Chapter 22

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Two months

Two months and nothing. I've stared at the screen of my phone for hours at a time just wondering how I could have fallen so hard for someone who didn't even love me back. If he meant what he said at the hotel, and was truly sorry about it he would text right? He would apologise and try to win me back...but he hasn't even attempted to contact me.

I know I should be glad he hasn't tried but strangely it only weighs down my heart more. He broke my heart I shouldn't want to talk to him but when I close my eyes I see his golden orbs. When I lay down at night I feel his arm wrap around me, when I wake up in the morning I feel his lips linger on my forehead...only to open my eyes and see nothing.

Each day has been a torment, I've tried to keep myself distracted, I've had lunch with Cara five times, read through seven books, Jane Eyre twice, watched movies, even went to the extent of eating dinner with my parents. I sigh thinking about that, it was a very awkward dinner, my mom pulled me aside after and told me her and my Father talked to Theo the night I came back and they told him to never do that again. They told me he apologised and said he would never try anything like that again, he came up to me a week later and said a quiet 'I'm sorry'. But who's to say he won't, I doubt my parents gave him too much hell about it.

I shake my head and look back in the mirror while Sarah fixes my hair "honey don't look so glum" she says frowning at me, I smile wearily not being able to answer her

She brushes my hair up into an up-do, I watch her through the mirror, never once looking into my own eyes. I can't take looking at them, the thought of them so bright and happy the night after...and now they're dark and dull. Every time I look in the mirror I see what I was, happy, happy with Vincent. Now my skin doesn't glow, my smile doesn't grow past a grin and my eyes don't twinkle. I can't imagine what he's doing now, maybe with Amanda or with another woman...his last thought being me. How could he say he still loves me and didn't mean anything he said to Amanda to then turn around and not even try...I wanted him to try.

"Adeline" I hear Sarah say quietly

I shake my head back into reality and look at her, her eyes stare at me with sympathy "don't cry" she says

I force myself to look at my reflection to see tears falling down my cheeks "oh" I say quickly wiping them away "I'm sorry" I say, forcing a smile on

She sighs and sets down the comb "I know I'm not supposed to talk about him-" she says and I look away, I told her what happened, I couldn't keep it in any longer or I would have exploded. She was the only person I could tell that wasn't either involved or was Cara. I didn't want to bring Cara into it because one, she doesn't deserve to get caught up in my troubles and two I'm afraid she might tell people...its just hard to trust people these days "but maybe you should call him...to hear him out" she suggests

"If he wanted me to hear him out he would have tried to contact me" I say blotting my cheeks making sure my makeup stays in place.

"Well you did tell him to leave you alone" she says

I look over at her and sigh "I can't, I know it won't give me closure, it'll only hurt me" I tell her honestly, by him answering my questions it would open up my heart to him and I can't do that again

"I understand sugar plum I just hate seeing you like this, I thought you were getting better with the whole Theo thing when you were with-"

"Yeah, I thought I was to" I say before she can say more about him

"Well I won't blabber, I'm sure Theo will be waiting" she says and I nod

Me and Theo are going out to dinner tonight with his Brother and his Wife along with there baby girl. His Brother has a meeting in town and they are only spending the weekend here so he wanted to catch up. Me and Theo have hardly spoken to one another, when we pass each other in the halls or at dinner we give each other an awkward glance. The only time we speak is when we are out at an event.

She touches up my makeup and hairsprays the loose stands of hair into place. She dresses me in a simple cream dress, it's loose and flowy, I couldn't imagine being in something tight and sexy, that's the last image I want to put out. She sets out some jewelry for me and I clasp the diamond necklace and bracelet around my neck and wrist, the dangly earrings swing as I turn my head from the mirror.

"Thank you Sarah, I'll see you later" I tell her

I sway, suddenly feeling very light headed and fatigue "Woah" Sarah says coming up and steadying me

I hold onto her shoulder for a moment and take a deep breath, feeling nauseous all of a sudden "sorry" I say after a minute, the sick spell leaving as soon as it came

"What was that?" She asks

"Stress" I tell her messaging my temples

"How long have you been feeling like this?" She asks

"Since yesterday morning but I'll be fine" I reassure her "just everything that's going on.." I trial off and she nods

"I get it honey" she says "go have fun"

I nod and walk out of my room, heading down stairs where I know Theo will be standing. As suspected he stands there playing on his phone and I make my way down to him. He walks over to the door and opens it for me, his eyes still cast down on his phone.

The black sleek car is already pulled up but Theo climbs into the drivers seat "no Benjamin?" I ask when I slide into the passenger side and he shakes his head

"No" he says simply, placing his phone down on the leather dash, he starts up the car and we drive down the long stretch of road.
*
Walking into the restaurant we lock arms and he pulls me close, I take a deep breath and force on a smile. We are lead to the table where Theo's brother, Mason, and his Wife, Olivia, are seated. I smile as Olivia bends over from her seat and reaches into the stroller beside her.

Theo scoffs beside me "they had to bring the child?"

She looks lovely as always, her light brown hair is up in a ponytail and her tan skin is shown off by the gold halter dress. The dark gold color makes me think of the Vincent's eyes when he's happy, his smile always brightening his eyes. I shake my head and detach my arm from Theo's, stepping over to Olivia as she recognises me, her bright green eyes widen as she stands and walks towards me.

"Adeline!" She says pulling me into a hug, I smile against her shoulder and hug her tightly "it feels like I haven't seen you in forever!" She says pulling back

"I know" I smile "how are you enjoying Florida?" I ask

"It's amazing, Mason is doing great and of course Isabella" she says looking down at the infant

I step beside the stroller and bend down looking at the beautiful child, her hair light and skin tan like her mother's and eyes blue like her father's "she's beautiful" I tell her as she sits down

"Thank you" she looks down at my niece

"Now Adeline you look lovely as ever" Mason says

I turn to him and smile, he looks so much like Theo but all his features are so much softer and kinder, his forehead consisting of less wrinkles from no stress and his body posture more relaxed than Theo's "Mason" I smile and hug him, he kisses my cheek "how are you?"

"Couldn't ask for more" he says releasing me "I've got the most beautiful Wife in the world, a beautiful baby girl and an amazing job" he says, I tilt my head, I'm surprised he mentioned the company he never liked working in his father's business

"I'm happy for you" I say smiling up at him

"What about you, how are-" he begins to ask

"Adeline come sit down" Theo says, his tone bored

I nod and follow over to him, I'm sitting in between Olivia and Theo at the round table while Mason sits across from me "well Theo you look stressed as always" Mason says, Mason and Theo don't have the best relationship due to them being complete opposites but they get along good enough

"And you look like a dork as always" Theo says crossing his arms along with his eyebrows

I look over at Mason, he's wearing a white collard shirt and on top of that a light blue sweater vest, he looks a little nerdy but still very handsome "oh Theo hush, I think he looks adorable" Olivia says bringing there intertwined hands up on the table

Mason leans in and kisses his beautiful wife's lips, I sigh quietly to myself envying there true love for each other...a love I thought I had. I smile at them and place a napkin in my lap, I make a side glance at Theo to see him roll his eyes. I let out a slow breath and put the smile back on my face.

After we've eaten and talked lightly Theo steps out on a phone call "so Adeline how's Theo treating you?" Mason asks

I'm not sure if it's the question or the previous sickness from before coming back but I feel nauseous again and I hold my hand over my mouth trying to take deep breaths "sorry" I apologise shaking my head and waiting for it to pass, I think back on the question and frown, I don't even know how to answer that "fine, you know Theo, he's busy" I tell them simply

Both of there faces match, frowns pull down there lips, but before they can question me Isabella begins to cry. I mentally thank the adorable infant as her Mother picks her up and rocks her.

"So Mason, how are the computer sales?" I ask changing the subject while taking a sip of my sweet white wine"Theo never tells me about the business" I tell him

Olivia sits back down, Isabella laid on her chest and shoulder, she and Mason look at me with tilted heads "Theo didn't tell you?" Olivia asks

My eyebrows pull together "tell me what?"

"I signed over my part of the company to him" he explains

"What? When?" I ask leaning against the table, intrigued and a little shocked at the information

Mason looks to Olivia "a year ago, maybe ten months" they nod at each other and look back over to me

"Oh" I say looking down at my empty plate trying to wrap my head around that "then what are you doing now?" hadn't he said something about loving his job before?

"Now I have a job at an engineering company, I wasn't cut out for the whole owning my own business, well sharing it, plus it gives me more time with my family" he says smiling and kissing Olivia's hand while she rocks the baby with the other

"Wow, well that sounds amazing, I'm really happy-" before I can finish I feel my stomach twist inside me, I slap my hand over my mouth and jump up from my seat running through the restaurant, moving through diners and tables searching desperately for a bathroom.

I open the door to the restroom, once I find it and push open the first stall I see. I fall on the blue tiled ground and empty my stomach into the porcelain toilet. I take deep breaths and wipe my mouth, I grimace looking at my dinner in the toilet. I push myself against the wall and lean my head back feeling worse than before. I groan and hold my stomach. I un wrap some toilet paper form the roll and wipe my mouth while flushing the toilet.

What the hell was that? I seriously need to do some zen because I don't know how much more stress I can handle or I'll be really sick. I help myself up and look up to see the person who enters the bathroom "Adeline?! Are you alright?" Olivia comes rushing to my side and assists me as I stand

She walks me over to the sink and I wash my hands "yeah I'm fine, I'm sorry I just-" I shake my head but she nods looking at me with a sceptical look like she's thinking very deeply on something "what?" I finally ask

"How long have you been feeling sick?" She asks her green eyes piercing through me

"Um...since yesterday morning" I tell her wiping off my hands with a rolled up towel from one of the baskets on the cream counter

"Feeling tired lately?" She asks and I nod

"Yeah, it's been difficult sleeping lately" 'without being wrapped up in the man I love arms and with the vivid dreams I keep having of him it's a little hard to sleep' I want to add

She hums "and I'm guessing that weird thing you did at dinner, by eating the garlic bread sticks dipped in your desert is a new craving?" She asks

Did I do that?

"I guess" I say shrugging, but sometimes when I'm stressed I don't even pay attention to the things I'm putting into my mouth

"When was the last time you had your period?" She asks

I turn from looking in the mirror in front of us to her, my eyes huge "why?!" I ask

"Are you pregnant?" She asks leaning against the sink

"What no! I can't be!" I shake my head "I'm starting my period soon" I try to convince her and myself, my periods usually starts a little late, plus with my new added on heartbreak and stress...no way I'm pregnant, last time I had sex was-

Oh my god

No it can't be Vincent's...he wore a condom...but Theo. I slap my hand over my mouth and tears spring to my eyes.

"Oh god" I cry and she pulls me into a hug "But it's not morning" I say referring to me just throwing up

"Ha" she laughs "if you think morning sickness is just in the morning you're in for a treat" she say and I shake my head against her shoulder

"Wait you have to take me to the hospital" I say pulling back, wiping my cheeks

"Why?" She asks

"I had wine with my dinner" I tell her and her eyes widen, I don't mention the glass a day I've had since Vincent

"Let's go" she drags me by my wrist out into the dinning room

When we get back Theo still isn't back and Mason stands looking at us "Adeline are you alright?" He asks looking between me and Olivia

"Mason we have to go to the hospital I'll explain when I get there, can you take care of Bella?" She asks grabbing her purse from her seat and he nods

"Of course" he says looking sympathetically at me

Olivia begins to drag me out but I pull back "Mason!" I call out "don't tell Theo where we're going...he'll just worry" I lie

I go in to explain more but he cuts me off  "don't worry I'll cover you, go" he says and I smile thankfully at him

Me and Olivia walk out to the parking lot and thankfully don't run into Theo "wait how will Mason get back to the hotel?" I ask

"He came from the airport I came from the hotel, we drove separate cars" she explains unlocking the BMW, we both slide in and she asks for directions to the hospital.

I cry the whole way there, crying my guts out, knowing if this is true my life is set from here on out. There's no way I can leave Theo if he finds out I'm pregnant and no way will my parents agree to let me. I want a child more than anything but this innocent thing inside me could be the death of me. This child would be the result of one of the worst nights of my life, his or her own Father would have raped there Mother for them to be here. How would I explain that one day? How could I bring a child into this world with Theo as there Father, and me and him not even in love...I would never want my child to have my life. And what about Vincent? I know I shouldn't be thinking of him but I can't help it. His face pops into my head and an image of him with a baby in his arms looking up at me with those brown eyes sears into my brain.

I shake my head and let the tears fall, I can't be pregnant, I can't. What if I loose this one too? I couldn't go through that again, it nearly killed me last time. How would Theo even react? I sob more holding my stomach, what am I going to do? What if I already hurt the baby by drinking as much wine as I did? What if he or she is disformed or sick because of me?!

I ramble in my head on as I cry and Olivia listens and gathers that this pregnancy wouldn't be what I need right now. She knows I want kids she helped me through...when I lost the first one. She might have been confused on why this is happening and why I was acting the way I was but she never missed a beat. She was rubbing my back and telling me everything was going to be ok the whole time.

Olivia helps me out of the car, my body in so much shock it's like it over heats and just refuses to do as I command. She throws my arms around her neck and hold me up as we walk into the hospital doors.

Nurses walk past us in green and blue scrubs while we walk over to the front rounded desk, women typing away on computers "hello? Excuse me?" Olivia says getting the attention of all the woman "hi, we need a doctor now" she says

"What's wrong?" One nurse asks

"She might be pregnant"
*
The woman pours a cold blue jell liquid on my stomach after I changed into the gown, her black hair is pulled in a low ponytail and her dark brown skin glows under the fluorescent lights of the curtain inclosed room.

"Well Mrs.Taylor" she says moving the round thing around my belly, I clutch to Olivia's hands as I lay there with tears ready in my eyes and my heart pounding hard against my chest "you're not pregnant" she says, I lean back and still the tears fall down my cheeks but this time in relief.

Olivia hugs me and I cry on her shoulder thanking god he saved my baby for another time...anytime but now and not with Theo.

"How is that possible?" Olivia asks the nurse who wipes off the jell "she had a lot of the signs" she asks in disbelief

"Well it can because of a couple of things, sometimes people mistake symptoms of major amounts of stress, loss or grief for symptoms of pregnancy, Mrs.Taylor have you suffered any of those lately?" She asks

I nod "I have, but what about my late period and sickness?" I ask her as she wipes off my belly and takes off the latex white gloves

"Well sometimes our bodies can be so over come with stress thats that's all our brain focuses on, your body could have just been so overwhelmed that you became sick" she explains "as for your period, I'm sure it will come soon, or if it is usual for you to miss a month in between then you'll still be fine" she tells me and I nod

"Thank you" I ask as she turns off the machine

She smiles with a big white smile "it's a pleasure delivering good news to people, everyone has there own idea of good news and this was yours" she says and I nod "you can get back dressed and just talk to the lady's up front" she tells me and me and Olivia nod as she leaves the room

All is silent for a moment "thank you for taking me here, I'm sorry it was a waste" I tell her

"Oh hush, don't be, this could have been bad, I'm sorry I made you think you were pregnant and gave you a half heart attack" she says and we both laugh a little and hug again "let's get out of here" she says and I nod

While I get dressed and fix myself Olivia was nice enough to fill out the paperwork and give them my information. By the time I was done so was she and we both head back out to the car "well that has to be on my top  ten list of scariest moments" I say with a slight laugh even though I mean it, I don't know what I would have done if I was actually pregnant

This has just made me see even more that I can't be with Theo

Once we almost reach my house she gets a call from Mason saying he left the restaurant and that Theo never came back and about an hour ago texted him that he had a work emergency and had to go home. Olivia rolls her eyes at the mention of my Husband and tells Mason that she'll be at the hotel soon and will tell him what happened.

We pull up to the driveway and she pulls in "you call me you hear? Anything you need, anytime" she says reaching over from the drivers seat and giving me a hug

"That might be a little hard sense you're

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