"We will begin conducting physical exams shortly. All students, please report to the clinic in your respective school building." 

As the four of us walked to the clinic, haruhi had some questions. "So what's the deal with this 'formation A' thing you guys were talking about? What do they do here during physical exams at ouran anyway?"

"It's no different than a physical exam you'd get at any other school." 

"Yeah, why would a physical exam be any different for us just because we're rich?" 

"You're right, I didn't think about it that way." 

"I don't really see the point in all this. I mean, they never had them back in the states or anything, so why bother?"

"In japan it's a legal obligation for physical health screenings. Most companies here make it a requirement to have them to even get hired." 

"I see.." When we opened the door, there were lines of doctors and nurses welcoming the students. I tensed a little, but said nothing. 

"What.. what is all this?" 

"Just another physical exam."

"The usual." 

"The usual?" 

"Excuse me, hitachiin brothers, come with me this way to get your height measured."

"Sure thing." 

"Mr. Fujioka?" Haruhi turned her head to face the nurse. "I'm your nurse for the physical exam this afternoon. Please, come this way." I took a deep breath as another nurse lead me along. I was a bit uneasy, but I smiled when I saw mori and honey..

In doctors attire..

Luckily it made me giggle a little, and not so nervous about things. "You're so obvious." Haruhi said as kyoya came up to us. 

"I brought those two for backup just in case something happens."

"But why are they in doctor disguises?" 

"They're just helping to set the mood. Disguises make this feel like a real espionage mission, don't you think?"

"I'll be honest, I didn't peg you for someone into spy movies."

"I'm more for the books, but the movies are good too." 

"Wow miss suramime," I overheard a doctor say. "You've lost two whole kilograms from this time last year!" Nurses clapped, and the girl looked overjoyed. 

"That's so good to hear, I was sure I had gained more!"

"Not at all. Keep it up and you'll be even healthier next year!"

"Don't you think it's weird that these people are all so jovial and nice?"

"They're chosen by the schools chairman. This may be a school but it's also a business. Therefor he wants to keep the students happy. After all, most of the students that attend ouran academy come from prominent families that have their own private doctors at home. So this, it just a formality." I sighed, and continued going with my nurse, while thinking of a spy novel to write now. Thanks kyoya, the last thing I need is an idea for a book when I can't even write it in my journal. 

I was getting my measurements done behind a curtain with a doctor and a nurse, trying to stay out of my thoughts. I was taking off my top for my chest measurements, when a nurse gasped slightly at the view of my many scars. They were on my shoulders and arms, and small ones along my breasts you'd have to look closely for. A deep one trailed my left wrist, and a matching one on my right. I looked down, ashamed of what I had done to myself when I was young. Clinical depression isn't fun, but it's even less fun when you aren't medicated properly, like I was nearly four years ago. Without my long sleeved shirt, all of them were on display. I sighed. 

"Can you please stop staring. I'm not proud of them." 

"They all look pretty old. I'm proud you haven't been doing it again." I knew there were records of it in my files. Nothing was needed in terms of explanation. The commotion outside my little booth was like a mosquito buzzing in my ear. I nodded, a small smile on my face as they took my chest measurements. No words or anything. And when they were done, I slipped my shirt back on, and stepped out. The hosts were nowhere to be found. 

"Excuse me, do you know where the hosts went?" I asked a girl. She looked at me, and smiled. 

"They hears something about a perverted doctor headed to the special boys clinic, and they all went off running. If you want to find them, they're that way." She said, pointing the way. 

"Ah, thank you." I went to find them, starting out as a walk, and quickly turning into a run. I caught sight of the hosts, and slowed down. "What happened?" I asked. "I heard about the doctor, is haruhi alright?"

"She's fine. Finishing up her exam now." I sighed a sigh of relief. 

"Good." I rubbed the scar on my wrist, the doctors words still in my head. Being clean from something like that is a great accomplishment, but it's also something I'm deeply ashamed of. 

Maybe one day, I'll be able to live with what I've done, but that day is not today.