This is Definitely Not Love...Right? ~Chapter 18

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Chapter 18 is finally up...sorry, Christmas preperations are hectic!! 

Soooo....strange things are happening in this story...but i think it's coming along. 

the pic's of Steve, who is played by Ben Barnes :)) 

The video link is ufight for this love by Cheryl Cole

ENJOOOOY!! 

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P.S. This is the missing chapter...sorry to dissapoint..it was an honest mistake :/

~Jake~

“Jacob, please don’t do this.” my mom begged while trying to grab the bag from my hand.

“Mom, I’ll be back in a few days.” I tried reasoning. “I won’t be gone long. You have nothing to worry about. I’m not running away.”

“I wonder what this is then.” She said glancing at my bags.

I walked towards her and gave her a hug. “No matter where I am or who I’m with, as long as you’re her, I’ll always have a place to call home. I’ll always come back mom. I love you.”

She started tearing up and took my face in her hands.  “I love you so much Jacob. You’ve grown into such a fine man and I am so proud of you. The other children may be saying things about you, but know that I believe you and everything really is going to be okay.”

I walked back to the door and picked up my bags. With one last look at my mother, I opened the door and stepped outside. I heard my mom gasp and before I could turn my head to see what it was, I had already walked into someone. I was about to give that person a piece of my mind when I saw who it was.

“Grammy?” I asked staring at my grandmother. This was weird. I was on my way to her, yet here she was glaring at me as if I broke her favourite vase.

“Well who else would it be Jacob?” she stepped inside and closed the door. Fuck. Now I had to find another ‘resting’ spot.

I got over my shock and continued walking out the door.

“Come back in here, and put those bags down.” The command was soft yet it sent chills down my spine. I came back inside and put my bags in the corner next to the door. “Where on earth do you think you’re going?”

“I just need some time alone.” I stated. It was the truth. I didn’t want to be around people…much.

“You can have some of that alone time in your room.” I gave her a weird look.

“Grams, that’s gross.” I was suddenly disgusted. Whichever book these adults got their jokes from should be burned.

“Just trying to lighten up the mood son.” She smiled at me. “Come, let’s talk.”

She walked into the lounge and I followed her in. “I’ll go make some tea for you mother.” My mom said walking into the kitchen. I was sure that my mom was quite happy at my grandmother’s sudden arrival. She knew that was the only person who could make me wake up and smell the damn coffee.

After a while, grammy was drinking her tea while I settled for a soda. “So tell me what’s been bothering you so much that it’s forcing you out of town.”

I started telling her everything that had happened. Farm the time I bullied people for a living right up to the time I met Skye. She nodded every now and then to show me that she was listening. I told her what Tiffany did and how Skye hated me now. I went silent after a while. I just couldn’t take the pain anymore.

She put her hand on my shoulder. “Jacob, even though you left that part out. And I’m sure you did it on purpose; you love this Skye boy, don’t you?”

I looked away but she made me look back at her. I didn’t say anything. I may have said it here and there, but I haven’t really admitted it to myself yet.

“Jacob?”

“Yes okay? I love him. but it’s too late now. he hates me and I’ll never get him back.” I was fighting the tears that wanted to come out. “It’s strange though, how can I want him back when I never really had him?”

She seemed puzzled. “What do you mean?”

“We weren’t officially together. I was planning to take him out on a proper date, to a real restaurant and ask him to be my official boyfriend.”

“That would have been very romantic, I’m sure.” I could tell that she was trying to sympathize with me.

“That’s for the support. Even if I tried it now, I’m he would throw the first thing he sees into my face.”

“That’s not your fault. It was that girl’s. you deserve better than this Jacob.”

“I don’t want better than this. I just want him.” it honestly sounded like I was whining.

“Are you a man?”

I stared at her in shock. “Of course I am.”

“Then what the hell are you doing sitting here moping around as if your cat just died.” Her voice was louder now. “Go out there, I don’t care if you have to knock his freaking door down, but you tell him and make him listen to you. Tell him how you feel and get him back.”

“He won’t talk to me.”I said. “He hates me remember? I’m the bad guy.”

“Jacob Patrick Evans. This is not the way your mother raised you. Are you telling me all those summer vacations we spent together were for nothing?” she stood up. “Go out there and get your damn boyfriend back.”

“Whoa grams, I can’t just go right in there. I could get killed. I need to plan this thing out first.” I said standing up too.

 “If you wait too long, he might get snatched up by someone else.” That was all she said before walking off.

That left me thinking. Would Skye wait for me? Did he even like me, even a little bit? Heaven knew what it would do to me if he rejected me. I already lost him. Losing him twice would totally kill me.

I walked outside and pulled out my phone. I dialed Sam’s number and waited for him to answer.

“Sam, get Skye ready.” I thought about my next move. “I’m coming over.”

***

~Skye~

“Sam, what the hell are you doing?” I asked as he pushed me into his bedroom.

“Something that I should’ve done days ago.” He said.

“And what’s that?” I asked but the answer came knocking at the door. Literally.

Jake knocked on the door. I immediately got up form my spot. Even though I was glairing at him, he continued to walk into the room.

“Get out.” I said pointing at the door.”

“No.” he smiled at me.

“What?” I don’t think I heart him properly.

“I said no. I’m not leaving.” He took a seat beside me. I shifted because; this was way too weird for me.

“I don’t want you here.” I turned in the opposite direction and folded my arms across my chest.

“I need to talk to you. I need to tell you the truth.” I looked at Sam and he nodded at me.

“You guys can talk to your hearts content. I’ll be…around.” He said before leaving us alone.

This was weird. The last time Jake and I were alone, ‘bad’ things happened. I didn’t want things to go that route again.

“Skye.” Jake said trying to touch my arm, but I pulled away.

“Don’t. You betrayed me. I trusted you and you let me down.” I couldn’t control the tears that were staring to form in my eyes. “So, give me one good reason why I should listen to a word you have to say.”

“Because…I love you.” I turned to face him so fast, I was sure that my head could have fallen off.

“You what?” I had to make sure that I heard him correctly.

“Don’t make me repeat it. I already have issues expressing my feelings. Don’t make it hard for me.”

“You really love me?”

He nodded. I really wanted to hug him, but I couldn’t risk it. What if I fell for his stories again? I didn’t want to get hurt again and end up far worse than what I was now.

“Then why did you say those things? I mean, if you love me, you wouldn’t hurt me right?” I felt like I was making excuses for him.

“I didn’t say those things. Well not in that order.” He took my hand in his. “Skye, I would never do anything to hurt you on purpose.”

“But you still said it.”

“Paul was driving me crazy. I was angry that we were getting interrupted every time we were about to kiss. I didn’t want the entire school talking about us, when we weren’t a complete item yet.”

“So, I wasn’t ‘just another fling’ to you?” I said showing the quotation marks in front of me.

“Of course not!” he seemed to be a bit angry. “Why would you believe a stupid thing like that? I just told you that I love you. I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t mean it.”

“It just bothered me. I’ve been having nightmares about my dad not accepting who I am, and you…you told me that you never cared for me.” I looked down to the ground.

“But you know that I do.” He leaned closer to me. “You do, right Skye?”

“I do now.” I smiled weakly at him. We leaned closer to each other. I didn’t know what I was getting myself into, but I actually liked Jake. Even if he was a major douche sometimes.

Just as our lips were about to touch, we heard the doorbell ring. “Let Sam get it.” Jake said. Of course, I agreed with him.

“Skye’s it’s for you!” I heard Sam yell from downstairs.

“Not again.” Jake said. “Is this mess going to start from the beginning again. Man I cant take this shit.”

I chuckled. He looked so cute when he whined. I grabbed his hand and walked to the door. I leaned up and kissed him softly on the lips. “See? No interruptions.”

I walked out and Jake followed me. When I got downstairs there was a guy in a pizza uniform standing there. Thank goodness my pizza was here. I was starving.

“Next time, please don’t take so long on the delivery. I ordered almost… Steve?” I asked looking at the guy. We were at my previous school together. Actually he was my first crush. He totally shot me down though.

“Skye? Hey, long time no see.” He said smiling at me. “What are you doing this side of town?”

I stared into Steve’s eyes. It was probably obvious given the fact that Sam nudged me in my side. Seeing Steve after so many years really brought back memories. I remembered how we used to play in the park after school in the second grade or how we snuck out of the house on his thirteenth birthday when we had that double date with those German twins. That time I was still hiding the fact that I was gay. That all changed though, when I decided to tell Steve that I liked him…in that way.

And now here he was, brown wavy hair messed up as if he’d just woken up. Brown eyes sparkling with cheeriness and glee. There wasn’t a moment that I could remember where Steve was sad. Except the day I told him I was gay. He was so confused after that, he ended up moving halfway across the country.

I was so in tuned with gawking at him; I almost forgot that we were talking. It wasn’t good to have so many distractions. Well a distraction like Steve wasn’t so bad…was it?

“I moved here a few months ago. So this is where you transferred?” The rumor was that he left our school because his dad got a promotion. But I knew it was because of me.

“Yep. I like it here. It seems like I’m about to start liking it more.” He winked at me. Was that a come on?

The moment he said that, Jake put his arm around my waist and pulled me closer. “Babe, who is this?”

I knew what Jake was doing. He was trying to show Steve that I was his. Well ‘babe’, that’s not how things worked around here. Steve raised his eyebrow at Jake.

“Jake, this is Steve and vice versa.” I hoped that it wouldn’t come to this. But the tension was already starting to thicken.

“How do you two know each other?” Jake asked. He seemed a bit cautious.

“Skye used to be in love with me.” Steve said. My heart almost fell out of my chest.

“I was not.” I defended myself. “It was a mere crush.”

“So you admit that you did like him?” Jake asked.

“Jake…it wasn’t like that.” I touched his shoulder but he shrugged me off.

“I’ve got to go. I’ll call you later Skye.” he said before walking out the door. I tried running after him but his car was already halfway down the street.

I got back into the house and smiled awkwardly at the two pair of eyes looking at me. I walked past them and took the pizza with me. The smell of a pepperoni pizza really made my day. But now I didn’t even feel like eating.

“So Skye, is that Jake dude your boyfriend?” Steve asked sitting down next to me.

“In a way, yes…or no. Kinda, I’m not really sure.” I said confused. I really needed to sort things out with Jake.

“So that means that you’re in a way, kinda single.” He smiled at me. “Here, take this. Call me when you just want to…hang out.”

He got up to leave. “Wait the pizza.”

“It’s on me. This way we get to hang out because you owe Me.” he winked again then left the house.

I couldn’t help but feel nervous, tingly, you name it. I looked down at the piece of paper and saw that he wrote his number and address on it. This caused my smile to widen.

“Skye, please don’t tell you’re thinking what I think you’re thinking.” Sam said moving closer to me.

“I don’t know Sam. What do you think I’m thinking?” I asked pretending not to know what he was talking about.

“You practically just got back together with Jake and now you want to ruin it by going on a date with that asshole?”

“Steve is not an asshole.”

“I beg to differ.” I felt that Sam was being unreasonable.

“I’m going upstairs. I don’t like the atmosphere down here.” I took a few slices of pizza and went to my bedroom. At least Sam couldn’t tell me what to do in there.

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