|| Jungkook pov ||

He was here finally here with me in my arms just like I imagined. He was so tiny his fingers looked so tiny he had my big ass eyes he has a lot of hair. "I can't wait for our future" that's when the moment was ruined by the door opening and Y/n crying.

The nurse put Y/N's bed back where it was but she wouldn't look at Jeongsan it's like she was trying to avoid him at all times. "We've got the results to Y/n charts and the condition she's in...she will not be able to breastfeed ever" i scrunched my eyebrows and looked at Y/n the doctor walked out but before he could he had me a pamphlet "I'm sorry" he walked out of the room and I looked down at the paper that said "breast cancer"

All it talks about is surgery and why babies refuse to take the milk.

Breastfeeding from a breast with cancer will not give the baby cancer in any way. Babies will NOT always refuse to feed from a cancerous breast, although babies have been known to refuse a breast when the taste of the milk changes or the milk supply decreases due to malignant tissue growth.

So Jeongsan won't take her milk "baby we could try look try right now" I tried to put Jeongsan on her lap but she wouldn't grab him she shook her head.

"I have to get surgery in a couple of weeks the doctor said I don't have it that bad but I'm just scared to see my baby refuse me and my milk" Jeongsan started cry guessing he was hungry "just feed him and see if he will take it" I watched her shaky hands hold him with she took off the top of the gown. There was bumps all over her breast even dents.

She slowly brought Jeongsan to her nipple....but he just kept crying "please Jeongsan" her tears started flowing down faster then she gave up "take him please" I grabbed him as she started to pull her top back up she tried to made the littlest movements because of the stitches.

"He doesn't want such a helpless mother like me he wants a mother that can feed him right" I watched as she pressed a button for the nurses "baby we can keep trying" she just ignored at Jeongsan kept crying "can I help you" the nurse came in with a smiled "is there any chance we could get milk he wouldn't..take the nipple" the nurses held her hand out for Jeongsan as she took him she walked back to Y/n "can you please pull you gown back down I'm pretty sure you did it wrong this is your first child right" Y/n nodded as she pulled her gown back down "so first you would have to squeeze you milk out a little bit for him to know there's milk inside once there milk on the nipple you will have to angle the nipple to him mouth a he should latch on" I tried to squeeze some milk out which worked milk came out I grabbed Jeongsan's head as he was still crying angled my nipple to his lips....then....

He latched on he was drinking his milk....he stopped crying his hands found there way to Y/n breast and started to kneading at her breast or courses it was putting her into pain but she was happy that he was finally eating "Jungkook he eating" the nurse smiled at stepped out of the room as I looked at our babyboy eat.

"I know your so brave" she looked at me then back down at Jeongsan "so the surgery what are they gonna do" her fingers rubbed on the bumps on her breast then said "they're gonna cut open my breast and pull out all the bumps from my chest" she stayed silent then said "but if there's to much or some where they can't reach them...they're gonna have to leave them alone but there's another option...I have the option to cut my breast off fully" her eyes could tell how much pain she was in...cutting off her breast "do you want to cut them off" her eyes zoned out like she didn't hear me "Jeongsan is finished he fell asleep too let me put him in his little bed" I grabbed only for Y/n to stop me.

"Jungkook if I die please visit me with Jeongsan I want him to know that his eomma loved him so much that I would do anything for him I don't want him to think his eomma got the easy way out and just left him because I couldn't take care of myself right" I scoffed at her remark "First of all YOUR not gonna die Y/n this isn't the easy way out either I know your in pain all the time stop making an excuse to make it look like your not baby your not gonna die right now or ever you will die because of Old age not Young I won't let this doctors kill you or let you die" my hand when over the bump in my pants pocket "and I want to be with you forever" just as I was about to kneel I was interrupted by the doctor.

"Ms.Y/n about the surgery I'm sorry but we can do it" the doctor started looking though the notes on his charts "what do you mean you can do it you told there was a chance there was a way" the doctor noted "the cancer travel to your brain causing a tumor to form the tumor is in the middle of your brain where we can't not reach" he pulled up x-rays on a light to show us

"Ms.Y/n I'm sorry but this tumor is a very dangerous tumor that can not be touch Im sorry but we can't not help you" and just like that he felt the room.

I'm sorry but yeah