day 17
8.35 pm
lee haru

tequila shots

did i ever imagine myself
seducing a guard to convince him to
let me into some nightclub in daegu?
no absolutely no
but that was exactly what i did

"i'm feeling lonely tonight and i just want to
clear my mind off things
you'll help me with that won't you?"

again, jeongguk's idea
i had 10 minutes contemplating on it
but what other choice do i have?
i'm going to make a mental note to not
ever, ever
be associated with jeongguk when it comes to a nightclub ever again

we both make it inside 10 minutes past 8
the club is packed already
dancing bodies rolling up against each other
the smell of alcohol and smoke filling the air

it's so much like how i imagined it would be
standing in a daegu nightclub with a boy
hand in hand

"drinks?" jeongguk suggests
and i raise an eyebrow

"they wouldn't sell it to us
we're underaged"

"i have a fake id you know"
jeongguk pulls out a card
from the inside of his pocket
and walks over to the bar where he orders
two glasses of tequila

"cheers to our incredible journey together"
he says with a laugh as he raises his glass

"well i hope we don't get caught by the police
anytime soon"
our glasses clink together
and there goes the drink down my throat

"we won't" jeongguk says with a wink
"we have pinky to bail us out"

"and how am i going to do that?"

"the same way we got in here"

"you are unbelievable"

i surprise myself
because less than a mere hour later
my head is spinning around in circles
mind hazy from the amount of alcohol i've consumed

and there's this tiny voice in my head
telling me "what are you holding back for?
you're in a daegu club with a cute boy
might as well make the best of it"

let's just say
the things that happened later
is a blurry image for me
all i remember is the crowd cheering as i
hop onto the stage and reach for the mic
saying in a loud voice filled with pride
"here's to the person who changed my life
would you like to dance with me?"

and then there are hands on my waist
guiding me on the dance floor
the music slows for the first time that night
and everything else is quiet
except his soft and gentle voice
like the morning breeze whispering in my ear
as i fade in and out of consciousness

"i think i might be in love with you haru"

and then all i remember is darkness