It's been two years since the incident happened and my mother learned how to cope with what happened but I just can't seem to be able to. I lost the two most important people in my life and I can't get over the fact that the only people that were ever always on my side are no longer around.

My mother seems to believe that I'm living in the past and that I should move on but I don't want to forget about them. She also thinks I turned into the worst person after the incident but truthfully her opinion isn't my top priority.

    But to her me moving on and forgetting about them is her top priority apparently. I don't now what she was thinking or if she was even thinking when she decided this but apparently I need a new beginning. I personally think it's absurd.

    Before the incident I was what you'd call a loner which I didn't mind personally I liked being alone I have more time to think and it's just less drama. As you can tell I had no friends people avoided me I got bullied I had no one but I didn't care because at least at home I was appreciated and loved for who I am between my family.

   But then the incident happened ... and my life got turned upside down. I am no longer that weak nerdy girl, I turned heartless I put on this emotionless mask in front of people to make them think I don't care but deep down I do but emotions make you weak and vulnerable I learned that the hard way but I also learned how to hide those feelings.

   Now I'm what you'd call a trouble maker or how I'd like to call it a bad girl. The incident seemed to spark something inside me that changed me 180 degrees. Before, I used to take shit from people let them walk over me. I used to enjoy staying at home on the weekends watching tv series and reading books I still like staying home and watching tv and all but now.

   I don't take shit from anyone I'm feared they wouldn't dare bully me because they knew I'd fight fire with fire.

   Anyways back to my mom, she seems to think a new beginning would be best for me to move on and change for the better or in other words, she doesn't like what I've become.

   For this so-called new beginning to happen she's making us move to a new town. She got a new job there and she bought a new house and all without even telling me until last minute.

     I literally just went home one day from school to find all my belongings and everything we owned in moving boxes and moving trucks parked outside our house. I was freaking out at first only for my mom to tell me I'm getting a chance to start fresh.

   So here I am right now in the car with my mother on our way to a new town for a "new beginning "

   "It's for the best you know, " I was brought out of my thoughts by my mother's voice.

  "I know, it's not like I had anything left from me there anyway, " I said bitterly.

  "You should try to move past what happened, I'm sure they wouldn't want you to be holding onto the past, " she said with a small amount of hope that I'd move past what happened.

  "It's not as easy as you make it seem " With that, we spent the rest of the trip in silence with me occasionally humming to the lyrics of the song that's playing on the radio.

👑AN👑
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- Wadha