"Wanna watch it too?"

"Bet." Blake said sitting in the sofa next to me.

"I'm more of a Formula 1 guy, but football is fun, so let's fucking go." Roman sat on the other side of me as I turned on the tv.

"I like Formula 1 too." I told him gaining a surprised look from him.

"That's the sexiest thing I've ever heard." He dabbed me up as if I was his bro he hasn't seen for 5 years. "What team?" He asked and it felt like a lot depended in that answer.

"Ferrari, of course." I said confidently.

He immediately stood up and got closer to Jordan who was sitting in the bed next to the couch we were sitting.

"I'm extremely sorry to tell you this bro, but you have no chance. I mean have you fucking seen the Ferrari drivers? Those dudes got me questioning my sexuality and shit." Roman said looking at me as if waiting for me to agree.

I don't know what chance he is talking about, but he is not wrong about them being extremely good looking.

"Look them up and you'll see." He said using his finger to make emphasis before sitting besides me.

I was happy to have them watching the match of my favorite football team with me, even Jordan that didn't seem much interested, but he still watched it. I'm used to watch it alone so it felt nice to have company.

"By the way, who are we supporting the blue ones or red ones." Roman asked as the match started.

"The blue ones are my favorite team, Monte." I answered.

"Sucks, the red ones seem better."

"It's been one minute since the match started idiot." Blake said this time.

"And it's been one minute of the blue ones playing bad, your point?" Roman said giving an annoyed look to Blake.

A few minutes passed by and the game was getting interesting. My team scored and I screamed and Roman joined me.

"Let's fucking go blue ones I always believed in you." Roman high five me and I playfully rolled my eyes because he literally doubted them since the first minute.

The match ended and my team won, I was extremely happy and when I looked at Jordan I saw him already looking at me with a smirk in his face, I gave him a random thumbs up along with a smile and continued celebrating with Roman that was just as happy as me.

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Sleeping next to someone else is a whole challenge for me, it doesn't matter who the person is I'll always be scared of making them uncomfortable or annoying them some way.

It makes me extremely self conscious of the way I'm breathing, if I'm moving too much, even if my heart is beating too fast that they can hear it or even feel it.

I hate it.

Being fair, my parents have complained before about how I never let them sleep when I've slept next to them.

This is also why I don't like sleepovers or anything that means that I'll have to sleep next to someone.

The thought of sleeping next to Jordan made me really nervous even though we have practically slept together hours ago in my bed, but I was never planning on it so it's different. Now that I'm aware my anxiety kicks in.

Roman and Blake were already asleep in their bed after a long day in six flags, being honest, it was a cool day.

Jordan started putting our pillow wall as we agreed while I laid in bed looking away from him to avoid the awkwardness. I was expecting him to lay down as well, but he never did, instead he headed to the balcony.

I had time alone to calm down and fall asleep, but I still couldn't, I couldn't stop thinking of how I might look sleeping, that's probably not a pleasant view.

After a while shifting in bed I gave up and made my way to the balcony as well.

I walked quietly not wanting to wake up Roman or Blake, and before I opened the balcony door I hesitated. Is this a good idea?

Jordan is just standing there smoking, I don't know how awkward it can be for me to just walk in and ruin his moment. When Jordan turned his head and made eye contact with me I realized it was too late for me to back up.

I mean how was I supposed to explain what I was doing just standing there without any intention to walk in?

Well I'm basically walking out because the balcony is outside but you know what I mean.

I finally opened the door and said a small 'sup' to him as I sat in one of the chairs.

A few minutes passed by and no one said anything, but it wasn't awkward as I feared, instead I even felt myself relaxing with the fresh air caressing my skin while I just looked at the night sky.

"Aren't you gonna tell me I shouldn't smoke?" He questioned making me look at him. He was now wearing a black t-shirt with black sweatpants, his hair looked messier than usual.

The main source of light was the moon and that brought a sweet kind of comfort.

"I think you know that already." I replied looking at the sky again.

I've never smoked and I'm not planning to do so anytime soon, but I respect if other people does. Who am I to tell someone else what they should or not do?

I'm aware smoking is bad, I think everyone knows and still some people do it, and sometimes it's not even because they want to but because they need to. So clearly it isn't that easy to just give it up.

"I do." He said turning away as well.

"Then why you do it?" I stood up and got closer to the edge to get a better view at the moon.

"Because I'm bored." He said nonchalantly looking at me.

"No one ruins their life just because they are bored, Danny." He gave me a look, probably for the nickname.

"Well my life is fucked up either way, Luna." His tone was dead serious, and even though the way he phrased it was giving me major emo vibes, I felt bad for him.

When someone says that it can either mean they wasted money in food that was ass or their whole family is dead. There's a large range.

"I think everyone's life is at least a little fucked up, and that's ok, it is what it is." I tried to reassure him some way, I didn't want to ask what he meant because it can be something personal. "But, uh, if you ever need to talk about your 'fucked-up-ness', I'm here." I added.

He shook his head and chuckled while he made his way to sit in one of the two chairs. I sat in the chair besides him and got comfortable.

"Why are you awake?" I asked making him turn towards me, the smoke of his cigarette now reaching my nose making me cough several times.

"Shit, I'm sorry." He immediately stood up getting away from me.

I didn't even actually smoked and I'm dying, sounds like something that would happen to me.

When I got myself together I noticed his hand that was once holding a cigarette was now holding one of the bottles of water we bought at the store. He hand it to me and I took some sips.

The cigarette was now nowhere to be seen but I didn't question it.

"Yep I don't recommend smoking." I said resting my head in the seat. "Anyways, you didn't answer my question."

"I barely sleep." He simply said and I was starting to think that he was a vampire, or maybe he is just in his emo era. "Why are you awake?" He now asked me.

"Well let's say I have sleeping problems too."

No one said anything after that, Jordan was checking his phone and when I grabbed mine I checked the time, I noticed it was almost 3 a.m. and my body was starting to turn off.

Suddenly the chair felt really comfortable.

Jordan's POV

I was about to say something to her but when I noticed she was asleep I shut my mouth.

I rolled my eyes at how she falls asleep anywhere but a fucking bed.

Sighing, I carefully put my arms around her and carried her to bed. I completely stopped walking when she moved her arms around my neck and rested her head in my neck.

Fuck.

"Good night Danny." She said in a soft sleepy voice. I carefully left her in the bed and not knowing what else to do I covered her with the blanket.

I was about to go back to the balcony and continue smoking, but I started fucking hesitating.

Fucking hell. I laid in my side of the bed, the pillow wall or whatever this shit is called was annoying me, but she wants it so I just sucked it up.

"Good night, Luna."

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"What the hell Jordan?"

I opened my eyes and noticed how my arm was around Roman who was laying besides me.

"What the fuck?" I quickly stood up to see what the hell was going on because this was the last fucking thing I expected to wake up to. Luna was still asleep, laying besides Roman so I stopped myself from kicking Roman's ass in that moment.

"Surprise!" Roman fucking screamed.

I grabbed him by the shirt and move him the fuck off the bed.

Adira's POV

"Surprise!"

The scream along with a loud noise was enough to wake me up in alarm. When I opened my eyes and noticed everything was ok the fast pace of my heart lowered down a bit.

I saw Roman and Jordan about to kill each other, but that was nothing new so I wasn't worried.

"Sup guys." I said making them both look at me.

Jordan shoved Roman away and Roman showed him his middle finger.

"What the hell is going on?" Blake asked as he woke up as well.

"Do you wanna explain or should I?" Roman asked Jordan and Jordan rolled his eyes in response.

"Ok I'll do it, just asking for education." Jordan seemed like he was growing desperate as Roman kept talking.

"I'll be short, Blake wouldn't stop fucking snoring and I'm used to it, but this bed is so freaking small I couldn't take it, so I saw these two laying the further away from each other possible, just like a divorced couple, and I couldn't waste the opportunity." He stopped to catch his breath.

"Ok, so then I removed their pillow wall which was probably useless just like ours and decided I could be a better pillow wall, so I laid between them trying to sleep until this weirdo tried to cuddle with me and is now trying to kill me as if he wasn't about to kiss me two minutes ago." Roman finished talking and I couldn't help it but burst out laughing, specially after seeing Jordan's face.

"He probably thought it was you laying beside him and was trying to be smooth with it but nah uh, I'll always protect you pumpkin." Roman said doing the soldier sign with his hand on his forehead.

"Yeah whatever, Roman move your ass, we will go buy some hygiene products because this hotel barely has any, Adi do you need anything?" Blake said.

"I'm okay, thank you Blake." I said before looking at Roman. "Roman, I want whatever you smoked." I joked standing up and he didn't waste more time to hug me, I hugged him back while I still laughed at the situation. He stopped hugging me and followed Blake to the exit of the room.

I felt a pair of hands grabbing my waist from behind and I hated how I started to become familiar with his touch.

"Want a hug too?" I asked him looking up behind me and he rolled his eyes and pinched the side of my waist. He was becoming too touchy, but still it always took me by surprise.

"I hate hugs." He said and I remembered about that day that I tried to hug him and he just stood there waiting for me to move.

"To be fair you hate everything." I replied remembering how he hates my nickname for him, his second super cool name, probably everyone on earth, and now it adds hugs.

"Yeah, almost everything." I tried to move away but his hands wouldn't take a hint.

"Hey, your hands." I said and he removed them. I turned around and you could say he looked embarrassed.

"Sorry, I won't do it again if it bothers you." He apologized leaving me shocked and making me feel bad because it doesn't bothers me at all I just wanted to move because I need to go pee and I was starting to feel nervous, but I can't tell him that.

"It doesn't bother me!" I said a bit too loud, almost desperate and I internally cringe. "I mean it's ok I don't mind." I added to try to fix it.

"Do me a favour would you, Luna?" He said with a weird look on his face and I just nodded. He started leaning forward and stopped besides my ear.

"If anyone even tries touching you, you tell me, ok?" He whispered and then pulled away so we could make eye contact.

"Ok." I said nodding trying to hide my wide eyes.

"Good." He smiled a little before planting a kiss on my forehead.

"Can you leaned down a little bit, please." I said and he immediately did it.

Without thinking twice I kissed his cheek, and when I was about to face him I was scared to see a look of annoyance or disgust on his face but instead I found him smiling at me.

"Good." Was the only thing he said after that.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE

Hope you enjoyed! Thank you for all the support recently it means a lot!!<3

I had to put a Cigarettes After Sex song in honor of the chapter title.

Also, Roman wasn't joking when he said the F1 Ferrari drivers are extremely good looking and that you should definitely search them up ;)

-ARV

Posted: April 11th 2022