"It's you. You're the one we've fallen head over heals for Lee"... What?

"What?" I said because I'm not sure I heard him right. I mean it can't be.

"It's you Lee, what's so hard to believe?" He said chuckling.

"YAH! You think this is funny? Do you want me to lose my job?" I yelled un-intentionally. My face reddened but felt with rage not anything else. I hoped.

"No, not at all. We just thought-..." He was starting to explain. But I cut him off.

"Thought? Obviously, you did not think right. I can't believe I even fell for it and slept with Jackson. Obviously, that was a mistake. Jaebeom-ssi please go back to your room. I'll talk to PDnim in the early morning and sort this out, move out, go back to being a stylist for another group or even work with Tae and his comp-..." I started rambling panicking walking back and forth at how everything was escalating so fast when he interrupted me..

"Jagi.. Stop. Please, let's talk about this. You don't have to go anywhere." He tried to reach out for my hand but I just pull my hand away. This cannot happen.

"Im Jaebeom-ssi  GET OUT! NOW!" I yell and he sighs in defeat and walks away but turns around one last time before he shuts the balcony door

"Lee, we would never do anything to compromise you, your job or anything you care about. I hope you believe that our feelings are real, it's not a game Leenah" The room fell into silence afterwards.

I collapse on the bed replaying his words in my head.

'Our feelings are real.'

'We appreciate and cherish her more than anyone can understand.'

'She'd have 7 boyfriends.'

Ahhhh!! I cannot even consider this. I shut my eyes forcefully and drift off to sleep land.

I woke up the next morning and checked my phone it's 7 am and I saw that the boys will have practice in-house which means their choreographer and personal trainer will come to the house around 9 so they don't have to go out. Great, some me time.

I wore shorts and tank top and put up my hair and get ready for a morning jog to clear my head after overthinking about what Jaebeom said. I put on my sunglasses and my headphones and head down to the kitchen to grab a protein bar and a bottle of water before my run but I was surprised to see the boys already awake and preparing breakfast. Ugh! It smells so good!

"Morning Lee, we cooked breakfast" Jackson said approaching me, I'm guessing he wanted a hug but I dodged him saying nothing and opened the cabin that had the protein bars and took out one and head to the fridge..

"Lee, let us talk about it. Hear us out" Bambam said holding my wrist. I say nothing. Instead, I look down at my wrist. "Hmmm? Please?" He said searching for my eyes behind the shades.

I looked up to see their faces. Jinyoung and Mark seemed agitated, really? You're not the ones who'd be treated like a prostitute. Jaebeom didn't even look at me, giving me his back while cooking GOD knows what and the rest had the look of fear and guilt all over their faces.

"I'm going for a run. Then I'll head to the company. Enjoy your food" I say and pull my wrist away. Only then, did everyone turn their heads towards me. Who do they think they are. Wait, who do they think I am? I am out of here.

"Lee, please wai-.." I hear Youngjae say but I interrupt him.

"Don't forget that you have practice today, be ready by 8:30 the coaches will be here by 9. The cleaning services will come while you're in practice so keep an ear for the bell and I told the cook to prepare the rest of the week's lunches so it'd be ready and only need to be heated. I'll see you guys later" I say while walking out the kitchen and out of the house slamming the door behind me. Wow, they're annoying.

The run was good, I ran for about an hour then went to my personal trainer and I told her that I needed to release stress so she just let me train with the punching bag. 30 minutes later I was done and needed to get a shower before heading to the company and talk to PDnim.

As soon as I get into the house I heard nothing but complete silence so I just assumed that the boys are already in the practice room in the basement so I head to my room and gasp almost yelp when I saw Jinyoung wandering my room. He turned around and smiled nervously while rubbing the back of his neck.

"What are you doing here Jinyoung-si?" I ask him before giving him a chance to say a word.

"I figured you'd come back before heading to the company. I need to talk to you" He said moving closer to me. I turn around and head to my closet to grab new clothes.

"I need to shower Jinyoung-si. Make it quick?" After all, I did promise them that I'll always be there for them if they needed to talk.

"Woah, you have a tattoo on your neck?" He said and I instantly turn around and let my hair down with a swift move. I know that he likes necks, especially the back of them.

"Jinyoung-ssi, if you're not gonna start talking I'll head to the shower now, I reek of sweat. I'm disgusting and disgusted" I say to him rolling my eyes.

"Jay told us what happened. I don't want you to misunderstand what he said. Leenah I have fallen for you so hard, you walked into our lives and changed it in ways you may never understand. I still remember the first time I saw you on the Never Ever set. I was under water when I saw how you wore that baggy sweatpants and a hoodie from Mark Hyung's collection, running around so swiftly, dodging everything that runs your way" he paused with a little chuckle looking down at his feet. "I also remember that you were an assistant back then but you scolded your superiors for turning on the AC during my underwater shoot.." he looked up at me with the most sincere look I've ever gotten from him. His eyes were softening, searching for mine

"Lee, please give us a chance to show you how much we need you. You gave us so much, you have been there for us when no one was. I know that you're the one who kept sending me the herbal tea on set when I was filming the kdrama." I averted his eyes as much as possible. I did that. I sent him herbal tea because he was filming at cold nights, caring so much about his looks that he barely eats or drinks well. That tea was something to keep him fueled until he gets a proper meal.

"Lee, you know that you're the reason Jay and the rest of us were able to write the new songs while on tour, right? You of all people, know how hard and long process it is to write songs and compose them" he cut my thoughts and I looked at him confused. "The songs Jay wrote, the lyrics we helped with; were all about you Lee." Huh?

"J-Jinyo..." I stutter trying to come with something to say... I honestly never thought, not in a million years that I'd be the inspiration for a whole album.

"You think we didn't know nor notice you cried when me, Jay and Bambam lashed out on you for not getting our sizes right? How you wouldn't even come near us for a couple of weeks straight?" I remembered that day like it was at the back of my head. Jinyoung threw his phone at the wall and it shattered. It was on the first interview after they released Eclipse. I had to run to the nearest YSL store to buy the right sizes, even though they weren't custom made like the others'. I felt so guilty and I couldn't even look them in the eye. I avoided them all. Even when it's time to get them ready I wouldn't call their names, I'd just say 'it's time' or whatever. My thoughts were cut off with hearing Jinyoung revising their songs' lyrics

"I who made you cry, I hated myself, only leaving scars. I resented my mistakes.
My name lost its meaning, please call it again" I looked up at him. This can't be, this was a long time ago how could they remember that?

"You were always there with us on tour, but it wasn't enough anymore. I wanted more of you. Everyone did." He interrupted my thoughts again before revising other lyrics..

"I really wanna really wanna really wanna really wanna talk to you" He sang that part with a deep voice and chuckled, I bit the inside of my cheek to prevent a smile from appearing on my face. It was cute how he tried to imitate Mark.

"There are many things I want to do such as greeting you, looking you in the eyes. Should I hug you?" I raised my eyebrows looking at him. How can the whole album be about me?

"Jinyoung-si, please leave. I need to shower, I don't want to be late." I say and walk into the bathroom not giving him a chance to say anything back to me.