||𝐄𝐗𝐇𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐃||

[𝟶𝟺:𝟸𝟸 ᴘᴍ]

A week has passed since you had that conversation with Jungkook. Not much has changed since then except Jungkook would greet you a 'good morning' and a 'good night' nicely everyday. Jungkook was still just as reserved as he was before, he was just there in the house. You both were living like two roommates who had nothing to do each other's life.

You let the cold breezy afternoon to greet you with open arms as you walked down the rich neighbourhood of hannam hills.The sky above your head was clear and beautiful giving the birds their freedom to fly around happily.

Today you had a day off hence you decided to do some grocery shopping to beat the boredom.Jungkook already had men who would deliver the groceries every week so you never needed to worry about any of those.

However while watching some YouTube videos, you found yourself suddenly craving for some chocolates and ice creams which weren't present in the house, therefore you were taking a stroll around the partially quiet neighbourhood while making your way to the local department store.

You always liked taking strolls as they gave you the time to think while enjoying the mother nature. You being a nature lover, always tried looking for the chances to get out and enjoy your alone time but, being the assistant manager of one of the biggest companies of Seoul came with it's own fair share of disadvantages, one of it being the lack of holidays.

After a short while, you were already looking through the shelves of the store searching for your desired items. Your face lit up with happiness as your eyes took in the various chocolates stored on the shelf as you reached for them one by one putting them in your trolley, all while moving forward looking for more items.

A look of slight sadness took over your face when you longingly looked at your favourite packet of chips on the highest shelf which was definitely out of your reach. You being 5'6 couldn't help you in the battle of having to reach a height of about 7 feet.

A groan escaped from your lips as you looked around for an assistant but to your dismay no one was around, you rolled your eyes in annoyance. After a moment or two of fighting to reach for the packets of chips, a loud gasp of surprise left your mouth feeling a sudden strong figure against your back as a hand reached up for the packet of chips before they retreated back with the packet in their hand.

Annoyed at the sudden contact you immediately turned around to face the person and that's when your annoyance turned into raging anger looking at the unwanted guest standing before you. Byun SeoJoon.

"What the hell was that, SeoJoon?!"

You spat glaring at the smirking man who had no shame in his eyes as they strolled on your body leisurely. A look of disgust took over your face as you decided to just walk away from there but the next moment he grabbed onto your wrist stopping your movements and flinch at the contact.

"Oh Y/n, come on. I was just helping you."

He moved to stand before you again with his hand still holding your wrist as he held the chips with his other hand in front of you to take. You gritted your teeth together as you eyed him with loath before your eyes fell on the grip of his hand around your wrist.

"Leave my hand, right now."

Your voice firm and full of authority as you spoke through your gritted teeth making him let go with an eyeroll. Your wrath full gaze had no affect on him as he soon started taking steps towards you before standing right before you.

"Why are you playing hard to get,Y/n?"

SeoJoon's question made you grimace visibly and just when you were about to move aside from him, he once again blocked your way with the dirtiest smirk playing on his lips.

"Just fucking get lost from here."

You pushed him by his chest making him stumble back but however he maintained his balance back, shooting a glare your way. When you tried to walk away from there, he decided to open his mouth again as the next words fell off his lips effortlessly.

"You weren't satisfied enough by my cousin Taehyung so you went to Jungkook. If Jungkook is also failing in giving you the right kind of pleasure, you know where to find me, Jeon Y/n."

[𝟶𝟼:𝟺𝟻 ᴘᴍ]

Jungkook walked inside the practice room,as the coolness of the air conditioner greeted him making him shiver at the feeling. Since the morning he was kind of feeling under the weather but however that didn't stop him from going to work.

Jungkook had the habit of overworking himself, pushing himself to the edge until he was satisfied with what he does. The man was very dedicated towards whatever he did but sometimes too much dedication is what bought harm to his physical health.

The members greeted him with small smiles when their eyes fell on their maknae. Being in the practice room didn't feel as enthusiastic as it did before, rather it felt apathetic.

Jungkook felt like an outsider all the time even though he had practically grew up among these people. He all the times felt himself being a burden to them, as if they were tolerating him only because they were in a band together, probably it was actually the truth.

Forcing on a smile he took his position to join the dance practice, however Taehyung's position was right beside him making the situation a lot more tense for him. Taehyung wore his usual bitter expression on as soon as Jungkook entered the premises, it didn't help the latter's situation at all.

They all started doing their steps as the instructor had instructed them to, however Jungkook was finding it rather difficult to concentrate on the moves tonight. His feet were feebly and crashing against each other making it hard for him to get the moves correct.

After like the tenth mistake he gulped seeing the disappointment in Hoseok's face and each of the member's exhausted forms, however nobody said a word to him but that was until Taehyung spoke in a harsh manner.

"What is wrong with him?! We have a show in just two fucking days and how are we gonna cover that up if he keeps on acting like that?!"

Taehyung's voice echoed in the room as the members exchanged looks of concern with each other, while Jungkook stayed quiet bitting on his lips feeling the insecurity hitting him hard. His hands were getting sweaty at the sudden nervousness. I am a disappointment.

Jin put a hand on Taehyung's shoulder squeezing it, indicating for him to calm down. Taehyung only rolled his eyes in annoyance before taking off the bandana of his head before throwing it onto the ground in frustration. Namjoon clearly could feel the tension increasing so he stepped forward and patted Jungkook's head reassuringly.

"Hey, it's okay. Let's take a short break everyone."

"Jungkook that's not how you do it.!"

"Jungkook, you are doing it wrong again."

"Oh my god, Jungkook. Concentrate."

"What you even doing, Jungkook?"

"He's good for nothing."

[𝟷𝟶:𝟹𝟻 ᴘᴍ]

"Aren't you going home, Jungkook?"

Jimin asked staring at him in confusion while the others frowned looking at Jungkook who was still practicing non-stop. Jungkook stopped his movements before looking at them all as he panted trying to catch his breath.

"You guys go ahead. I will take more half an hour."

He informed before turing on the music again meanwhile they all stood there looking at him in concern. When Hoseok tried to stop him, Namjoon held onto his hand slightly shaking his head signaling him not to interfere as they soon retreated out of the room.

[𝟷𝟸:𝟶𝟼 ᴀᴍ]

Jungkook stopped the music not having the power and strength to move anymore, sighing in defeat,he could feel his whole body aching with physical and mental exhaustion. He dropped himself on the floor, resting his head against the wall behind him, closing his eyes shut.

"You are good for nothing."

He softly reminded himself, slumping in deep dejection. Everyday the discouragement followed him, choking him into desolation. Slowly he was losing the will to do anything, mostly he felt the lack of energy in himself whenever he tried anything that involved physical activities.

He easily got tired lately, he felt drained from the moment he would open his eyes every morning. Every day he found himself asking the same question, if he was willing to continue.

The thought of giving up kept on crossing his mind and he wondered, would it be better if he left the group? He knew, he was disappointing his members and the fans with the continuous fails and it was breaking him more everyday.

"I don't want to be a disappointment."

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Writer's block is the worst 🧎‍♀️🏌‍♀️but good think we music to help us in such times.

Anyways until next time ❤