𝐀/𝐍: 𝐈𝐦𝐦𝐚 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐲𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐙𝐢𝐨𝐧🥹💕.

My eyes pierced through her soul, as I watched her jitter in her seat, pouring sugar in her coffee, and stirring it.

I'm deadass suppose to be getting ready for my grand opening of the dance studio, that's happening in a couple of hours but I'm here in this cold ass cafe freezing my ass off.

"Thank you, for meeting up with me. I'm happy to see you, Sevyn." She finally spoke up as she sat her cup down on the small round table that sat between us

"I wish I could say the same about you, Janae." I said rather rudely as I sipped my drink and crossed my legs, to show off my red bottoms that Zion gifted me a few weeks ago

I know, I know. You all are saying, 'What the hell is this bitch doin?' But let me explain.

About a month ago, I got a private phone call out the blue. What I thought was something for one of my businesses, I answered it.

When I answered nobody spoke on the other end, which caused me to hang up.

They called back to back a few times and I ignored it. But the last time they called, I answered it to cuss whoever they were out. But before I even said a word. They spoke into the phone.

It didn't take me no time to recognize her voice. The voice that scared me and haunted me in my dreams.

The moment I realized who it was on the phone, I immediately hung up and had a full blown panic attack on my kitchen floor.

Zion found me on the floor with streaks of dried up tears on my face and me covered in my own vomit. Yes it's disgusting but it's the truth.

I was honestly scared for my fucking life.

I was scared. I was angry. I was just thinking the worse.

I'm not gonna lie. I thought about self harming again.

But that quickly left. I didn't want her or myself to think that she could have this satisfaction of me losing, I wasn't gonna let her have that satisfaction.

She didn't call back until a couple days ago, and that's when I got the courage to talk to her. The first question I asked was how she got my number and all she said was Apryl, which pissed me off.

Apryl and I have a court hearing next month, back in Wisconsin, since that was where the incident of Syair was harmed in. She thought giving Janae my number was gonna knock me off my game, but she has another thing coming.

Janae was telling me that she was out in Atlanta and wanted to see me so we could talk. Apart of me didn't want to meet up but the other part told me to go and get the closure I've been needing for years. Of course I listened to my heart and, here I am.

Sitting in front of my monster.

Even though my heart, felt like it was beating out of my chest, as I watched her sit in front of me. I knew I couldn't show her any weakness. I'm not that little girl she abused anymore. I'm a grown woman now.

That little girl died two years ago.

Janae, crossed her leg as she chuckled, "I guess I deserve that." She nodded while smoothing out her slick back braided ponytail and fixed her red tube top dress

𝗢𝗵 𝗯𝗶𝘁𝗰𝗵, 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗿𝘃𝗲 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁.

"Sevyn you've been all down my Facebook and Instagram feed, this past year and a half, I had to come down and see how my baby living."

I knitted my eyebrows together as I gave her a confusing look, "Baby?" I questioned, "Since when have I ever been your baby?"

"You've always been my baby."

Pulling out my phone, I pressed the side, "Hey Siri, can you set a timer for sixty minutes please?"

"Setting timer for sixty minutes."

She already on bullshit and ion got the time. Janae is getting only an hour of my presence and then I'm gone.

She smacked her teeth, "Is that necessary?"

Tapping my phone with my fresh acrylic nail, I smirked, "Time is running out, and you already on bullshit."

I don't know why but I'm loving this side of me, never in a million years would I thought, I Sevyn Marie Daniels would step up to Janae-

I'm surprised she's even calling me by my real name. I ain't never heard her say my name. This is actually the first time she ever said it so gently to me. I almost wanna gag.

Janae took her glasses off, showing me her baggy eyes and almost white pupils before, leaning up in her seat and pulling something out of her purse,

"B-Before we talk, I-I actually brought you a gift." She pulled out this old beaten up green teddy bear,

" I remember when you were younger, and used to walk around with this beautiful green teddy bear around the house. I-I don't remember what happened to it but I got you this to replace that one." She smiled as she handed it to me

I only looked down at her inner arm and shook my head. Seeing the old and fresh new scars on her arms confirmed me on why she wanted to meet up.

"It was pink." I mumbled

"What?"

"The bear that I had was pink. And the reason you didn't see that bear anymore because you threw it away because it was covered in my blood.. you didn't want my daddy to see." I shrugged, laughing I reminisce on that day, "That was the first time you beat me. I couldn't get off the floor for two days.

You threatened my daddy and said you was gonna take him to court cause he kept asking why he couldn't see me for two weeks. You ain't want him to see my bruised up face.

"S-Sevyn. That's why I called you here today. I-I wanted to come here and apologize to you." She stuttered

I just looked at her. This has to be a fuckin joke. She's a fuckin joke.

"What I did was wrong on so many levels, a-and all I want you to do is forgive me so we can be a family again." She continued

"We was never a family in the first place, and you can keep your sorries, cause ion want em."

"Sevyn I am your mother. I will always be your family."

"A mother?" I questioned, "You are my mother?! Since when does a mother trap her child in a basement for almost a month cause she missed her deceased father, countless of times?

Since when does a mother abuse her child just  cause she wanted to. Just cause she thinks being a mother she can and not cause it shows discipline, but just to be down right evil?

Since when does a mother sexually a-assault her child, and let a man rape her baby, and sit there and watch with a smirk on their faces?" I finished  asking

Wiping my face, I sat up and fixed my posture, she don't need to see me at me at my weakness anymore, I'm not gonna allow that, "You was never my mother, you are just a bitch who gave birth to me. You hated me, you said it your fucking self everyday."

"And I want to apologize! Sevyn I did some things to you, that I regret almost everyday. I can't even get out of bed sometimes just thinking about what I've done to you.

You right I wasn't a mother. I was a bitch who was and still is jealous of her own daughter. I thought abusing you would satisfy me and make me feel good. But all along it made me feel even worse."

I felt my lip tremble, as I looked outside from the big window. She's talking a whole bullshit, and I'm just not here for it. I don't care what she's saying, all I wanna know is,

"Why?!"  I interruptedly asked her, "Why would you do me like that? How could you do your child like that? All I ever wanted was love. All I ever needed was a mother."

Janae had tears of her own pouring down, and no lie, this is a shocker to me, because I never seen her cry, like ever.

"I fuck up." She sniffed, "I did that mess to you because I was hurting myself. I was once abused and raped by my step daddy and I thought that was okay, my momma ain't never help me. She heard my cries, and she didn't help me. She just sat there and I did the same to you because I didn't know."

"You initiated it though Janae! You initiated it. How you say you went through rape and abuse and tried not to break the cycle? You didn't even try to break it. That situation fucked you up when you was little and you repeated that cycle of me being fucked up as well."

"Sevyn I was hurt. Hurt people, hurt people." She explained while wiping her face

"I'm hurt. But I don't go and be mad at the world and be evil to the ones I love. Ion go out and abuse my child because of what you and your boyfriend did to me. I suck it up and love my baby unconditionally because I know the feeling of being unloved and unwanted. You had a choice to do that with me but you didn't."

"And I want to do that now." Janae expressed

"It's too late to try and love me! I don't need you to love me!"

I've been asking for her love since I was little. I gave up once I was twelve. The last time she said she hated me is the last time I became numb to the pain. I don't need her to love me anymore.

I found someone that love me.

"At least forgive me, so I know once I go meet God I know that you forgive me, and accept my apology."

"I don't."

Janae quickly got up from the couch and grabbed my wrist tightly causing me to have a mini panic attack, her hands shook rapidly as I looked into her eyes that was filled with tears, "P-Please, forgive me, Sevyn! I-I'm sorry, I'm s-so sorry. Just forgive me for all of my mistakes so I can repent before I go meet my maker."

Snatching my hands from out of her I jerked back before looking at her, "The fuck is you talking about? You're causing a scene."

I watched her face turn into embarrassment, while looking around the cafe seeing a handful of people watching us, she nervously sat down before grabbing her coffee from off the table and took a big sip from out the cup.

She sat the cup down and fidgety threw her ponytail over her shoulder before speaking, "I-I uhm. I-I'm dying, Sevyn." She confessed, "I got that Aids virus."

"Damn." I covered my mouth to stop myself for laughing. It ain't a funny thing, but shiid its hilarious to me I'm sorry, "How did you get it? Got that lil booty hole played wit huh?" I know she was/ still is a prostitute put the shit is still funny to ask

"You can't get Aids in the ass Sevyn, c'mon now I thought you was smarter than that." She said with no emotion in the world

Is she dead the fuck ass, right now? If Mo'Nique from Precious was a real life a person, it would be Janae.

Cause no the fuck did she just say that stupid ass shit. I'm so glad I got the smarts from my damn--shit I can't say daddy cause he slow himself, after what he told me.

Shit I got my smartness from some damn body in this fucked up ass family.

Janae sighed before looking up at me, "Look, the doctor put more dosage in my medicine and I- was wondering if you could help me pay the company off so I can have more time to live and get a chance to be a mother to you."

And there it is, the real reason, she wanted to meet me here. For my money.

All I could do was laugh, she really think I'm a dumbass bitch that just would freely give her money after all the pain she put me through.

"I bet you that damn sob story was just all a damn lie, just to guilt me wasn't it? Do you even have Aids?" I questioned, when I tell you her whole demeanor changed in a matter of seconds, I got my answer, and I got the real Janae,

I knew she couldn't keep this nice act for long.

I smirked watching her change into the real her, "Yeah. c'mon out, you Devil."

"I'm tired of playing nice with your stubborn ass, this is exactly why I beat yo ass, til you're black and blue, you don't fuckin listen, when I say give me money, bitch you give me fuckin money!" She yelled out

"Bitch I ain't giving you shit, what the fuck makes you think I would give you my hard earned money that I worked hard for, just for a junkie ass bitch to go and smoke it up and get fucked by a random nigga our here?

Get the fuck outta here." Grabbing my purse I began to stand up and leave this damn conversation,

"Bitch you owe me! You thought I forgot about that money you stole from me?! If you don't pay me the fuck back I'm going to social media and airing out all yo dirty laundry"

"Gone head and do it, shit we can do it now. Want me to go on live for you?" I asked while pointing at my phone, "I don't owe you shit. That money that was supposed to go to me once my daddy died, and you kept that from me, you ain't never gonna get shit from me. I would bungee jump in hell, butt bookie ass naked before I give a dime of my money."

"This fame and shit, is getting to you." She spoke with so much jealousy, "You think you better then me?"

"I don't just think Janae, I know." I shrugged before looking her up and down, "On the real Janae, get some help. Aren't you tired of being so evil?"

She sat there stuck, I guess nobody ever asked her that shit before. But it was bout time somebody did. Shaking my head, I began to walk out of the cafe.

I thought she would kept quiet and really think about what I asked but of course she started to make a scene,

"Sevyn don't you fuckin walk away from me bitch! You owe me! Sevyn I swear to God! Bitch I know what city you in now I will hunt you the fuck down and make your life a living hell again bitch!"

Not even feeding to her problematic ways, I continued to walk out of the cafe, with a smile on my face, trying  to get somewhat of a closure from Janae.

I knew it wasn't gonna happen, but just getting everything off of my chest in front of her, means more then that closure, I just wanted to admit all of what she did to me in front of her face for once, even if she don't care.

I walked in with so much weight on my shoulders.

But right now at this very moment. The weight that I've been carrying for years, and caused me pain. I'm setting it free, right here. Right now.

No more, being a victim of my circumstance.

I'm finally free.

𝐀/𝐍: 𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭🤷🏽‍♀️. 𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬?👀💭