"Hey " said a familiar voice from the distance I looked up to see someone I thought I'd never see again .
"Elena what ? How ??" I asked
"It's all your fault " she said in a cruel voice
"What do you mean ?"
"It should have been you " was her reply
"No you wouldn't say that your not the real Elena she would never say that " I said with utter disbelief .
"Well it is " said another voice I looked up only to freeze in place when I saw who it was.
"Dad !? No it can't be not you too " I cried
"It should have been you " the both shouted.
"No , no , no " i cry while shaking my head
"NOOO" i wake up startled tears running down my face my whole body is shaking and full of sweat .
I flicked my hair out of my face and tried to dry my tears but they were endless , so i just didn't bother instead i slowly made my way to me ensuite . Once i was in i quickly opened the shower and turned the tap to warm . I then stripped out of my clothes and stepped into the shower and let the warm water mix with my tears .
I just could not get over how helpless i feel truth be told if i could time travel back to the day of the accident and save them i would but its impossible . If this was a few months back i would have wished to be dead but lately i want to live i have a reason to live .
Ryder oh god Ryder its been about two weeks from our date and things have been outstanding . He's the sweetest and cheesiest boyfriend ever but i love it i don't know if i love him yet but i most defiantly like him a lot . We've been on about three dates till now even if they were small or maybe not considered dates i still loved every minute of them . They mainly consist of walks in the park and going for ice cream afterwards or just simply going to a dinner after school for lunch.
These past few weeks have been the best and the happiest I've ever been in a long time . To the point where I'm starting to think I've been going soft or dare i say turning into the old Ella but I'm happy and thats all that matters right now.
After i finished showering i got out of my ensuite with a towel around my body i quickly made my way towards my cupboard and took out some undergarments and a pair of spandex shorts that reach just under my ass and a loose white tank top.
I checked the time to see its just three in the morning ad all thanks to that nightmare i can't and don't want to go back to bed in fear of having another nightmare.
So i simply laid down on my bed in the dark staring at nothing to be exact. It made my brain go back to thinking of the night mare i had which caused me to shed a few tears till i came to the conclusion that i don't want to just stay here crying because lets face it, it won't bring them back.
Me being me i decided to call the person i needed the most right now .
Ring
Ring
Ring
"Hello" A deep sexy voice filled with sleep answered.
"Ryder" I tried to make my voice seem as normal as possible but with my luck it cracked at the end .
"Ella whats wrong ?" A now more awake and concerned Ryder answered .
"Can I come over?" I questioned in a small voice.
" Yeah Ofcourse "
"Open your window" I said and quickly hung up leaving now place for arguments .
With a swipe of my hand i whipped the tears from my face and got off my bed and towards my window .When i got there the first thing that came to view after i opened my curtains was Ryder's open window .
In one quick movement i opened my window and slowly climbed out of it and to the tree branch that was in-between Ryder and I's houses perks of having your boyfriend as your neighbour I guess.
Without looking down i jumped off the tree branch and fell into Ryder's room ungracefully might I add, only to be picked up by muscular arms and placed in a very comfortable bed I got under the blanket and snuggled in and not a moment later Ryder joined me in his bed.
He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me towards him, I placed my head on his bare chest.
"Why were you crying" Ryder asked quietly while tracing the tear stains on my cheek .
I sighed and looked up at him before answering in a whisper " I had a nightmare"
"What was it about" he asked slowly,
"It was about my sister and dad" I answered vaguely .
"Wait you have a sister" he asked in shock.
"Had " I corrected.
"Do you mind me asking what happened you, don't have to if you don't want to"
"I want to I trust you more than i trust myself " I said he sent me an encouraging smile before I started " We used to be a perfect family well in my point of view anyway, It used to be me my sister Ella and my mum and dad everything was going perfect."
I took a deep breath before continuing " Elena's birthday was coming up she didn't want to celebrate or anything she just wanted a simple dinner at home just the four of us and then a party with her friends the day after, but I insisted to go out for dinner at a fancy restaurant because it is not everyday that it's your older sisters birthday. At first she disagreed but after my begging she and my parents agreed.So when the day of her birthday came around we were all excited , my mum went before us to check that everything was ready ." Ryder's hands around me tightened as knowing that this isn't easy for me to be telling him all this which i was grateful for.
"Once we were all dressed and ready we got in the car me and Ella were in the back seat while dad was in the river seat . That day i was the only one wearing a seat belt i don't know about my dad but Elena thought she didn't need one and that i was a safety freak for wearing it and i remember telling her that she will regret not wearing a seatbelt one day and god I never new how true my words were. A car literately came out of no where my dad wasn't fast enough to do anything the last thing I remember was our screams before everything went black ." I let out a quiet sob trying to keep myself in check atlas until i finish my story .
" The next day i woke up to find myself in a hospital bed with my mother sitting on a chair balling her eyes out , at first i didn't know what was going but the everything that happened the day before came back to me , i remember begging my mum to tell me they were okay that nothing happened to them but all she did was shake her head and continued sobbing. later that day the doctor came in and told me i was lucky to have been wearing my seatbelt or els i would have died with them. Turns out it was a drunk driver he didn't survive the crash either . The whole time during my stay at the hospital I would wonder why them, Elena had everything going for her popularity, looks and brains while I was just a nobody who no one ever noticed she deserved to live not me. I just can't help but think its all my fault if i didn't suggest going out that day. Its all my ------" i was cut off by Ryder.
"Hey ,hey ,Hey it's not your fault you didn't know there would be a drunk driver and you weren't the one who forced them not to wear there seatbelt it's not your fault." Ryder said and something about the way he said it made me believe maybe it wasn't my fault .
He slowly grabbed my chin and made me look in his eyes " It's not your fault " he said quietly and started wiping my tears before giving me a soft kiss on the lips .
I wrapped my arms around him and he did the same , i then rested my head over his chest above his heart letting his heart beat lull me to sleep " thank you" I whispered before falling asleep next to the guy I'm slowly falling in love with .
Yes i think I'm falling in love with Ryder smith .
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