⟦TWENTY FOUR - MAYBE, JUST MAYBE.⟧

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CHAPTER 24: MAYBE, JUST MAYBE... WE'D BE TOGETHER - VKOOK POV.

WARNING: angsty af

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V'S POV:

Silence. Panicked. Silence.Β 

The white walls of the nurses would cave in my vision, closing me into the space of the unfamiliar bed that I lie in. Slowly I pull my eyes to be fully open, and I notice there's no one else here. Just multiple voices outside the door that seem to be bickering about-

"Why the fuck are you so stupid?"

"How am I stupid?"

"Because he loves you!"

Oh no no no, not again. I try to get myself out of the bed, pushing as hard as possible. But it doesn't work. I'm too weak, and instead, I smash some sort of glass next to me, causing a disrupture of the conversation outside.Β 

Silence. Panicked. Silence.

I freezeΒ up in the hopes no one heard that, closing my eyes as I pretend to fall asleep. From just hearing a click of a handle, the door opens to Jimin's mutter. "V?"

I don't respond. Please, please, please don't realise I'm awake.

"V, I know you're awake."

Nope, I'm not awake. Don't know what you're talking about.

"If you don't wake up I won't get you ice cream for the next few weeks."

I shoot up, the sudden paralysis washing away, but I regret it at an instance. "U-Um are you o-okay?" Jeongguk says, rubbing his neck as he alwaysΒ does when he's nervous. Why's he like this? So damn perfect, he can do everything and anything, succeeding in life.

And me, "I guess I'm okay." I answer the two questions.Β 

"We'll leave you two alone," Jimin says.Β 

"W-What?- That's not needed." I try to get myself out of the situation, but Jimin only shrugs with a small smile, motioning the others to get out of the room. He clicks the door shut, now leaving us two alone.

This is too awkward. The walls are suffocating and I-"I'm sorry if you don't like me that way, i-it's okay if you hate me. I do too, I hate me too," is what I piece out to him.Β 

And he chuckles. His chuckle sounds melodic almost, his laughter light and full of happiness. His laughter is like a drug. He then opens his mouth, "I don't hate you."

"Y-You don't?" I stammer on myΒ words, shocked yet doubted from his words. "Do you then despise me or something?"

Β He looks around for something. Something then becoming the dustpan and brush, and he wonders with that something to brush the floor. "No, I don't V. I just can't be in a relationship with someone I don't know. Not a romantic relationship, that's what I mean."

"O-Oh." In that moment, I can feel the shards of my bones cracking, just as my heart suffocates from the choking words. But I can phrase out the famous words, my ones anyway. "That's o-okay."Β 

Finding a distraction from this awkward moment, I fumble with the holes of my wool sweater. It's not until sixty seconds after that he speaks, "V, don't get me wrong..." He takes a breath in as he walks to the bin to throw the glass away before coming back to sit on the bed. "You're good-looking, great at football and definitely a great sportsman... However, you're also guarding yourself too much. I can't date someone who tells his friends he's bisexual, and then tells his *crush* that it's only a phase."

I feel another rush of heartache and pull the sheets to cover myself, hide that I'm guilty.Β 

"You know V, I genuinely liked you. If you didn't say those words, if you didn't lie, if you weren't so guarded, maybe just maybe, we'd be together.

And the tears I choked up, fall down. I can feel the tears that were the same from my panic attack drip again, just slower this time. I close my eyes, sniffling against my sleeve as the tears fall down or stain my cheeks until I feel a small finger wipe a drop away. "I-I'm so stupid. So-so stupid. I fucked up everything- I f-fucked-"

"Hey," His voice comes back into the room again, "Breath, okay?" And his voice calms down the storm which I started, or should I say it temporarily removes the pain like a drug... I breathe as he told me, still sniffling though. I open my eyes and he moves closer to me so that he sits on my lap. "You don't mind that I sit like this, right?"

I shake my head, not being able to piece any words. He smiles a little, and the tears come back again. "Why can't I be more like you? More perfect? Why do I always ruin things?"

He tilts his head and leans in to hug me. I take the hug, crying on his shoulder as he rubs my back softly. "You wouldn't want to be like me V, I'm way worse than you are. I'm definitely not perfect as well if that's what you're saying-"

I cut him off, "Yes you are. You're better at football than I am, faster than I am." I pause again as I sigh, "Everyone loves you."

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JEONGGUK'S POV:

And I've found his trigger, love. We share the same trigger, but I have a feeling it's for different reasons. I ruffle my fingers in his hair, not used to any of this *sickly sweet* romance or comfort, and I whisper talk, "That's not true. You hate me, remember?"Β 

He chuckles at that, and my heart warms a little by his deep but warm laugh.Β 

"There's the famous chuckle I've been waiting for." I can feel him pull away a little, so I give him his space. He looks into my eyes, his head tilted as he murmurs a reply.Β 

"Can we be friends then?"Β 

"If that's what you want then, of course, we can be friends V." His frown turns into a smile as he leaps in to give me a hug, slightly suffocating me but I allow the older to do it for his happiness. The door opens and I can see Jimin from the corner of my eye, along with his friends all smiling, but I roll my eyes and mouth for them to fuck off, which V doesn't notice.Β 

As they close the door, I turn around, kissing V on the forehead, "Come on now, as my friend it's my duty to make you feel better."

"But what about the-"

"He's a dickbag." I mutter as I roll my eyes.Β 

"Dickbag?" He chuckles.Β 

"Mhm," I take his hand, "Now, let's go back to your dorm so you can relax. School's over and as ex-captain I don't think you should be playing for today, okay?"

He nods as we go to the door, opening it to see V's friends chuckling and "bantering" about something Namjoon said.

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friends... :)Β 

half of my teachers broke down in school today, a teacher died i think,

meh. i don't like bad news, so onto the good stuff!

HOWST IS THISΒ #15 IN VKOOK?Β 

i actually love you guys so much, i'm with some of my fav authors trending... i love you all ahh!

henyways,

Β©keketan


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