||Jungkook pov||
||1 month later||

It's been a month and Y/n hasn't been taking care of Jeongsan the only time she would see him is when she had to feed him. I had to learn how to check his diapers change his clothes burp him I even learned he loves when I sing him to sleep.

But I've been struggling since I had practice or concerts and Y/n won't take care of Jeongsan so I would have to care a staff member to help me out.

Sometimes I would drag Y/n out of the room just to go outside for a bit and have some fun. But she doesn't even talk to anyone she ignores the members to it was like she gave up on us...our family.

Once I got finished with Jeongsan I packed a bag for the car ride because we were going on a vacation with the boys for a thing called soop.

They gathered us up in a room with staff members and cameras. "Is there anything you would need so you don't get bored there" all the members gave there ideas  while I was still thinking "could you give me a baby vest maybe some baby toys and a little car for him to ride in a swing maybe some snack for him also maybe a playground set" all the members turned their heads at me like I'm crazy "Jungkook first of all how is a 1 month year old baby gonna play on a playground second of all what do you want maybe something you and Y/n would want" Namjoon and the guys nodded their heads with a smile.

"Maybe a babysitter" that's when I scoffed"I don't need a babysitter when I'm gonna be on a vacation with my family and brothers I can perfectly take care of him" they just nodded there head "can you give me a baby crib too" the guy wrote down everything with I was looking down at Jeongsan.

|| Dorm ||

I walked into my room to see Y/n asleep on my bed while Jeongsan was fast asleep in his. I took a shower and started to get into bed making Y/n shift. "You home" she wrapped her arms around my body making me confused "yeah I am" I didn't wrap my arms around her though somethings weird about this. When she moved again I got a whiff of alcohol "were you drinking"

She started giggled and moving around "a tiny bit but don't tell kookie I when with Haneul" Haneul? Why was she with him... I looked at her neck and saw a hickey.

"Your so hot" she started rubbing her hand up and down my chest but I quickly removed them "Your drunk Y/n don't do this" she whined and got up on her knees as she straddled me. "Come on kookie I'm horny for you and this big cock I want you to fuck me like you did in those videos" her hands when down and grabbed my cock as I quickly pushed her off of me making her fall beside me on the bed.

"Stop you drunk" but that didn't stop her she sat on the heel of her feet and started to undress herself. "I'm gonna go sleep with Taehyung" I started walking to the door only for Y/n to scoff I turned to her and saw tears go down her face. She started putting her clothes back on as she covered herself with the blanket and start crying.

"Why won't you touch me anymore...everytime I try and have sex with you...you push me away or make up an excuse...am I disgusting to you is it because I'm sick" her cries were heard all over the room as I walked to the bed and sat by her feet. "Let's talk about this tomorrow please Y/n" she shook her head sitting up really quickly "your acting like I'm fragile like as if you don't want me anymore do you not want me anymore do you find me worthless" her hands started pulling down her shirt pulling her breast out and all I could see was red spots on them more bumps.

They looked swollen and on her bra you could see dried up blood there was even some dents in some places looking at this made me start crying. Her hand slowly reached for mine as she placed them on her breast she wined a little from the pain her skin felt rough like it was dry and ashy.

"Kookie I'm sorry I'm sick but don't treat me like I'm sick treat me like you treated me back in the apartment.... With love and affection I'm sorry for what I did to you before I gave birth to Jeongsan I know it was rape I'm sorry" her head moved down as she was ashamed of herself my hand was still on her breast slowly caressing it as my thumb slowly when over her nipple making her breath get stuck in her throat.

"I know I didn't want it but...I don't care it happened what happened happened but I forgive you because I love you" my eyes looked into her eyes and back her breast "sick or not we have a family and I will put a ring on this finger heaven or hell nothing gonna stop me from having my family or my happiness. I love you and our son forever" I leaned down and placed a kiss on her breast licking up her shirt

"We will have sex but I want to wait for a little while just to make sure your ok we have one more appointment with Dr.Kwon and we're done with hospitals forever hopefully" she smiled at me with tears "stop crying you look ugly" she slapped my chest "Jungkook?" I hummed as I held her hand with mine as I looked at her straight into her Big Brown Eyes that's always make me lose my mind.

"I'm scared to die"

I'm sorry if this was a sad chapter-YamYam