Chapter 51: Reassurance

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This is a longer chapter so get ready!

Jace POV

"Where are we going?" Ivy impatiently asked me for the one hundredth time.

"We're almost there now." She huffed, crossed her arms and turned to stare out the window in retaliation. I laughed at her blatant restlessness. I knew she hated not knowing what was going on, but it was funny winding her up.

I quickly glanced towards her window and grinned. I knew she would catch what I did as every time she looked outside, she was just looking at me in the window. She shifted slightly in her seat and hid her face from my view.

I easily pulled the car over and parked. I unbuckled my seatbelt and moved so my body was turned towards her. She had all my attention... always.

Her eyebrows drew together, creating a crease in between that I wanted to rub away with my thumb. She looked at my now moved seatbelt and then back at me. It was as if I could hear the cogs turning in her head as she put all the pieces together. "What are you doing?"

I swallowed the smile that's constantly on my face when we're together, "What do you mean?"

"You've stopped driving..." I nodded my head. "So, what are we doing? Just sitting here?"

My eyebrows rose, my lips between my teeth. Regret took over her face as soon as she realised what I was thinking. "I mean, we could do something else then just sit here." I watched as she took her attention off me and planted it on the dashboard, her slender fingers gently wiping away the collected dust.

"You should really stop asking questions like that if you don't want an honest answer." I took my eyes off her and stared out in front of me.

"Uh huh. And what makes you think I don't want an honest answer, hmm?" My eyes widened, my head turning quicker than necessary and saw the seriousness on her face. I thought I had imagined what she had said, but the way she looked at me told me otherwise.

This girl drives me crazy.

I tucked a loose strand of her hair behind her ear and cupped my hand to fit her jaw perfectly. She leant into my hand, placing her own on top of mine. My thumb ran over her soft bottom lip as our gazes stayed connected.

My hand was moved so she could kiss the palm of my hand, sending warm shivers racing up my arm. I took hold of her wrists and made sure her hands were on my shoulders as I leant in and kissed her.

Everything about her was perfect. And so was the moment. I wanted it to last forever.

Our foreheads and the tip of our noses touching, I saw something - a memory or emotion - flicker in and the out of her eyes. She closed her eyes and let out a shaky breath seconds before she rubbed her nose against mine.

She opened her eyes and stared at me carefully. Ivy created distance between us as she sat back in her seat, away from me. I wasn't going to let her get completely away, so I laced my fingers with hers. She looked out her window before turning my way and smiling. I grinned back, it was hard not to.

"What was that about? You made me nervous," I joked, bouncing off her jovial mood.

She let out a boisterous, unguarded laugh, "I know I did, that was the point. I wanted to see if I still have an affect on you."

I was caught off guard with the last remark. Does she think she doesn't affect me? She literally has me in the palm of her hand. But why would she think that? Was it because of yesterday?

Yesterday.

I opened myself up to her completely, something I haven't done in years. I mean, I had no reason to until now. No one has meant as much as Ivy does to me. And I want her to know that, hence why I told her I love her last night.

And I meant that with all my heart; I love her and can't ever imagine not loving her.

However, her reaction didn't go unnoticed.

Either she's not used to being told she's loved, or she just doesn't believe me. She had no reason not to believe me - at least, none that I was aware of. And her reaction, the way she tensed up and went straight to denying it, well, it hurt to see her like that. So unloved that when someone tells her they do, she doesn't believe you. That's why I decided to tell her I love her at least twice daily. She needs to know how much she means to me, how much she'll always mean to me.

"Look," I said when I took notice of the uncertainty shining in her eyes. I moved her hand I was holding and laid it flat against my chest where my heart is. Previously she was looking past me, now she looked at me. "You feel how fast my heart is beating?"

"Yeah?"

"This is what you do to me, so, don't ever think you don't have an affect on me because you always will. I love you and for as long as that stays, you will always do this to me. And guess what?"

"What?" Her facial expression still hadn't changed, something she only did when she was thinking deeply about something.

"I don't think that any of it, especially my love for you will change any time soon." Ivy visually relaxed, a faint smile on her face.

Reassurance - that's all she needed. 

Her dainty hands wrapped around my wrist, moving my hand closer to her till it was on the left side of her chest. Her quickened heartbeat vibrated onto my hand. Her brown eyes looked at me as she did this and she didn't have to say a single word for me to understand what she meant.

Her heart was beating fast for me.

However, the moment between us both didn't last as long as I wanted before we were interrupted. Nothing can last forever now, can it? But the blunt way Ivy and I were broken out of the daze of each other we were in could have been less brutal.

Ivy jumped in her seat at the sound of someone hitting the car window, her grip on my hand tightening for a split second before she dropped it. I laughed and jumped out the car, rushing to get to Ivy's side so I could open the door for her.

She slipped out the car door. I held her hand to help her and once she got out, she kept holding my hand.

We both walked round the car and towards the park.

I observed as Skylar's face lit up when she first saw Ivy next to me. She loved Ivy almost as much as I do. Skylar ran towards us both and collided bodies with Ivy, smothering her in a hug that Ivy quickly reciprocated. As Ivy had let go of my hand to hug Sky, I located my Mum and walked towards her.

"Hey," I greeted my Mother with a brief hug and stood next to her. "How are you?"

She looked at me and smiled, "Really good. All the way here Skylar just kept going on about seeing Ivy." I chuckled, imagining that scene in my head. "Anyway, how are you? Did you tell her?"

I told my Mum a few days ago that I was going to tell Ivy everything - everything about me and how I felt - but then that dickhead Christian just had to come along and spoil it. I knew Ivy would have thought I was only telling her because my hand had been forced, but regardless of what Christian said, I was going to tell her. I just would have preferred it to come from me.

"Yeah, I did. Not everything, I still need to tell her something today."

"See, I told you she wouldn't leave you. She's not like that."

"Well, I told her I love her yesterday too, so if she leaves now, I'm too far in."

Her eyes lit up in excitement and wrapped her arms around me in a hug. "I'm proud of you," she whispered in my ear. She knew how hard it has been for me to allow myself to feel stuff for people after what happened before and hearing her say meant the world.

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"Can I get ice-cream?" Sky asked with pleading eyes.

Ivy sat down next to me after being dragged around by Skylar all day. I knew Ivy didn't mind though, every opportunity I gave her to come with me, she declined.

"This feels like deja vu," Ivy muttered. "Didn't you say this last time we were at the park?"

"Maybe..." Skylar answered, dragging out the end of her word.

"Uh huh, thought so." Ivy placed her hand in mine and rested her head on my shoulder. I turned my head to look at her face, she smiled at me sweetly.

God, I love her so much.

"Hey, hey," Skylar said waving her hand in front of my face, "Can I have an ice-cream please?"

I glanced towards Mum and she understood what I was saying immediately.

I had came here with Ivy with the intentions to inform her on something, but since Sky had stolen her from me all day, I hadn't had time to tell her. Now, however, was the perfect time.

"Okay, Sky, lets get ice-cream. You two want anything?" Mum asked Ivy and I - we both declined. "Okay, lets go kiddo."

I watched Sky and Mum's backs as they made their way over to the crowded ice-cream truck. By the looks of it, they were going to be gone for a while, which was perfect for me.

I sat there and thought. I was nervous - I had no idea how Ivy was going to take what I needed to tell her, especially after everything that had happened in the last 48 hours.

"Every time I have been with Sky, she has always got so much energy," Ivy laughed. I gave a quick and brief 'Yeah' in reply.

"It's good that Sky's arm has healed without the need of any operations. Maybe shaving her hair off would be a good idea."

"Yeah, maybe."

"What's going on?" Ivy demanded and broke me out of my tormentous thoughts.

"What do you mean?"

Ivy's chocolate brown eyes looked at me in a bored way. She blinked slowly, "Well, I took longer to blink than normal and that stupid confusion is still on your face."

I found it hard not to smile at her attitude that I adored.

"I don't know what you want me to say."

"How about what you're trying to say to me." She took my hand, circles ran in my palm with her finger. I felt calmer. So, I just spat it out.

Now it was me who needed to be reassured.

"Well, I have decided to take over my Dad's side of the family business."

Ivy's eyes lit up as she smiled. She knew how much it meant to me and how much it would take for me to do it. Her reaction made a warmness form in my chest.

"Yeah and I will have to leave early morning tomorrow to do training." Her face slightly fell - enough to notice but she still looked happy for me.

Now I was holding her hand for comfort.

"It's only going to be for two days maximum, so it's not for too long."

She looked distantly, not giving me any type of reaction - it scared me. I needed something from her, even if it was shouting and screaming.

But then her gorgeous face distracted me from my thoughts as her hand held the back of my neck and put our faces together. "It's alright. I'm so happy for you, bubs." She rubbed our noses together, as she did earlier, before grinning ear-to-ear and winking.

"What is that you keep doing?" I questioned, intrigued by this new thing she had started.

"What?"

"The nose thing," I clarified.

"Oh," she giggled lightly. "It's something I used to do when I was younger. It's an eskimo kiss." A light tint of red rushed to her cheeks.

She's so cute, my princess.

"Well, it's cute. I love it. Makes me feel warm inside."

"Yeah?" I nodded at her. She did it again.

"I love you so much," I whispered in her ear before she moved backwards. However, she didn't react how she had previously; she acted as if she had now excepted it as she stared at me dead in the eyes and smiled.

She was finally okay with it and that made me overjoyed.

We were getting somewhere.

"So, you don't mind me leaving?"

She hesitated, thinking before she spoke - something I admired about her. "No not really." She answered with honesty shining in her eyes. "I'll miss you, of course, but as you said, it's only two days and we've gone longer without seeing each other than this," she laughed humourlessly but guilt bubbled in the pit of my stomach.

That was my fault - why we didn't see each other. But we're together now and that's what mattered.

"But you need to do whatever makes you happy, and if this is what'll do that, I'm here to support you all the way."

I kissed her with everything I had, showing her every emotion I was feeling in that moment. I love her so much, more than I realised.

"Ewwww," Sky complained, physically pulling us apart earning a lighthearted laugh from both Ivy and I.

"Now come on, Ivy. We've got to go climb the tree now my arm is fixed." Ivy turned to look at me and I nodded. I watched Sky and Ivy run off together with a weight lifted off my shoulders.

She was here for me and I was there for her.

(A/N) I always find it tricky to write in a makes perspective and I don't know why. I think it's more of a phycological one but I tried my best with this :)

I also felt as if it was necessary to show some of Jace's concerns within himself. I always show Ivy's pov and her feelings so I thought it would be Jace's turn.

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