Jhoanna's POV

"Jho, gihigugma tika!" we both smiled genuinely. I embraced her tighter and she kissed my forehead.

Being here with her today makes me even more complete.

I look at Colet who's now sleeping right next to me. I chuckled when I heard her soft snores. After our confrontation, we decided to take some rest here in her room because she'll have to talk to our friends later. Girlie was so wasted last night.

I was so scared that something bad might happen to her. I never knew I'm this scared to lose her until last night happened.

I love the way she stares at me as if I'm the most beautiful person she'd ever seen. She doesn't just simply look at me, she looks through me, pass the physical things. It's like she's looking deep in my soul whenever she does.

I love it when she say my name, like it's the most beautiful word I've heard. I can feel
how special I am to her just by simply saying it.

Her smile, the smile that makes her small eyes get even smaller, the same smile that melts me.

I've always love Colet. Just like her, I never had the courage to say it.

It was my first day of school when I heard about her. As a transferee, I'm not yet familiar with the school environment. I sat on a vacant bench beside the hallway. I heard the students gossiping about Colet. "She's so cool!" "I kinda like her." They were pointing at her. For some unexplainable reasons, I found myself staring at her. That same day, I saw her again walking towards the school gate. She suddenly stopped walking and looked at the spot where I was seated. I looked down before I met her eyes, I continued scribbling on my sketchpad.

I've always been extra confident with my broadcasting skills but I felt conscious when I first made an announcement in my new school, knowing she might hear my voice because she's sitting in the cafeteria with her friends.

When I got into badminton team, I expected to see Colet more often. I heard from Stacey that she's the team captain of the volleyball team. Popular kid, I see. But I had to let go of badminton because I can't balance broadcasting, theater, badminton, and acads at the same time. On my last day of training for badminton, I stayed and watched volleyball. I saw how dedicated she is and how she guided her teammates. I smiled at her after going out of the gym. She seemed stunned and wasn't able to react. Clueless. Because of that cute interaction, I tweeted.

@jc_robles: why did I smile? anyway, Hi!

And yes, that smile and tweet was for Colet.

The first time I saw her waiting in front of the school gate after their training, I wanted to have a conversation with her. But what am I gonna say?

When Sheena and Gwen were officially dating, it seems like destiny made a way for me to be close to her. Her friends are chaotic and she's the quieter one. Despite the fame, she remained humble and lowkey.

'Fresh Eyes'. When I heard her sing for the first time, I already knew I have a little crush on her. I locked eyes on her that night. Gosh, my first ever crush.

When we ate lunch together, we both look stiffed at first but we clicked all of a sudden. Wearing her jersey felt like I had the authority to keep her. That Colet's mine. I didn't mind those loud cheers and yells for her because I was wearing her jersey. I was lowkey telling them to back off.

When our friends asked me about my ideal type, I was careful with my words. Deep inside me was describing Colet but I told them my type was tall, not too dark but handsome. Someone who's smart and sporty and someone who's family oriented. But I don't want her to get the wrong idea. I gave her a hint by asking her if she's close to her family.

"Miss, ate Colet asked me to gave you this." said by the guy who approached me. I was crying because I got scolded by our broadcasting adviser. Later on, she sat beside me. I was so happy when she assured me that everything's going to be alright and have me a kissed on my forehead. I felt secured. Her arms felt like home.

Our hangouts after school became my motivation to finish my school works as early as possible. I never knew someone could escape in their house to be with me late at night, wearing a hoodie and pajama just to drive around peaceful places and talk about our problems in life. Our midnight in Antipolo was my favorite. That was the time I realized that I'm falling deeply in love with Colet Vergara.

She met my dad and I met her family. Everything's going fine. I was contented with what we had. Being friends while making her feel that she's special to me. But I was offered by Star Hunt Academy to train as an idol. I needed distraction that time because if my feelings for her grow stronger, I might find it hard to leave her and my friends. Especially that I can feel that I'm special to her too.

That's when JL came in to the picture. It took me 1 week to convince him to pretend straight. It was effective. I hate to see her in pain but I had no choice.

"Bitch! Don't be too close. I'm disgusted!" JL complained.

When Stacey asked Colet for a date and she agreed, I was hurt and wasn't able to utter a word. Stacey even bragged about their date after. I know she was doing it intentionally. Only to find out, she rejected Stacey.

When I thought Aiah and Colet were a thing, I cried to JL. He became my fallback whenever I feel like breaking down. After 8 years, Aiah and I bumped into each other accidentally. We hangout with JL. She told me that they're cousins. I was so disappointed with myself but I also felt relieved.

"Good night, Colet!" I tried to sound as okay as possible and everything's normal but I failed. That was the last time she heard from me. I cut all my communication with them.

Training was hard. I always get scolded by our mentors but every time I'm thinking of giving up, I always hear Colet's voice.

"Jhoanna, I'm proud of you. I know you're doing great. As long as I'm here, you'll always have someone who's proud of you in everything."

So I continued working hard until I finally debut.

Right after my Asia tour, I visited my high school alma mater and told my driver to park the van in front of the school gate. I saw a black bmw stopped a few meters away from my van. I heard my heart thumping so loud. I had a feeling it was Colet. Sooner, the engine started. I watched her car passed through mine. I decided to stay there for an hour and recalled all our memories. How happy I was with her and my friends.

Even though I'm successful now and I have everything, I feel like something's missing. And yes, it's her. It's always been her.

I'm always visiting her socials to keep me posted to her whereabouts. She's a famous architect now. I remember when I saw her name on the list of passers during their Architecture examination, I cried because of happiness. I prayed to God and thanked Him nonstop that night.

When my manager told me about the music video shoot, I suggested to shoot in her resort. I didn't know what to do so I pretended like I haven't met her yet. I know she was disappointed. I called JL to fetch me because I was too excited to tell him that I finally saw her.

"Finally! Go get the love you both deserve!" JL told me.

"Love yah!" I just answered.

And with that, I guess Colet got the wrong idea when she saw me with JL.

She stirred and she mumbled something under her breath. A smile formed in my lips upon seeing her.

I sat properly watching her slowly waking up. She stared at me.

"Hi." I said softly.

"Jhoanna..." she uttered.

My parents named me after their names. Jhoanna from my mother's name and Christine from my father's name. I hated my name growing up. It was too long and people often interchanged its order. It was horrible.

I hated my name until I heard her say it. Somehow those two names sounds magnificent from her lips. I never loved my name until I heard her say it. If lucky, it would be my pleasure to spend the rest of my life hearing her say it.

She pulled me close to her and hugged me. I, then, hugged her back. We remained silent.

Who's your yellow?

Yellow is someone who saves you from being alone, someone who does everything for you, the reason your smiles.

Mine's her. Colet Vergara is my yellow.

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Lame update, I aint satisfied mehehe
Will proofread all the chapters pa po and will edit some grammatical errors.

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