai was laid out in his toddler bed; knocked out.

Jehnai had him for the night since his mama wanted to go party.

"Can I ask you sum?" Jehnai looked over at me.

"Yeah, anything." I averted my attention towards him.

The past three weeks he's been nun but supportive, shit its the least I could do.

I'd soon tell him about my pregnancy... which doctors confirmed.

I'm 8 weeks along.

"That day you cheated on me wit Tru ... what happened? I seen blood and shit when I walked in ... and can I ask why you did it?"

I sighed deeply, thinking back on that night.

Sex was good but I literally felt like shit right after .. like horrible because Jehnai ain't deserve that at all.

The fact he still thuggin wimmie goes to show how much he really do love me.

"Okay so ... I was in the house with Gen talkin about the pregnancy, he stormed in and basically forced me out the house. We got inside I fall and then we started fighting, one thing lead to another and you know sex happened." I explained briefly because I ain't wanna talk about it forreal.

I thought we moved past it, guess not.

"Why you do it? Why ain't you stop him?"

I bit my bottom lip, "Because I wanted to."

"What?" Jehnai looked at me.

"I wanted to have sex with him after everything that happened prior too.. its selfish I know; I just wanted it and I'm not gon lie I thought it about it a lot when I was with you."

Jehnai laughed, "bitch what."

I frowned, "why I gotta be a bitch?"

"Cause I feel like you playin inna my face; why the fuck you thinkin bout another nigga who you claimed was just a fuck? You like him, you still got feelings for him?" Jehnai raised his voice a little.

"Jehnai, you asked me and I answered. Why are you yelling at me right now?" I was annoyed.

You asked, but mad about the answer ?

How sway?

"Fuck that; you still got feelings for him?" Jehnai looked at me.

I bit my lip, "a little bit," I admitted and Gee sucked his teeth as he stood up.

"Get out,"

"What?" I looked at him confused.

"Kash I said get out, or I'll physically throw you out." He was calm letting me know he was angry forreal.

"Jehnai," I looked at him in disbelief.

"I'm killing your little boyfriend by the way; and not cause of you cause he the nigga who killed my brother and set your stupid ass up. Get out my shit." He said and my eyes widened at the newfound information.

He set me up? Nah ... he wouldn't do that; not to me he wouldn't.

♕

"GET OUT!" His voice raised making me jump and causing Jasai to shift in his bed.

"I'm not leaving," I said simply.

Jehnai laughed again.

"Kashlynn ... for your sake I really advise you to leave my crib right now for I actually put my hands on you. Like I'm gon really fuck you up so get out."

I shrugged, "I'll guess we'll be fighting then."

Jehnai yanked me by my leg and dragged me across his cal king bed.

I started kicking, trynna get him up but his ass wasn't letting go.

"Jehnai stop!" I yelled as I started pushing him off of me.

"Get out my shit!" He yelled in my face.

He wasn't gon hit me, it wasn't in him to do so.

He never physically harmed ne so ion think he gon start now.

Not while I'm carrying his baby.

"I'm not leavin, we're gonna talk about this."

"You not leavin? You literally said you still have feelings for that nigga; why tf would I want you here," he snapped.

"Because Its not a big deal anymore — I didnt do anything with him after the first time. I been loyal to you." I expressed.

"Loyal? Bitch who tf goes lay up with a nigga they used to fuck and all of a sudden got feelings for!"

I didn't even think I just smacked him across his face, "I'm not gon be too many more bitch-," before I could finish my sentence Jehnai smacked the bullshit out of me sending me backwards.

I just laid there in shock.

He didn't... he just put his hands on me?

Nahh... he didn't; and then I just started crying uncontrollably.

"Shit, Kashlynn, I'm sorry baby. It was just a reflex, I'm so sorry," he pleaded with me as he climbed om top of me.

But I turned my head and let the tears fall.

"Thats how you treat the mother of your child? Like some nigga on the street," I cried out.

"What... Kash you pregnant? Listen I'm sorry; I didn't mean it...yknow that."

"No, you meant it; get off me." I pushed him off and started packing up my shit.

"I'm done with you; 100% done. Your choice if you wanna be in this childs life; but you and I? We're done!" I reeled as I continued to cry uncontrollably.

I can't believe he fucking hit me.

I grabbed my shit and made my way out into the hallway but Jehnai stopped.

"Nah ... please I'm sorry. I didn't mean it; I wanna be apart of you and the babies life.. please forgive me."

"No, fuck you." I spat as I tried to get around him but he wrapped me up in his arms.

"Kash you literally smacked the shit out of me ; it was just a relfex. I am sorry; I shouldn't have called you out of your name or hit you; but don't do that to me. Don't leave me ... nah."

"Boy fuck outta here; you wanted me to leave so let me leave!" I yelled as I tried to get out of his grip but his bitch ass held me tight.

"Don't do that, I'm sorry." He looked at me with sad eyes.

"Fuck you, I'm gon go lay up with Tru and let him know what the fuck you on."

I wasn't really, but I wanted him to let me go.

And the mention of Tru gon piss him off.

Once that was said, Jehnai's grip loosened on me.

"Do your thang Kash," he bumped past me and disappeared into his room.

"Dumb ass bitch," I mumbled as I sat my stuff by the couch and laid down.

I wasn't going no where; I just needed my space.

Jehnai don't disrespect me ever ... unless he's really upset but they hitting me in my face?

Yeah, thats a different feelin for me and I'm trynna register that.

Tru and I fought, yeah but he didn't touch my face.

Reflex or not; he couldn't just slammed me or sum but to smack me?

That's a different level of disrespect and I wasn't here for it at all.

♕

I pulled the blanket over my body and cuddled up with the pillows.

As I'm laying here, I hear moving around.

I look up and seen Jehnai dressed in a puffer, with some sweats and some 1s on his feet:

His son was dressed in a coat, some shoes and his pajamas he slept in.

I stand up and was about to stop him but his front door slammed making me jump.

I ran out the door and seen Jehnai strapping Jasai in.

I wiped my tears and ran across to his car, before he could get in I grabbed him by his arm but he snatched away.

"Jehnai, stop where are you goin?" I cried because why tf is you leavin.

"Kashlynn I'm tired of this shit bro, lately you ain't been makin a nigga happy because every time I speak up on how I feel or go to the extra mile to please you; you say fuck me. I'm good but we goin to my moms; you can stay here. Ion care; there's food and shit in the house but I just need time away from you." He said to me and I frowned up my face.

I went to the backseat and unbuckled Jasai and took him out his seat.

I started walking with him back in the house.

"Kashlynn what the fuck is you doin."

Jehnai tried grabbing me but I dodged him and went inside so I could put Jasai back in his bed.

Jehnai was standing at the door with a mug on his face.

I looked at him and noticed redness by his cheek, he looked down at me and raised his hand to caress the cheek he hit:

Must be swollen, "I'm sorry." He said once again.

I looked up at me with glassy eyes, "I'm sorry too."

I helped him out of his clothes and he removed mine as well.

We were both naked once we got inside his bathroom.

Call us toxic or whatever... but I know one thing for sure there's a whole bunch of love here.

Sometimes more than I can reciprocate due to my upbringing ... I know Jehnai loves me but I can't wrap it around my head ; why.

Me personally; I love him too but everything was different.

I was changing; I was being different with him; I carried myself differently.

I had a smile that beamed more than usual.

I was different with him; but in a good way and I needed to accept that.

Jehnai wasn't gonna hurt me, he kept me safe; he loved me unconditionally.

He put up wimmie and took me back even after I broke his heart.

I was so numb to his feelings; everything was about me.

And I didn't realize how much he was hurting; I didn't realize the lack of love and attention I was giving him.

He just wanted me to listen but I never did; I always made everything that bothered him about me and I hate myself for that.

Jehnai was being vulnerable wimmie, real wimmie from the start and I took that for granted.

"I am sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you," Jehnai leaned down and pecked my lips.

"You say sorry enough; I'm sorry for everything from the beginning of our relationship until now. I promise you I'll be a better girl friend. I'll be there for you and I'll love you like you love me."

Jehnai licked over his lips, "you promise?" He stuck out his pinky like a little kid.

I couldn't help but smile.

"I promise."

And with that he lead me into the shower and we ended our night with long, slow, sensual sex and several organisms later.

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Two Chapters Left ; Put Your Seatbelts On A LOT IS FINNA GO DOWN IN THESE NEXT TWO PARTS.

Chapter 39 ( 1 yr time jump )
Jehnai Took Some Time Off Cause Of Kash & The Baby ( Tru Is Dying Dont Worry )

Chapter 40 ( Major Time Jump )
Their Lives & How Shit Is Goin.

Then I Will Be Done With This Book ❤️