Chapter 25 Running away from it isn't the solution

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I wanted to try and keep my story as realistic as possible, you know, unlike those story where you know that bla and bla would end up together from the start. Well, I think you can still see it from here. But at least Anna get confused, like a normal person

So I think I can probably wrap this story up with a few more chapters (should be no more than 10) ! Please vote and comment, and tell me who you want Anna to end up with :) or I will just pick it myself.

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My brain was running three hundred miles per hours, piecing everything together, now it all made sense.... How came he was so nice to me at the summer party, and that time he caught me crying. But seriously? I meant, I never thought about it that way, Andy and I had always been just friends, or more correctly, acquaintances, we were never close. I rubbed my temple trying to ease the ebbing pain in my head. What a mess!

After that little incident, it seemed that both Andy and I were on a competition to see who could avoid the other better, and honestly, I was glad. I didn't know what to do, how to respond, I didn't want to make things more awkward between us than it was already by outright asking, and from his pattern of behavior, he was unlikely to confront me.

I sighed and slammed my locker door shut, it was impossibly exhausting in Maths now. He was acting so polite to me, and it just felt so weird. I wanted nothing more but for things to return to normal between us. I was still trying to figure out my feelings towards Andy, I had never felt so confused in my life. I had always liked him, as a friend slash brother, he was almost like a distant relative. I simply didn't know how to make of this situation I was in, so I did the thing that I was good at – ignoring the situation and hoping it would just go away.

I knew that it wasn't the right thing to do, but sometimes all the choices you are left with are bad ones, so you just had to choose the best of the bunch. I wasn't ready to be in another relationship yet, let alone with a friend whom I valued. I couldn't bear to outright said no to him, because that would probably signified the end of our friendship.

My head was throbbing painfully inside my skull, it had been doing that a lot lately, I just had too much on my mind. I stormed into Chemistry angrily scaring a dozing Aidan into jumping up and nearly smashing the glass beakers on the lab table.

'Gosh woman, is it your time of the month?' Aidan cocked an eyebrow as I dumped my bags on the floor with unnecessary force. I shot him a glare grumpily, sliding into my chair and resting my chin on the table, feeling depleted like a popped balloon.

'I feel like my brain is fried.' I said, banging my head repeatedly on the desk making Aidan laugh. It was weird how Aidan and I ended up being such good friends. It was absolutely bizarre and yet it was true, we had a lot in common – we both loved OneRepulic, we read the same books, play the same games etc. Being friends with him kind of made things better for me at school even though I broke up with Will, for which I was grateful.

'I know something it's wrong, just spite it out.' Aidan said, his face serious as him rest his chin on the table too. I gave him a wistful glance and shook my head.

'I don't want to talk about it.' I said, I didn't tell Alison or Hannah about this, knowing what they would said anyway. They would be giggling over it and telling me what an excellent situation it was and that I should totally try things out with Andy, that a new relationship would helped me forget about Will. But it would meant that I would be using Andy, which I didn't want to.

'I know this isn't just about Will anymore, I could tell there is something else on your mind, you only started acting this strangely after Valentine's Day. You are not that good at hiding your emotions, everyone were just too distracted to notice.' Aidan said, popping himself to an up-right position with his elbow and continue to stare at me intensely.

I looked up in surprise, then back downed again into the crock of my arms, coming into a conclusion. 'You know what? This is ALL your fault.' I turned to look at him and said seriously, because, it kind of was. If it wasn't for him, my dilemma wouldn't exist. I wouldn't have dated Will if I didn't get a make over because I heard him calling me ugly, hence everything followed would be changed. Plus, it would be fun to wind him up.

'How is this my fault?' Aidan was taken aback by my sudden outburst but quickly regained himself. 'Don't try to pin this on me, this is all your own doing.'

'Well, it did started off with you.' I shot back, watching with satisfaction as Aidan's face show his struggled to find something to contradict me but failing to. I smiled as his face turned slightly red from frustration and his mouth opening and closing like a gaping fish.

'You were the one who said I was Uglie Julie.' I added, he looked guiltily at me. Although I had gotten over it by now and he had apologised countless time, he still felt guilty that I overheard him and got so worked up over it. It was the best weapon I had against him – whenever I mentioned it, he would feel guilty and then I would pretty much won the argument.

'Fine, fine, it's all my fault, happy?' He said defeatedly, I smiled in triumph and set out my notebook and stationary in preparation for the lesson. Just then Mrs Jackson strolled in and gave us instructions on today's lessons. I squibbled down the instructions and felt Aidan's eyes were still on me.

'What?' I asked without looking up and heard him chuckled.

'I am not stupid, Julianna. Don't think I didn't realised that something had been going on between you and Andy. I am his brother, remember?' He said, I stiffened. I guessed he was way more observant than I gave him credits for.

'Alright, don't laugh. I think he likes me. And he was the one who sent me those chocolate on Valentine's Day. And I think he know that I know, and he has been avoiding me. ' I said, I really needed to talk to someone about this, and since Aidan kind of guessed it, might as well be him. At least I was pretty sure he wouldn't jump up and down in excitement over this.

I saw comprehension dawn on his face and he gave me a knowing smile. 'Wow, I guessed I never thought he would upped and tell you.' He finally said, I blinked in confusion. Wait, did he just said that? It would meant that he knew all along.

'So you knew?' I asked, eyes bulging out of my sockets as he nodded. He smiled at my facial expression. 'I wasn't planning on outing him, but cat's out of the bag now if you could guessed so much. Although technically, he never outright admitted it, so I won't be so sure yet.' He added, I nodded absent-mindedly. This was a lot to take in.

'The real question now is, whether or not you like him back, and what are you planning to do? Because knowing my little bro, the chances of him actually coming right out and tell you is pretty much equal to the chance you a meteorite destroying our school.' Aidan said, then looked at me with bright interest, as if I was a highly entertaining TV program.

What he said confirmed what I assumed, but none of this had helped me found out how I felt, which was the key. I slammed my face softly against the table again. Argh, heroines in the stories made figuring out your own feelings look so easy! But I just couldn't seemed to make sense of my own heart.

Aidan seemed to understand how I felt. He gave me a pat on the back as I groaned into the table. 'Maybe you should have a talk with Will and Andy, it would help.' He said, I bolted up so fast at the mention of Will's name that I nearly toppled over my stool, luckily Aidan's hand was still on my back and it broke the force. But I could still felt the adrenaline from my near-fall (and at the mention of talking to Will, and Andy).

'I don't think I am ready to talk to either of them yet.' I moaned, shaking my head on the table, Aidan patted my back again.

'That is the only way you could find out how you really feel, don't leave it till too late.' Aidan said, patting my head lightly this time. I scrowled at him, hating him for saying it, I knew it was the truth. But I didn't want to do it.

I continued to avoid Andy and Will despite the fact that I knew Aidan's advice was right. Even if I still couldn't figure out my feeling, it would clear the situation a heck of a lot if I talked to them. However, things are easier said then done, like saying how I should figured out how I felt about Andy. Or man up and confront him.

I screamed into my pillow. I had managed to drag this ENTIRE situation for five weeks, I guessed you could say this was my specialty, avoiding situations. Like I did with my crush on Aidan, my problem with Whitney etc. It was late March, meaning two more months before school ends, meaning the graduation of Will. If I could just avoid things till then.....

Stop, stop! I should talk to him, in fact, I need to talk to him. I had avoided it long enough now, and I couldn't do this my whole life. I quickly grabbed my phone and strolled down to find Will's numbers, and before I chickened out, sent him a text.

We need to talk.

I stared at my phone, waiting for a reply, my brain screaming at me for sending that blasted text. What if he said no, or just outright ignored me. But before I could drove further into self-blaming, he texted back.

OK, meet you in the park in 10.

I took a deep breath and texted back okay. I jumped up and grabbed my purse and jacket, shouting out to my mum that I was heading out for a walk. It's time to face this, just like someone told me once, if you keep running away, it would become a habit.

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running away from situations is what I do best, but it's not a good thing to do :)

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