Anthony POV

"You was going through my stuff?" I asked, my heart beating fast. I can't believe this is happening right now.

"Hell yeah I was, this is my fucking house. Now answer my damn question," she leaned forward and dropped the suitcase on the floor, opening the top showing the thousands of dollars I had in there. "Where did you get this money, Anthony?"

I rushed to the suitcase and slammed the lid shut. "Why was you going through my things, ma?! I can't get no fucking privacy?!"

She got up and slapped me dead in my face making my cheek burn. I clenched my teeth together. "What your mouth when you're fucking talking to me boy!" She yelled. "You been selling drugs?" She said in that calm tone again. I didn't answer her. "You don't hear me talking to you?" She grabbed my arm and I yanked it away.

"So where did you get this money Anthony?! Cause I know damn well you ain't got no job!"

"I borrowed it from somebody, damn!" I tried to walk away. "You overreacting for nothing."

Before I could walk away she grabbed me tightly by my ear. "You borrowed it, huh? Your little friends are gonna lend you this much money, huh? You think I was born yesterday Anthony? You think I'm stupid?"

I didn't answer and just looked away from her, clenching my fists together. My mom slapped me in the face again, harder than last time. "So you selling drugs?"

I didn't answer. She slapped me again. My face was hot and my bod was twitching out of anger. "So you selling drugs?!"

I didn't answer again, so she put her hand into a fist and hit me across the face with her knuckles. It took all the strength in me not to slap the shit out of her. I had to take several steps back and realize that's my mother, I could never hit her no matter how much I was tempted to.

"So you was selling drugs?!" She yelled out, she was now sobbing with tears rolling down her cheeks. I made my own mother cry.

"Ma.."
"No, I don't want to fucking hear it anymore. Get out my house." She pointed at the door, looking away from me.

"Wait, what? You can't be serious ma, you can't be serious."

"I'm as serious as can be Anthony, I don't want you in this house ever again. I don't want you near my children, or me. Just go."

I felt my eyes start to water, but I'm not gonna cry. Nobody's gonna get the satisfaction of seeing me in that state.

"My children? So I'm not your child anymore?" I asked. She stayed quiet.

"Wow, okay. Just because of a little mistake." I shook my head.

"That same little mistake took your fathers life!" She yelled. "And it almost took ours too! So don't you dare fucking tell me that it's just a little mistake!"

I stayed quiet. "So, take your money. Pack your shit, and go. I could care less about what you do when you go. Wanna live that lifestyle? Go ahead. But you not doing it with me." She crossed her arms and looked away.

I walked up the steps, not before punching a wall in making my hands bleed. When I got to my room I just threw random things into a duffle bag and transferred what was in the suitcase to there too. I made sure to take my gun, which I'm glad she didn't find. I don't use it a lot, its sole purpose was to use it if I needed to protect my family. But I may have no use for it now since I'm being thrown out. I won't even be here to protect them.

I zipped the bag up and walked back downstairs with it. My mother was watching me as I walked to the back of the house where the kids room was. I opened the door and walked in to see Zaniya slamming her phone down, trying to pretend she was sleep. I chuckled and walked over to sit on her bed.

"Za, it's just me." I said with a smile on my face. She sat up. "Why are you here?" She asked trying to push me off of the bed. I laughed and pulled her out from underneath the blanket. I flicked the light switch on, and she squinted her eyes.

"Ah, fuck my eyes." She said and I flicked her head.

"Watch that mouth little girl." I said. She rolled her eyes. I pulled her into a hug and she squirmed trying to get away. I kept my lock on her, kissing her forehead while at it. "Ewwwww what are you doing, get off of me." She practically shouted. I let my grip of her go.

"Za, I don't know the next time I'm gonna see y'all." I said quietly. She became serious. "What are you talking about, Ant?"

"Well," how do I explain this to my baby sister without her thinking bad of me? "I did some stupid stuff and I can't stay here anymore. Mom don't want me here."

"Wait, she's kicking you out?" She asked. I nodded. "Wait, why?"

"I made some bad choices baby sis, some dumb ass choices." I looked at her. "I don't know when I can see y'all again after tonight. But I'll make sure it's soon, okay?" She started crying, I brought her into my chest.

"Oh no, thugs don't cry Za, thugs don't cry." I said trying to cheer her up. It didn't seem to work though, she only started crying harder. "Don't leave, Anthony." She said.

"I wish I didn't have to, but I gotta do what's best for y'all—"

"Anthony, you should go now." I saw my mom at the door.

I got up and went to Lauren's bed, pecking her drool covered cheeks. I then went over Hayden's bed and kissed his forehead.

Before I could walk out the door Zaniya came up to me in tears, hugging me.

"It's alright, sis. I promise I'll see you soon, okay?"

She sniffled then nodded.

"I love you, be good alright? And no little boys."

She nodded.

"Alright, I'm gone. Go to sleep." I closed their room door and walked to the living room to see my mom with her arms crossed. I walked up to her. I leaned down and kissed her cheek.

"I love you ma." I looked at her stressed face. She responded with "hm."

"I'm sorry." I said.
"Just go, Anthony." She said. I sighed and walked out the door without another word. I got in my car and drove to a hotel.

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I laid down in the hotel bed, just thinking while smoking a blunt. I probably shouldn't do that after what happened, but I need something to calm me down, and that pack of cigarettes that I had before wasn't doing it.

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Short chapter, I'm sorry. But here you go!!!