"I wish to spend some time in the city. I would like to bring myself some things from the market and to have free at least once to walk around the city," I begged Bayezid to agree with me that I could leave to the city for a bit. I was really exhausted from the fight with the Valide yesterday and really needed to have some peace far away from the palace.

"I am afraid if anything bad happens I will feel responsible, but anyways my opinion won't have any impact because you have to ask Murad to let you go outside," Bayezid said.

"Atike can do whatever she wants to, and I must ask for someone's allowance of my leaving," I said as I started to walk to Murad's chambers together with Bayezid who spend some time yesterday with him in the city.

"People are angry, we were in the city yesterday and I am really afraid for you. But when we speak about this, I must admit something to you," Bayezid said as we stood up on the corridor of the harem, as he checked twice if someone could hear what he was talking to me.

"I met a woman who has stolen my heart. She works in a tavern, and I will never forget her eyes," Bayezid said and at first moment it was cute to me how he has fallen in love at the first sight, but any kind of feelings that were inappropriate for him could only bring him something bad.

"Be careful, please. Don't repeat other people's mistakes," I said to him as we came in front of Murad's chambers.

"You go first, because later I go with Murad outside again so you will finish more quickly," he said. Silahtar just nodded at me and opened doors of Murad's chambers, and I once again looked at Silahtar not understanding how could the two of my sisters fall in love with this man.

"Fatma, welcome sister," Murad said as I bowed to him while in his chambers once again were Kemankes and Huseyin. They bowed to me, but stayed in the chambers as they obviously had some job to do with him.

"I don't want to bother you, but I have a request, if it would be possible," I told him with a smile, hoping he would let me. He nodded his head at me as he waited for me to say what I wanted.

"I would like to go out into the city, there is a woman who sews custom-made dresses, which cannot be ordered, but you have to go to her. I would like to go there, get away from the palace and take a break," I told him, but his smile faded from his face. Recently, the situation in the capital was not very good, and every outing of us Sultanas could be risky if someone recognized us.

*I can't let you go alone, someone must accompany you," Murad said protectively.

"My maids will go with me, if necessary my mother's agha can too," I said, but he was not satisfied with my answer as I expected.

"Since I have obligations with your brother and Kemankes today, Huseyin will be your escort who will look after you today," Murad said to which Huseyin bowed and I nodded my head. It's not exactly that I was the happiest with the decision that someone had to accompany me, because I wanted to take a break from the constant surveillance I was living with in the palace.

"My sister must not miss a hair from her head, Huseyin," Murad said sharply to one of his closest servants and best warriors.

"Don't worry, Your Majesty. I will do everything to make sure your sister's departure is safe," Huseyin said.

"You won't go to the sewer?" Deli asked as the carriage left us in the city and I rather chose to go on place outside of the market, but on the coast next to the Bosphorus close to the smaller market where there were much less people.

"No, that was just an excuse," I said as I finally took a deep breath feeling free without anyone being behind my back and listening what I was speaking. I finally felt free from thinking that my only duty was helping my brother and protecting him, and in the other hand of making sure no one gets in the trouble.

"Excuse for what?" Deli asked as he walked closer to me and nodded to all my maids to leave back in carriage.

"To leave the palace where I feel like in a prison."

"Why is it so?" He asked.

"My mother, my brothers and sisters. Everyone and everything. I can't breath sometimes because everyone is plotting against each other which makes me tired and sad, because I don't want to involve into those things."

"Because you aren't like them." He said and I looked at him confused. It was weird hearing that from someone else who I didn't even know good, but who knew my whole family really well.

"And that's because they don't need me," I sighed as I finally opened my heart to someone because I thought I could trust him.

"How do you mean it?" He was confused. He might not know a lot about me and not know about my situation.

"They already have plans to marry me off, they say I'm too old already," I said what was just one of my problems, but my problems were much bigger than this but I could talk to no one about them.

"Don't you agree with the marriage?" He asked.

"No, because I don't want to spend my life without love," I looked back at the Bosphorus trying to run away from his gaze at me.

"How do you know you won't start loving your husband?" He walked again closer to me as the two of us were standing at the shore next to the Bosphorus while no one of our servants were around us.

"If they marry me for 20 years old elder man than me, how can I start loving him?" I asked him as my heart broke at my own words. I didn't even know how to love, but I knew in that kind of life I wouldn't even be able to learn.

"Your brother Sultan Murad loves you, he wouldn't allow any of his sisters to be sad." Huseyin said, as he was really close to Murad and knew how he loved his sisters.

"That's what everyone thinks, but that works only for Atike," I sighed once again knowing I would be never as important to her.

"And what if he marries you for someone you love?"

"There is no one I love," I bitter smiled.

"How is that?" He asked surprisedly.

"Because I don't know how to love," I opened my heart to him not caring about the consequences of this conversation.

"One day someone will come who will learn you what is real love," he tried to make me feel better, but nothing could make me feel better in this life which didn't ever bring me joy or happiness.

"I didn't have even love from my mother when she was separated from me, how can I know what love is when only person I had next to me was my brother, and we lived in fear our whole life," I said and stopped for a second.

"Who would marry to a sister of a prince who would never ascend the throne?" I continued, knowing in what kind of position I was.

"But you are also sister of Sultan Murad."

"But I am not like Atike who is his real sister and he would actually care for her in those moments," I said.

"Because you are better than them in your heart," he said as he approached me and looked at me and it was really awkward at this moment, but in my heart I felt something I haven't felt before.

"You don't even know me," I replied coldly, as I didn't even want to show how his words made me feel. I didn't want anyone to see my weakness.

"You don't have to say much but I see everything in your eyes that you are afraid to express to someone," he said calmly with a light smile on his face when he would look at me.

"I am not," I looked at the other side again.

"Yes you are, you opened your heart and your problems to me now, and later will pretend like those things you have never said to someone. But this made you feel better when you shared your problems," he said and in myself I knew each of his words was true.

"I will because my problems only grew bigger every day," I didn't even allow him to comfort me.

"If I could, I would help you solve your problems," he said and my eyes widened at his words.

"Why?" I asked him.

"Because...." He started to say but at that moment we heard loud noises.

"Sultanim, there is attack!" Gulfidan ran towards me as she was yelling and was really afraid. All of the maids started running towards me and I didn't know what to do in this moment.

"Sultanim we must go to somewhere where it's safe!" Huseyin said as he grabbed my hand and we started running towards the carriage which would bring us safely to the palace. We sat there and he yelled on the coachman to drive faster, but from the window we saw it was being impossible.

"Too many people are here, we won't be able to pass with the carriage," Huseyin said as we had to leave the carriage even if that was dangerous. Gulfidan and maids looked at me and they were so afraid because people outside were yelling.

"How could Sultan Murad do this to their people?"

"How can Sultan except us to follow the rules when even he doesn't accept them."

"He has bring his whore to the palace!"

People were yelling outside and never in my life I have seen this situation in the capital. People were furious and were yelling the name of my brother Sultan which wasn't a good sign.

"Sultanim, it's a riot, we need quickly go to the safe place," Huseyin said as he started to walk but I stopped him there.

"There is a riot against my brother in the city and you should make sure it ends not run away somewhere," I hissed at him not understanding his true initiations.

"I will make sure for that as soon as I take you to the safe place because your life is more worthy than that and I couldn't allow myself for being responsible of you being hurt," he said as he grabbed my hand and I quickly went to follow him. People were rioting against my brother and it was chaos.

"Huseyin!" I yelled as quickly in the moment I saw a rock which was going towards us and he escaped it luckily, but it almost fell down on me. I looked always behind myself where are my maids and I didn't want to risk their lives here.

"Only one we need to protect now is you Sultanim. If they find out you are member of Imperial Family they won't have any pity over you and would throw those at you any moments," Huseyin said as he seriously looked at me in the eyes. I nodded him as he was right and ran with him to the another side, but all the roads were blocked.

"What are we going to do now?" I asked him as I barely couldn't not to start to panic. People were all gathered in one circle which was even more expanding now and we had to get to the other way.

"To the port," he said and I followed him quickly. We arrived at the port that was nearly empty. Huseyin ran and took one small boat and sat into it. I didn't know if this was good idea and what could happen now.

"Fatma Sultan, this is our only way to make sure you are safe. We need to cross the Bosporus and come to another side of Istanbul and when the riot calms down only then we can arrive to Topkapi," he said as he stretched out his hand to help me enter the boat. I did it now without thinking and I knew I had to save myself from this. I didn't want to be killed in a riot that was organised in the centre of the city.