Summary of Kel's thought over the chapters

I remember when we went over to her parent's house to invite them for the wedding. She had a panic attack before we went in and I wondered what she was so bothered about. I also went into panic mode a bit, I didn't like seeing her like that whether I hated her or not, it always scared me so I said soothing words to her, telling her to think of good things, it helped her before. When the door was opened by her mother she nearly threw us out. I know they never liked me but this was wrong. Like I did something wrong to them, I only broke up with their daughter so what's the deal?

I had to sound like I really loved her to convince them to attend the wedding. There was something about the way they talked to her, as if she committed a crime and I had something to do with it. I felt like there was something that happened that they blamed me for.

When she started crying I couldn't help but wrap my arms around her. I've always been weak to girls crying especially if it was Shayan, I felt like I had to comfort her then. I wanted to say soothing words to her but decided against it, I'm not even supposed to care. I didn't want her to think I cared about her a bit, I didn't want her to hurt me again. She was threatening me about telling her parents, I wanted her to tell them if it would help her relationship with her parents but it would make her think I care I care or was lenient so I couldn't allow that.

   On the day of our wedding I had assigned two bodyguards to make sure she didn't leave, I didn't exactly trust her. When I saw her walking down the aisle I couldn't help but notice how beautiful she looked, her wedding gown was gold and really beautiful Tess did a great job. Toppled with the gold tiara on her head she looked like a queen, my queen. If it wasn't for what happened between us I'd be marrying her for all the right reasons. When it was time to kiss the bride I didn't want to, kissing her would reignite every desire I had buried underneath and if I were to kiss her it wouldn't be a simple kiss. I'd kiss her hard punish her through the kiss. I had come to call her for the dance and saw her with a child. She was really cute, had cute big brown eyes and hair. She looked like Shayan with everything even the way she talked. It was funny yet annoying to have a little girl talk to me like that, she was no doubt Shayan's sister.

I planned a surprise for the honeymoon, on the plane we had a little argument. I still haven't gotten over the break up and I hate her everyday for what she did. I was angry at her so I left her when were landed. It was funny seeing her run to meet up with the car, every time she was close I'd speed further, I laughed when she ran. Her reaction when she realized we were in Paris was priceless. I wanted to smile watching how excited she was but I couldn't show it to her. I didn't even know why I did that, oh wait I had promised to take her to Paris for our honeymoon when we got married and I had meant it then. I was willing to marry her then because I loved her, I was a man of my word so I kept my promise. It was also a part of the reason why I married her, because I promised her that I'd marry her and treat her like a queen.

When I had taken her to the Eiffel Tower I felt contented seeing her happy and in a way I had meant what I had posted.

"It's amazing to be wedded to this beauty. @Eiffel Tower, Paris for our honeymoon. I know how much it means to her that we went there and seeing her excitement was the best. I look forward to making you happy for the rest of my life."

I had nearly kissed her when I said I'd do things to her that she wouldn't like. I was so close to kissing her, so close but thanks to my anger I shook my head and left. I shouldn't even feel that way towards her but deep down I knew I never got over her.

Waking up to her bedside me felt like a dream come true. It reminded me of old times, how much I missed them. I was looking forward to waking up like this every morning, her arms draped around me and mine around her waist possessively but I couldn't have that, I shouldn't even be thinking of things like that and I pushed her away. And that day on the beach I had nearly lost my self control, seeing her in a crop top and short was very revealing. Her sexy legs was full on display and I had imagined if she was just in a bikini and when she laid on top of me desire washed through me, she might have not had any idea what she was doing to me but every part of me was.

  And on the day she persuaded me to work she looked amazing. She had wore make up, her beautiful black hair was a tied in a bun it was nice although I loved it free. I had gotten myself busy that day so as to distract myself from her although I stole glances at her. She was exhausted by the time we got home and I knew she must have been hungry since I had made her starve so I decided to make it up to her. I didn't expect her to appear in a sexy red dress and red lipstick, she was dressed to kill. I wonder if she was doing it on purpose trying to seduce her way in. She was so beautiful. When we get to the restaurant I just watched her eat wondering how we got to this, we were the perfect couple, a lot of people envied us but now we're barely talking. She wasn't like other girls I've been with who rarely ate or was picky. She ate everything on her plate and I just stared at her. The way her lips moved as she chewed, I followed her every move. I was thinking of how it'd feel to kiss those lips again but I knew I couldn't. I couldn't ignite the fire within. If it was any other girl I'd have taken her immediately she came downstairs but this was Shayan, I could only imagine.

  This morning when we were in the office Susan barged into my office. I've had a fling with her when she was my secretary. I smiled when I saw her to spite Shayan, I didn't like when she started kissing me so I pushed her away. Shayan looked at me and I smirked, I knew how she got jealous easily and I could bet all that I had that she was jealous right now despite her calm facade. She didn't like me being with other girls and was quite possessive, oh those days. I told Shayan to leave us, she must be thinking I wanted to bang her now.

"And what the hell do you think you're doing?" I angrily asked as she started touching me.

"But Kel I thought... "

"Kel? It's Mr Adrios to you. For gods sake I have a wife and I refuse to cheat on her so leave this instant." I shouted coldly chasing her out.

"But you love what we have. " she said sobbing

"Sex? Oh please, you weren't pleasurable in any way and it was only a one night stand. God knows what I was thinking that day."

"I hate you so much Adrios." she cried saying and it reminded me of Shayan. She told me that most of the time and when she said it had an effect on me hurt, anger?

"I don't give a damn Susan, now out of my office." I said

"You'd regret this Adrios, you'd regret this." she threatened as she left. She sounded like a bi*ch that was out to get revenge, it reminded me of the movie I watched last night.

   Girls and their drama, she should have known it was a one time thing. Who gave her the thought that I'd choose her. She was never an option neither was she a choice.
I thought back to Shayan thinking about why she hates me so much, she wasn't the one who got hurt. It was just a simple break up, why the hell wasn't she over it? The main question should be why wasn't I?

   She entered the office angrily saying "what was that all about, what happened to the we can't see anybody rule? If you want to make it believable don't make it questionable. What do you want people to think? It's even better for me, the sooner this deal ends the better. I don't want to be around a disgusting cheat like you."

"Wow, you've spoken like a jealous wife." if she was annoyed about me kissing a girl I didn't even like kissing how did she expect me to feel seeing her in another guy's bed ?

"The rule is only applicable to you not to me. And don't act like you've never cheated on someone when you always do." I angrily said remembering the past.

"I? A cheat? Cheats disgusts me. I was never one, I'm not one and would never be one. Unlike you I'm satisfied with my partner. I won't ever go outside a relationship. I never cheated on you Adrios and although this is fake I wouldn't because unlike you I am not a cheat." she angrily stated, so she's saying she's innocent of the claim?

Hearing her deny the claim annoyed me further. I was there for crying out loud, I saw everything . She thinks I'm a fool to lie to and act innocent around.

"I never cheated on you and you know it." it was true, through out our relationship I never cheated on her not even kiss another girl or sex. Even though she told me to wait I respected her decision being celibate and she had the nerves to laugh humorlessly as if what I said was a lie.

"What do you call your escapades with those girls in highschool? You were being friends with them? Although this marriage is fake and is doomed not to last for the time being at least respect the vows. " she shouted angrily leaving the office.

Why would she even think that I'd cheat on her, most especially with Susan? Although people had taken me to be a player one thing I'd never do is cheat most especially in a marriage. I had exchanged vows with her and although I didn't mean it I have no intention of see anybody while I'm with her. So during this year that I'd be with her I'm going to be celibate except if she wants me in every way I want her.

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