Chapter Fourteen

Payton's Pov

"So...this might sound a little weird to speak on but, who was the last guy you...y'know...dated?" My heart felt like it dropped to my stomach. Instead of butterflies it was big scary moths flying around. We were in the bed together with the lights off and the moonlight was shining on our faces.

Why on earth would Kai wonder about the last guy I been with? I mean it's not his fault that Ashton was a evil, bad, corrupt, destructive, hateful, heinous, hideous, malevolent, malicious, nefarious, ugly, unpleasant, vicious, vile, villainous and wicked person on the face of the earth. That's his name by the way...

Ashton Valor...the guy I thought was the love of my life.

I just don't like talking about it, but Kai wants to know so I give him some details.

"Well, if you should know. I dated this guy named Ashton Valor. I legit thought that he was the love of my life, until we ended things a year ago. He was just...so manipulating and played a lot of jokes. Jokes to the point where there about real shit. There was this one time where he called me in the middle of the night, panicking about how he was going to kill himself. I quickly got out of bed and drove to his dorm room. I open the motherfucken door...and there he was watching tv laughing his ass off...he said that it was a joke and he just wanted me to keep him company and by company I mean by having sex...but what really ended things was something I really don't want to speak on...he made me so paranoid to the fact that I had to....do certain things to calm myself down." I said.

"You mean like...drugs?" Kai asked.

"Yeah, somewhat..."

"Payton, I understand that you don't want to speak on certain things, but you're my boyfriend and I want to know every single thing about you...even the bad. That's the only way this relationship we have is gonna grow. After all, you did say that you can trust me." He said, rubbing my bare chest.

"I did say that huh?" Kai nodded. "The reason why thing broke off was because....well first off I take pain pills because I get these random migraines that hurt really bad and I take pills for my anxiety. I basically told him everything. We got into this heated argument and he said somethings that genuinely hurt my feelings and I believed every word he said to me that day. When it comes to people talking about me I don't give a shit, but when it's the people I love the most...the shit gets to me. He told me that I was gonna end up just like my 'crackhead father' and told me to choke and kill myself. As soon as he stormed out...I just all of a sudden start crying. I wasn't going to but it just came out, out of nowhere. I felt the energy of depression just flowing inside me. All the memories of him making me worry paranoid and him verbally abusing me came crashing through my skull. I had another bad migraine, so I go to my bathroom and take two pills. I look at the pill bottle and saw that it was half full....I thought to myself...I needed more, so I took the whole bottle and...."

"Swallowed the pills all at once." Kai said. Sadly finished for me.

"When I did that. I felt relaxed...so relaxed that I had collapsed in my bathroom and seen nothing but darkness."

"....oh my god Payton....I'm so sorry." Kai said.

"Don't be.......Chandler and Vanessa found me and called the ambulance. I'd woke up in the hospital bed with a gown on. The doctors flushed all the pills out of me and the first people I saw were Chandler, Vanessa and my mom all crying when they seen I had woken up. They asked me what had happened and I told them that it was Ashton that drove me at that point. I told them every single thing he said verbally. They're crying faces, turned into faces of a mama bear wanting to avenge their cub. The thing about the sisters and my mom...when someone fucks me over or breaks my heart, they go on full attack mode. They tried to hunt down but Ashton was nowhere to be found, almost as if...he never existed. I swear if Chandler and Vanessa never came over....I'd for sure would've been de-"

"Shut up.....don't you fucking dare say that word...I had a loved one who I loved deeply and she died, so I can't have that happen to you....I can't let people I love die on me." I rose up and looked straight into Kai's eyes.

"Did you just say...love?" I asked. My heart was beating a mile a minute. Kai covered his mouth.

"That wasn't suppose to come out." He said.

"But it did....you love me?"

".........yes.....with you I found this instant connection, I never felt that with anyone." He said. "It's....new."

"I understand. Trust me when I found out I was getting a roommate I thought I had to conjure up a little plan to get them out, but then I saw you and...my whole demeanor changed. You know that saying, when you know, you know?" I asked. Kai nodded.

"Well that's how I feel about you. I just know in my heart that you're the one. All the other guys I dated doesn't compare to you. Specially Ashton, you're nothing like him." I said laying down, bringing him into my arms.

"Just know, that I won't let anyone hurt you, I will protect you from anything and everything." I said.

"Aww, you're the sweetest." Kai said starting to yawn.

"So.....if you don't mind me asking. What happened between you and your girlfriend Alex? Kai? Kai?" I look at him, and he was snoring on my chest, hugging my sides. I smiled to myself and held a grip on him and slowly drifted into a peaceful sleep.

I'm glad I got all that stuff off my chest.

But I really want to know what went on with Kai and Alex.

What drove them apart after a strong five year relationship?

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