warning: mentions of self-harm

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You sit in the dark room, still hidden away from everyone along with Yuji. That's right you're supposed to be hidden for about two months. You forgot why though that long though, you think the concussion made everything worse because you can't remember everything.

Not all the important stuff at least, you still remember the funny moments. You miss Megumi and Nobara, even in the short time you knew them. Yuji is snoring loudly in the bed next to yours and you groan, pinching the bridge of your nose.

You need a drink. 

You kick the blankets off and head to get some wine. You're as quiet as you can be and pour yourself some into a glass. One glass turned to two then to three. Soon you drank most of the bottle. 

'Still here...'

The light flicks on, showing Gojo standing in the doorway. His arms cross against his chest and he looks unimpressed by seeing you. 

"Isn't it too late to be drinking?" he asked. 

"Aren't you a little old to be that pretty?" you snap back, downing another glass of wine.

"Rude I'm not even that old," he huffs, walking to stand beside you. But his mood changed when he noticed you called him pretty. "You think I'm pretty?" he asked, smirking and giving you a wink. Or at least you think so, he still has that bandage on his eyes.

'Why does he wear it again? Maybe people will think he's some sexy alien from another world 'cause his eyes are so damn beautiful!'

You shrug your shoulders and pour yourself another glass. What's this your sixth glass? You can't even tell anymore. It was a big glass too so that's how the bottle was almost empty.

"Well I can't deny a handsome face," you mutter, drinking. "Anyways, why are you up so late?"

"Could ask you the same question," he said, taking the almost empty bottle away from you. Damn it's embarrassing that he of all people saw you like this. "I think you had enough for one night."

You sigh, not even bothering to fight him for it. "I'm fine Gojo, wine helps me sleep." His mouth slightly opens before saying, "But almost a whole bottle?" You shrug your shoulders and he sighs, rubbing his head.

"Y/N should I be worried?" he asked, serious.

"No you shouldn't be worried, I am fine."

"If you're going to be a danger to my students-" That ticked you off, you could never be a danger to them.

"I am not going to be a danger to them I never will!" you snap. Gojo crosses his arms against his chest, unimpressed. "With the way you're drinking you could end up being a liability on the battlefield," he spoke, his voice hardening. "If I lose any of them it will be on you."

'Them...'

Of course, he's more worried about the kids, you can't become a liability. You need to find another outlet for your problems. And you know just the one.

"You're right," you said.

"Wait what?" he asked, surprised. He didn't expect you to agree with him. You smile at him. "You're right, it would be a hassle if the three of them fought a curse and have to deal with a hangover woman. I'll stop tomorrow, but um...can I at least finish the bottle?"

Gojo bites his lower lip before handing it to you. You pour yourself another glass and drink to your heart's content.

"How long have you been drinking?" he asked.

"Um...maybe in my teens?" you answered, unsure. "It's hard to remember things, not because I'm drunk but because it's genuinely hard to remember things. You know I wasn't keen on alcohol. Haha, I even promised my friends I wouldn't drink, and...look where I am now."

Gojo watches you as you pour yourself another glass. "Well at least you're the calm drunk, I'd hate to have to fight an angry drunk," he whines. "They get so violent."

"I'm just tired, if I had the energy I would've made everyone try to dance or something," you giggle a bit. It's odd, here you are having all these drinks, yet you're still here... Still here...not just in this world but just anywhere. You're supposed to become numb to your feelings, but you can still feel them.

You can feel everything.

Nothing works.

You finish the bottle and put it in the trash.

"Will you be able to stay sober?" he asked, worry in his voice.

"I will," you answer, your voice soft but determined. After all...you have another outlet. "Well it was a nice talk Gojo, but I'm going to bed." You wash your wine glass and head to your room. 

"Hang on." You look and see him come by your side and grabs you arm. "Can't let a vulnerable woman walk back to her room alone," he said, grinning. "Who knows of the monstrosities in the dark and takes advantage of you." 

"....Gojo the room is not far," you said, stunned at his weird logic. 

"And you have a handsome knight in shining armor to make sure you get home safely," he said, his voice dropping an octave as he leans close to your face. You're not sure if it's the alcohol or what, but your face feels warm.

He helps you to your room and before you enter, you hear him whine. You turn around as he sticks out his bottom lip and leans down to your height.

"Don't daddy get a kiss for helping you home?" he pouts. 

You roll your eyes and sigh heavily. He is stunned when you turn around and give him a kiss on his cheek. "There, goodnight you weirdo in shining armor," you mumble, swinging your door open and shutting it on his face. 

He stood there for a few more seconds before standing tall and fixing his shirt. He clears his throat and walks back to his room casually, but a smile doesn't stop itself from forming on his lips. 

Yuji is still snoring soundly and you went to your mattress. You pull up the first mattress and find the razor blade hidden there. 

You quickly grab it and make your way to the bathroom. You lock the door and lift your long sleeves. You see the bare skin, ready to scar it some more.

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You tuck the blade in your sleeve to keep it hidden. You sigh, feeling the familiar sting of fresh cuts, and leave the bathroom. Yuji is still snoring away as you climb back into bed. You stuck the blade back under your mattress and it's starting to get hot. 

"Fuck it's hot," you curse. You fumble taking off your pants and they're stuck at your ankles. You hum a little tune as you stumble to get them off. As you did you just flopped back into bed and feel like your nightly routine was good enough. Just as you close your eyes and ready to sleep, you hear Yuji's snores stop. 

You listen in the dark as he shuffles out of his bed and the footsteps trudging towards you. 

The steps stop beside you and you mutter out, "What's wrong Yuji? Can't sleep?" 

No response and you sigh, keeping your eyes closed as you reach out for him. You manage to find his wrist and guide him into bed with you. He must've had a nightmare from reading a comic book series you recommended to him. 

"I told you to not read the Dead Space comic books before bed," you lightly scold, reaching out for your blanket. You did struggle a bit because you did drink a whole bottle of wine. "You would get nightmares for days." Still, no response and you figure that he just didn't want to admit that you were right. 

You cover him with the blanket and by cover, I mean just throwing the blanket over his stomach and calling that a win. 

You lay back down beside him. He still has not said a word and you click your tongue. "Right you're probably mad because I didn't give you your goodnight kiss yet." 

You cup the side of his face and place a small kiss on his cheek. Your drunken giggles fill the room and you lean back. 

"There you go, okay good night." 

You turn away from him, knocked out like a light. 

Sukuna's p.o.v

He came over here to torment you and you just kissed his cheek. He grins as he feels his claws sharpen and reach to your neck. He hums as he brushes your hair back, revealing your exposed neck. Before he could do anything to you, you shifted in your sleep and turn to face him. 

He can smell the alcohol on your breath as you reach out and cling to him. His hand hovers in the air as he froze. Your body snuggles close to him, breathing slowly. He clenches his hand into a fist and just moves to lie on his back. 

He didn't push you away, but he didn't hold you either. He kept his hands above his hand as he listens to you sleep. For some reason the brat was weak in his sleep tonight, so he took the chance to take over. 

'I'll just go out and kill whoever I see,' he thought, sitting up. Along with you?! He grew irritated and tried to pry you off of him, but you have a fucking death grip on him. 

"What the hell?" he hissed. "Let go, woman!"

You didn't let go of him, arms now wrapped around his neck. He tries to lay you back down, but instead, you harshly fall back onto the bed. Luckily it was the bed or your head would have been split open for the third time. 

"Damn rabbit, how the hell are you this strong in your sleep?" he questions. "Hm?" Your body starts heating up with your cheeks flushed a bit. Your lips part slightly and there's a whimper leaving your lips. 

Not like a sad whimper, but a...needy one.

'Oh?' he thought, smirking. Your arms let go of him but now that he's free...he doesn't move. Instead, he watches your body shift under him. Normally he has no sense of any desires like this, but he had to admit he couldn't look away.

The way your thighs rub against each other and lean your head back to expose your neck. Soft, needy whines fills the room as he did not move to leave. It startled him when he feels a burning sensation in his stomach. 

Not like a burning bloodlust, but something entirely different. Something he hasn't experienced in a thousand years. 

Lust

He feels his mouth go dry and he licks his lips. Your shirt rises higher, exposing your thighs as your body shifts in need. He reaches out to your neck until he stops himself. 'No, no this is not happening,' he growls as he thought. 'I'm stuck in this goddamn body it's just stupid teenager hormones!' He tried to lie to himself but he knows when he's in control, Yuji's body is switched to Sukuna's own body.

Similarly, yet different. 

All that's missing is his other face and the rest of his arms.

He feels his mouth go dry and he licks his lips to moisten them. 'Your neck is your most sensitive spot,' he thought, smirking. 'Yet it's exposed, vulnerable, are you wanting someone to touch you there?' He reaches out, his fingers touching your neck with feather touches. You let out a soft sigh, exposing your neck more. 

He trails his nail up and down, sending chills up your body. You let out a breathless gasp.

He hums and pulls his hand back. "What a reaction, just from touching your neck," he mumbles. He moves to leave your side until his foot gets caught on the pants that you left on the floor. He slips on them and ends up landing his entire body on you.

And it wasn't a graceful fall either.

"What the hell!?" you shout, abruptly woken up. Sukuna quickly lifts himself off of you as you hold your stomach in pain from the abrupt weight that just slammed on you. "Yuji what-?" Your eyes turn fearful when you see him and before he could even get a single letter out.

"What the fuck, were you going to kill me in my sleep!?" you scream. 

"What?! No-!"

"GOJO!!!!" 

Your scream is loud and rings in his ear as he clamps his ears shut. Your scream was so loud it even woke the damn brat inside of him. The sound of running footsteps made Sukuna curse. Next thing he knows he's back in his domain, ears still ringing. 

"Damn kid has a mouth on her," he grumbles. 

But still, he could not get the images of you writhing underneath him out of his head.  He leans into his hand as he watches you freak out as Yuji is also freaking out. That damn sorcerer then tried to accuse Yuji of sexual harassment. But then you claimed the brat wouldn't do anything like that, sorcerer said something stupid, causing you to throw random shit at him. 

'What an odd girl, horny one minute then trying to kill someone next.'

When the stupid sorcerer left he noticed Yuji was watching you as you grumble under your breath, fixing your bed. 

The brat was fixated on your thighs. 

He can practically feel the idiot's cheeks heating up.

'Oi brat eyes up, don't ogle at her," Sukuna hisses. Yuji clears his throat, quickly bid you goodnight and hid under the blankets. Sukuna rolls his eyes.

Everything settled down and Sukuna feels Yuji get weak again. It was odd he's not going to lie. How many times he's growing weak when he knows he shouldn't be this weak. He's not going to complain though. Just as he takes over you slowly sit up, making him turn to you.

"Oi rabbit I wasn't going to-"

He stops talking when he notices your eyes are glowing white and your expression in a daze. Your eyes are barely open as you stare at nothing in front of you. Sukuna frowns as he slowly stands up as you struggle to get out of bed. 

Your body moves on auto pilot as you make way to the door, but Sukuna stands in front of you.

"Where are you going?" he asked.

You didn't reply and even tried to reach the door knob behind him. Instead he grabs your wrist and you didn't flinch. Your hand struggles to get out of his hold as you slowly blink. "How about you lie back down?" he questions, turning you around by your shoulders and leading you back to bed.

Your feet drags a little as he leads you back to your back. He frowns when he notices the mark he left is growing again, spreading through your skin. It almost looks like venom is coursing through your body.

He places his hand on the mark, making you freeze.

As soon as he does this he gets a flash of an image of a hooded man with white glowing eyes. He has a grin on his face. However as quick as that image came, it went away. Who was that? He frowns as you again try to make your way to the door. 

Instead Sukuna grabs your wrists and presses his body against yours. He traps you between his body and the wall as you made no effort to escape. He was not familiar with this power, but there was no way in hell some random man was going to take his favorite bunny away.

If anyone was going to play and have fun with you it was going to be Sukuna and Sukuna only.

He's quite possessive over any pet that got his attention.

"What to do to wake you up," he hums.

His licks his lower lip before getting an idea. 

He pulls your shirt aside to expose your neck then promptly bites into your neck.

"Ow what the fuck!?" you scream. Blood drips from the bite as you struggle against him. All you can see is Yuji's pink hair illuminating in the dark. 

"Y-Yuji stop get off! That hurts! Ow, don't bite harder! Is this because I stole your last pack of bubbalicious gum?!" 

You whimper when you feel his tongue run across your neck, your freaking weak area. A strangled moan tries to leave your lips as he sucks harshly on your skin. You grip his clothes, trying to shove him off, but when he bit you again it didn't hurt as much. 

Still hurt like a bitch though.

You gasp, letting out a moan as you whisper "S-Stop that hurts, your teeth are sharp." Yuji pulls back but the moment you see Sukuna's red eyes your eyes widen. "S-Sukuna what the hell-?!" 

"Good you're finally awake," he hums, acting casually. He licks your blood off of his lips while stretching. "I was wondering when you would wake up." Your hand covers the bite marks and you feel blood touching your palm.

"What the-no that is not how you wake someone up! Ow dammit I'm bleeding here, quit biting so deep!" 

"If it works it works," he said, turning back to head to bed. You grab your pillow and throw it at the back of his head. He just takes the pillow and uses it along with three other pillows. "Ah thank you, now I can get a good night's sleep."

"Give me my pillow back!" 

He snores loudly, faking sleep and you huff before holding your neck and laying back down. 

In the morning when Yuji woke up, he groans as the sun blinds him. He rubs his eyes as he yawns. He gets up to go to the restroom and when he sees himself in the mirror he's confused. There's a dark red spot on the corner of his lips?

He licks it, tasting the familiar iron taste of blood. 

'But I'm not hurt? Why was there blood on my mouth?'