Persephone

I walk into class on Thursday, taking a seat and shucking off my sweater. 

Personally I don't hate the cold, I prefer not to freeze my ass off just trying to walk to class though. 

A few moments after I get settled a familiar presence sits down next to me. 

"Fuck this weather." Asa grumbles as he removes his jacket and beanie. 

I take the said beanie and put it on. 

He looks over at me, a small smile taking over his face. 

"You look adorable wearing my things." he tells me before pecking me on the lips. 

I can't help but smile up at him. 

Things have been going really well with Asa. 

He's been slowly opening up more and more to me. Telling me stories from his past no matter how hard it is for him to share those things. 

Listening to the way he talks about himself hurts me though. He truly believes he wasn't doing enough, that he doesn't deserve things in life because of choices he made in the past. 

I wish he could've done more for his mom but at the end of the day she made her own choices too. She put her son in a dangerous situation because she couldn't leave his step dad. 

I know people in abusive situation are manipulated by their abuser but I can't imagine letting your own son grow up there. 

And his biological dad seems like a piece of work too. He could've tried harder if he truly cared about his son but he gave up easily. 

Watching Asa beat himself up over those who failed him hurts me, all I want to do is wrap my arms around his younger self and tell him how amazing he is and that he didn't deserve the life he was given. 

"Want to stay the night at my place?" I blurt and Asa's eyes widen. 

Usually we end up at his place and he's always the one inviting me over not the other way around. 

I want to prove to him that he can tell me whatever and I will still want him, I won't ever stop wanting him. 

"You sure?" He asks and I nod. 

"Peyton is visiting her sister for the weekend so I have the dorm all to myself." I tell him. 

His hand finds my thigh, giving it a squeeze. 

"Then I'll be there."

* * * 

After classes Asa heads to practice while I tidy up my room. 

Sure he's been in here a few times but never to stay the night and for some reason it feels like a big night. 

A really big night. 

I shower and shave before straightening my hair and putting on a pair of shorts and one of Asa's hoodies I stole.

By eight I hear a knock on my door and I know it's him. 

Breathe Seph it's just Asa, you've had this guys penis in your mouth don't be nervous now. 

I open the door, "Asa, hey." I say and he smiles. God could I be anymore awkward? 

"Hey, baby." I could melt right there. 

I let him inside before closing the door behind him. 

He sets his backpack by my bed before sitting down and I follow, sitting down beside him. 

"Why are you nervous Percy?" He asks, clearly sensing my awkwardness. Nice to know I'm that transparent right now. 

I sigh, "I want to have sex with you Asa but I'm scared."

His brows furrow in confusion, "What are you scared of?"

Just be honest with him Seph. That's all you want from him which means you need to lead by example. 

"I'm scared that we're going to have sex and you're going to feel overwhelmed and run away from me again. Asa I can't do that." I tell him honestly. That would completely reck me. 

He pinches my chin between two of his fingers, angling my face towards him. 

"I'm not going anywhere Persephone, I promise. I want to do this for real."

"What do you mean?" I ask, trying not to read too much into it. 

He smiles, biting his lower lip, "I mean I want you to be my girlfriend Percy."

I blink at him. 

"Have you been abducted by aliens?" I ask and he shakes his head, a chuckle escaping him. 

"I'm serious. I want this with you, I want to try to be the guy you deserve." He tells me and sadness filters through my joy. 

"You're already that guy and so much more Asa. I wish you could see yourself the way I see you." I say and I can tell he doesn't quite believe me, thats ok I'll make him see it eventually. 

Leaning forward I press a kiss to his lips, "And the answer is yes, I will be your girlfriend."

The widest smile I have ever seen escapes him and I can't help but mirror him. 

I finally understand what being on cloud nine means. 

"You're perfect Percy." He tells me before leaning in and kissing me. 

I deepen the kiss, falling back onto the bed and he comes to hover over me. 

I was so happy in this moment my heart could actually explode. 

Being with Asa was like falling from a plane with no parachute but I was willing to free fall if it meant being with him. 

Asa's shirt is the first to go followed by mine until we are skin to skin, his body between my legs. 

Then his head is down there, doing what he does best and I love every second of it. He truly does look so pretty when he goes down on me. 

When I come down from my high he's back to eye level with me. 

I feel his length sliding between my folds making my back arch wanting him inside me. 

"Condom." I mutter and Asa reaching off the bed and grabs his jeans. He fishes a condom from the back pocket and quickly slips it on. 

Then he's lining himself up and pushing inside me. 

A gasp leaves me as I stretch around him. 

I haven't had sex in a while so it took me a moment to accommodate to his length. 

"Fuck, fuck, fuck." Asa chanted as he slid inside me to the hilt. 

As he gave me a moment to adjust he stared down at me with a look of awe. 

Swiping some hair out of my face he whispers, "God, you're beautiful."

His compliments always make my heart soar because I see the sincerity in Asa's eyes. He doesn't say them because he feels like he has to but because he feels that way in the moment. 

Slowly Asa starts to move inside me. 

"Fuck you feel good." He groans, "God, Persephone."

Hearing my name coming from his lips never gets old. 

Reaching down Asa strokes my clit bringing me closer and closer and I can feel him getting there too. 

So much has built up to this moment I don't think either of us are lasting long. 

I'm the first to lose it, when he sucks my earlobe into his mouth I tighten around him and eventually he follows. 

"I promise I usually last longer than that." He says against my ear and I laugh, "Isn't that what they all say?"

He groans and I can't help but laugh more. Asa knows I'm joking but its fun to tease him about it. 

Slowly he slides out of me. 

He removes the condom, throwing it in the trash before turning towards me in bed. 

I pull him towards me so he's resting his head against my chest. 

Secretly I did this so I could play with his hair. 

"I heard that in a few weeks we're playing against a team close to where I am from." Asa says softly. 

I don't speak I just run my fingers through his brown hair as he continues. 

"I think I want to go see my mom. I know it sounds stupid but I just need to see how she's doing. I need to see if she's doing better."

My heart aches for him. 

"Do you think I should see her?" He asks, his eyes still closed. 

I think it over for a moment before responding.

"I think you need to do what's best for you, love. I know you regret how you left her so if you need to see her I say do it but if it's only going to bring you more pain I don't want that for you." I say in complete honesty. 

He nods against my chest, "I have a few weeks to decide." Then he opens his eyes and the sadness in his eyes has my throat restricting. 

"What if she's doing worse?"

There is always a possibility, especially if she stayed with her abuser but none of it would be Asa's fault, even though I know he won't see it that way. 

"No matter what, it's not on you. You did what you could but in the end you had pick yourself. Don't let the choices they made affect the rest of your life Asa."

He hums before resting his head back onto my chest. 

"I wish I saw what you see in me Percy."

I wish he did too. 

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