You're Not Alone [Crossmare]

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|| mentions of self harm, attempted suicide.

"Hold my hand."

Cross lightly caressed Nightmare's hand, examining its wound. Nightmare turned away to avoid eye contact, Cross used his hand to make Nightmare face at him. Slowly, Nightmare's gaze meets Cross's, who smiles to reassure him that he isn't mad at all.

There past few days weren't good, cruel and unforgiving. Just as the people whom have once been close to Nightmare. It was saddening to watch Nightmare's descent, he felt so helpless as he watched from the sidelines as Nightmare began losing and losing all over again.

Even if Nightmare were to be alone, to be ignored and hated upon by every single au, Cross would have stayed by his side, even if it meant inflicting pain on himself to stay with him. Nightmare has always been a crush, he knew his feelings would never be returned, but he still stayed and hoped, and even if Nightmare were to reject him, then Cross will stay by his side.

For Nightmare, anything.

Cross lightly traced Nightmare's face, a soft look on him before he patched Nightmare up with plaster. The wounds weren't particularly life threatening, but Cross felt the need to make sure blood wouldn't leak out. And, to prevent the problem of Nightmare hurting himself.

"Don't hurt yourself again, okay?" Cross says, a gentle and concerned look on his face.

"...I can't promise that." Nightmare turns to the side, looking ashamed.

Cross turned silent. After he finished applying the plaster, he lets Nightmare face him, making sure he was comfortable enough to look at him. These days, Nightmare avoided eye contact. But Cross could respect that, and he waits for Nightmare to warm up before looking at Cross on his own.

Only Cross and Nightmare remained from the bad sanses, most of them had betrayed them for something of their own. Be it a lover, a family tie, a change in decision, or something else. This eventually caused Nightmare to do something drastic, for him to try to jump and end it all.

Cross was scared during those moments, he felt every inch and fiber of his being stop, the ringing in his ears intensified, and his heart to break all in just a few seconds. Nightmare was everytning to him, and if something ever happened again to cause him to take his own life again, then Cross felt like he should have been good enough and tried harder.

It made him fear, Cross knows that Nightmare knows that. Perhaps that was why he was being so quiet right now, feeling sorry for Cross. He's told him so many times that he wasn't at fault but rather at the harsh and cruel way of fate.

"It's okay." He'd whisper in his ear, holding him and clutching him tightly, buried into his chest where he hoped he could protect him from the harsh and cold world around them. "None of this is your fault."

"I want you to be safe." Cross says, "I want both of us to keep living. For us to still explore on our wacky adventures together, and for us to wake up together in the morning to fix ourselves one by one. So we can become better and stronger."

He holds Nightmare's hand tightly, seeing it twist into different expressions as he said so. There was something akin to happiness in Nightmare eyes as he heard Cross say the words, he still felt insecure about himself but hearing about how much Cross cared about him made his heart fly in wonders.

"Please, stay with me Nightmare." Cross says.

Cross was tackled into a hug, and he felt relieved as Nightmare let out all that he felt, the sobs that Nightmare produced were echoing loudly against the room, but Cross remained quiet, patting his back gently.

Cross wanted to let out his feelings about Nightmare too, but Nightmare was feeling so much right now, and he didn't want Nightmare to feel overwhelmed any longer. Perhaps when he recovers and is accustomed to everything, then he will.

But right now, he has other things to do. To make sure Nightmare feels loved.

They stay in that position for who knows how long, but Cross couldn't bring himself to care.

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requested by @VermillionGust

aight my device crashed while making this and i lost a bit of writing :( but i rewrote them back :))
Again, thank you for requesting and i hope you enjoyed, thank you for your patience :D


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