Alexia Kirby

"There's no poem that can contain all that I feel for you." - JH Hardwith

After the party, I stayed up all night. Researching Gray, reading articles, watching interviews, and more. I even jumped over and did some research on Emerson and a little on Noah. When I got home last night I just couldn't get Gray out of my head and when trying to fall asleep I couldn't so I tried watching a movie but then I wanted to see his face so I looked one thing up and then another and so on and now it's 6 am and I need to be onset by 7 am.

Today I'm having a new driver drive me while Aaliyah helps Astrid pack to go home and then I have zoom practice. I pick out a white tank, then a black knitted small top to put over with, then purple, white, and black plaid straight-legged pants. That I put on a black rhinestone belt and I wear my black platform converse with the outfit.

I do my hair down the center in two bubble braids with black bands and leave my room to have breakfast. I have breakfast with mom and we have overnight oats which are horrible by the way. After I eat I kiss mom and bid my goodbyes and head for the front.

"New ring?" Astrid asks as I grab my leather  blazer and Prada purse. " Yes, it's a butterfly." I say as I put my blazer on. " Your favorite animal." Astrid states. "Gray got it for me." I tell her and put my purse on her shoulder. " So it's Gray and not Grayson anymore?" Astrid smiles. "I guess ." I answer and grab the keys out of my purse. " Can you tell Lia I left?" I ask and go for the door. " Have a good day." Astrid says and I say the same.

As I exit the house I notice a paparazzi van down the road a little so I hurry up and get in the car that was sent for me. Looking through the back window I see the van following us. They eventually go away once I enter the Hayden Productions gates.

Once I enter the set and I'm not met with many people but I got an assistant who gives me a monster when I come in. " Emerson wants you in her office." Garner says. I follow the halls till I get to Emery's office and knock and she says come in. " Lexi, you're here, I need you fitted for a pink and green suit." Emerson says. I look at her confused because I thought I was fitted for everything. " You both have an interview today for the movie and just Hollywood press. Gray, you will be matching with you in a light green suit with pink shoes." Emerson says.

So we're matching.

The interview is at 9:30, so we have two hours to get ready before the people will be here to set up and have the interview here on set.

The suit I'm wearing is half pastel pink, and half pastel  green. I'm wearing flare pants and a cropped crossover blazer with one pink and one green Louis Vuitton shoes. The makeup is pretty simple and then my hair is half up, half down.

I exit my dressing room to find Gray standing in the hall in his suit. " You clean up nice." I say, catching his attention. " You look pretty." Gray says. "Thank you." I say. " Shall we walk out together?" Gray asks. " Of course." I say and hold out my hand for him to take. " Noah will get introduced before us." Gray tells me.

Before we go on I get a little nervous, this will be seen by millions of people and so will the movie. I don't even know how to answer these questions and that thirty-minute session with Emerson seems like not enough right now. " You can do this." Gray whispers before he's pulling me out to the set we have for this interview. I walk out smiling with him and take a seat between him and Noah.

"You all look so beautiful." Serria, the host says. We all say thanks and throw her compliments at the same time. " So Alexia, how are you feeling?" Sierra asks me. " I feel over the moon, so excited." I say smiling, letting out some air at the end. " And how do you two  feel about her taking Marina's place?" She asks. " It's definitely a better fit and things are going way smoother now." Noah answers. " Yeah, no more tantrums or stalling because she's not ready." Gray says and he and Noah laugh.

The interview goes on with shooting questions which I steer from answering and I answer the ones about me.

"Gray, Alexia I think everyone is wondering- Are you two dating?" Sierra asks.  Of course, they would ask this. " You'll just have to wait and see." Gray answers. After that, she wraps everything up and we just take some pictures before changing and doing a set tour video and then we start filming for the day.

Filming has become my favorite and least favorite part of my days. It's so much fun but it's also exhausting as well. We are about to shoot the last scene of the day, which doesn't include me so I'm just taking off my makeup and brushing out my hair while I wait for them to finish. I put my hair back in its original hairstyle I came with and apply some mascara and lip gloss.

"Hey, you wanna go somewhere?" Gray asks from the door. " It's  five pm." I say. " What better time to have an adventure." Gray says. " You're too spontaneous." I say, getting up out of the vanity chair. " Of course, life is no fun when it's planned." Gray says, before leaving the doorway and going to his dressing room, I'm assuming. I get the outfit I can in and change and freshen up before cleaning up my dressing room.

As I'm walking to Gray's car, I find him leaning on the passenger side of the car. He opens the door for me, " You're not gonna take me straight home are you?" I ask. " Nope, but you'll love the adventure, Mcperfect. Get in." He replies so I get inside the car and wait for him to get in as well. I have a strong feeling this will be a long night. Gray gets into the car and starts to back out, "Where are we going?" I ask. "Are you hungry?" He replies with the question. " Not right now, I had a salad like thirty minutes ago." I answer. " Okay then, to the place I want to show you." Gray says. "Which is?" I ask. "Wait and see." He answers.

We end up in Santa Monica  at a little shop. It looks homey and interesting like one of those places you pass by while driving somewhere and you wonder what it's like inside. The shop has very pretty glass double doors and orange and white low lighting and has the smell of pine and pumpkin spice. The shop has candles, jewelry, band shirts, vintage shoes, sweaters, crystals, and books. There are a few other random things like teddy bears, comic books, writing kits, and fandom merch.

While Gray is speaking with the owner, I got a bit distracted by the Harry Potter stuffed animals and things on one self. "Alexia!" Gray calls my name and I hurry through the maze of fancy sleeves and bookcases to the counter. "Yes, Gray?" I respond, as I exit one aisle and see him. "This is Alexia...my uhmmm.. My Alexia." Gray says to a brown-haired lady dressed in a lovely floral dress. "Hi." I reply, kind of meekly. "Well, it's nice to meet you, Gray's Alexia." The lady says, humorously.  "She's a shy one." The woman adds.  " Oh, she's normally bold." Gray says. "I'm Candene, a friend of Gray's mom." Cadence says. "It's very nice to meet you." I say. "I'll give you kids some space, while I go handle things in the back." The lady says and leaves us.

"So what's special about this place?" I ask. "When I was younger my mom would bring me and Bea here all the time and we'd help out and eat home-baked cookies. This is her best friend's shop but a year before their divorce we stopped coming. My dad said we shouldn't be seen around here in places like this." Gray explains. "That's awful. You're dad's a bitch."  I reply, looking over at some sleeves. "He's definitely more than that." Gray says. I look over and see a ring and necklace shelf and decide to go take a look.

On the shelf, I find two silver yin-yang necklaces. "Do you like them?" He asks, standing behind me. I nod in response. "Then I'll buy them." Gray says and he does. I take one and he takes the other. I take a picture to show off our matching necklaces, just to have them for myself. We stay a few minutes in the shop and help stock up and clean and then we leave her to lock up. Gray insists our next spot be to get food and then we go out for a movie.

"Thank you for showing me somewhere important to you." I say. " No need to thank me, I wanted to." Gray replies.

We had dinner at David Busters. It was a nice dinner, we talked about the movie, and life, we didn't bring up touchy topics though. We sat in the back in a dark corner and I know most people go to those to make out but we just wanted privacy to have dinner and not be bothered. It felt normal with us being together and we didn't even argue.

We're about to leave and I decided to go to the restroom so I won't have to go for a while and now I'm on my way back to the table.

"Cheryl, I don't know what to do." A lady cries. I stop behind the wall space. Not to be rude but I'm nosy. " The band isn't coming and Nia will be so upset. I feel like I ruined her fiftieth birthday." The woman says again. "What about the backups." Cheryl's voice comes. "They can't make it and I canceled The Morning Stars because she picked the other people. She's gonna be so sad." The woman says. "Kimmy we can figure something out." Cheryl says.

Gray will hate me for this.

I step around the corner, "I'm sorry I heard you two talking, and what if I could get a Morning Star for you? I don't have the whole band but I have one." I tell them. "Who are you?" Cheryl asks. " Sorry, I'm Alexia Kirby." I answer. " You're the girl my daughter has been crying over saying you took her crush and  hanging out with Grayson lately." Kimmy says. " That's me and I have Gray here with me if she wants a song we can give her one. I'm not Scarlett or Raven but I can try." I tell Kimmy. "Why would you do that?" Charly asks. " I'm a nice person and I hate sad birthdays. Nia deserves to be happy tonight." I answer. " You are a lifesaver." Kimmy says and rushes over and hugs me. I hug her back for a little before she pulls away. "Just let me go get Gray." I tell them.

I step away and walk back to the table to see Gray scrolling through his phone. "So don't hate me but I did a thing." I tell him. "Which is?" Gray asks, looking up from his phone. "A girl named Nia is turning fifteen and the music artist who was supposed to play didn't show, it turns out her mom was trying to get your band but it didn't work and I said what if we play now since we're here." I explain. "Just let me get my guitar from the car." Gray says and gets up from his spot at the table. "Wait, really you'll do it!" I exclaim and then look around me to see if anyone heard. "Of course."Gray says. "Thank you." I say and I jump to hug him. "It's my pleasure." Gray replies.

Once Gray is back from his car, we head back over to Kimmy and Cheryl. Nia's party is about twenty girls and their parents. Apparently, it's a gaming night and sleepover. After the song, they are all going to Nia's for an outdoor movie. Kimmy introduces Gray and I.  He chooses to sing Nights like this and happy birthday. I sing happy birthday to him.

"Happy birthday Nia, I hope it was as special as you are." Gray says into the microphone. The girls all cheer and swarm around Nia. Gray goes down and hugs Nia, while her mom takes pictures. Gray gives everyone a signed Morning Star t-shirt and takes pictures with all the girls.

"I see you're popular with the girls." I say as he comes over to me. "Jealous." He asks, smiling. "Never, but seriously thank you for doing this." I say. " It was worth it. I made a kid happy today." Gray says and slings his arm around me, leaning on me. I look over at the parents cleaning up while all the girls are excitedly putting on their shirts and talking.

"You really did."

We end up  just riding around and listening to songs, and eating snacks  instead of going to see a movie. After a while, Hollywood reporters start following us.

"How do we get rid of them?" I ask Gray, looking behind us once again and seeing the Deadline van behind us. "Back roads," Gray answers. "Reach in the glove compartment and pull out that map." Gray says, glancing in the rearview mirror. I follow his instructions and pull out a big map. In all honesty, I have no idea how to read this thing, especially at night with bare minimum light. During the day maybe I could help. But I'm more of a once I see where we go or know it I can get you there anytime but this is unfamiliar. He turned on many roads a while back and I have no idea where I'm at and I don't know anything about getting around California.

I turn on my phone flashlight and shine it over the map. I flip it around many times before giving up and just pulling out my phone and pulling up a tracking map. "I think you can turn up here to the left." I say. To say the least, we are both terrible at this. We turn on that road and just keep going. There aren't many houses out here, just nice nature. If it was daytime it'd be a lovely time to walk. Eventually, the map says we're about fifteen minutes from Los Angeles. Not bad. There's a pop sound in the back that causes the car to kind of lose control until there's another. Gray pulls over the best he can and stops.

We end up in a small patch of woods.

"I think there is a flat tire." He says and grabs his phone before getting out. All the lights are cut on in the car and I can see around us it's nothing but trees, hills, and a long ass road.

I unbuckle myself and get out of my seat and cross over to the middle of his chair. Gray is now going through the trunk. "Fuck." he says and walks back around the car. "There are two flat tires and I only have one, there's no cell service and we can't walk because it's night." Gray tells me all at once. "We're going to have to sleep in the car tonight and wake up tomorrow and walk back." Gray answers. He leaves the doorway and goes to the trunk and pulls out blankets and closes it. I move back over to my seat and he gets inside with them and closes the door.

"You can take the back seat, I'll sleep up here." Gray says. "I'm sorry about your car." I say. "It's just a car." Gray says. He holds out two blankets for me and I take them and toss them in the back. I crawl into the back with my things and set up for the night. I text my mom telling her what happened even though it won't send so just in case it does send she knows what happened.

Neither one of us is asleep but we also don't speak much. Gray turns around every so often and asks If I'm okay and If I'm cold, I answer and he turns back around and lays back in his seat.

I'm scared. I'm hoping nothing and no one comes out and tries to kill us. The air is swirling and the night animals are out, making a creepy ambiance. "Just stay calm." Gray says. "How do you know I'm not calm?" I ask Gray. " I can hear your loud ass breathing." He answers. "Sorry." I mumble. "Here hold my hand." Gray says and reaches his hand over the seat. " It'll be comfortable for you." I state. "Don't care if it'll help you. I'll make it work." Gray says. I wait a few seconds and wipe my hand on my pants. "Alexia take my hand." Gray says. I reach and take his hand.

"We're going to be okay, Lex." Gray says. " I know." I reply shakingly. I stare at the ceiling for a while, not focused on anything slightly in my head so much that I start to feel sleepy even though I'm really paranoid and Gary assured me he'd stay up and keep watch. I don't want to leave him alone but I'm almost  asleep.

"Goodnight Mcperfect."