Until I turned around and saw him, and it was stupid of me for him to have the same effect on me all over again.

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"H-Hi I um called you over here to sort things out between us both." I stuttered like a dumb person I am.

He quietly nodded and just looked at the scenery waiting for me to continue on with my sentence.

"I firstly want to apologize for the way I've been treating you, but I have my reasons." I quietly said as my timid self started taking over.

By then he joined in the conversation and started to talk. "I completely understand but I as well would want to apologize.

There is no excuse on how I treated you and our relationship and I want to make up for that. So if you could please just hear me out I would greatly appreciate it.

I wasn't in the right mindset when we started talking and I for sure didn't know what I had when I lost it. I was a complete jerk on how I played with your feelings. I should've known better not to but it was out of habit of me to do so."

I gripped on my sleeve for support as I grew nervous to go on, but I decided to swallow my nerves and speak.

"What we have been doing was totally ridiculous and childish, we should've been grown ups about the situation." My throat tightened threatening to give out at any moment.

It was a sensitive spot for me, I was weak.

"But I can say the feelings I have for you haven't changed. I don't know if it's dumb of me to feel this way after everything, and I'm afraid of what's to come." I said challenging myself from not biting my tongue.

"I just know that I'm willing to try again, even if it's a dumb move of me to make." I quietly said feeling too overwhelmed with emotion to go on.

I looked up only to see his stare focused on the ground as if he was thinking this over.

I wouldn't blame him this was a big thing it meant a lot. Not only for me but for him as well, these were our feelings. Our feelings at risk, not only that but just us in general.

"I don't know, it seems like I'm throwing this opportunity away but it's not that. I'm just afraid of the same outcome."

I bit my lip not wanting to bite my tongue but I decided to say it anyways, "But you just said that you had a different mindset right? Meaning that you would be cautious about things r-right?"

"I know what I said but that's the point, I have to be aware of what I want. I can't just rush into things like last time. , I know that sounds selfish but I'm not trying to get us both hurt and I hope you understand that Minsun." He said taking his final blow at this.

I was left speechless, totally oblivious of what was going on. I felt completely dumb, but that's what this all comes with right?

"Look I can see the disappointment in your face, you're not hard to read. So why don't we just walk around and talk? Also probably going out to eat. Have that date you wanted, if you remember." He shyly said taking a few closer steps to me.

I was dumbfounded and confused, what was he going on about. I remember the date I had said but I didn't think he would remember.

I just felt like this went over my head, I feel like I was the childish one. I just decided to go with the flow and have a good heart with where this was going.

"S-sure, to be honest with you I didn't think you would remember." 

He chuckled a bit and stuffed his hands into his pockets as it was getting chilly. "I wouldn't forget you were ecstatic about it, and I felt bad for not taking you out when I had the chance."

"Oh well here we are now." I casually said walking side by side. The air felt pretty great, it was a nice breeze that was upon us.

"Yeah I guess so, what have you been up to these few weeks? I guess we could catch up or do you want to do that over dinner?"

I thought over it but was conflicted on what to choose, "how about we just talk till we get to dinner?" I asked turning my head towards his direction.

"That seems suitable, so tell me did you miss me?" He asked in a playful manner.

I being me gave him the what the fuck look, "Too early?" He asked with a cheeky smile.

I nodded and replied "too early." I said with a small chuckle, he knew how to bring up spirits.

"But seriously though what have you been up to? During Christmas time it was really busy and hectic I hope you had a good Christmas as well."

"It was hectic and my Christmas was pleasant also with New Years following after, I'm sure you had a good one too right?" I asked hesitatingly as I just assumed. 

"It was great, had many parties here and there. Mostly company ones but private ones not so often, did you do something special?"

I thought about it long and hard and nodded in agreement that I did something special. "I did, it isn't much but it means a lot. I and Jimin got to be real festive during Christmas, we always go out in decorating . Or I should say we used to always go out."

"Hm why do you say used to? Is something wrong between the both of you?" He asked concerned.

"No everything's perfect between the both of us, it's just that I-" I cut myself off before continuing wondering if I should tell him about my new place.

"That you?" He eagerly asked,

"I moved out." I said with a relaxed tone.

End of chapter 41

A/n: double update because I felt bad.