Jacko drove me to the hospital last night. It's currently 2am and they're still operating on Harry. The last time I seen him was when he got taken into the ambulance and he was a mess. His chances weren't good at all.

"How long does surgery take?" I groan, sick and tired of waiting. Every doctor I ask just points to the waiting room and tells me to let the doctors do their job.

"Ella, I know you're stressing out but surgeries can take hours." Jacko puts his hand on mine which is on my thigh. "Do you need some food or water? You didn't have dinner last night and must be starving."

"I'm not hungry." I tell him, hoping he hasn't heard my tummy rumbling this past hour or so. "It's just making those noises because I feel sick."

"Yeah sure." He chuckles. "I'll get you a coffee." He stands up and walks towards the lifts where the cafeteria is on another floor. I must admit, he's been really good to me. I know him and Harry don't like each other, but for Jacko to be here with me really makes me think that I have my old friend back.

I send a quick text to Gemma. I tried calling her when I was on my way to the hospital but her phone was off.

To Gemma: hey Gem, I'm sorry to be calling and texting you at this ungodly hour, but you might want to come to the hospital. Harry was shot and is being operated on now. I'm here now.

"Are you here for Harry styles?" A man with a light blue doctors hat on and stethoscope around his neck comes towards me.

"Yes, how is he?" I stand up eagerly and walk towards the man.

"We almost lost him. There was internal bleeding due to how deep the bullet wound was, but we managed to remove the bullet and operate around that area to ensure the wounded area is stitched up and certain areas have been removed."

I feel like so much weight has been lifted off my chest and I hold onto it as I thank the doctor. "Thank you so much. So he will be okay?"

"Yes-" I sigh in relief, but I shouldn't have spoke to soon. "For now he is stable. The next twenty four hours will be critical, but we will keep a close eye on him."

"Okay and you mentioned areas removed?"

"Yes." He nods his head and looks down at his clip board. "We had to remove a large area of Mr Styles' lower abdomen in which the bullet wound was." He pauses and I nod my head. Can the guy please get to the point. "Which means that Mr Styles fertility has reduced and he may be unable to conceive."

"He won't be able to have kids?" My hands go to my mouth. He didn't say it was definite though. "Can you please be honest with me here."

"It's not impossible, but highly unlikely. I'm very sorry-?"

"Ella."

"I'm very sorry Ella." He pats me on the shoulder.

"Okay, well can I see him?" I see Jacko in the corner of my eye step out of the lift. He has a smile on his face with two coffees in hand. He probably thinks the news is good - but it's not.

"He's asleep now and needs time to recover, but we will call you when he's awake and you can come in."

"Thank you." I say and the doctor nods at me before walking away.

"You aren't crying, so I take it he's all good?" Jacko places my coffee in my hands.

"Thank you." I slightly smile at him, but I'm not in the mood for happiness. "He's fine now, but he had internal bleeding and the doctor said the nest twenty four hours will be critical." It's none of my business to tell Jacko that he may have problems conceiving so I left that part out.

"Ella, that's great!" He looks at me as if I'm crazy for not jumping with joy. "Why aren't you happy? He could've died."

"I'll be happy once I can see him and he's better. I just don't have a good feeling."

"Stay positive aright. All you can do is think happy thoughts." He rubs my arm. "Imagine how happy he will be when he sees you."

"Harry isn't one to express his emotions." I chuckle a little. "But I hope so."

"Come sit back down." Jacko starts walking towards the chairs.

"I think I'll stay here and stand."

"Come on Ella. You barely have any energy as it is. I don't want you fainting on me." He tries to pull me by my hand, but I don't budge. "I'll tell you how I know Aleisha if you come."

I quickly turn my head in his direction and walk to the seats and sit down. "Tell."

"You nosey little thing." He shakes his head, but laughs and comes towards the seats and sits next to me. "Ask me questions."

"How did you meet Aleisha?"

"We were at a club. I seen her as she's a hot chick and I was drunk to the max. I started dancing with her and she told me to go away but of course I didn't. Eventually she started dancing with me and we were both very intoxicated. We then kissed, then went to the bathrooms and one thing led to another."

"Wow." I am lost for words. I'm glad he's being honest with me and he's just being a normal guy whereas Aleisha knew she had a boyfriend. "Did she ever mention a boyfriend?"

"Not once."

"Well I know her boyfriend and he is pretty heartbroken. His mate Michael works with her and she told Michael that she's dating you. Is that true?"

"We aren't dating. You know I don't date. We just hook up and she got kicked out of her apartment because she said she had an argument with her roommates and she needed a job to pay for her rent at this shitty place so I spoke to dad and he's helping her out."

"That's nice of you." I take a sip of my coffee. "Jacko does have a heart." I say sarcastically.

"Honestly, Jacko is thinking with his dick, but she's a nice girl." He shrugs and chuckles.

"Too honest Jacko. Too homest." I face palm and shake my head in my hands. "Gross."

"We've always been honest with each other." He reminds me. "And I'm sorry I forgot you're a virgin."

"Hm yeah.."

"What?" He smirks. "What was that look you gave me?"

"What look? I gave you no look."

"Ella Jackson tell me this - are you still a virgin or has boxer boy stolen that?" He wiggles his eyebrows. I don't reply and his jaw drops. "Fuck Ella!" He arm of the chair and we receive some stares from others in the waiting room. "How was it?"

"I'm not speaking about this with you." I drink my coffee and continue drinking it so that Jacko can't ask me anymore questions.

"I'll get you drunk one day and I'll get it out of you. Or I'll ask boxer boy himself. I'll get it out of him."

"As if he would tell you and besides Harry doesn't talk about me that way to people. He's quite protective and also we aren't together anymore so I doubt it'll happen again." I shrug. It was good whilst it lasted.

"What do you mean not together? You guys were saying how much you loved each other. If him bleeding to death wasn't making me sick enough, your lovey dovey chat was."

"Yeah we do love each other, but he broke up with me and you can't just lose feelings that quickly." I'll still probably always love Harry. When you fall that deeply for someone they always have that kind of effect on you.

"Well just a heads up, if you're ever in the mood for some fun you know who to call." He smirks and I slap his shoulder.

"No way!" I pretend to gag. "Reason one, I'm not like that and reason two, I know you too well to even think about that friends with benefits thing."

"Damn. I'm gutted." He holds onto his heart and pretends to be hurt.

"Ella." The same doctor from before calls out to me and Jacko and I both stand and meet him in the middle of the hallway. "Harry's awake, so if you would like to go and see him now you may. But be careful because he's still half under his anaesthetic."

"Thank you so much."

"I'll wait for you here." Jacko takes my empty coffee cup from my hands.

"You don't want to come? You were the one who saved his life."

"It's no biggie honestly. You go see your boyfriend." He smiles and I wrap my arms around him and squeeze him.

"Thanks Jacko." I kiss his cheek and he rubs my back as we hug.

"I'll be waiting out here."

*

I wait outside his room for a minute or so, thinking about what to say to him. I honestly have no idea what's going to happen, but I just want him to know that he is okay and alive. On the way here the doctor who's name is Dr George told me that I can tell Harry about the possibility of not being able to have children or they can tell him. I told him that I'll tell him as he would probably rather hear it from me.

"Hey." I say as I open the door. "You had me worried for hours."

"I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault. I'm just glad you're okay." I take his hand as I stand by his side on the right side of the bed. He moves his hand away from mine and I awkwardly put my hand on my own.

"This doesn't change anything for us." He doesn't look at me as he speaks. "This just gives me even more of a reason as to why you need to stay away from me."

"So what? I'm the reason why you got shot? Do you even know who it was?"

"Stop asking so many questions Ella. I just want to get the fuck out of here." He groans and he must notice my shift in movement so he apologises. "Sorry. I just hate being tied down."

"And you're not getting rid of me this easily. Especially when you left me wanting to ask so many questions and now you have no choice but to answer them."

"We can't be together alright. Why don't you just leave? I'm fine."

"What about last night huh? Repeatedly asking Jacko to look after me. You can't stand him! You also told me that you love me and I'm the best thing to ever happen to you. Does that mean nothing?"

He finally looks at me and I almost fall back as his green eyes pierce through me. "Of course I love you, but if you love someone so much and want the best for them then you have to let them go because if they stay with you then they could be the next person in this hospital."

"I would rather be in this hospital than be without you. You make me feel safe. I can't even explain how you make me feel. I love you Harry." I try to take his hand again and this time he thankfully doesn't pull away. "Just please can you give us another try? I don't care if we have to sneak around or if I only get to see you once a week. I need you Harry." I know he has just woken up from surgery but I know he's going to tell me to leave any minute and I wasn't him to know that I'm not giving up on us.

"Zayn, Jacko and your new band friends can protect you. You seem to be having fun with them on your Instagram."

"But they're not you Harry!"

"Look at me." He points to his body. "I am unable to move out of this bed and as soon as o get out of here the person who is responsible for me being in this situation is going to make me fight again."

"Why won't you go to the police?"

"David has connections. He will go to jail, but I'll be dead and so will you and everyone we care about because his mutuals will get us."

"Harry, there's something I need to tell you." It's no use speaking to him about us because he obviously doesn't love me like he did.

"Don't go telling me some shit like your pregnant." He rolls his eyes. "I'm kidding. What is it?"

"Why do you have to bring up being pregnant?" I sigh. He isn't going to like what I'm about to tell him.

"Is that a touchy subject for you or something?" He shakes his head.

"It's not that it's just-"

"Just spit it out Ella."

"You had internal bleeding Harry and they had to cut out more than just the bullet wound." "

"How has that got to do with a female a pregnancy?" Why does he have to be so difficult.

"The area which they cut out has reduced your fertility."

"English please."

"You may not be able to conceive Harry. You may not be able to have kids." I watch his face turn even more pale than it already is, but his eyes don't leave mine. "I'm so sorry."

"Get out." He says through gritted teeth.

"I'm so sorry Harry, it was either me to tell you or them-"

"I said get out!" He shouts and I jump back as he scares the living daylights out of me. Without a word I leave his side and walk out the door, not bothering to shut it gently as it slams shut.

When I go out to Jacko he is on his phone and stands up when he sees me. "How'd it go?" He asks and I don't reply. I just lean into his chest and burst into tears. My heart is breaking all over again and this time it hurts even more.

"It's okay. Shhh, it'll be okay." He rubs my back and plays with my hair as I sob into his chest. If only it was all okay then I wouldn't be feeling like this right now.

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