Waking up and going on a sidemen shoot was NOT part of my plans for today.

The day before, my best friend Macy was invited to go on a sidemen shoot for a 20v 1 with Harry Lewis she was pretty excited about it as both of us are sidemen fans but not obsessed with THEM so I guess that's how she got the opportunity, sadly Macy's mom needed her help on the day of the shoot, she honestly didn't want to miss the opportunity so she called the production team and told them I was going to replace her for the shoot, I tried denying the request but Macy begged for me to go, I couldn't say no as she never pleaded like this ever, plus what harm could this do to me?

waking up early wasn't my thing as I wasn't a morning person at all, realising it was the day of the shoot I sighed in defeat and got up as I still had to get ready before my train to London left without me. this is going to be a longggg day.

 I stepped out of the bathroom wrapped in my towel I shuffled over to my room to put on the pre-planned outfit that Macy decided to pick for me before she had to leave to help her mother. I got into my outfit and sat on the chair, putting my phone down on the vanity and starting to do my makeup until I got a phone call from a random phone number, I looked at the number trying to recognise it but I couldn't so answered it. "is this y/n?" "yes this is her" I put my phone on speaker so I could carry on doing my makeup ready for a scammer to ask me something absurd, "I'm calling you to ask if you are going to be arriving for the sidemen shoot today?" I sigh quietly in relief that it's one of the production team for the shoot "Uhh yea I am ill arrive as soon as I can" I change my tone to seem happier and on board with the plan "Great no rush! see you soon." the phone call ended finishing off my makeup.

as I rushed out of my house hoping the Uber would arrive at my house, seeing the car and getting in it slightly smiling, feeling the anxiety crawl up my spine like a million spiders with anticipation to bite me causing me to sweat slightly. As some time passed by I was on the train already just waiting to be in London, updating Macy on my current positions every few seconds to calm myself down a bit, I wasn't really stressed about the camera part maybe a little? but besides that, maybe meeting one of them is making me nervous, I'm not obsessed with any of them as I hardly have the time to watch their videos anymore as I'm at work probably 24/7.

arriving at the studio where everyone was thanks to the organisation team for ordering me an Uber. Walking up the stairs to the main place where every single girl was waiting and talking to each other, I decided to sit down and talk with them getting to know some of them before a crew member told us it was time for all of us to begin. some of the girls were major fans of the sidemen and some were just here to gain some views and to be known, fair enough I didn't say why I was here as I was just a replacement so it didn't really matter.

as we waited for all of us to get picked one by one to go out and introduce ourselves to Harry, the walls were paper thin so we did hear some screaming we assumed it was Harry and some of us giggled at the thought of him screaming. we finally were getting picked out by random, some girls did come back and some didn't, I kind of felt bad for them.

it was my turn to go out and my hands were slightly shaking with some sweaty hands but I walked out of the room with confidence seeing Harry in the middle of the setup walking towards him with a welcoming smile. "hey how are you?" I looked at him and he smiled awkwardly "I'm doing terrible" I heard him stutter a bit "It's all good don't worry, take a breather" with him immediately saying "Yes" so I walked off with a grin on my face heading back to the room back again waiting for everyone to finish.

as some of us arrived back to our room we had some time to discuss our "interaction " with Harry with most of the girls saying he was very awkward. we all got called out of the room to the set to stand and it was explained that if we didn't want him after the very small interaction we all had with him at the start, we could walk off and just go home. we all nodded along and waited for Harry to arrive. 

"Hello everyone, um I said yes to way too many people, so if you don't like me please leave." he laughed awkwardly and I let out an "awh" It kind of broke my heart a bit as Harry went to the centre some girls were getting ready to leave "In 3....2....1..." the producer said as 5 girls stepped out, harry turned around and laughed "ill take that, ill take that" we all laughed amongst each other "thank you very much.." he laughed more "alright ill see you shortly I guess" he walked off and we all heard the applause from another room as we headed to our room to wait to be called out again one by one again, to have an actual conversation with him.

as the few girls went out they all had something to say about how Harry was acting really weird even one of them said that Harry always ended his sentences with a moan or scratched his ass which made me and some others think that the other boys were controlling what he was doing and saying. 

 "y/n your next head out when you're ready" one of the ladies called me out and I just looked in the mirror fixing my hair I was the second last person to meet him were all tired slightly tired but still having fun enjoying the moment. I walked through the corridor to the main set heading over to Harry and seeing a chair to sit on. I honestly wonder how he's going to act now, I sit down and greet him "Hey nice to meet you I'm y/n are you alright now?" I questioned him earlier when he met us all and now "I'm Harry and yeah uhh I'm doing better... I think" he laughed awkwardly as our conversation carried on I saw he was more comfortable than before "I reckon you did well I mean from what I'm seeing you're actually a good talker" I confess to him "no I'm not, honestly" this literally feels like therapy, it's even weirder how he's acting normal to me than the other girls have said how he acted towards them. this conversation felt neverending and I sort of liked it until it was time for another girl to talk to him, we both said goodbye with a hug and I went back to the room, discussing my experience with Harry and waiting for the other girls to come back.

it was a wrap. we all went out of the room to the area where we all talked to Harry and greeted the rest of the sidemen and had some free merch given out to us, I was grabbing some snacks to eat as I didn't eat much today as I was rushing out of my house today  until I saw harry walking towards me "hey y/n um I enjoyed talking to you and I was wondering...uh If I could have your number or something" I was taken back and I smiled at him "um yea sure its...." I told him my number and I smiled with us talking until the end of the hangout and we all had to go home.

is it weird to say that I miss him already?