Warnings:
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Sapnap's POV

I sighed deeply as I looked down at my phone. 'Great, George isn't coming to school again today... He hasn't been at school for two weeks and before that he only went one day.'

'Why is he staying at home this time?' Clay asked, holding his breakfast, which was plain cracker from a certain brand and water for both of us, in his hands.

'Agoraphobia,' I answered. 'He just can't get outside because he's too scared to go into a crowd of people or school...'

Clay nodded slowly and walked to the couch, taking another bite of his cracker. I glanced at him and noticed he suddenly froze, his hands clenched.

'What's wrong?' I questioned, grabbing his hand because he suddenly turned really pale. His hand started shaking and became more sweaty within seconds, his nails piercing my skin. 'Clay?'

He gagged loudly and jumped up, running to the bathroom as quickly as he could. I frowned and stood up as well to go to him. 'Hungover or texture?'

He coughed and spit out the cracker he had in his mouth, putting his elbows on the toilet seat. 'There was a seed in the cracker and I hate it when those are in my mouth... So I immediately felt my throat close up and gagged.'

'I thought these were seedless...' I stumbled. 'I'm sorry if I got you the wrong ones. I had the last one of the old package with seedless crackers because I wanted to give you a fresher one, but might have bought the wrong package.'

'It's okay...' he answered with a deep sigh, standing up again. 'Do we have yoghurt without any chunks?'

'I'm pretty sure we have vanilla yoghurt,' I replied, lifting him up. 'Small cups.'

He nodded and walked with me as I grabbed the cup for him. I handed it to him and looked at the clock. 'Oh shit, we have to go to school, we are late.'

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Clay and I cycled to school, because we were too late to take the bus, parking our bikes in the bike storage. Clay sped up and ran inside of the school as I slowly followed him in the distance.

I lifted my phone up from my pocket and looked down at the screen, slowly going to my photo album. I had an immediate feeling of guilt come up again when I realised I hadn't told about the video, but the feeling was soon replaced as I remembered the conversation he had about my girlfriend.

'Clay, can you come back for a second?' I asked with a loud voice, seeing him turn back to me. He nodded slowly and walked up to me, a questioning look in his eyes.

'What's wrong? What have I done this time?' he questioned, his eyes widening.

'You know... I saw the messages about my girlfriend too,' I admitted, seeing his cheeks heat up. 'And it's really not okay what you've done. You let her cheat on me and knew we didn't have sex.'

He stayed quiet and shrugged slightly. 'I'm really sorry about it, Sapnap. I was just way too afraid to tell you because I knew you would hate me forever. I went to her when you were busy because she was so pushy and asked me to have sex with her... She said you had sex with her all the time so I just got along with it.'

'It's still not okay...' I replied. 'But did she know it was you? Did you do anything before she asked that?'

'She kissed me and I kissed back because I couldn't act like I didn't want that, right? Then she pushed her tongue in and I thought it was a thing you did so got along with it. Yeah, then she asked that.'

'Okay... Clay, I'm still upset with you, but she knew it was you then and used you,' I mumbled with a soft sigh. 'Because we've never made out before...'

'Oh...' he whispered. 'Dude, I'm actually sorry... I always mess everything up and genuinely tried to help you, but apparently I made everything worse and let her cheat. Now you're angry again and-.'

'Shut up, okay?' I exclaimed, pushing my hand onto his mouth. 'It's fine, I can stay mad for ages but it won't change what happened and in the end, you're my brother, I'll always forgive you so I can better do it immediately. Next to that, she knew it was you and took advantage of it so she could have sex...'

'I didn't even feel anything for her,' Clay said honestly. 'I didn't know you were bisexual back then, but I knew I was gay. I don't get turned on from girls at all so I'm afraid she may know I'm... into guys.'

'Why? You had sex, right? It surely had to go up somewhere in this story or that wouldn't have happened,' I teased him, chuckling softly as he rolled his eyes.

'Yeah, but I have to do that by myself.' His face was red and he shrugged. 'I'm sure it's fine, she has never said anything about it so if we just keep this a secret, she'll probably not do anything with it either, right?'

'Not going to lie, if she's this stupid, she probably didn't even notice,' I answered. 'But please, Clay. I want to be able to trust you and you're making it really difficult for me. Is there anything else you're hiding from me?'

I breathed out and shrugged. 'Maybe, but I'm not going to say that here. If anyone hears me I can better just kill myself right away or our parents will do it.'

'Also... because you've been such a dick to me. I can't take off my hoodie and my ankle still hurts. I think it would be a great deal if you go to my PE class today.'

'No way, dude! You have never- No, never mind. You've done a lot for me actually... Fine, I'll go to your class, but then you have to promise me to forgive me and stop being mad at me for what I've done!'

'Fine... Did you know Jimmy is in my PE class?'

'Holy shit, no... I'm not going,' Clay scoffed. 'Dude, that's mean! There's no way I'm going to sit in the changing room with him!'

'He'll think you're me, asshole. You've already said yes and if you do a single mean thing to me today, I'll tell Jimmy you're in my PE class!'

'Blackmail!' Clay shouted out.

'Shouldn't have had sex with my girlfriend and my crush!'

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