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Cameron POV

Today's Anthony's court date. Tyler's coming to pick me and the babies up in about and hour, but I haven't told my parents that I'm going. I know all they're going to try to do is stop me- especially my father and I don't feel like going through all of that so I'm just going to leave without them knowing.

These past threes days with the babies and my family have been super stressful. Taleah and Anthony jr. cry so much, I can never sleep. And I've only had to deal with this for less than a week so I know I'm in store for a lot. My father is always trying to get into some type of argument with me. His son is always putting his two cents in. And my mom is taking care of her kid- my baby brother- so she's barely ever available.

"Come on Taleah I just changed you." I groan to myself. Taleah dirtied her diaper as soon as I put a new one on her. While I'm trying to change Leah, Aj starts to scream-cry and thrash around out of nowhere. And that makes Leah start to cry and thrash around too which makes it difficult for me to put her pamper on.

I do it as best as I can which is lopsided but at this point I don't even care. I pick Aj and Leah up and cradle them in my arms, hoping to stop the crying. It's hard for me to know what they're crying for when they're crying. Sometimes it's because of a full diaper, others it's because they're hungry. Sometimes they just want to be held. In this case, they do want to be held because as soon as I have them in my arms the crying stops.

I fed them already but I put extra bottles along with diapers and bibs in a baby bag that Tyler's mother bought for me. I put their white onesies on then finally start getting ready myself. I put them in their car seats and bring them into the bathroom so I can keep an eye on them as I shower. When I get out I put on black jeans and black t shirt. I've gained some weight from the pregnancy so I really don't wear anything besides black t shirts.

My phone starts to ring and it's Tyler.
"Hello?"

"Hey Cam, I'm downstairs."

"Okay. I'm coming right now." I hang up the phone. I pick the babies car seats up along with their baby bag. As I'm about to walk out of the house my father stops me by walking in front of the door.

"Uh, where do you think you're going?" He crosses his arms and raises his eyebrows.

"Out."

"And where's out?"

"Somewhere."

"Cameron, don't play smart with me. You're seventeen years old, having kids doesn't suddenly make you grown. You're not going anywhere go back to your room."

"No, can you move." I say. I swear with each passing day I hate this man even more.

"No, I'm not moving from the door to the house I pay bills for. Go back to your room now."

"No, please move." I say as respectfully as I could muster up.

"You're not going any fucking where," My dad grabs at my babies car seats and yanks them out of my hand making them cry. And that's what makes me livid.

"Don't touch them! Put them down! Put them down now!!" I scream which I think takes my father off guard. His eyes widen but he doesn't put my babies down. I feel myself getting heated and angrier every second he doesn't put them down. My mother came from the back holding Kyle and looking between us.

"What's going on up here?! Cameron honey, what's wrong?"

"Give me my babies now so I can go."

My mother looks at Aj and Leah in my fathers hands and frowns. "What are you doing?"

"Cameron is about to leave the house with these kids and not tell anyone where he's going. He's not going anywhere."

"Cameron, sweetie, where are you going?" My mother asks me.

"Somewhere."

"Somewhere where honey?"

"I have to go buy them some more clothes." I lie. My farther narrows his eyes at me, "Yeah right. You think I don't know that boys court date is today? I follow up with everything. You're not going."

"Oh, leave him alone! Nothing's going to happen he'll be fine. What's the big deal? Give him my the babies back."

"So you're alright with him going to see the person who took him from us? Wasn't it you that said you shouldn't have trusted him so quickly? You know you don't always have to be so quick to come to Cameron's defense even when he's wrong."

"Honey, clearly Cameron is deeply involved with the young man. We won't ever understand why because we're not in his shoes. It's a court house, he's going to see him in a courthouse. Now give the babies back."

My dad puts the car seats on the floor and walks off. I have to inhale and exhale deeply so I don't get myself worked up too much. I pick AJ and Leah up from the floor.

"Tyler is bringing you?" My mother asks and I nod. Unlike my father, she doesn't give me a hard time to leave the house. When I get downstairs I sit in the back with the babies. "Damn, what took you so long?" He asks.

"My father..." I trail off and look out the window.

"Im sorry, but I don't like that nigga. He needs to get over that shit already, the fuck."

"It'll be a while before he does." I say quietly. Tyler drives for about fourty five minutes sand we are finally at the court house. "Lemme help you out with the lil' munchkins," Tyler gets out the car first and grabs my baby bag and Leah and I take AJ.

"Do you know where you're going?" I ask him after we've been walking down multiple long hallways. "Yeah, I had made sure I knew like a day ago." Tyler says.

I haven't seen Anthony in days and even though this isn't the most ideal place I would want to be seeing him at, it's better than nothing. I miss him so much. It's so weird being without him again.

Tyler and I go through these two large doors to the courtroom where I spot few unknown and known faces. A few people from Ants family including his mother and siblings are here. They all turn around to look at Tyler and I. Clearly they know who we are and have a lot to say, because the looks on their faces give it away. I see Ant's mom look at the babies and her eyes widen. She turns back around and I see telling Zaniya something. Zaniya turns around too, but she waves and smiles which Tyler and I return.

Now we have to sit and wait for the judge and Anthony and the lawyers to arrive. AJ starts to cry in his car seat making everyone look at us. I opt to take him out and hold him, and when I do he stops crying and lays his head on my shoulder. I guess Taleah wanted the same affection too because she starts crying as well and Tyler does the same thing I did, takes her out and holds her.

"I swear they just do what the other is doing." Tyler laughs and I nod in agreement.

Suddenly, the room goes quiet and I look to the front to see the judge walking in. She doesn't wear any emotion on her face, and sits down on her chair. She organizes and sorts a few folders on her desk in a quick and rushed way. Then she motions her finger to the security/ officers in there to bring in whoever was waiting in the back. When the door opens and Anthony walks in, I feel myself start to get emotional.

He looks so tired and restless. They've got him in handcuffs and a beige jumpsuit. I don't like to see him like this, it breaks my heart and it makes me mad at everybody.

I cover my eyes to stop my tears from coming out. "Oh my god." I inhale and exhale deeply to calm myself down. I feel Tyler's hand caressing my shoulder in attempt to sooth me. Eventually, before the trial starts, I uncover my eyes and I catch Anthony looking back at me and for  a second I forget where we are and I start to blush. I feel everyone in the courtrooms eyes on where Anthony is looking which happens to be me, even the judge.

Anthony smiles at me and blows me a kiss that makes my heart flutter. I smile back and him with the reddest blush ever on my cheeks. I see his eyes advert to Aj and Leah and it's like his eyes glow up. I wish I could go up there and give him his babies so he can hold them. And I can tell he wants them in his arms too.

"Okay let's begin." The judge, Judge Rode, says while pushing her glasses up on her nose.

"Anthony Jackson. You're twenty years old, and you are being charged with four murders, six shootings—one involving brain damaging Makai Woods, and also the kidnapping of Cameron Smiths."

She pauses and looks at Anthony waiting for a reaction but she doesn't get one.

"You know you could be facing at least fourty to life because of what you've done?" She asks. The sound of that, although I already had an idea that it would be somewhere around that time, makes me start getting emotional again but this time I can't hold it in.

"Yeah, I know." I hear Anthony say. I lower my head into my lap to muffle my sniffles and crying noises. "It's yes, your honor." She corrects him and in my brain I call her dumb for thinking Anthony cares.

"Cameron Smiths was your boyfriend, correct?" Judge Rode asks.

"Is."

"Excuse me?"

"Cameron is."

"Is your boyfriend?"

"Yeah."

I hear the judge sigh and 'tsk', "Ooookay, so, lets get this over with" she takes a deep breath "For the murder of Marcus King, ten years. Jake Lansky, sixteen years. Frederick Claude, ten years, Daquan Carter, ten years. For the first May 2013 shooting, five years. December 2013 shooting, three years. February 2014 shooting, two years. June 2015 shooting, three years. March 2016 shooting, thirty. You'll be serving a sentence of eighty nine years without parole in the Metropolitan Detention Center in Brooklyn New York."

Tears start coming in ten times faster than they were before. I start to hyperventilate so I lift my head up from my lap for air not noticing that everyone is looking at me. "Cameron, you good? Calm down buddy. Breath." Tyler frowns and tries to caress my back but I can't stop and that's when I realize I'm having a panic attack. "Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god." I wipe at my eyes.

I hear Anthony arguing with someone and saying 'I need to calm him down.' My eyes are closed, so when I feel someone from my right side wrap their whole arm around me, knowing it's not Tyler, I start to push them off. But when I open my eyes and see that it's Anthony, accompanied by an officer, I start to cry even harder. With AJ between us, I lean into him and he wraps his arms around me. I cry harder into his neck.

"It's alright, calm down." He says into my ear.

"I- I can't. They're t-aking you away forever."

"I'll be okay."

"No! You won't be okay. That's the rest of your life Ant. That's not okay."

I notice the silence in the courtroom but I'm too sad to be embarrassed that everyone's focus is on Anthony and I. "What are the babies gonna do without you? What am I gonna do without you?"

"You can visit me," Anthony wipes my eyes. Tyler hands Anthony Leah and I give him AJ too. They both lay on either of his shoulders and he tells them he loves them over and over again. I can tell that Anthony is so in love with his babies, and I so get it. They're so beautiful, they look just like him. Anthony kisses them both and my heart swells when they lean into his lips for another kiss. I feel like they have a special bond with their daddy.

"How they been?"

"They're good. They're just a lot to handle. If ones crying they both cry." I smile at them cuddled up on Ant.

"Your parents been helping you?"

"No, not really... Tyler and his mom have been helping me when they can."

He gets quiet. "I'm sorry I can't be there to help you. I should be there with you."

"It's okay, we can't change that. The only thing we can do is work with what we have now."

The security guard taps Anthony. "Lets go."

Anthony hands Tyler the babies.

"Love you bro." Tyler says to Anthony.

"Love you too."

I wrap my arms around Anthony one more time before he has to leave. "I'll call you when I can." I bring Anthony's head down to my lips and we share one of the most passionate kisses we've ever had. I hold him so close to me that there is no space between us. I think the way we are kissing is making people uncomfortable because I hear shuffling and sounds of disgust but I don't pay them any mind. We may be acting inappropriately, but I don't care.
The officer taps Anthony again. Anthony gets up and holds my hand, bringing me up with him. He hugs me.

"I gotta go now. I love you baby. And when I get a phone call I'll call you."

"I love you more. I don't want you to leave me."

"I don't want to leave you either baby. I'm lucky I got the chance to talk to you right now. We'll talk okay?" He kisses my forehead.

I nod and while Anthony walks off with the officer, all the sadness from before Anthony sat with me comes back. I feel my chest tightening up while he walks away. Once he goes back through the double doors I have to try my hardest not to cry.

"Ready to go?" Tyler asks. I look at him and he looks so sad.

"Yes please."

I put Aj and Leah back in their car seats while Tyler goes and speaks to Anthony's family. From where I am, I can hear my name come up several times from them. While I'm in the middle of cleaning out Leah's nose outside of the courtroom, somebody comes up to me and taps me. I turn around and see Anthony's mother. I wait for her to say something.

"Hi, do you remember me?" She says.

"Uh, yeah. Ant's mother."

"Yeah... uhm, I came to apologize for all I put you and my baby through. I know now you've got to raise these babies by yourself- how did these babies come about anyway?"

"It's a long story that I'm not comfortable enough to tell you."

"They are my grand babies so I think I have the right to know how they came into the world. I want to help out."

"Can we have this discussion another time? I don't wanna talk about it," I wipe sweat off my forehead. I don't know what to tell people when they ask about these babies. I don't feel right not claiming them as mine. I had to get my belly cut open for them, and I refuse to say they're not mine. People will eventually have to know the truth.

"I guess." She looks at me for a while and her eyes get teary. "I never got to tell my son that I'm sorry. Now he's away forever. This is too much. I regret everything I did and if I could take it all back I would."

I smile sadly at her. "It's okay... I'm sure he knows."

"And I apologize for everything I've ever said about you and your relationship with my son. I was a little uncomfortable back there, but I can tell Anthony loves you a whole lot. He was never very open with his emotions, but he's not scared to express his love for you so you must be something special."

I look down, "Thank you."

She inhales deeply. "Well, Im gonna leave soon. What's the babies names before I leave?"

"Anthony D'arell Jackson Junior and Taleah Alana Jackson."

"I love it. I hope we can become closer sweetheart. I'm truly sorry for all I've done."

"It's fine."

Anthony's mother and I exchange goodbyes and she leaves. Zaniya and Tyler come out and Zaniya gives me a big hug that I return.

"You okay big booty?" She asks me making me laugh. She laughs with me and I can tell she's been crying from her wet eyes.

"I'm okay."

"How's my stinks doing?" She grabs the babies hands.

"They're doing good." We stand around for a little while longer and talk then go separate ways to go home. "Thank you for bringing me to and from, Ty." I say when we're in front of my apartment door.

"Don't thank me, a simple bye is enough. You're so polite."

"I can't help it. Bye Tyler."

"Bye ugly," He walks away and I shake my head. When I get inside the apartment, it's quiet and dark. I think my parents are either sleeping or went out. I change my clothes and the babies clothes. I put them in their cribs making sure to kiss them goodnight. I lay in my bed and all I can do is miss Anthony. I wish he was with me right now.

I wish I had the guts to commit a crime so I can be with him. But, I wouldn't leave my babies so that's out the picture. One thing I'm never doing, is taking this ring on my finger off. I'm always going to be his. Eighty nine years or not, I know that sounds crazy. But I have no desire for anyone else but Anthony. I'll be fifty and alone if I have to be.

I'm his, forever.

THREE YEARS LATER

"Papaaaaaaa!!!! AJ is taking my toy!"

"No I'm not!"

"Give it back!"

"No!"

"Give it back!"

"No!"

"What is going on?! Give the toy to me now." I yell at Aj and he gives it to me "What's the problem?"

"Leah doesn't want to share." He pouts.

"Leah, you have to share with your brother."

"But it's mine! He snatched it!"

"Aj, you can't just snatch things out of people's hands. You have to ask nicely first."

Aj crosses his arms and drops himself on the floor. "You better fix yourself. Or I'm not taking you with me later."

"Where papa?"

"I don't know, I only tell good kids where we are going."

"Papa, I'm a good kid! Where we going?" Leah hops on my leg and so does Aj. They both start pestering me but I don't tell them. "Are you guys gonna be good?"

They nod viciously.

I don't tell them where we're going. All I say is to clean up their toys quickly and they go scrambling away. My babies fight all the time. I'm scared for when they get older, I know that's going to be terrible. And now that I live on my own, due to my parents moving back to California with their sons, there's no one to help me with them. Except for when I send them to daycare to go to work and a babysitter when I have school.

I work from 7a.m to 6p.m at a bank, plus I have school. So, I do depend on the daycare a lot to watch my babies while I'm gone. I don't like that I have to do that because I have trust issues, but I have to do what I have to do. Today though, I'm off. From school and work so I'm spending the whole day with my babies.

"Papa we finish." Aj says. I look at the floor and see they've picked all their stuff up. "Good job guys. Okay, like I promised, let's go."

When we get outside of the apartment building I get a call and I pick it up without looking who it is while I'm strapping the kids up in the car.

"Yes, hello?"

"Damn, why you answered the phone all formal?" Tyler asks.

"Didn't know it was you, I didn't look at the caller ID. What's up?"

"Nothing much. I just got back from Houston, I'm in Brooklyn right now."

"How was your show? You tired?"  I ask while driving off.

"Fuck yeah I'm tired, the crowd was loud as shit screaming 'encore, encore' that shit was a major dub."

"So you didn't give your fans their encore?"

"Hell nah."

Tyler's dream of being a rapper payed off. He's the man of every girls dreams. And he has the number one single and album on iTunes right now.

"I'm gonna come by later around 6:00."  Tyler says.

"Okay, that's fine."

"Papa who is it?"

"It's uncle Tyler baby, say hi."

I put Tyler on speaker. "Hi uncle Tyler!" They say in unison. "We miss you."

"Hi my beautiful children. I miss y'all more, I'm coming by later with presents okay?"

"Okay! Bye I love you!" They say in unison again.

"I love y'all too."

I take him off of speaker. "Okay, I'll see you later."

"See you later