(Bruh it's the 50th chapter! When i started this book i thought I the max it will have is 20 chapter ('◉⌓◉'))

Namjoon's POV

"Woww!! This is so nice!! It looks so real!" Yun the Hulk figure he had just unwrapped.

"You like it?" I asked although the answer was pretty visible on his face.

"Ofc Hyung! This is soo soo good! It looks so real ... Thank you sooo much" he chimed, kissing both my cheeks. His usual way of showing affection which now I had grown to love so much .

"Your welcome buddy! Now you see i brought this for you because Hyung wants Yun to be strong and healthy as Hulk very soon!" I smiled and admired him as he was busy assessing the figure from various angles.

Seeing him recover and getting healthy each day fills me with so much joy. I still remember the day when we rushed to the hospital from the mall when Yun had collapsed.

The day I got to know he is yn's son and when Taehyung told me about his health condition. Every memory is still vivid.

Yun is very special to me, seeing him happy smiling and giggling fills me with a sense of contentment. It's a very different feeling, yes I love kids and seeing them happy makes me happy but with Yun it's different. Seeing him happy makes me feel satisfied. I want to do everything in my power to never let the smile fade.

I don't remember when it started but I always wanted to be a dad.

When my parents were alive, I was always close to my mom. Me and my dad didn't have the best relationship. Yes , he loved me and I did love him too but he had a really narrow mind and a very different perspective towards things. He didn't allow me and my sister to do a lot of things which would cause arguments among us. With time I grew distant from him and he too never made an attempt to lessen the distance.

I never admitted but I craved fatherly attention a lot, there were so many moments I wished he would be with me or things I wished we could do together. Maybe that was the reason I wanted to be a dad, to give my child the love and attention I didn't get from my father.

In months Yun lived at my place I learnt so many things. I learnt how different it is to want to have kids and then actually having one and taking care of them. You have to be so patient , gentle and always ready on your feet for everything.

I can never understand how Yn did it. How could she raise a child alone, especially in her state. And she didn't just raise Yun she raised him well. Yun was definitely the most understanding, disciplined and kind kid I have ever met.

A year back I wanted to be a father, I wanted to raise a kid but I didn't want a woman. I wanted to raise my child alone but now...i wish to raise my child with a woman ..not anyone but...Yn..I wish she can become the mother of my child. I know no one can be a better mother for my child than her.

"Hyung, when will you come to take me? Didn't you and Mommy make up already?" Yun's innocent question brought me back from my thoughts.

"You want to come back? You don't like it there?" I asked worriedly.

Does he not like living there? Is something bothering him? Does someone not treat him well? His one innocent question brought havoc of worries in my head.

"No hyung. I like it there too. Everyone is really good, they treat me very nicely. Grandma always makes me tasty things. She even bought me choco cookies she made yesterday. And Uncle Bam is very nice too. He took me driving one day and he brought me a new bicycle! Although I haven't learnt it yet. Jimin is very cool. He always plays with me and he secretly buys me candies too" he giggled to himself in the end.

A satisfied smile formed on my lips hearing his blabbering.

"Then what is the problem?" I was confused.

"I do like Everyone and they are good too but not as much as you Hyung! I love you most after mumma!"

Oh no! Did my heart just do tiny whiny flips?

"I want to live with you and mumma like we did. It felt so nice. I miss sleeping between you and Mommy playing with you , watching Marvel movies, everything we did together. My friend Minnie told me that when man, woman and child live together then they become family. Mumma, Daddy and a baby.

"I want to make us a family again"

I was speechless. So much is going in his tiny brain?

I can't deny the fact that this information made me happy, not just happy but kind of proud too that he loves me so much.

"Did you tell your Momma that you want to live with me?" I cautiously asked him, I hoped he hadn't.

"Not yet, but don't worry I will ask her today . I know she won't refuse me. She will forgive you if I ask her" He comforted me by giving me a pitiful look.

How is this tiny human capable of thinking so much for others ?

"Yun, Can you make a promise to me?" His face scrunched in confusion but nonetheless he gave me a tiny nod intertwining his pinky in mine.

"Don't tell momma about this okay. Don't talk to her about me at all"

His face immediately saddened. I hated to make him sad, but I didn't have any choice.

Yn had cleared herself to me three days back, the least i could do for her is to respect her choices. I don't want to make her feel uncomfortable with my presence. That's the sole reason I visited Yun in the morning when Yn leaves for home to freshen up. Taehyung informs me and only after she has left I enter the hospital premises. Which means I hadn't seen her since that day. It was hard, very hard, I was missing her like crazy but I could do anything to make her feel comfortable.

If Yun tells Yn that he wants to live with me I know it will definitely make her upset and guilty because she won't be able to fulfill his wish and I don't want that. I don't want to put her in any such difficult position due to me.

"Don't sulk big boy. I will come and take you and your Momma with me but not now you will have to wait ." I assured him by pulling him on my lap.

"When?" He cutely pouted, finally looking at me sending me a dangerous glare which made me chuckle.

"I don't know that yet but I will. You will have to trust your hyung. Do you trust me? "

I smiled when he didn't even think for a second before giving me a nod. He really does trust me.

I promise Yun , I will treat you and your mom the best just like you to deserve.

"Hyung, it's time to leave." Taehyung came and informed me.

"Bbye buddy. I will come again tomorrow."

After getting my face smothered with kisses, I left the room and followed Taehyung to his cabin .

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"I really don't understand you Hyung! Why are you making everything so complicated?!" Taehyung exclaimed once we were in his cabin. He made sure to shut the door before he practically lashed out on me.

"What is it about taehyung?" He asked boredly.

"Really hyung? You are asking me what is it about? Lily told me today that yn confessed to you 3 days ago and you left without telling her anything. What are you doing? That's why you have been avoiding her for the past few days? For God sake hyung why are you torturing her?-"

"Will you calm down taehyung."

"No I won't! Why are you suddenly acting like this? After knowing everything yn has been through you are making her suffer like this? Do you even know how hard it must have been for her to be honest about her feelings and you are straight up ignoring her? Weren't you the one who said that you have realised your feelings and you will do anything to bring her back? Then what are you doing now?!"

"I am not ignoring her Taehyung. She asked me to stay away from her and act professional. I am just doing what she asked me to do. " I replied nonchalantly.

"For God sake hyung! What the fuck is WRONG with you? You know she said that because she doesn't know about your feelings. If only you had told her you also feel the same then ofc she wouldn't have said that!I feel like I don't know you anymore. Why are you putting her through all that pain, when you can simply confess and be together-"

"Because she is not ready , taehyung!" I finally roared, breaking the silence. Taehyung seemed to be taken back from my sudden outburst .

"What does that even mean?" He asked, looking at me confused.

"You didn't see her that day taehyung... She looked so vulnerable. It was so hard for me to stay quiet and not just hug her and tell that she isn't the only one. She isn't the only one who broke the so-called contract. That I am also helplessly in love with her, more than I have ever loved anyone. It's hard for me too to just ignore her and not be able to see her and through the misunderstanding that I don't love her."

"Then why are you doing it?"

Yn's House.

It was extremely exhausting going back and forth from the hospital in the last few days. But you didn't complain, how could you? Yun was finally recovering in a few more months he will be perfectly fine so all of it is worth that.

Your body hasn't been in the best condition though, you always have pain in some part of your body and you were also feeling very tired. It wasn't just physical.

Whatever happened that day in the hospital room you weren't sure how you felt about it . It was so hard for you to gather the courage to say you didn't regret it though it was inevitable but there was a very small part in you that was praying that he would cut you off and say that your thoughts aren't correct and that you aren't the only one . But it never happened .

Still deep inside your heart there is a voice which refuses to believe that it's the end. Maybe that's why you haven't thought about it at all. You didn't even cry a single tear because you know the moment you cry your brain will understand it real. That it's actually the end and you aren't ready for it. Nir yet.

You had gotten ready and also had breakfast . These days your mom decides your meal because apparently you aren't taking enough care of yourself and you can't actually deny that. She has also made some special pregnancy snacks which are filled with dry fruits and other nutritional stuff and it's actually quite tasty so you don't mind having them.

It was mostly Jimin that drove you to the hospital but today he wasn't at home, he left early due to some work so Bam was supposed to be your chauffeur today in Jimin's words. So after completing the breakfast and packing all the stuff you went to his room to call him completely unaware that someone was inside. But when you reached the door you couldn't help but eavesdrop on their conversation.

So you really don't care about me . I am ready to stay here with you Bam now you have even found your sister so why can't we be together now?

I don't want to have this conversation Rhea. Why can't you understand that it's over."

You can't simply break off our engagement like this! I won't let you do that. I didn't say anything last time because I didn't want to come in the way of your sister. I didn't say anything because I knew how desperate you were to find her so accepted you leaving me not even a month after after our engagement but now? You have found her, she is safe and happy with you then why can't you take me bam. You know how much I love you ! I can't marry someone else pleaseee"

Just go back Rhea. I think I had already made myself clear the day I left that it was over. You have all the right to marry anyone. "

I ..i can't believe you .... Okay. If that's what you want. I am going back and I will marry him on the fixed date. 1st of next month.

With that Rhea dashed out of the room, her face was covered in her tears she looked so miserable. She stopped when she saw you standing. Holding in a sob age ran away .

You stood there dumb. What is it about?

They were engaged?

Bam broke his engagement?

He left her only to find me?

Everything was so confusing. To know the truth you dashed into the room only to find Bam sitting on the bed with his face buried in his palms.

He was crying.

"Y..you both were engaged?" You blurted out while still trying to process.

Bams head shot up on hearing your voice. His eyes widened in horror. He didn't want you to find out about it. .

"I ...it's not like that. Yes we were engaged but things didn't-,"

"No, what did she mean by you leaving her right after the engagement to find me,?" You cut him off .

Bam gulped looking away. He didn't want to answer, he was too ashamed to answer that.

"Bam tell me what it is about! I want to know the truth!" Your voice came out louder than intended. He flinched hearing you call his name for the first time.

" Me and Rhea , we met in college and we were dating until we finally got engaged last year. It was the day after my engagement that mom collapsed and you know after that she was unconscious for days and when she woke she told me the entire thing. It was at that moment I swore to myself that I will find you. But I didn't know how the first thing I had to do was to come back to Korea and I had no idea how long it would take for me to find you. It could have taken years and i...i didn't want to drag Rhea in this. I didn't want her to leave her work, family her entire life and follow me here so i decided to break the engagement. And then I came here"

You looked at him in complete disappointment.

"H.... How could you do this to her? To any woman.? "

"I know it was wrong of me, I wasn't thinking straight. I regretted it the moment I came to Korea but I didn't have courage to apologise and fix things. "

"Rhea is such an amazing woman. She .. she saved Yun's life. And you broke her like that? How will I be able to face her knowing I am the reason that her life was destroyed."

"No no princess, don't blame yourself. It was me who did the wrong thing. I am at fault. She doesn't blame you. No one does. "

You were truly out of words. You can't even imagine what she must be going through right now. And you felt you are cause of her misery.

"What did she mean by her wedding?" You asked

"After I left her parents were understandably very angry and upset with me . Rhea wanted to wait for me but her family was against her. Her family has fixed her wedding with some family friend's son who also works in the same hospital as her. She doesn't want to marry but her parents are forcing her. She..she wants to move here with me. "

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This chapter was an intense one.

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