𝐀/𝐍:𝐓𝐚𝐩 𝐢𝐧💕

"I can't believe he's late again." Phoenix's mumbled as she looked up so I could retouch her makeup

I just shook my head, and looked at the clock that was hanging on the wall. Here it is goin on twelve in the afternoon, and guess who's not here? Phoenix's baby daddy. Today is the day of their photo shoot. The time of the shoot, was scheduled to be at nine o'clock this morning, here the same place they had their baby shower yesterday. I've been up since six this morning setting up the my backdrops, and renting out the furniture and props out for today.

Phoenix came in at about nine-thirty, and I got her instantly seated into my makeup chair so I could do her makeup and hair. We've waited for Drew for thirty minutes to, thirty minutes turned I to an hour and then two hours. I had to force her to take some pictures because we only rented this place out for a couple of hours, and our time is running out. I got some good shots but all of them, Phoenix was mugging in them. Ke'Andre came for moral support and to gas's her up, but she was not having it. She was upset.

I eventually told her to take a break so I can retouch her makeup, now here we are, she on her phone calling Drew back to back while me and Ken just chillin.

"Well, bitch believe it." Ke'Andre spoke nonchalantly as he flip a page in one of my many photo album

I smacked my lips, "Mmcht, Ken?"

He looked up from the book and shrugged,"What I'm being honest. I'm not surprised that his ugly dog, lookin ass is late. Nigga showed up late to his own baby shower. In a damn Burberry outfit, at that. Lookin stupid as hell."

I shook my head and mouthed a no, Ke'Andre don't understand that this girl is pregnant and her hormones are all over the place. Even though he's somewhat joking, them jokes would hurt yo feelings when your pregnant. Trust me I know. I remember one time Phoenix, called me a bald headed ass girl, when she answered my FaceTime call. I just sat there and cried cause I thought she really thought I bald headed.

"Wow, thanks Ken. Tell me how you really feel." She whispered as she wiped a tear away

"Awwwnn, Pooh. He didn't mean it" I said as I hugged her, "Right, Ken you ain't mean it?"

"Hell yeah, I meant that shi-"

"Ken?!"

"Nah I ain't mean it. I'm sorry sis." He shrugged, "It was a jokey joke, remember we used to joke?"

"Right now, ion wanna joke around okay?" Phoenix spoke, "So can we please change the subject. Please?"

I nodded, "Yeah, we can."

It was silent for a few minutes I went back in to retouch up my retouch up on Phoenix face since she cried. I'm not gone lie, it kinda pisses me off that Drew is fuckin her over and she is allowing it. You know? To think that big bad Phoenix, can cuss up a storm to everybody and they momma, but when it comes down to that good for nothing bitch ass nigga, she cry, mope around and make him choose her life choices. In all honesty, I hate this new Phoenix. She's changed tremendously and ion like it. In my opinion it has everything to do with Drew.

Ion care, call me paranoid or not. That nigga changed her.

It also made me feel some type of way knowing that they, messed around after she knew how he treated me. Niggas like Drew, is grimy and manipulative. She should'veseen all the red flags before they got together, but hey he "changed" to her.

"Sevyn, Where is my Neicy Pooh, at?" Ke'Andre asked knocking me out my thoughts

"She's with her grandmother. Ms.Apryl wanted to see her before we head out tonight."

"You leaving already?" Phoenix asked

"Yeah, it's bout time I get up outta here." I shrugged

"You haven't even been here for a week like you planned on doing."

"I know, I just wanna be in my own home with my baby and dog."

"Or, you just wanna be far away from Zion." Ke'Andre said

I rolled my eyes, "Please don't even bring him up."

The situation with me and Syair's dad, is so draining to me. I'm hurt that he would really sit up in my face and lie about not knowing that he had a baby. It broke my heart, hearing him lie and say that he didn't know about her, and in reality he do. All the times I called and texted him. Begging him to just take one time out if his day to see Syair. I even went out to get on the Greyhound to come back to Milwaukee, when Syair was three months, just so he could get the chance to see her.

I would never, never keep my her away from him. That's not in my blood to do that. It would hurt me to keep a secret like that, and mostly it would hurt, Zion and Syair for not having that father, daughter bond.mHe should know that I wouldn't do that to him. No matter how much I dislike him, I would never do that to him.

"I just feel like, y'all need to talk this shit out. For the sake of Syair."

I looked back at him with a mug, "I've tried, Ken. Millions and millions of times."

"Then fuck him." Phoenix shrugged, "If he don't want to be in her life then fuck him. He gone be butt hurt once he find out somebody stepping up and taking his spot of raising La'Shay-Marie."

Sighing I sat down next to Ken, "I'm not having no other dude raise my child. Imma be single forever until Sy is off to college."

"Ouooo, that pussy boutta be old and dusty." Ke'Andre said as he looked at me

"Powder pussy ass girl." Phoenix joked

They both bust out laughing like the shit was funny. I just sat there lookin at them. Of course I found it funny but they ain't gotta know that.

"Okay, you laughing pregnant mommas. Let's see how hilarious I'm boutta be when I  pack my shit up and go."

"What?! Nooo! I'm sorry! I'll be good."

"Nah, fuck y'all." I said as I got up from the couch and ran to my equipment, "No photo shoot for youuu!"

"Sevyn stop playin! You know I can't run." Phoenix yelled

"That sounds like a pregnant problem."

"Annnd, that's a wrap baby momma." I stated as I looked down at my camera

"Can I see?!"

"I'll show you one, cause I gotta edit some of them."

Phoenix looked at me with sad eyes," I'm ugly?"

𝗗𝗮𝗺𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗼𝗿𝗺𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀

"No, Phi. Your not ugly. I just have to touch up the background a little bit so it can look like a blur."

She began to cry, "No, just say it, I'm ugly! I'm a ugly fat face bitch!"

"No your not." I looked back at Ke'Andre who was smacking on my Sour Straws, "Can you out my fuckin candy down and help me calm her down?"

He rolled his eyes and huffed, "Ugh! Fine." Ke'Andre then walked over to us and held his hand onto of her shoulder, "Whats the matter?"

"I-I'm ugly! My face is fat and I just look like a whale!" Phoenix cried

"Baby boo, your not ugly."

"So I'm fat?"

Ke'Andre looked at her stomach for a minute and swallowed his saliva, "I meeaannn, your not ugly."

I gasp, "KEN?!"

"I'm joking, I'm joking! You know your not fat. You just built a home, around our son son so he can be warm and toasty til he come out if his habitat. You know that lil nigga a bear."

"My baby looks like a bear?! Oh God, I'm gonna give birth to a four legged creature!"

"Ken?!" I yelled

"I was joking?!"

"You can't joke like that, she's sensitive."

"Well how the fuck I'm supposed to know her ass, this damn sensitive?! We joke all the time and she cryin like this?"

"Hormones, nigga."

"Oops." He shrugged

This nigga no help. I sighed and rubbed Phoenix's back, "Wanna see one of your pictures?"

"Yes please."

I chuckled and turned my camera back on going to my recent shots. Cleaning on the last picture, I took of her I cuffed my hands on top of the camera so the glare of the sun won't bounce on the tiny screen.

I personally love this picture of Phoenix. She sat on this gold, like bird cage chair, surrounded by flowers and feathers. Her outfit was a blue raffled maternity dress that was high cut showcasing her beautiful round baby bump. I did her makeup a natural look and she wore a high braided ponytail that fell down to her side.

Phoenix looked extremely beautiful.

"Awn, Sevyn. I love it!" She exclaimed as she hugged my waist

"I do my thang when I do my thang baby cakes."

"You gotta send me that one, cause I gotta post it."

"For sure, imma send you them all when I'm done."

Ke'Andre tried looking over our shoulder as we admired the photo, "I wanna see."

"No, you called me fat." Phoenix said as she rolled her eyes

"I was just playing."

"Nope, you get to see it when the world see it bitch."

He smacked his lips, "Mmcht, man fuck you."

"I would let you if you wasn't gay babes." She smirked and walked away going to the bathroom to change

"That's bogus."

I shrugged, "Shoulve never called her fat." Walking over to my bags. I quickly packed up all my stuff, and stacked up all of the decorations and furniture up so when the movers come in they can just go to one spot and clear it out.

Just as I was almost done packing my stuff, guess who decided to show up? Yep, Drew, "Damn why the fuck is this shit bit set up yet?" He yelled making me roll my eyes to the back of my head.

𝗛𝗲 𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗸𝗶𝗻 𝗶𝗿𝗸𝘀 𝗺𝘆 𝗻𝗲𝗿𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝗱𝘂𝗱𝗲.

Turning around, I looked back at him and seen that he wasn't alone, he had his buddy there with him too.

"Nigga, the photo shoot over with." Ke'Andre said with an attitude, "Where the hell was you at for three damn hours?"

"I had to handle some business. What the fuck you mean, the photo shoot over?" He turned around to me and asked

I rolled my eyes, "Like he said, it's over. We had this building for four damn hours, here it is five hours later and you show up." I looked at his attire and shook my head, "Dressed in basketball shorts and a wife beater. And your high at that. You couldn't even at least try to dress up and stay sober for a couple hours."

"Look I ain't come here to be lectured by a bitch that ain't tell her baby daddy she was pregnant. So ion give a fuck what you talm bout. So take your fuckin camera out and take our damn pictures."

"Listen here, you Big Bird, long beak ass bitch. What me and ya friend, situation ain't got shit to do wit yo low life, off brand Mowgli from the fuckin Jungle Book lookin ass." I spoke calmly as I stepped up to him, "This is about you and Phoenix. You coming late to stuff that supposed to be a fuckin memory for the both of you. You came late to ya baby shower and now this. What, you gone be late to ya own baby, birth? Grow the fuck up and get ya hands out ya ass and be there for these types of things." I ranted

I heard Zion, laugh making me cut eyes at him, "Fuck is so funny?" I asked in the corner if my eyes I seen Ke'Andre stand up and walk slowly towards us

"You. How you gone tell him to grow up, and you kept my whole child away from me?"

"I ain't keep my baby away from you. You the one that didn't want to step up and take care of ya responsibilities."

"Why the fuck is you making up lies?!" He yelled

"Me, making up lies?! Why the fuck yo ass acting like you ain't know about my baby?! To make you look good?! To make me look like a bad person?!You neglectful piece of shit!"

"Watch yo fuckin mouth Sevyn! Deadass!"

"Or the fuck what, Zion?! Or what?" I yelled back, "Your not gonna do shit but look stupid. Like deadass, Zion I'm so tired of you."

"I'm tired of yo ass too!"

Not even saying anything else to him, I just went back to packing. This is not good. This is not how I thought us raising Syair was gonna be like. But I guess, this how it is. For right now I'm done with the conversation. We're both upset, and I can see this is not about to go good, so what imma do is just get my stuff and leave.

I'm tired. I'm tired of trying and I'm tired of him lyin. This is draining, and it's not healthy for my mental health. So imma be the bigger person and go.

After packing the remainder of my stuff, I walked passed him and his ugly ass friend and headed out the door. Well was but Phoenix came out and stopped me,

"Sevyn? Where you goin?"

Still walking I spoke, "I'm leaving. I'll make sure to send you them pictures, by tomorrow night. I love you Pooh."

"You leaving? Like goin home?" Ke'Andre asked

"Yeah, It's a wrap for me. I'll see y'all when I see y'all." I shrugged

"Don't leave like this, Sevyn." I heard Phoenix whisper

"Nah, let her go! Let her do what she does best. Run away! SHE ALWAYS RUN AWAY FROM HER FUCKIN PROBLEMS, AND NEVER FACE HER FUCKIN CONSEQUENCES!" Zion yelled out, "I FUCKIN HATE YOU SOMETIMES!"

I stopped right on my tracks. The nerve! The nerve of this nigga to say this shit to me! Me?! The way I want to slap the shit out if him. I just couldn't. I'm no abuser. I would still never put my hands on a man. But what I'm bout to say is boutta cut his ass deep.

I turned around and face the man that I thought I loved and chuckled,

"If that makes you happy, Zion. Then I hate you too. I hate you for leading me on, I hate you for having me hypnotized by your mind game and I hate you for being a deadbeat to our child. I wished I never got in that car with you that night. I wished I never fell in love with your stupid ass and I wished I never ran away from home. I'd rather be abused my mother then having my heart broken by a weak, conniving and no back bone ass nigga like you. I wished I never met you."

Sighing I turned around once I felt a tear try to fall from my face. I wiped that shit so fast. I be damned if I let him see me cry over him. I don't show that nigga no weakness.

It's fuck him from here on out.

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