*warning mention of Suicide*

"Everything ok, Evelyn?" Axial worryingly asks looking at me with her jaded blue eyes.
I noticed they changed colors with her emotions she had mood eyes.

I really need stop making it so obvious when I check out someone. Of course someone like Camila or Axial were used to being checked out now. They knew they were gorgeous unlike geeky me who was plain in comparison.

Slightly frowning I position myself on the right side of bed. Marking it as my spot. "Yeah I'm okay."

The left side of the bed dips when Axial lays down next to me. I just stared at the ceiling in complete silence. Sometimes silence was amazing.

"I had a really good time with you. Camila gets on my nerves a lot but I had fun with her too." Axial perches up with one arm.

"I'm glad you had good time. What's with Camila and you?" I ask my curiosity getting the better of me.
Sighing Axial blue eyes met mine. We were just a few cementers apart from each other
now. "You know how cliches are. Everyone wants to try be better than the other."

"Yeah, I know." I whisper still looking into her eyes. I felt like if I broke contact with her then she would put up her high guarded walls again. I found myself wanting to know more about Axial. It was like she was a puzzle and some of her pieces were missing.

"You already know with Camila, Fiona, and I we are ranked top the three queen bees." She waits for me to nod before continuing.

Funny thing I never wanted title Queen Bee I have always just tried to enjoy things I loved like soccer and hockey. Sports is my life." She confesses while still staring at me.

I felt like a therapist and she was my patient
in a sense. It felt a little more that though. Here was Axial Greyson baring apart of her soul to me.

Not saying a word I let her continue.

"When I'm on field it's like nothing else mattered. I loved feeling of being a part of something a team kind of like a family. Trophies I could care less about." Axial begins to tear up a little and I was never good at comforting people when they cried.

I didn't know what came over me I reached over and engulfed Axial in a hug. I just hated seeing her look so defeated. It wasn't like her she was always a strong bad a** leader.

   Waking up the left side of my bed was empty. Rubbing my eyes I grab my glasses from my night stand and notice a neatly folded not next to them.

      Opening the note I begin to read it:
             'Thanks for listening to me last night.  Don't tell anyone what we talked about. Since you done a favor for Camila I have one to ask of you from myself. Meet in the gym near lunch time.'
        Signed- Axial
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Taking my seat in Maths next to Karin I pull out my note book. I was still thinking of Axial and how she acted night. Another thing I was thinking of was this poem project Mr. Locke assigned us. What inspired me?

    "Your awfully zone out over there." Karin states taking end of his pencil and poking my

      Slapping away his pencil I sigh. "Just thinking about this poem thing I have to do." It was half true I was also thinking of Axial and her favor she had.

    "You seem quite popular lately." Karin adds gesturing to Axial who had been stealing glances at me since class started. 

      "Don't know what your talking about." I reply eyeing my paper hoping words will spill out on it soon.

   "Yeah, ok. Anyways thanks for helping me yesterday." He sheepishly says kind of looking embarrassed. 

     "Your my best friend. I'm always going be there for you." I smile at him then tap my pencil.

   "I know Evelyn. I just been feeling a little down mom hasn't came home for three days now." Karin confesses with sadness is in his eyes.

  I've been so wrapped up in my own stuff I didn't realize how bad things have gotten between Karin and his mother.

     My mom and his mom use to be best friends. Mom tried reaching out to her a bunch of time when Karin father died but she shut everyone out including her. Eventually my mom stopped trying and Gwen started hanging around a bad crowd.

     "Have you called the police?" I question worried about my friend and his mental state.

    "At first I didn't want to with her history of drug usage and all, but I needed to know where she was if she was ok."  Karin lip begins to quiver he gets up and storms out of class.

     Who needed math anyways right? All jokes aside I noticed Axial looking at me with a worry in her eyes.

   Putting my notebook back in my bag, I search the hallway for Karin.  I knew people were in middle of class finding my best friend was more important to me though.

   There was one place he would go. It was our little spot and I guarantee he was up there.
     Climbing the school steps I open the door to the rooftop I know why didn't janitors keep it locked who knew.

     We always came up here to just take a breather this and the music room was my sanctuary. 
-warning mentions of depression/suicide-

   There sat Karin with a flask, chugging it down like it all the answers to his problems.     

    He was tying drink away his pain. Pain was meant to be felt it reminded us we was human that it as ok to feel upset and hurt. Blocking it out was like a time bomb waiting to explode. It could build up inside of you and eventually consume you. 
   Breaking you from the inside out until your nothing left then tiny pieces of glass that no one wanted to help and pick up. 

    If they tried to help they too would get cut and hurt. No one wants to feel hurt or pain or any negative emotions.

     I watched my best friend Karin, perfectly broken. I should've been there for him more. Noticed the signs tried to help in some way.
    I felt like I let him down, turned a blind eye.

    "Helloooo Evelyn. Nice of you to join me." Karin slurs looking down at the school pavement. He was sitting at the edge he could easily fall.

Slowly approaching him I ask, "How did you sneak that in?" Gesturing to his flask he had.

"It was super easy. Facility here don't pay attention to anything just my dear mother." Karin spits out venomously.

"Come on, Karin get away from the ledge." My voice starts to squeak and my hands starts to shake.

"Why? Everyone would be better off without me. My own mother doesn't want anything to do with me. Might as well off myself like dad." Karin breaks down crying.

"No your wrong Karin. You're stronger than he was. You have so many people who love you, you got me, my mom , my dad and my little sister even adores you more than me." I jokingly add trying make him smile.

"I feel like I was mistake. I wasn't meant to be born maybe if I wasn't my dad would still be alive and mom would be around." Hearing him so broken tore something inside of me.
Karin always was the care free go with the flow type of person. He ever hinted ever he felt
sad or alone.

"Don't say that. Just don't." I begin to cry rushing towards him and wrapping my arms around him.

Karin turns towards me and buries his head
my shoulder crying away his pain. I gently rub his back and toss the flask off the school roof.

He didn't need alcohol to numb out his problems he just needed someone who would listen to him.