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~Jake~

I walked to my locker and turned the dial for the combination. I couldn’t shake the feeling that something very bad was about to happen. And the worst part was I couldn’t stop it. Because I didn’t know what it was.

I heard my phone beep in my pocket. I pulled it out and saw it was a text from Skye. He told me to meet him at his locker in ten minutes. I closed my locker and started to get a move on. Why should I wait for something that I could do now?

I surprised him by grabbing him around his waist and turning him to face me. His smile was bright and cheerful. It made me smile to too. I leaned down and kissed him lightly on the lips.

“I love you.” I whispered.

“I know.” I tried to fight my disappointment and it seemed to work. Ever since I told him I love him, I haven’t heard him say it back. Not once.

“Do you want to come over tomorrow?” I asked.

“Tomorrow?” he bit his bottom lip. “I have to help Sam with some things for school.”

Wow. His first lie to me. I stared into his eyes. I couldn’t tell him that I knew he was lying. He’d think that I didn’t trust him.

“Can’t you do that on Saturday?” I tried to make him change his mind. “What could be better than spending Friday night with your boyfriend?”

“I can’t Jake. I told you I have plans.” He shoved his books into his locker and walked past me.

What the hell was his problem? I was just trying to spend time with him and he blew me off.

I made a sudden decision to skip the rest of the day and go some place else. Anywhere was better than staying in here for three more hours.

It turns out, spending the rest of your day skipping class was just as boring as staying in that stupid hell hole. Maybe even more. I chilled at Paul’s house for a few hours since he was at home over his heartbreak. I warned him that Tiffany didn’t care. The only person she cared about was in fact herself.

Now here I was sitting in my dark bedroom avoiding my mom and ignoring all my calls. I knew it wasn’t like me to sulk like this. But I was sure that anyone would feel the same way if they thought they were about to lose the best thing that ever happened to them.

I love Skye and there’s no doubt about that. But I don’t even know how he feels about me. It could be that I pressured him into being in a relationship with me. Obviously that’s not what I wanted. 

Five hours later and I was still sitting on the same spot as before. I couldn’t sleep at all. I got up off my bed and slowly made my way to the bathroom. I showered and got dressed. Within thirty minutes, I was in my car almost at school.

When I arrived at school, I parked my car and walked through the doors. I put my hands in my pocket and took a deep breath. Even though this was probably going to be the worst day in my life, I was going to live through it. Because frankly, that was all I could do.

I managed to avoid Skye for a while before he cornered me in the bathroom. I almost shrieked when e appeared in front of me.

“Skye, strange seeing you here.” I hoped that was a good enough distraction.

“Don’t try to change the subject Jake.” He had a stern look in his eyes.

“I didn’t know we had one.” I stated.

“Quit trying to be a smartass.” He crossed his arms over his chest. “Would you care to tell me what your problem is?”

“I don’t have a problem.”

“Then why were you avoiding me for the entire day?”

“I needed some time to think.” I looked down at the ground. I didn’t see any reason for me to explain myself to him.

“Think about what?” should I tell him? What if he denies everything? Worst yet, what if he lies to me?

“About you…and Steve.” I averted my eyes and refused to look at him again.

“Jake, I told you before, he’s just my friend. There’s nothing going on there.”

“Well excuse me for worrying a little. He’s a threat to me and I don’t like it.”

“Well what am I supposed to do about it?” he seemed a bit skeptic.

“For one, you can stay away from him.” It wasn’t a suggestion but more of a warning. Heaven alone knew why I was warning him.

“Okay.” One simple word. For some strange reason it wasn’t as convincing as it was supposed to be.

“Okay?” I raised an eyebrow at him.

“Yes Jake.” He chuckled and raised his right hand. “Scout’s honor.”

I pulled him into a tight hug. “You have no idea how much I love you right now.”

“I think your hug is proving it. A little too much actually.”

I loosened my grip on him a bit. “Sorry, I got a bit carried away.”

He grabbed my hand and I proceeded to walk him to his next class. Maybe, just maybe, today was going to turn around. The bad feeling wasn’t completely gone, but at least I feel better now than what I felt this morning.

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~Skye~

I ran out of the class as soon as the last bell rang. I would figure something out with Jake. Maybe I could end up spending the day with him after all.

Just as I was about to turn around the corner to surprise Jake at his class, my phone started ringing. I stopped and moved out of the way to answer it.

Hello?” I asked, quit obvious that I was in a hurry.

“Hey Skye, are we still on for today?” I heard Steve’s voice on the other end.

Shit! I forgot about that. “Uhh, can we take a rain check?”

“Skye, I’ve been waiting for almost a week to see you again. You can’t bail on me now.” He sounded somewhat desperate.

“I’m sorry Steve, but I already have other things planned.” I tried to be really convincing.

“Skye, one afternoon with me won’t kill you.” I detected some amusement in his voice. “Come on. What’s the worst that could possibly happen?”

“Yea, I guess you’re right. Okay, give me thirty minutes. I’ll meet you at the park.”

I rushed off to Jake’s class and greeted him with a huge smile. He kissed me on my cheek and I groaned at the feel of his lips.

“So I was thinking, we could watch a movie at my place with some popcorn, pizza and soda. And maybe,-” I saw a blush creep up his face. “-you know, snuggling for a while afterwards.”

Now I really felt bad about ditching him right now. “Jake, something’s come up. It’s really important. Could I meet you at your house later tonight instead?”

I saw something go off in his eyes. He seemed somewhat angry. He was furious, I could tell. “Skye.”

It wasn’t that he just said my name; it was how he said it. He sounded like he was tired of playing. He was fed up. Shit, I didn’t mean for this to happen.

“Jake, I’m really sorry. But I’ve got to go.” I looked down at my watch. “7.PM at your house tonight, okay?”

I didn’t give him a chance to reply. I just turned tail and ran in the opposite direction as fast as my little legs would carry me. 

By the time got to the park, Steve was already sitting on a bench giving off vibes that insinuated that he’d been stood up. I walked over to him and gently put my hand on his shoulder. He jerked in surprise and smiled when he saw it was me.

“I didn’t think you would come.” He said. “I was about to get up and leave myself.”

“Sorry, I had a few errands to run.” I smiled weakly at him and took a seat on the vacant space beside him.

I looked out at the rest of the park, just taking in my surroundings. There were only a few people her right now. Some mothers screaming for their children not to go off too far, and other people who basically had nothing else to do with their time.

I turned to face Steve. He seemed to be deep in concentration. There were lines between his eyes. He was obviously stressed about something.

“Steve.” He looked up when I said his name. “What’s so important that you couldn’t wait one more day to see me?”

He looked down and took a deep breath. He started fiddling with his fingers and I grabbed his hands to stop him from doing that.

“Skye, I have something very important to tell you.”

“Okay” it was more of a question. “I’m listening.”

“This might take a while, so brace yourself.” I chuckled lightly at his words. He gripped my hand tighter and stared into my eyes. With him looking at me like that, it was very difficult to pull my eyes away from him.

“We’ve been friends for a while and I really appreciate you for putting up with all my shit. That time when you told me that only you’re gay, but also that you had feelings for me, I freaked. I didn’t know what to do. My dad had opportunity to get that promotion, and he wouldn’t have taken it if I hadn’t begged him to do it. The only reason I did that was to get out of town. I thought that you would try something.”

I pulled my hand away from him as my face dropped. This is the effect I had on him? Why the hell was I even sitting here? “Well if that’s how you really feel…”

“Wait Skye, I’m not done yet.” He said taking my hand into his.

“If you’re going to talk about how I ruined your life, then I don’t want to listen to it.” I said bluntly. I knew he could hear the hurt in my voice.

“No, no that’s not it. Please, just let me finish.”

I thought for a second before relaxing a bit. This time when I sat next to him, my shoulders were still tense. It was as if I was being cautious. I nodded at him to show that he could carry on.

“As I was saying, I found it quite difficult to accept your sexuality, but after I left I realized that my life wasn’t the same without you. I mean, you were my best friend for so long, and it was wrong for me to run away like that.” He sounded so sincere. Maybe this was an unspoken apology.

But then again, he really was wrong for leaving like that. I thought I ruined his entire life. I was distraught for months. Not that I’d tell him that though.

“Skye,-” he took my hand in his again, and held on to it with a firm grip. “-what I’m trying to say is…Skye I like you.”                                                                                                                                                      

I tilted my head a bit. He leaned forward until we were completely face to face. “As in really like you. Skye, I want to be with you.”

If I was drinking anything I would have spat it out. It felt as if there was a frog stuck in my throat. Or worse, it felt as if my heart leaped up and wanted to jump out of my body. In normal words; I couldn’t breathe.

“Y-you do?”I stammered. I just had to make sure that I heard him correctly.

He nodded and smiled at me. He leaned forward and before I could even protest, he was kissing me. Full on the lips. I tried to pull away, but the force of the kiss was so strong I could break away.

I finally gave in, allowing the kiss to turn into a full make out session. I moaned into the kissed, and that only made Steve kiss me much harder.

“You know it’s strange, whenever I kiss you; you’re never this passionate.” I heard someone say behind us. That voice, it sounded a lot like…

“Jake!” I screamed when I saw who it was.                                                                                             

“Wow Skye, I didn’t think that your brother would end up looking like this. Or that you would be sitting in the park making out with him.” His expression was hard and angry. To anyone else, he’s look okay, but not to me. I knew he was angrier than he had ever been before.

“Jake, I’m so sorry.” I stood up and rushed over to his side. The moment I touched him, he shook me off. “Jake, please.”

“What Skye? Please forgive you?” he seemed harshly amused. All I could do was just stare at him. “I’ve been so patient with you. I waited for you. You needed time, and time was all I gave you. Skye, I confessed my love to you and this is the thanks I get?”

“Jake.” My voice was soft. I really regretted what I did. “You have to understand. It’s not you-”

“It’s not you, it’s me? Are you serious?” he scoffed. “Skye, what I understand is that I love you and you obviously don’t feel the same way about me. But you really could have chosen a nicer way to break the news to me.”

He started walking off. I looked over at Steve and he held on to my arm, his eyes begging me not to go after Jake. I pulled my arm out of his grasp and ran after Jake.

“Jake! Wait dammit!” I screamed as I neared him.

He turned around for a second before carrying on. I finally reached him and held onto his arm.

“Skye, please, just…you don’t need to hurt me even more than you’ve already done.”

“Jake, just wait a second.” I tried to convince him to stay.

“Why Skye? I’ve waited all this time. What’s one more second going to do?” this time, Jake refused to look at me.

“Jake, don’t. You said you love me.”         

"Yes I did. That obviously means nothing to you.” He turned around again. “This is goodbye Skye. I hope you have a nice life.”

“Goodbye? Why?” I was frantic.

“It’s about time I let you go. It’s no use holding onto the past.” The past? I wasn’t supposed to be his past. I was supposed to be his present, his future and everything else that came along with it.

“No Jake. Why would you do that?”

“Isn’t that what you do when you love someone? You let them go.”

“No, you asshole! You fight for them. You fight for the ones you love.” I was starting to get angry. How could he just give up on us like that?

“I have fought Skye!” his eyes were filled with rage. I saw his hands ball up into fists. “I’ve fought so hard, and you never seemed to give a damn about me or my feelings!”

I couldn’t find a good retort for that. Because, I admit, that is how I have been treating him. I wish I could turn back the clock and change things. But what was done was done.

“The thing about you Skye is; you’re the most stubborn person I have met in my entire life, and once you’ve made up your mind, it’s quite difficult for you to change it. It’s seems you’ve made up your mind about me.” His eyes started tearing up. I was way past the point of tearing up. I was actually crying. The tears were pouring down the sides of my face.

“It’s better that I don’t interfere with your life anymore. I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the guy you wanted. I’m sorry for…-” he looked down at the ground, the tears still plastered on his face. “-for ever falling in love with you.”

That was it. My whole world came crashing in around me. It felt as if a bomb went off and I was the only one who couldn’t move. I felt frozen in time. My heart sank lower than my feet. I was officially in hell.

“Jake! Jake, come back. Please…don’t leave me.”

He walked off leaving me standing alone in the park. I fell to my knees, not controlling any movements my body was making. I tried standing up but my legs were too weak. I laid there on the round think about how I made the stupidest mistake in the history of mankind.

The longer I laid there on the now cold grass, the colder it got and the louder the thunder was getting. I felt little droplets of rain hit my face, but I couldn’t master the courage to get up. If I couldn’t master the courage to fight for Jake, what good will it do if I got up off the ground?

While I was fighting with myself, trying to decide whether I was going to let myself freeze to death or get the hell out of here, I realized something important. Something that I should have realized a very long time ago.

Jake was the guy. As in The guy. He was the one who picked me up when I was down, and made me feel special. He was my knight in shining armor. Figuratively speaking of course. And I, Skye Henry was in love with him.

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