A/N: This chapter's in both Andie's and Cole's POV be prepared :) And don't forget to vote ;)

It's been just over four months since what went down with Jess and I've tried not to think about it too much. I lost one of my longest friendships but I guess how long you've been friends with someone doesn't prove who's a more genuine friend.

I figured that out for myself.

She hasn't tried to contact me but then again, I blocked all contact with her and I'm pretty sure Noah hasn't said a word to her since either.

On a positive note, Cole and I have been going stronger than ever and yet we still haven't said I love you. I'm dying to tell him and I've been putting it off forever. I just don't want him to freak out and then I lose him.

Every time I'm with Cole Jones it's one of the most terrifying emotions I've ever experienced but at the same time, I don't want the feeling to go.

How if feel for him consumes me entirely and I'm not ready for that feeling to disappear but I know if it goes, a part of me will be missing. And I don't think I'll ever be ready for that to happen.

I've finally decided—despite me internally freaking out—I'm gonna tell him and I have a plan.

"Andie Mitchell, are you even paying attention?" My English teacher asks sternly and I have no option but to come back to reality.

"If you want your results I suggest you listen up otherwise I'll make you retake the exam." I try my hardest not to roll my eyes and mutter bitch. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Cole trying to suppress his laughter and I playfully glare at him, earning myself a grin.

Heartbeat, please calm the fuck down.

"Now that everyone is paying attention, I would like to congratulate you all for scoring high on the essay. I'm proud to say you all exceeded my expectation."

She hands out our test papers and I'm not even nervous to receive my mark anymore, we have them so often now considering graduation isn't too far away.

The bell goes and I have just a little time left to sort out my grand gesture for Cole. "Can you believe that we both got a B? I, Cole Jones, got a fucking B on my English paper." I laugh and go on my tiptoes to kiss the side of his mouth.

"Well done," I smile as we head out of class. "I can't believe it either. I was fully convinced I was going to fail." The hallways are busy as people scurry to lunch and I turn to look at Cole.

"I'm going to go to my locker. Why don't you go get lunch and I'll meet you there." I suggest.

"Are you sure?" He asks, "I can come with you if you want." I shake my head softly.

"No it's okay, I'll be there soon." He pulls me closer, not caring about the crowded halls, and I throw my arms around his neck. He pecks my lips, pulling away smiling and he's the first one to turn around, walking away.

I watch his figure get lost within the crowd of people and I turn around myself, heading to my locker.

After a bit of a struggle, the stupid thing finally opens up and what I need is sitting right on top. A box.

A box that holds something inside that shows how much I love him. I keep a tight grip on it while I put my books in my locker.

I can't risk losing my grandfathers watch right before I give it to Cole.

"Okay Andie, come here." My nan waves her hand, asking me to come closer. Josh is still inspecting the ring my nan just gave him.

"You saw what I just gave your cousin, didn't you?" I nod and she takes my hand. "I'm going to give you something extremely special as well." She whispers and delicately picks up the watch. So cautious, almost as if she's scared it's going to shatter just by holding it.

I know that watch. It was my grandpa's. It makes sense as to why my nan's face shows a mixture of love and grief.

"You should give this watch to someone you love with not only your whole heart but your soul as well. Give it to someone you think really deserves it so don't give it away carelessly. Make sure it's the right person. One day you'll meet someone you love just as much as I loved your grandfather."

I take the watch from her hands and I wonder if I'll ever meet someone I love enough to give this to them.

I open the box and run my finger over the brown leather strap. "I do," I whisper, not to me but my nan. That's if she can somehow hear me. "I love him with everything I have."

The glass reflects the light from the hall and I make sure to tuck the letter I've written inside. I carefully close it, placing it at the top of my bag, and head to the canteen.

Let's do this.

I finally get to the table we all usually sit at, and Cole isn't there. Only Mia, Josh and Noah are seated. Maybe he's still in the queue for food.

"Hey guys, where's Cole?" I don't bother putting my bag down because if he isn't here I need to find him.

I want to tell him now.

"He left with Seph and everyone with him. I'm surprised you didn't see them, they just left." Mia says and I nod.

"Okay thanks, I'll be back in a sec I'm just gonna go find him." As soon as I step out of the canteen, I grab the box out of my bag and hold it with both my hands, holding it tight.

There's barely anyone in the corridors anymore so it's quiet and I'm almost certain I can hear Cole's voice. I make my way down the hall and he must be just round this corner because his voice gets louder with every step I take. His muffled words becoming clear.

"I said I'm not telling her. She'll hate me." He growls and I can tell he's angry. I stop right before turning the corner so they can't see me. I hate myself for being so nosy but I peer my head around the corner to watch the scene in front of me unfold.

Cole has his hands on Ash's collar and Ash grabs Cole's wrist, just about managing to yank himself away. All three of them are facing Cole and all I can see is his back.

What the hell are they talking about for him to be so angry? Who will hate him?

"Come on dude, don't get angry because you thought with your dick, not your head. This is your fault you're in this position now, not ours." Wait, what? "We all warned you that this could happen and you were adamant it wouldn't. What was it you said? Cole Jones doesn't fall in love?" Ash snorts and the uneasy feeling in my stomach grows.

Why do I feel like I shouldn't be listening right now? But I can find it in me to move. Not after the last thing Ash just said.

"Cole I think you should tell her, it might not go as bad as you think it will. Just explain everything. She might understand." Seph speaks up and Bryce nods in agreement. Cole looks tense, I can tell by his shoulders.

But are they talking about me? She might understand he said. But understand what?

"I said no! She's the best thing going on in my life and I'm not going to ruin it by telling her! What do you even expect me to say?" I dread his next words because I know I'm going to hate whatever it is he's going to say. "Hey, Princess! I hate to be the one to tell you this but I used you to make your cousin angry. But please don't be mad, it isn't what you think. I, really, really fucking lo—"

The box I'm holding slips out of my hands and all I want is for the floor to swallow me whole.

My mind has to be playing tricks on me right? He wouldn't—

My Cole—

He would never do anything like that to me.

The box makes a noise as it hits the floor and all four of them look in my direction. The panicked look on Cole's face is evident but he's just scared now that he's been caught.

"Princess... I promise you it's not what you think, just let me explain." I would say it's a pain that flashes in his eyes but it can't be. I wouldn't have a clue what he's feeling because I guess I don't know Cole as well as I thought I did. Actually no, I don't know him at all.

How could I be so stupid and naïve?

Mia warned me.

And I didn't listen.

Josh warned me.

And I didn't listen.

I don't wait long before spinning around, sprinting down the hall and out the doors. Once there's not one person in sight, crumple to the the floor and ignore the pain from the gravel digging into my skin because what's happening to my heart right now is way worse.

I hate to be the one to tell you this but I used you to make your cousin angry.

It was all a lie.

A massive fucking lie and I'm a joke. A fool. I bet they were all laughing at me behind my back. All four of them.

Together.

Cole's POV:

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck.

"FUCK!" I punch the locker closest to me and I feel all three of my friends staring at me. "Go away," I say lowly and I think they know better than to try and try and calm me down so I'm glad that when I look over my shoulder they're gone.

Only she would be able to calm me down and I...

I messed it up.

The look on her face, the crushed look on her face, I did that to her.

Not anyone else.

Me.

I was just about to test my luck and run after her but I notice a white box on the floor tilted on its side. That must've been what she dropped.

I kneel to pick it up and open it, surprised to see that it's a watch.

Who was it for? Was it for me?

I take it out of the box and a piece of paper swiftly moves back and forth like a feather until it touches the floor. My eyebrows crease in confusion and I grab it, immediately unfolding it.

Dear Cole,

Shit. I've already screwed it up. Is dear Cole to formal? Why am I still writing? I need to restart.

I somehow find myself laughing slightly, despite the current situation I've put myself in. She's so fucking cute. I bet she didn't even mean to keep that piece of paper in. I get the paper from behind it and read.

Cole,

The first time I met you I hated you—I know, not romantic at all I know. But it's true... But that didn't mean I wasn't intrigued by you the second we met. I didn't want to admit it to myself but I knew that there was more to you I wanted to know but I never would have thought that we would've gone from rude comments when bumping into each other in the hall to where we are now.

I don't know when it changed. I've racked my brain so many times to try and figure out when it was but I can't seem to do so. But if I think about it, it's because it didn't just happen all at once. Gradually you took pieces of my heart until you had all of it. Whether I wanted you to or not.

The diner trips, when you sat with me on my mum's birthday, the ice skating, when you moved to my health class, even when we were partnered for a project. Each time you took a piece of me and the end result is you now having my heart in your hands.

Once my mother died, I changed. I moved here and intended to finish the school year alone but the more time I spent with you the more the old Andie came through. So thank you. I can't thank you enough. You showed me that it was okay to hurt and to grieve but I was also allowed to heal.

Remember me telling you about my nan's ring Josh gave to Mia? My nan gave me my grandfathers watch and told me the same thing. That I should give this to someone I love with not only my heart but soul as well and I do, Cole. I love you with everything I have. All of me is yours. I love you so fucking much so believe me when I say this,

I've never felt this way before. Ever.

My nan also said to give this watch to someone who deserves it and you do, Cole. When I first met you, wanna know what I thought? Why are the hot ones always the jerks? You're probably gonna laugh at me for even telling you this but I thought I'd tell you anyway.

But I was wrong. You're not a jerk. You're one of the sweetest and most caring people I've ever met and I don't think I would want to love anyone else even if I could. You're one incredible person Cole Jones and I love you. I can't believe I'm only telling you now. I've known it for months.

Stupid, I know.

But now that I've said it, I can say it as many times as I want. I love you, I love you, I love you and I think—no, I know—I'll love you for the rest of my life. Maybe you'll think it's too early for me to say it but it feels so right. Everything with you does. You're the final piece of the jigsaw puzzle. You complete me. Without you... something is missing.

I read somewhere that it's not the fall that kills you, it's the impact when you hit the bottom. So I ask you this: When the time comes... will you catch me? For the love of God, please catch me because if you don't, I don't think I'll survive.

This watch is a symbol of my heart. I'm giving you all of me. I'm giving you my heart, Cole. Please don't break it.

I love you, Cole. Only you, always.
— Andie

She loves me? Holy fuck.

She loves me back.

How could she love someone like me? They were right. I should've told her all of this before. Maybe then all this wouldn't have happened. We could be together with nothing in our way.

You're such a fuck up.

My hands are still trembling after my fifth time reading it through. I put the watch on and everything my girl—who's probably not even mine anymore—had written goes through my mind.

I'm giving you all of me. I'm giving you my heart, Cole. Please don't break it.

She gave me her heart and I've already crushed it.

The way she looked at me...

The way she looked at me like she didn't even recognize me was enough for my heart to shatter as well. The pain in my chest, where it feels like I'm being stabbed repeatedly, is a warning that I'm losing her.

That's if you haven't lost her already.

I need to go and see her now. I dash out the school doors and run to my car. I fucked up this time and if she doesn't forgive me I don't know what I'll do.

I'll never forgive myself.

I need to see her and explain.

Speeding down the roads, I pull up outside her house and quickly get out the car. I take a deep breath and knock the door and stand there, waiting.

I recall the many times I stood outside my car waiting for her to come out. I'd do it because I know how special she is. How fucking incredible she is. I finally had her and I've probably lost her already.

All for what? Seeing her as a way to piss off her cousin.

I had the fucked up idea as soon as I found out she was linked with Josh. I knew I could use her but I also knew that wasn't the only reason why I was doing it.

I knew I was doing it because it meant I got to see her, she would speak to me. Even if it was because I was annoying the hell out of her. I loved to see her fight back.

I knew my 'plan' was starting to backfire when she pulled me aside in the hallway after the morning she went out for a run. I still don't know why she went on a run that morning. She hates it.

Whatever it is you have planned, don't do it, you're going to get caught. She said.

Those words made me think that maybe she cared. That maybe she was concerned and that's when the peculiar feeling I felt, grew a little stronger. I never truly went out with her to get a rise out of Josh. Even if I claimed I did.

I'd take her places because I like spending time with her. Every time she laughed I'd get chills and have the instant urge to smile. Every time our eyes met I'd want to push a piece of her hair behind her ear. Every word I said to her, I wanted to make her smile.

Because her smile is unlike any other I've ever seen. Her smile makes my heart thump against my rib cage.

The way I felt got worse at the cemetery. I remember being jealous and acting on impulse. I would say it backfired but really, it didn't. I got to be there for her that day. I saw what she'd been through and if my previous plan wasn't already haunting me enough, it definitely got worse then.

I wanted to tell her so many times but I thought she'd never look my way again.

I can't lose her now. I need to say that my stupid idea went out of the window not even a week after I made it.

I knock again.

Please answer the door baby...

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