Rishabh's pov

Radhika loves me and I didn't had anything to say. It was like a dead end for me. This is why I locked away my emotions because if I keep them free they're going to fall again with no one will be ready to catch you.

Her confession caught me off guard and I had no idea how to tell her not go that path. Not make it any more complicated but I can't stop someone from feeling I can respect them. She's a great person and having her in my life has just made it so much better but I don't love her. I can't love anyone. That's a no zone for me and she needs to understand that. Loving is scarificing your power to somebody else and I'm just not ready for giving someone else the power to destroy me again.

This emotion haunts me I really don't want to feel this emotion again in my life. I know I may have hurt her by my words but I was honest. I do care for her I really want her in my life but I'm not in he'll giving her any wrong hopes that I might someday love her because I don't intend to love anybody in my life for the rest of my life. Whatever I've I feel satisfied. I don't want another battle with my life again.

I just need to explain this to her and it'll be okay again. Yesterday I was too stunned to reply but today I'm in a better state to explain my point of view to her. She's a understanding girl, she'll know from where I'm coming. I don't want to lose her on such a small thing. She's really important to me and I failed to tell her that yesterday when she needed to hear but today I'm going to tell her very clearly. I'll tell her that love isn't everything and even without it people can be happy. We can be happy.

"Rishabh" I heard someone call my name and turn to see Anya standing there.

"Huh?"

"I've been calling you. You weren't listening"

"Uh sorry about that. What is it?"

She gave me two envelopes and said "This is from Radhika. She dropped them in the morning for you"

"Why? Where is she?"

"She seemed in a rush so I couldn't ask. Also she asked me to tell you that open them in sequence.

I nodded and headed to my cabin. I sat down and opened the first letter.

Rishabh,

I know you're having a lot of questions right now and the most important one must be why am I not giving you this by myself? Well first thing first, by the time you'll be reading this letter I'll be gone. Yes, I'm leaving and I know this arises more questions than they already were but to your every question I've only one answer. I'm leaving.

I told you I love you and you said you can't which is totally fine because it is your choice and I've no right to point a finger on that. I put myself out and kept my heart open but it didn't work. I'm not regretting my decision I'm happy I had the guts to say it out loud but the bottom line is it didn't work.

Sometimes leaving is what is best. If I'll not leave I'll live there with the hope that you might fell in love with me and it'll tie you down, that hope will tie me down. Right now I'm happy and sad. I'm happy to know to experience this kind of love which is incredible and sad because I'll never know how it feels to get that love back. I'm sad that I'm leaving but I'm happy I've so many memories to cherish.

You were a very beautiful time in my life and that's okay because I love every moment of it. I could talk to you for hours and not feel bored and it felt amazing but I guess that's all I had and I ever will have. The little moments with you, the little things that made my day but now I'll have to live without that happiness. I'll have to live without seeing you everyday. I'll have to make my heart believe that this is going to be okay.

It's okay with what happened in your past because it made you the person you're. And I happen to be in love with the person you're. I love the way you are and everything about you so I won't ask you to change because that's unfair. I'm setting you free. Happiness is letting go someone you love so much just so he can get what he wants so I'm letting you go.

This is going to be really hard but I think with time it'll just get better. It took me alot of courage to do this and honestly I didn't tell you about it in person because I was afraid that looking at you and seeing you might break me or the strength I've gathered to leave. It is important we part our ways before it becomes more heartbreaking than it already is. If I could just ask you for one thing for old time sake, don't try to find me or contact me. I won't be able to get it together if I'll see you.

If you ever cared for me please don't stop yourself. You need to live and be happy. Try to find something that will keep you smiling and I'll live with the thought that you're happy because I really want you to be. In the end, I had the world's best memories with you and I'm keeping them in my heart forever.

Love, Radhika.

I opened the another letter and it was Radhika's resignation letter. I didn't know what to feel in that moment. It was dead end. She has already left and I am not sure how to deal with this situation. All I could think of was I'm not going to see her smile every morning or hear her laugh on silly things or listen to her stories in our lunch time. She just isn't going to be here anymore and it was unsettling.

I could see people working through my glass door. Everything was same yet completely different. I felt someone take away the warmth of this place. Standing in my office didn't feel right for the first time in years. There are hundred things that were running through my mind but everything had just one answer. She was gone. Just thinking about it made everything cold and dark. I didn't want this but this is all I'm left with.

I couldn't understand what was happening. My mind couldn't process anything. It was just becoming numb by each passing second. I fell on the floor and in no time darkness surrounded me and I was unconscious.