Alexia Kirby

" Do your late night thoughts ever lead back to me?" - Faraway

Another sleepless night. Another day without talking to him. I didn't give in to texting him back no matter how much I wanted to. Today is the day I go home, but instead of being happy, I feel like if I leave California I'd be losing something.

Looking around the room that has been my home for the past month an emptiness feels me. I know I'm going to miss it here. "You ready?" I hear my mom's voice behind me. Fiz is taking us to the airport and I know I have to say my goodbyes now. Emerson demanded she comes over and see me before I left. "Yes." I reply and grab my bookbag to follow my mom out of the room.

Walking downstairs I can see Emerson, Noah, and the band in the living room. Even Zara is here, the only person that is not Grayson.

"I promised myself I wouldn't cry but I think I'm going to." Charlie says while rushing over to me. "Oh don't be such a baby Charlie." I pat his back as he clearly fake sobs into me. "He's just dramatic." Scarlet says, obviously. "For real though, I'm going to miss you and you better call me." Charlie leans off me and says very seriously. "I promise I will." I reply and he gives me one more hug before Kenan comes over.

"It was a pleasure meeting and getting to know you." Kenan says and hugs me, quickly but it's a hug. "I can't wait for more sleepless nights and midnight drinks with you." I tell him. Kenan nods and Shawn and Zara come over. Zara looks like she wants to say something but she doesn't, maybe embarrassed or not wanting to be turned down.

"I'm going to text you as soon as I get home Z. I'll miss you." I bring her into a hug and she relaxes into me. "I promise this will all workout, just try and focus on you." Shawn says and he quickly hugs me like Kenan did.

The rest of the goodbyes were filled with crying, minus Raven's and it took some time but I'm finally out the door and going to the airport. I've already texted Faith so she is waiting for me to get back at my house.

I'm so ready to be home.

Fiz brings us off at the airport and I give him one last smile as he closes the door behind me. "Thanks for not crashing the car on purpose." I tell him, hoping it will make him smile and he does. " I hope to see you one day soon Ms.Kirby." Fiz says and walks around the car to drive away.

The airport is crowded when we enter not only from travel but many reporters are here. They are probably here due to the fire of the scandal Mr.Archer put out. Dick.

Me and Mom push through the crowd and thank god we don't have to go through checks or anything because our bags are already in a private holding in the plane and we are in first class. I'm still not sure if I want to be in first class or not. It's relaxing and has so much better food options but it just seems so overdone.

We finally make it to the escalator and then behind me I start to hear my name being faintly called. "Alexia, Alexia, Alexia!" I turn around and spot Grayson Archer pushing through the crowd in his leather jacket, a red Harley Davidson t-shirt, and some jeans. Unfortunately, he looks gorgeous. I wish he didn't.

I turn back around not stopping to see why he's yelling for me. "You are going to ignore him." Mom says. "He isn't trying to fix the problem. I don't want to listen to him explain." I answer her. "You have to listen to him eventually and if he comes back to explain again you can at least try and hear him out." Mom tells me as we make our way to the top. Once at the top, my phone vibrates and I take it out and see Gray calling me. I answer.

"Can we talk?" He asks. "I don't have time to talk." I answer. "I know but can I have five minutes?" Gray asks.

"Three."

"I plan on fixing this and I'm really sorry about this." Gray says. "It's going to take more than sorry." I tell him and hang up. I probably should have listened more and let him explain more but I didn't want to. Call me a bitch but I know I am.

On the plane, I just put on my headphones and block out the world not bothering to worry about anything else going on.

***

Pulling up to my house it feels so nice to be seeing this house. I missed my house. Mom cuts off the car and everyone runs out of the house. Faith runs up to my car door and rips it open and I jump out and hug her. "I've missed you so much." I whisper to her. "Never leave me again." she replies.

"I don't plan to." I don't. Not anytime soon. I loved being in Hollywood and I love acting but I don't think I will be leaving anytime soon. I want to stay here and go to school and hang out with Faith and go to cheer practice after school.

"I've been dying without you here." I hear Lia say. "No, she hasn't, I got her." Astrid comments. This makes me laughs. Of course, they are dramatic. "I can't believe my Lexi Wexi is back!" Dexter exclaims and runs over as well. "Okay, can we move this reunion into the house after getting the bags." Mom tells us.

We all break apart and start getting mine and my mom's bags. After all the bags are in the house Stephan pulls out some dinner and we all sit around the table and eat pasta and catch up. Mom and Stephan do the dishes while Dex cleans the dining room and Lia puts what needs to be washed in the laundry room. Astrid gets up the small things and me and Faith put bags up and unpack my things.

"So are you going to tell me what happened?" Faith asks as she folds my clothes. I'm putting away my Rocky Myers collection on the clear floating shelves that I ordered. "His dad spread this thing that he was leaving and using me and he's not stopping and he's letting it play around. Basically using me for the stunt and I don't want to be a secret and he blamed it on it just being Hollywood." I explain to her.

I'm not mad that the rumor was spread or a lie about me was put out. I'm mad that he's letting it happen and he's just letting everyone believe he's using me and leaving me and he doesn't even have the guts to say it's him doing it. He's blaming it on Hollywood. He's the one not setting things straight and saying not using me.

"Well Worlds are soon so are you ready?" Faith changes the subject. I'm so lucky to have Faith because, for the rest of the time, we just talk about the happy parts of the trip, and I Facetime Zara and Emerson. Faith talks to Charlie and it's adorable how much they laugh at each other.

After Faith left for the night I got ready and changed for bed. Unfortunately, I couldn't sleep due to random sentences running through my head so I decided to just write a song and it's called "Not to Be Dramatic."

I never do crazy things and I don't randomly come out with anything but tonight at two am I made a Tik Tok account and post me singing two of my songs Spring Break and Not to Be Dramatic there and on my Instagram. Just because I decide to be even more dramatic unlike the song says I tag Grayson in the posts.

Maybe this will get my mind and my heart off things and I can finally settle down. I can finally let it all go.