Jadah

"I know we young but fuck it,I want you"

*boom*

I popped up from laying down.I looked around the dark room as my eyes landed on the window where the light from the moon shined through at.

Rain pounded on the windows causing stern,loud thuds to be made.I looked to the right of me,To an empty side of the bed.

I sighed,It's a shame that someone you love can do something like this to you.

I happened to run into Rakeem,we talked and talked.I remembered him instantly.I also remember the time he jumped on me.

I decided to give him a second chance.Since I believed in second chances,plus God gave me one so why not?

He was the man I needed for the first three years,it's until he got his injury from football that he started to loose his mind.

He would body shame me and call out every single flaw of mines he could find.That caused me to go into depression,and work out until I had the fittest body I could receive.No surgeries.

When I realized I shouldn't try to fix myself for a man,and focus on my children I did just that.I left him for a couple of months until he lured me back in.

He's fully recovered now,but his ways of acting out and loosing his temper.Im afraid they'll never recover.

I knew he was cheating as well.I was just too weak to leave.In my brain I think I need him.In my soul I know I can do anything without him.Ill go with my soul and do what's right for me,and the three I'm looking after.

I'm not going to shut Rakeem out,I just need some space.I can't stay in this big ole house and soak up all of the misery and pain I'm left to deal with.

I got up from the bed and turned on the lights.Right in the middle of the wall sat a gigantic picture of The Twins when they were babies.My mother got it taken when I was  in my deep sleep.

I sat at the end of the bed and stared at the picture.

I noticed in the bottom corner was a tiny print.I furrowed my eyebrows and walked up to the picture to get a better look.

On the corner it said "Jadah & Jayceon gifts from god"

I gasped and went to look under the bed.I pulled out a brown box and opened it.

I flipped around some papers trying to find what I was looking for.

"Where is it-where is it!" I said rummaging through the box.

"Ah-ha! Found it" I said holding up the diamond ring.

I went to the dresser and pulled out my reading glasses.

I read the inside of the band."I love you baby-Jayceon"

I shot my head up.All of the memories from me and Jayceon came back.Why haven't nobody bothered to knock me upside my head and say "Jayceon-Jayceon is the father of your kids-Jayceon is the man you love".Now my only question is,Where is he?

I plopped down on the bed and started to cry,I don't know why,I just needed to cry.

I put my hands in a praying position and looked up."Thank you mom"

Lay came into the room,she was rubbing her eyes."what the heck are you crying for? Do you know what time it is?"

I stopped sobbing and stared at her.

"Your scaring me...Are you ok?" She said backing out of the room.

"Pack your stuff,pack your clothes,shoes,everything" I said standing up.I went to the walk in closet and pulled out my suit case.A white paper fell out.

I picked it up and read it."DNA results for Rakeem Ivory and Fantasia Walker...99.9 percent positive"

I turned around and seen Lay standing there.She hurried and ran once she seen me turn around.

Ain't this about a bitch.