A/N: warning: graphic, gore, depressing

Also Happy New Years! To 2023 let's hope things get better!

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Badum!

Yuji's entire body froze for a split second as he feels a part of him died. 

In the middle of a battle with Hanami, Yuji got this despair feeling in his heart. No it wasn't in his heart, he feels this pain deeply embedded in his soul. 

Everything in him feels like his body is shutting down and there is a heavy weight in his heart. 

He clutches his chest trying to breathe as this feeling is suffocating him. Like he was drowning in this feeling of...empty. He couldn't decipher why he was feeling this way, what brought this sudden sadness?

He was shoved by Megumi, who pushed him out of Hanami's attack. "Yuji focus what is the matter with you!?" he yells, trying to get through to whatever daze he's in.

"I don't....I don't feel so good," Yuji mutters, clenching his chest tightly. He couldn't breathe, he couldn't breathe! He tried to take deep breaths to try to get air in his lungs until he feels a sudden numbness. 

In the corner of his eye he sees something hover in the sky. At first he thought it was Gojo-sensei but when he looks closer it is not Gojo. Chaos flies into another direction as an invisible force pulls Yuji into the direction he was at. 

"It's Y/N she's in trouble," Yuji mutters mindlessly. 

Mindlessly yet his entire body is screaming that there is nothing but trouble and something went horribly wrong. He feels a hard shove in his back, moving him forward. He turns around and his eyes widen when he sees Todo.

"Todo!?" Yuji asked, looking to see his besto friendo. 

"Go get her brother! We got this!" 

Maki, Mai, and Panda appears beside Nobara, everyone ready to gang up on Hanami. Yuji has to trust them as he turns and runs into a direction into the woods. 

-

"Y/N! Y/N!" Sukuna screams.

The way your clothes pooled around you as your body mass decreased through most of your body yet some parts of you enlarged. If you didn't have your clothes Sukuna wouldn't have known it was you this fast. Your eyes are barely open as he rests your head on his lap. Your skin is a deep shade of purple, your body is twisted unnaturally.

Your soul was tortured. 

He watches the life leave your eyes and you go still in his hold. 

Sukuna quickly uses his reverse curse technique to heal your body. 

"Do not do this to me Y/N!" he growls, watching your body slowly return to normal. When your body is mostly returned to it's normal state he places his hand on your chest, where your soul rests. He put everything, everything into healing your soul. 

"I cannot lose you, not you," he growls that turns into a soft, but harsh whisper. 

You didn't move a muscle as he tries to heal your soul. He's Ryomen Sukuna, if he can't save the woman he loves is he truly worthy of the title? "Rabbit wake up," he hisses, gripping your shoulders. "We have plans for the future. Rabbit!" He shakes you harder, the hope inside him beginning to diminish.

"Dammit Y/N you said you would stay!" he yells. 

You have to be the one-in-a-trillion chance to come back!

He promised he would try to save a person if their soul has been transfigured, but that didn't mean it had to be you!

His mind snaps and he feels every emotion in boil in his stomach. The heart he grew for you, beats wildly in his chest. It's so loud he can't hear anything else. He stares at your face and sees two water drops onto your cheeks. Then more and he looks up expecting rain, but there's no rain in the sky. 

He touches his face, feeling tears flow freely. 

"Hey have you ever cried?"

Sukuna looks down to you as you sit on his lap, resting your head against his chest. You glance up at him, curiosity in your eyes. The two of you are in his domain where you told him another story, something about a world of Robots. Where some lady and her son were melting older robots into scrap metal to make "upgrades" in a Chop Shop. Then you went on a rant of how it means they're basically making dead robots into clothes in a children's movie, but a good movie nonetheless.

"Have I ever cried?" he repeats your words, glancing up to think about it. He doesn't know when the last time he shed tears, before you came along he cared for nothing at all. 

Even now the only things he cares are is himself and you.

"Probably on the day I was born, but other than that I don't think I ever did."

You let out a little hum and glance back down to your lap. "So does that mean you won't cry at my funeral?" you asked, jokingly. Sukuna frowns as he watches you and he sees some sadness on your face. "What brought this up?" he questions, his hand rubbing your lower back. You shrug your shoulders and nudge to the skulls with your hand.

"The skulls remind me of death so it just got me thinking is all, when my death will finally come. And I mean a permanent death, not being brought back to life after so many times."

"Rabbit, you are not going to die permanently."

"It's just- you're really strong Ryo, I'm not on your level," you start. "And I have faced death way too many times, my luck might run out one of these days. I'm probably going to die before you."

"You are not going to die Y/N, I will not let that happen," he snarls, making you jump in his lap. When he said those words his lips pulled back in a snarl and his teeth were sharp. "Sukuna we don't know-"

"Are you doubting my power? My strength? Do you believe that I would fail to keep you alive."

 You nervously get off of his lap as he stands up towering over you. You struck a nerve in him and you're not sure if it's because you hurt his pride or ego or he can't bare the thought of losing you. He's normally gentle with you so this was a bit shocking. 

Okay you're a little scared.

"Sukuna, life happens," you quickly speak. You keep your tone gentle and your hands are raised to have a soft approach as his eyes are glowing red in anger. "Every living thing dies, it's just how it works you know that. I don't doubt your power, strength and me dying should not be seen as your failure."

Your hand rests on his chest, feeling his heart beat fast under your palm. His hand grips yours tightly, his hand shaking a bit.

"I'm sorry for bringing this up, my humor about death just gets the best of me." He let's out a sigh and his stature does relax a bit. "It's just one of those things that are going to happen and I don't know if I'll be brought back for the third time. I'm not afraid of it, but I think I'm more scared of what's going to happen to you while I'm gone." 

Now it was your turn for your hand to shake in his hold. "I just need to know if you're going to be okay. I can't leave this world if I don't know you're going to be okay." His hand cups your face and his eyes harden.

"If I lost you...I think I would truly become a great evil," he spoke. "An evil calamity."

"Hm, well I guess I should never die and stay then," you giggle lightly. "But I thought you were already a great evil, what's different this time?" He kisses your knuckles and the hand that was cupping your face slides down to hold your waist. He rests his forehead against yours, his ruby eyes staring into yours. 

"Because this time I have someone to lose."

He failed you.

He puts you down gently and stands tall. His rage is felt in the earth as it crumbles under his feet. His hands are clenched tightly into fists, his blood running between his fingers. His steps are heavy, sluggish as he walks away from your body. 

One of his hands reaches up to his chest and pierces himself. Blood pools his mouth as his fingers wrap around his heart. It beats steadily in his chest until he rips it up. He wipes his mouth clean as he tosses it to the side.

He mindlessly walks into the woods, going after this strong power source. He hunts for his main target, Chaos.

-

Yuji breathes heavily as he runs fast to where the source his pulling him to. He had to get there, he needed to find you. He has to find you! His mind was a mess at the thought he was going to lose you. 

He let's out a scream when he trips over something and falls on his face harsh. He groans in pain, his nose throbbing in pain. He feels blood pour down his face and his eyes widen when he sees you in front of him.

"Y/N hey!" he calls out, standing as he grips his face. He walks closer, smiling as he sees you're just fine. "Did you get knocked out or something?!" With each step he takes closer, the more he feels like his throat closes up.

"Y/N hey wake up," he mutters, dropping to your side. Yuji reaches up to lightly smack your face and when that didn't wake you up he started panicking. Maybe you're just in a deep sleep! He leans close to your lips to hear or feel your breath, but he didn't feel or hear anything. 

"No, no, no, no Y/N!" Yuji screams.

He pulls you to his chest, inspecting your body for wounds. "You're okay, you're okay!" he repeats, checking for fatal wounds. Your body is normal, but what happened to your hands? Your legs are twisted unnaturally as well, but there are red marks showing that there was more twists in your limbs. He presses his ear against your chest to hear no heartbeat. 

"Fuck!" he curses, laying you flat on your back. He presses both of his hands above your heart and starts compressions to get your heart beating again. 

"What happened to you?!" he asked, pressing in rhythm. "Breathe dammit breathe!"  He leans close to your lips, trying to listen to any sign of life. When he didn't hear you breathing he went back to compressions. 

"Tis but a scratch remember?! You're going to be a-okay!" 

No response as he didn't let up the compressions. 

"Remember?! Y/N we're supposed to eat ramen together! You can't leave me!" Tears fills his eyes as he opens your mouth and presses his lips against yours, making sure to pinch your nostrils shut to give you air. He watches to see if your chests rises, but no sign of you breathing.

He presses his lips against yours again, but when that didn't work he went back to compressions. But his compressions grow weaker and weaker as he breaks down into sobs. He pulls you into his lap and hugs you tightly. 

"T-Tis but a scratch, it's just...a scratch..." 

He sobs as his chin rests on top of your head. His wails echoes in the woods that if anyone heard would send chills down his spine. The sound of rushing footsteps is behind him and he hears Nobara gasp. 

Multiple sounds of footsteps walk around him, Nobara and Megumi appearing in front of him. There is a heavy thud sound as Megumi drops to his knees, distraught as he sees you're dead in Yuji's arms. 

Yuji and Nobara cry loudly as Nobara tries to shake you awake. Megumi's bottom lip trembles as he tries to not cry right there. 

"What happened....Yuji what happened?!" Megumi asked. 

"I don't know!" Yuji shouts back. "Okay, I don't know I found her like this!"

"What the hell happened to her hands?! Her legs?!" Nobara asked, gripping your wrist to examine the wound. Upon closer inspection your purple skin texture reminds Yuji of facing some transfigured humans from Mahito's technique Idle Transfiguration. Yuji's eyes widen when he remembers what happened to B/N, the transfigured humans, it all clicked.

"Her soul's been transfigured..." he mumbles, horrified.

But then...how is the rest of your body normal? Or well as normal as if could be. "Guys there's a heart over here," Megumi's voice calls out to them. Nobara hastily gets up as Yuji did not move, keeping you close to him. 

"That's a huge fucking heart," Nobara whispers, staring at it. 

"Y/N....?"

Yuji looks up to see Gojo, staring down at you in his arms. Nanamin appears beside him and his heart is caught in his throat. 

"It had to be Mahito he must have transfigured her," Yuji mutters with hate in his voice.

"That's not possible we just found Mahito's corpse," Kento spoke, kneeling in front of Yuji. "From the state of his body he was not able to transfigure her. Yuji she killed him before she died." 

"So who else could have done it?!" Yuji asked, his eyes holding deep anger and hate. 

"We have a problem," Gojo suddenly interrupts. Everyone turns to him as his eyes are focused on the ground. "Do you feel it?" he asks, turning up to the sky. Everyone follows his gaze to the sky as they tried to feel whatever he's feeling.

"Sukuna is on a rampage. Get everyone out of here."

"If he's on a rampage we need to stop him-!" Megumi argues.

"I will be here to stop here, the rest of you need to get out and get out now. Nanami evacuate the as many people as possible, get them as far away as possible."

Gojo turns his back towards everyone and warps out of their sight.

-

It didn't matter if it was a sorcerer or a curse that stood in his way. 

They would meet a bloody end should anyone cross his path. A special grade curse coward in front of him, but that didn't stop Sukuna from twisting the curse's head and rips his head off with his spine still attached. All without looking at him.

There were two sorcerers beside him, too afraid to move a muscle and he turns to them. Afraid, one of the sorcerers let's out a terrified scream and charges as Sukuna with a sword. The King just grins as the sorcerer in front of him bursts into flames.

The screams of the dying sorcerer excites him as he watches the man burn to a crisp. The man that was beside him backs away as Sukuna leans down to his level.

"My darling was kind you know," he said, smiling wickedly. "She wanted to protect everyone, especially some dumbass and she got killed for it in the end." Sukuna stands tall as the sorcerer wets himself in fear. 

"She would tell me all kinds of stories, but my favorite has to be where a man killed God's violently. Especially how one specific god was killed."

Sukuna grabs the sorcerer by the head, lifting him in the air which made him beg for his life. With both hands clutching the side of his face, Sukuna's thumbs raises in the air above the sorcerer's eyes. 

Sukuna's grins widen as he shoves thumbs into the man's eyes, gouging them out. The man screamed and squirmed, trying to get free as blood rushes down his face. 

"Sukuna let him go!"

Sorcerer's surrounds Sukuna, making the evil calamity look around calmly. Without another word, Sukuna let's go of the sorcerer in his hand, but the man had already died. The King of Curses gets into a battle stance, yet his posture is relaxed.

"Let's do this," the sorcerer growls. 

"Yes, let's," Sukuna said, grinning. 

No one made the first move until Gojo suddenly appears in front of Sukuna. "Come for a second round sorcerer?" Sukuna sneers. Gojo frowns and raises his hands up.

"Sukuna stop this right now, Y/N wouldn't want this!" Satoru hisses.

"Y/N is dead, you don't know what she would've wanted." 

"Y/N wants everyone, everyone to make it out alive! If she were to see you kill more sorcerers, she would hate you forever!" Gojo is a little frustrated that the sorcerers didn't leave, because he knows if they don't leave Sukuna will kill all of them.

"What the hell are you still doing here?!" Gojo yells at them. They jump at his tone, shocked. "Make yourselves useful somewhere else!"

"But Gojo-"

"Get the hell out of here!" Immediately they scramble away and Sukuna rolls his eyes, focusing back on Sukuna. "Look around you Sukuna the world is tearing apart," Gojo tries to reason with him. 

"I don't care."

Gojo had to take drastic measures because if he didn't everyone he cares for will die. He already lost you. "Give me five days to bring Y/N back to life," he reasons. At this Sukuna laughs, gripping his faces. "You think if I cannot bring her back to life that someone like you could?!" 

"Alright, give me two days!" Gojo cuts down on the deal. "Two days and if I don't bring her to life, you get to kill me." 

"Hm?" Sukuna's face lights up at that. "I get to kill the strongest sorcerer? Don't make me laugh, it is not worth it if you just roll over and let me kill you."

"Okay what about a fight to the death? Seems fair right? Just don't kill any more sorcerers."

"Pretty bold of you to only give yourself two days, we could all die by sunrise, I have nothing left to lose." Gojo is really hanging his life on the line because he knows there's no way to heal a soul. But he can't let the world collapse on itself or let Sukuna kill the rest of their sorcerers.

'It's for everyone, for Y/N.'

"But it would mean the possibility of seeing Y/N alive and well."

Sukuna's eyes darken as he glares at Gojo. He's not a fool, he knows that he has to play a huge part in whatever it is to save the world. Healing your soul, bringing you back is impossible. 

"Deal, you annoying pest," Sukuna grunts. "I know you have a plan in that pea size brain of yours."

Gojo points to the sky, frowning. "Get rid of him while I figure out ways to stop more tears from appearing." Sukuna looks to the sky.

In the sky, Chaos looking down and holding his hands up in a strange position. Sukuna holds his hand up and with the snap of his finger, fire erupts on Chaos's skin. The God let's out a surprise yell and the fire quickly diminished as he looks around for the assailant. Gojo takes the sign to warp out of there.

He sees the evil king and grunts in annoyance. Chaos appears in front of him and glares at him. 

"I'm a little busy prick," Chaos spoke, annoyed. 

"Does it look like I give a damn?" Sukuna sneers. "You're the one who did that to her weren't you, there's no way that damn E. Coli sewer rat was able to kill her." Chaos can sense the fight riling up inside the Curse King.

"You think you can go against me?" Chaos asked, scoffing. "You'll join your bunny on the other side."

"You're not the only God here you useless worm," Sukuna grins. Chaos scoffs and holds out his hand, building up a surge of powerful