五十五 ; the heart wants

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day 19
6.30 pm
jeon jeongguk
3rd person point of view

the heart wants what it wants

haru doesn't look like she's keen
on the idea of having three boys
lead the way to a daegu food fair

everytime jeongguk glances to his side
she's either clinging onto his arm
or giving the boys looks
that jeongguk takes as a sign of
i still don't trust them

honestly, he loves how protective
he can get over her

just like he'd thought of before;
the boys were homeless

for some reason he feels bad
maybe it's because
he can never really relate to them;
he has a home in busan
with his family waiting
waiting for news of him to show himself again
waiting for him to come home
waiting to know if he's alright and safe

he recalls the day he first left seoul
and everyone started looking for him

his mother called
and he'd told her that he needed
some time away
to think, to be alone for awhile

when she called again two days after
he told her that he's planning to go home

the third time she called
jeongguk decided that he couldn't hide it anymore
he told her the truth
heard her gasp and break down in tears
and promised to return home
as soon as he could so he could
see them all again

the pain in his heart was excruciating
the fact that he wouldn't be able to
be with the people he loves for long
terrifies him
the fact that there is no way
out of this stupid mess
breaks him

and the fact that he wouldn't be
able to be with you
whether or not his feelings are returned
makes him feel like the dirt
scattered on the face of the Earth
stepped on, kicked about
just
completely hopeless

if he thinks back on what he'd
seen a couple hours ago
he thinks his heart will shatter into pieces
"LEE HARU
DAUGHTER OF FAMOUS CEO LEE
OF SURI ENTERPRISE AND SOON-TO-BE
FIANCE OF PARK ENTERPRISE MISSING"

fiance
fiance fiance fiance
the words ring in his head like a mantra
and with every syllable that
bounces against his skull
he feels a crack forming in his heart

he's in love
he's sure of it
he's fucked
he knows

and he doesn't even know if the feeling is mutual

she wanted to run away
to escape reality for awhile

jeongguk just had to come by
at the exact place
at the exact same time
to stumble into her life

but just like their freedom
he isn't going to linger around very long

and it breaks him
the thought of losing her breaks him

because for the past 20 years
nobody has ever made him
feel as happy and secure
as she did
she did in 20 days

he doesn't want to let go
no, not yet
he tells himself that he's going to fight it
to stay as long as he can

because as long as she needed him
he wants to be there for her

because
(he won't deny it)
for the first time in 20 years
he's knows what it feels like to be in love

(and he is positively,
completely,
truly
sure of it)

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