It took me forever with the feelings and stuff, but finally here it is!

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'What are you doing here?' I said, my voice still a bit throaty from being ill the past week. My heart, the traitor fluster around my chest at the sight of him, but then I remembered what happened and anger ignite inside me like a roaring fire, how dare he show his face!

'I heard in school that you were unwell.' Will said, his face visibly relaxed when he saw me and he smiled like nothing had happened between us, the fire inside me grew bigger, how can he just waltz in a week after and smile like nothing's wrong. He then hold up the flowers. 'So I came with these.'

'I don't want to see you, and no, I didn't try to kill myself, sorry for disappointing you, I am not that dumb.' I replied coldly, trying to suppress my rage and the urge to slap him, settling for slamming the door in his face, but Will quickly put a foot in the way and stopped me.

'I, I am sorry Anna, for what I said, I didn't mean it. Please give me another chance.' Will said desperately, I could feel a bubble of hope form inside me but I quickly burst it, he humiliated me publicly and now he claimed to love me. Haha, I am not that naïve.

'It's too late, I had given you a chance to explain yourself, you blew it. I don't care anymore. ' I told me flatly, and stopped with my attempts to closer the door, realise that it was a lost course. Ignoring my nervous, over-beating heart and my instinct telling me to just fled, I looked up to face Will just to see his face turned into a look of panic.

'I was just...' He started, but I cut him off, wanting to get my point across to him before I hear anything that might makes me change my mind. 'You were scared that you friends will think that you are whipped, and that they will laugh at you and you won't be popular anymore?' I finished for him, then looked at him intently, my heart softening a little, he looked so vulnerable. I shook my head, he doesn't love me! Remember that!

'How... I... didn't...' He stuttered, looking shock, then collected himself. 'I love you Anna, I am sorry for what I said, I take it all back. You don't know what it's like, the pressure that I lived in, the expectation, the image that they had of me. It's just boys talk, it meant nothing. All the things that I told you at the dance and that day at my room, it was real. I love you Anna, I can't bear to be without you.' His voice full of emotion, and his eyes looked at me pleadingly. My heart, the traitor was screaming at me to forgive him, to hug him and let everything goes back to the way it was. But I knew that things could never be the same again. I shook my head at him.

'You don't love me.' I said, pained, hurt as it might to admit that, it was the truth. He was about to argue but I cut him off again. 'You care more about your popularity than anything, if you love me, you would at least have chased after me at the car park that day, or came to find me sooner than this. If you love me, you won't have to choose, you won't hesitate before defending me.'

Will looked shock. I knew that I was right, I felt like my heart just died, looking at him as he opened and close his mouths several times like a gaping fish, unable to utter a word, I couldn't bring it to congratulate myself for putting all the pieces together. I sighed and turned around into the living room and grabbed the wrapped scarf that I was going to give him and stormed back to the door.

'It's for you.' I said, stuffing it in his hand through the gap. I was close to tears again, it took him four freaking days to decided that he should see me, and not a text or call from him main while, and he claimed to love me. He cared about what his friends think so much that it outweighs his feelings for me. I have a nasty feeling that even if I forgive him, we would not get past his friends.

'This is in return for your presents for me, so now we don't own each other anything. I don't ever wants to see you again.' I said, trying to keep my voice calm and giving him a shove making he trip backwards and closing the door in his face. So this is it, we are officially over. I slided down behind the door crying, the pain had came back to plague me. I heard Will pounding on the door, saying that he was sorry and that he loved me, but I barely noticed it, the pain in my chest had numbed all my other senses.

I dragged myself back up to my room at some point and cried myself to sleep. My phone keep beeping but I couldn't bring myself up to check it. Some hours later I heard a door banging and someone came into my room. I turned around pretending to be asleep hoping however it was will just going away.

'Come on Anna, we heard that Will came to visit you during lunch time. It's all around school now, what did he said? They are saying that he broke up with you.' I heard Alison's voice as she shook me gently. I guess I was right, he cared so much about what his friends thinks that he would twist everything into his favor. What happened to the knights in shinning Armour, oh wait, he was just a scared insecure jerk. At least I found out what he is really like before I fall too deep.

I got up angrily and picked up my phone. Five texts from Will saying that he was sorry, but the his friends spread all the rumors. As if that makes it any better, he just let them without protest. The pain in my heart that had subsided a little came back again. I groaned and fall back onto my bed.

'Come on, we brought you something to cheer you up.' Alison said, dragging me up from my sleeping position. I grumbled and tried to get back to my comforting pillow, but Alison was much stronger than I am so she managed to hoist me up and pushed me in the bathroom.

Grudgingly I freshened up, half-annoyed half-glad that Alison was here distracting me. I tried to keep my thoughts from venturing too Will and brush my teeth with unnecessary care. When I got out I saw that Hannah was here as well and the two of them had a smile on their face that I reconsigned as the cheeky smile.

'What are you guys smiling about?' I asked cautiously, looking around me expecting some sort of trap, but they just shook their head at me. Then the two of them dragged me downstairs to the living room.

'Why can't I just stay in my room and wallow in peace?' I asked, both of them ignored me, great. My eyes widened as I walked into the living room, the table was covered with my favorite snacks and a stack of my favorite DVDs in front of the TV.

'Aww, thank you so much guys!' I said, my heart warmed by their effort to cheer me up and hugging both of them in turns, they looked relieved that I was smiling for once, I was really touched by their effort to make me feel better. I felt a bit guilty that I put them through so much trouble. 'You guys shouldn't have.'

'Nonsense, come on, which movie first?' Hannah said, getting down in front of the DVD player and thrusting DVDs at me.

'Hm... let's watch John Tucker must Die.' I said. Hannah and Alison both smiled and we spent the evening eating junk food and watching movies. It was good to spend a girls night together, it made me forgets all about Will and enjoy myself (the food helped, a lot).

We ended up watching five movies, my parents, who kind of knew about the break up let Hannah and Alison stayed the night and even went out for dinner giving us some space, which was really nice of them, I guess they were kind of afraid that I might do something stupid, seeing as how this was my first relationship and it was getting a bit serious. But I would never try to kill myself, life is not something to be given up that easily.

Despite all the fabulous holiday plans that my parents, Gina and Dylan had throw at me, I ended up

sulking in my room with my laptop and TV for the entire Christmas holiday, only venturing out to get my presents and eat Christmas dinner ( food and presents are great for cheering me up).

I spent half the time mopping around, the other half dreading going back to school. With all those rumours about the break-up and my apparent suicidal attempts, I would be the number one gossip if not bully target for at least two weeks, unless something much more interesting happens, which is unlikely.

You know what people say about time? That it moves exactly opposite to your desire, because my three weeks break seemed to last one and before I knew it, it was time to go back to school. My cold was completely recovered and I am so behind in work that I don't even have the heart to pretend to be ill.

I took extra care with my make-up, hair and cloths, making sure that I look as healthy, alive and happy as possible, although the grim-face that appeared on my face while I tried to conjure up a smile didn't really give out the last impression at all. So I guess I would just have to settle with looking healthy and alive then.

My heart got heavier as I got closer to the school, all I wanted to do was bolt and ran back home and sleep for the rest of the year, or better, transfer to another school. I shook my head and told myself to stop being stupid.

'Don't worry, you will be fine.' Gina turned around and gave me a reassuring smile, although I could tell she didn't believe it either. I tried to return a smile, but failed, I took a deep breath and opened the car door. Ready or not, you can't escape from school, or your life.

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