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TaiShawn POV

We've been trying to find Cameron for nearly three months now. Although the drive is not the same from the first time the situation was known, the cops are still involved because it's one of their mens sons that has to suffer because of who they're looking for. From what the cops know right now, another girl in Georgia that used to live in Brooklyn went missing. She was Cameron's best friend apparently, so we know he's been over there.

The closest we got is the boy going into a police station. When I heard how easily they let him slip away, I lost it. How the fuck do you let somebody escape from questioning? What kind of system they got over there? All of this could've been over with if they had just done their job right.

Dad and I are doing everything in our willpower to do the job by ourselves. Makai's dad as well. They gave him an emotional leave and he's using that time to help us, and help himself if you should say. Ma went back to California and is staying with our grandparents for a little bit because she can't be by herself when she's pregnant, and pops felt like he couldn't keep dragging her along when she needed her rest.

I try to distance my mind from how scared my little brother is and how he's feeling. I don't even know if he's still alive. And I have no one to talk about my worries with because pops will just tell me to shut up, and after him there's no one else I can talk to. I don't really have anyone, I don't have friends, I don't have acquaintances. I just got my family, that's why I'm going so hard. I have my second family, the ones I've lived with my whole life, but even they dropped me after a while.

So I know I'm going hard, but I don't care. It's selfish for that boy to think Cameron is his. He got his own family to worry about, leave mine alone.

Cameron POV

"Be back." Anthony and Tyler got out of the car. It was Tyler's that we were if fact gonna go to Mexico as funny as it sounds. But before we could do that, Anthony has to get his money up, as he says. So that's what they're doing right now. In some way they're still connected with Damien, Anthony's drug dealer guy or something. And he has work for him, and Tyler's helping. They know it's risky to still be in contact with someone back in Brooklyn but Anthony said its the only thing that's going for him right now.

I pouted, but I swear I didn't mean to. I don't like when Anthony leaves, it makes me anxious. "Fix your face. I'm coming right back." He said. That only made me more upset so I just shrugged and rolled the window up. He knocked on it, signaling for me to roll it down but I didn't. He walked off.

"Yo, you really obsessed with him." Pheonix laughed, pushing me playfully. I don't know if it's because she touched me and I'm still not on good terms with her or if it's because she's talking about me, but I got irritated quick after she said it. "You're right, I am. Is there a problem?" I snapped. She shook her head, widening her eyes. "Nah bitch, I'm just playing." I side eyed her, turning my head back around.

"CamCam, not to offend you, but you're getting a little chunky." She said. I suddenly felt bad because I know I am. That's why I'm wearing bigger clothes so Anthony won't notice and think I'm ugly. Whenever there is a time and place to you know what, I always deny him because I'm just not trying to take my clothes off. I keep gaining the weight and it's starting to show everywhere. I thought no one was noticing, but now that Pheonix said it I know that it's probably noticeable by everyone.

"...You see it a lot?" I asked and she shrugged. "I mean, not a lot. But it's a noticeable difference." She replied.

"To be honest... And you're gonna call me crazy but... With the throwing up and the mood swings and the gaining weight...I think that maybe...." She made a face as if I was supposed to know what she's talking about.

I frowned, not getting it. "You think that maybe what?" I asked.

"You should take a test."

"What test?"

"Like a pregnancy test. I know, I sound like—"

I cut her off. "Come on! This isn't a joke Pheonix."

"Well I'm not fucking joking, and lower your voice."

"No."

"You should take a pregnancy test because remember what you were telling me about your estrogen levels? And I've read books where this shit happens so..."

"Yeah, fiction books. And my estrogen has nothing to do with my reproductive system. And even if it came out positive, you know what that means right?"

"What?"

"That means I've got cancer down there. I don't wanna know if I have cancer."

I shook my head feeling myself getting emotional over nothing. I thought she was really gonna help me. Now I feel like I'm stuck all over again. I cant take care of the weight, I can't help my mood, and I can't stop throwing up. "I just think I need to see a doctor." I thought out loud.

"That's the worst thing you can do. You'd be the first biological male to be pregnant, and all they're gonna do is send you to a lab and cut you up for dissection to see why your body can do that. And try to lie and say you died unfortunately. They gonna kill all of us too so we don't say nothing, or put us under an oath."

"Pheonix."

"I'm just saying. I'm gonna buy the test, I'll be right back. You gonna pee on it and if it's positive you could either be pregnant or you can have cancer in your balls. Either way, we gotta know."

I didn't pay her any mind as she walked out of the car. I watched out the window in the meantime, waiting for Anthony to come back. He was taking too long for my liking. "Here, go pee on it" Pheonix came back and handed me a pregnancy test. I pushed the box away and shook my head. "What have you got to lose?" She asked. I shrugged "I don't know but put that thing away because they're coming."

She got out the car and ran to Anthony, waving the pregnancy test in his face as they walked back to the car. When Anthony opened the door to get inside, I heard what she was saying. "Can you tell Cameron to pee on this thing? Because he's really stubborn right now."

"You feeling alright?" Anthony asks me, turning around in his seat. I nod my head, assuring him that there's nothing for him to worry about. "No," Pheonix interludes, "he's not. He's been throwing up, he's been moody, he's been getting fatter. I think the boy is Preggo."

"Why would you say that?" I ask, shaking my head.

"He and Pregnant don't go together." Tyler laughed "I'm having a hard time figuring out if you're joking or serious."

"I'm deadass. I'm telling y'all, I read about this happening before. Oh, and look."

Suddenly I felt my shirt being yanked up, exposing my protruding stomach. I feel everyone just staring at me and how fat I got. I mean, I've gained weight before. But never this much.

"Pheonix, get off of me." I shove her away. I thought I was off the hook but Anthony pulled my shirt back up. Of course, I didn't shove him away. But I did give him some words. "What are you doing? Why can't you leave me alone? Move!"

He didn't listen to me and put his hand on my stomach. "It's hard." He looks at me. I shrugged and pulled my shirt back down quickly.

"I'm trying to tell the boy take a pregnancy test but he says it's not possible." Pheonix said.

"Because it's not." I replied.

"It's not." Tyler added on and Anthony nodded in agreement.

"Whatever, when y'all baby dead because it wasn't taken care of properly, no one talk to me. If you would've taken the god damn test there would be no problem. I mean, what's the big deal? You're not gonna lose anything if you just take the test. Not—" her rant was cut short by me making an offer. I'd take the test and she can't talk for the rest of the night.

"Deal." She smiles. "Let's go."

"No, I'm going only, okay."

She shrugged. "Fine by me."

I shook my head, getting out of the car. It was dark outside but I wasn't focusing on being scared. I walked a good distance from the car. I read the directions on the box and it said I had to wait three to five minutes for the results. So I took the test out, did my business and waited for the results.

After taking about ten minutes, I finally decided to look at what the stick says even though I only had to wait like three. And when I saw two lines on the test, all I could think about was the fact that I could possibly have cancer.

"Finish?" I felt a hand on my shoulder making me jump. I turned around and Anthony was looking at me worriedly. Maybe it's because of the tears in my eyes threatening to fall. I hugged his torso, laying my head on him, fighting back the tears in my eyes. He wrapped his arm around me. "What's wrong?" He asked, caressing my arm.

I blurted out, "I'm gonna die."
"What do you mean?" He asked.

"Well, I took the test and it came out positive... And like since I'm not a girl it has a totally different meaning..." I sighed. He shrugged. "Well Cameron, what if you are? I mean, you have been throwing up and acting different all the time. And you put on a little weight. It can't be a coincidence it came out positive. Would it make you feel better if you go to a doctor and get checked?" He asked. I nodded quickly.

Just our luck there was a private walk in clinic just down the street from where we were. I didn't tell Pheonix what the test says or where we're going, but when we pulled up to the doctors office she started to holler a bunch of 'I was right' 's. "Wait but y'all really about to go to a doctor for this though? They gonna send your ass to the lab for studies babe! Don't do it."

I already presented Anthony with that theory and he told me not to worry about it. So, I trusted him like I do with everything else.

"Am I gonna be a uncle?" Tyler whispered to us as we walked into the quiet, empty office. There was no one around. I saw a bell on the desk and I rang it a few times. No one came out, so Pheonix yelled, "HELLO?"

Then out came a lady with orange hair and glasses in a white coat. She looked like she was in her fourties. She dusted her hands off on her pants, after shoving something in her mouth. "Well what do we have here?" She smiled around her food. "Doctor Suzie. Have a seat, have a seat. There's no one around and we have the whole place to ourselves."

"We wanna do a pregnancy test." Pheonix said out of the blue. The lady clapped and smiled. "Ah! I could help you with that. Come along now." She grabbed Pheonix's hand but she pulled it away.

"Well what's the matter?"

"The pregnancy test isn't for me, it's for him." Pheonix shoved me towards her. The woman frowned with a look of confusion written all over her face. "Look, if you kids came here to play, leave now."

"Bitch, nobody playing with you. The boy need help. He took a pregnancy test and it came out positive so we need to know what you say about it." Pheonix snapped.

The lady put her hand over her heart like she was taken aback. She nodded quickly, and brought me to the back room. Anthony asked if I needed his assistance but I shook my head no.

"Okay, sit right on that bed. I can't believe I'm doing this." She scoffed "but then again this can be far worse, you know that right?" She asked. I nodded my head, already knowing where this was going. So, she ran a test to determine my levels of HCG to see if in fact I could have cancer. The levels were un-normal for a man, so she told me that could be a sign. Then she told me to take my pants and underwear off. I did, hesitantly. She gloved her hands and felt on me under there to see if she felt anything out of the ordinary. She told me she didn't find anything. Then she ran an ultrasound down there too, and said she found no signs other than the HCG  test, of a possible cancer.

As I was putting my pants back on, I felt her eying me carefully. Her eyes landed on my stomach. "You're a biological male, right?" She asked. I nodded my head. She exhaled, and got out of her seat. She told me to follow her into the next room and so I did. In this room was a bunch of special equipment. And that's when the thought of cutting me open came into mind. "You're not gonna dissect me, right?" I asked carefully. She looked at me like I was crazy and I think she thought I was joking because she laughed and went right back to what she was doing.

"Lay on the bed." She said. "Now I really can't believe I'm doing this. Take off your shirt." I took my shirt off and she immediately poured a cold gel on my stomach. She stared at the screen carefully while she moved the little stick thing around on my stomach. She sighed every so often, moving the stick around slowly.

"Well it looks like I can't find— wait wait wait." She moved back a little more and he jaw dropped. She looked at me unbelievably and looked back at the screen. "Cameron, what's your medical history?" She asked and I shrugged. "I mean, I have a lot of estrogen but that's all really..." I said awkwardly. She nodded and observed the screen even more. "You've had unprotected anal sex before, yeah?" She asked. I nodded awkwardly.

"You're a walking scientific mystery, my love."

"Am I pregnant?" I asked. When she nodded I felt my heart beat start to quicken. "That's what it's looking like. That little blob on the screen right there is a fetus my love. You're about two and a half months along. Wow, this is extraordinary."

"Can you keep it a secret? Like from the government because I don't want to die." I practically begged.

"Why do you think I own a private clinic? I don't need these people knowing my every move. I hate them, between you and I."

When that was out of the way, all I could focus on is the news I just got. I'm lost for words, I don't know what to say. And it seems like the doctor was as well because she kept shaking her head with a shocked expression, staring at the screen.

"It probably has something to do with the development of eggs because of the increasing amount of the dominant female hormone as you got older. How old are you sweetness?"

"Seventeen."

"So we're going to have to inform your parents."

"No!" I said quickly, cringing afterwards. "I mean no. I- I live with my boyfriend he's nineteen."

"Boyfriend or fiancée or husband? Because the ring..."

"All three." I said.

"Is he out there?" She asked and I nodded. "Yeah, but please. Can this just be private like off the books or something because I really don't—"

"Calm down honey, it seems like you're passionate about it. So I'll try to lay as low as I can."

I thanked her feeling a little bit relived. Of course I'm not going to trust her one hundred percent, but I got to have hope and faith in her.

"I already know there's going to be some complications of you decide to go through with this pregnancy though. Because first of all, you can't birth naturally. A c- section will be imperative if this works out. It'll be a risk for you and the baby because technically, your body was not built for this. You're missing a lot of parts that are usually important to a pregnancy that a female has. You had the eggs and some other things. But you know, it's not all there. I could tell you more but you'd have to come back tomorrow. Because I'll be researching all night. Do you live around here?" She asked "because I recommend that you only come to me. Because you don't know if people will be as generous as I am to not let out your business."

I didn't think about that. We were supposed to keep going. We can't stop in some random state, that's too risky. "I don't know I have to ask."

She nodded and got up out of her chair. "Well I would love to keep you all night and study your anatomy some more, but I'll let you on your way. Go spread the news if you'd like. If I were you I would wait because we don't want to get hopes up and the pregnancy ends up not falling through due to complications. But, it's up to you."

I walked out of the office. I walked down the short hallway slowly, trying to buy some time to think to myself. I'm pregnant with Anthony's baby.

I'm pregnant.

With Anthony's child. Wow. I couldn't keep back the smile from creeping onto my face. If our predicament was better, I wouldn't ask to change a thing. I can't believe it. And I may be a deformed human but I don't care, it lead me to this. I don't know how me being pregnant and us on the run thing will play out but it has to because there's no 'IF I go through with the the pregnancy.' I am going through with it.

As I lifted up my shirt, looking at the thing I called fat not too long ago, I suddenly felt happy. I let out a joyous giggle. Doctor Suzie came up behind me and gave me a few pictures of the sonogram. I got emotional when I saw the outline of arms, legs, a head, and eyes. Before I went out into where they were all sitting, I composed myself so I don't look like a dummy. I decided I'm going to tell Anthony at least because God forbid I lose the baby because of complications, I'm not gonna want to go through that alone.

When I got back out, they hadn't noticed I came back. Anthony was staring at his lap and Tyler and Pheonix were sleeping. It's only when I started walking towards him is when Anthony looked up. He looked in my eyes like he was expecting some bad news. I knew he was doubting me being pregnant as much as I was, I just think he didn't want to think of cancer. I was trying to keep a straight face but I failed myself, smiling again. When I did, he stood up and grabbed my hands. "Are you.. Are you pregnant?" He said in a sort of whisper-ish tone. I nodded my head quickly. "You serious?" His grasp around my hand became tighter and I kept nodding, giving him the sonogram. He examined it carefully and I felt good that I wasn't the only one having smiles creeping on my face even when I didn't want to. Anthony let out a happy chuckle and kissed me which I happily returned. I hugged him.

"But how?" He asked. I shrugged not really feeling like going into detail right now but he didn't mind. He kissed my head.

"What y'all hugging about? Cancer free?" Tyler woke up and so did Pheonix. I nodded.

"But the real question is, is there a bun in the oven?" Pheonix asked and I bashfully nodded because she had end up being right. Tyler jumped out of his seat. "What?! How? I knew you was transgender from the beginning, I was trying to tell y'all!"

"I'm not a trans-man Tyler, it's just how my body developed." I reassured.

"You lying."

"I'm not, I swear."

"Then that means you're a pregnant boy?"

I nodded. His eyes got even wider.

"Woah. Whatever I don't give a fuck, I'm gonna be a uncle that's all that matters. Oh, and my brothers gonna be a father. And my midget is gonna be a mom/dad. A Mather. Yeah, Cameron's gonna be a mather." He gave Anthony a hug and a kiss on the forehead for me.

"And I'm gon' be a auntie!!!!"

When Pheonix shouted that it's like everything went silent and there might as well have been crickets playing in the background. She gave us a face. "I'm the whole reason he pregnant right now. If it weren't for me fucking shit up y'all wouldn't have had unprotected make-up sex so.... I don't know why the fuck y'all looking like I got two heads."

We disregarded what she said. "But the doctor has to talk to you Anthony." I told him. He went to the doctor who had a smile on her face. I sat down, being bombarded with questions from Tyler and Pheonix.

Anthony POV

"Just so you know, this right here is only between you