Love & Lost

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Amora's P.O.V

Something was tickling me but I was way too lazy to open my eyes to figure out what it was. It felt good though, whatever it was so maybe I didn't mind. That is until the something bit me!

"Ouch!" I whined tiredly opening my eyes to meet a pair of dark blue ones already looking down at me.

"I didn't hurt you." He said seriously which made me roll my tired eyes.

"Of course you didn't just interrupted my rest." I muttered which caused a breath taking smile to grace his pink lips. Being this close he looked perfect if that was possible. From his evenly tanned complexion  to his oceanic orbs. Perfectly straight nose paired with a dazzling smile.

"I wanted to wake you myself." He muttered against the sensitive skin of my neck.

"Mhhh." I hummed not being able to form a coherent sentence when he started to suck on my skin.

"Amora I...I'm...happy that you're the person carrying my child?" He mused his eyes now focused on my stomach where our child grew. I didn't reply simply because I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what my purpose in life was anymore. What purpose does a woman who's husband married her not because he loved her but because he impregnated her accidentally. Then decided to drag her halfway across  the world out of guilt. I didn't know what my purpose here would be but I did know that I was going to have one of the most important responsibilities ever. I was going to be a mother. And that fact overshadowed every negative thought that I could come up with.

I knew that in a few months it wouldn't matter that I'm in a loveless marriage. Or that I was lied to. Or that I know that  I'm way over my head and it's just a matter of time before everything backfires on me. Or that I was currently laying in bed with a half naked man that clearly didn't love me but for some unknown reason I loved him way more than he gave me reason too. All this wouldn't matter because in a few mouths I would be able to look into a little being's eyes who would love me just as much as I would love and care for him or her.

"Okay?" He asked looking intently at me finally snapping me out of my thoughts. Obviously I didn't  know what he was talking about but that didn't stop me from dumbly agreeing with a quick nod of my head.

"Good now let's get you and our little one something to eat." He muttered lowering his head so his hot lips molded against my now exposed hardened stomach. His action caused me to stiffen not because I was afraid but because I was shocked. He's never done anything like that before he almost never speaks about the life growing inside of me.

"Amora!" Rose shouted barging into the room her raven hair a flying mess. Yet she still managed to pull off the 'just rolled out of bed' look as though it was something straight out of a high profiled catalog.

"God Rose do you ever knock?!?" William questioned clearly annoyed by her actions before rolling off of me and onto his side of the bed.

"Gee I'm sorry papa bear but it's an emergency but maybe you should start locking your door." She said turning away from the burning gaze of her older brother focusing her attention to where I still laid in bed. She just stood there looking at me with a smile on her face which made me a bit uneasy.

"Rose if you're not going to say anything please get out." William grumbled before climbing out of bed putting his naked torso on full display.

"Somebody's in a bad mood. Amora I'm going to a party with my friends tonight could you come shopping with me?" She asked moving so she now sat next to me. Her question caused me to smile lightly and honestly made me a bit excited.

I never really got to shop for anything other than my necessities but I would always admire the beautiful clothes various stores would have in their showcases. Growing up my mother did the best she could when providing for me which I was extremely grateful for. Me not being able to dress like the other kids in school didn't sadden me honestly I was appreciative of anything my mother provided for me even if they were raggedy hand-me-downs.

"Sure." I said doing very little to hide the excitement in my voice which caused a huge smile to take over her lips lighting up her pale face.

"Awesome!" She said capturing me in a extremely tight hug which caused the wind to be knocked out of me.

"Rose I can't breathe!" I wheezed out when my lungs started to burn due to the lack of oxygen present.

"Sorry I'm just excited to have a girls day. Willy's ex girlfriends never really liked me you're the first one that's ever been nice to me." She explained.

Her statement threw  me off a bit mainly the use of the word 'girlfriends'. It just made me wonder how many were there before we met. How many of them did he love.

"Well it was their loss because you're the sweetest person I have ever met." I said smiling softly my words caused her cheeks to turn a rosy red. The sight was cute it made me feel all warm inside knowing that my opinion mattered.

"Thank you Amora. It's clear why William likes you so much. I just wished he'd found you earlier before that witch." She said still smiling. Her smile faltered a bit when she saw confusion no doubt cloud my features.

"It's okay Rosy." I said smiling weakly which caused her smile to return instantly. I couldn't ignore the tightening  I felt in my chest. Simply thinking about William being with somebody else and the possible timeline and then I reminded myself why he chose me.

"Rose." William said dryly which caused her to hop off the bed.

"I'm going to get ready and I'll call Theo to drive us." She said happily before skipping out of the room.

"Us?" William asked standing in front of me well dressed in a plain white button up shirt and navy blue slacks.

"Yeah." I answered simply before slipping off the bed and walking into the bathroom making sure to keep my eyes casted downwards away from his intense gaze.

"Amora." He sighed before I shut the door separating us from each other.

I didn't know why but I was angry at both of us. Mostly at him though but the tightening in my chest intensified when I glimpsed at myself in the mirror. My curly hair widely sprawled out on top my head falling messily over my shoulders and back. I didn't care to pay much attention to the rest of my body seeing that weight gain was evident so I stripped out of my clothes and hopped into the running shower welcoming the hot water that aggressively assaulted my body which caused my tense muscles to relax and temporarily wash away my minds worries.

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"How about this one?" Rose asked for the thousandth time today as she flipped through the never ending racks of designer clothing.

"It's cute you should try it on." I said lazily looking as she threw yet another item into the arms of the poor store clerk while I propped my tired body against the cool surface of a wall. Clearly somebody who gets as tired as me lately has no business shopping with Rose who seemed to be far from done even after ten stores. Every store was supposedly the last and although I completely ignored William before I left the house today I was praying  that he'd come and rescue me from his sister who has definitely gone crazy.

"Your highness." I heard what sounded like an echo seeing that all the workers in the store said it together as they bowed. Some women choosing to curtsy.

"You look like you're having fun." He said amusement gleaming in his dark blue eyes. "Come." He said extending his hand which I eagerly took. Rose momentarily paused looking through the colorful rack of dresses to look at her brother and I.

"You have five minutes to be outside." He told her in a stern voice which she quickly agreed to with the sharp nod of her head causing her silky loose hair to fall in her face. "That's why I didn't want you to come with her but I guess you had to learn on your own." He grumbled looking down at me as we walked out of the automatic doors and into the somewhat busy streets. Obviously for many reasons I didn't answer him.

The golden rays kissed the exposed skin of my forearms as William lead me down the bustling streets. I didn't  pay much attention to the stares  William was earning finding it hard to focus on anything due to the throbbing pain in my lower back and feet. I was tired and in pain from walking so much. All I wanted to do was climb into bed and sleep. I didn't know which was worst, morning sickness or my new found tiredness and need for scheduled naps. Carrying a child wasn't easy that much I knew but it seems that he or she was doing a superb job at making it even harder for me.

Stopping at a shiny black car a tall mature man around his late forties opened the car door for us. I smiled shyly at the  man who was properly attired in a black suite and black hat before slipping into the backseat allowing the warm leather seats to embrace my tired body. William was now babbling on the phone in Spanish so I just opted to look out the heavily tinted window. All the buildings that lined the both sides of the road were all modern showing off  their  polished architectural designs and the expensive garments behind their glassed windows. 

They were all beautiful, the glass windows glistened in the evening sun. All the buildings stood proudly at attention reaching for the skies. All but one. That one standing out from all the rest compared to this one they were all pale in comparison. Even  though it was visibly older than most of the buildings and not as modern it still had it's own rustic beauty with its red brick design. A small rectangular chalk board sat on the pavement with a drawing of a beautiful blue flower and the price scribbled next to it. It was a flower shop that was surrounded my high profiled clothing stores my realization made me smile at its uniqueness.

"William." I said softly poking his toned arm to get his attention while he spoke on his phone.

"Amora?" He asked pulling the phone away from his face.

"I want to go to a store over the road." I said pointing behind me. The excitement I felt because of a simple flower shop made me feel like a little kid.

"Okay." He answered simply before climbing out of the car with me following closely behind him.

"Which one?" He asked confused when he looked over to where I pointed.

"There." I said pointing to the building that was beautifully decorated with flowers of all colors and sizes. Walking into the naturally lit building I walked among the rows of flowers admiring them silently while William followed behind me no longer on his phone.

"Hello." A gentle voice greeted before a beautiful old woman  came into view her hands covered in dirt.

"Hello." I greeted pleasantly smiling at the beautiful woman. Her wrinkled tanned skin and short gray hair accentuated her gentle hazel eyes and welcoming smile.

"Oh your highness!" She greeted bowing slightly.

"Hello dear." William greeted warmly.

"How may I help you two?" She asked focusing on the Prince.

"You can help my girlfriend she seems to fancy flowers." He said giving my hand a small squeeze.

"A new one I see but this one's such a gem." She laughed lightly before taking my hand in her dusty ones leading me to the back of the store. Following her slow movements I couldn't help but to replay his choice of words in my head. 'Girlfriend.'

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William's P.O.V

"I am covered in dirt I am not going in there!" Amora protested which caused me to groan. Rose long left the car claiming that she had to get ready leaving me and my fussing wife sitting in the parked car outside the palace doors.

"Amora I have something to take care of and I'm not leaving you out here." I said firmly looking at her appearance. Black jeans that had spots of dirt from where her dirty hands may have touched the material and a simple pink blouse that looked clean to me. My eyes temporarily focused on the bouquet of pink and white flowers that laid on her lap this being the first bouquet of flowers I've bought for anybody after her.

"If you don't want to leave me in the car let the driver take me home then." She bargained which made my jaw tick.

"Amora get out the car!" I ordered. We've been going back and forth for almost ten minutes now and my patience was running thin.

"No! Sir could you please take me home?" She asked Philip who sat facing front in the drivers seat paying very little mind to what was going on in the back seat.

"Amora!" I shouted from where I now stood looking into the backseat of the car.

"I said no." She retorted folding her arms over her chest like a spoilt child.

"I'm only going to say it one more time." I warned then she started crying which caught  me off guard.

"William I'm tired and I just want to go home. My back and feet hurt I really just need to lay down." She whined between sniffles. Of course I wasn't going to say no when she was in that state so I did something I rarely ever did. I gave in allowing her to do what she wanted.

"Philip could you take her home please." I said tiredly kissing her on her cheek before closing the door.

I watched silently as my father looked at the red headed reporter well known by now for her gossip talk about my new 'mistress'. The word 'mistress' irked me but what further irritated me was that they assumed that she was just a quick hookup to get over my ex. The fact that my father watched the same clipping this being the tenth time only irritated me further.

"How old are you William?" He asked turning the television off but not turning towards me. He was angry it radiated of his body leaking into his speech.

"Old enough to make my own decisions." I answered simply waiting for him to explode. I had to keep my temper in check and play my cards well if not this could just end up even messier than it was already going to be in the long run when they found out that I got her pregnant.

"William you act like a hormone enraged ten year old! Who the hell is she and what happened to your engagement!" He shouted slamming his hands onto his wooden desk. I didn't flinch although his reddened face did make me a bit uneasy I didn't show it. "What type of King are you going to make if you can't even make a decision on what color you want to wear much less as to who your wife should be?" He asked his words full of venom.

"Just because I decided I didn't want to marry Sara doesn't make me a bad person nor does it show that I'm not fit to take my rightful place as King." I said simply looking into his forest green eyes none of his children inherited.

"It does show that you don't know what you want boy!" He said loudly which made me sigh.

"That's where you're wrong father. I want to marry someone who doesn't just want to be with me because of my title. Someone who isn't self absorbed and haughty. So therefore it only makes sense why I wouldn't want to marry Sara when she's everything I don't want in a woman." I clarified.

"So?" He asked calmly obviously eager to know my next move.

"I like her. She's humble and doesn't like me because of my family history. She'll possibly make a great queen one day I just want to see where our relationship goes." I said referring to Amora looking at him closely as he did the same to me.

"We have to firstly know what the people  think about you dating...outside your race. Plus I have to meet the young lady before I make a decision." He said slowly obviously calculating the different outcomes mentally. My father is a wise man something I've always admired and hoped that I'll be as good a king as him one day.

"William!" My mother shouted barging into the room clearly I see where Rose adopted  the habit from.

"Mother." I acknowledged her distress clearly masking her beautiful features.

"You're seeing someone?!?" She asked obviously knowing the answer to her foolish question so I opted not to answer. "This better be temporary because you still have Sara. For heavens sakes William she's black!" She said with distaste coating the latter part of her sentence.

"And?" I asked not getting her point.

"Sara isn't going to take this well you know." She continued choosing not to answer my question.

I could care less  what Sara thought or felt I made it clear how I felt  and it seemed that both my mother and her had other plans of their own.

"May I leave now if that's all we had to talk about father?" I asked turning to look at my father who was looking at his flustered wife. I knew this was going to happen, although I wanted Amora to be spotted with me I didn't think it would blow up this much. Usually my sightings with other women would just be a highlighted subject not the main topic of a two hour talk show.

"Sure son." My father said thankfully. Shooting  up from my seat I quickly walked over to the mahogany doubled doors of his office making my escape.

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I didn't know how it happened my brain was struggling to comprehend what was happening or what exactly took place  but what I did know was that I needed to get out of the situation as my eyes ran down her half naked body.

"I can't do this." I muttered putting space between us stressfully running my fingers through my messy hair. I didn't know how she convinced me to go this far or how could I stupidly agree going along with what she said. She was like the skilled musician and me a drunk dancing fool. Her body being my weakness and her knowing that she just milked it for all its worth. Proving a point I tried desperately to deny although I knew it was the truth. No matter what she did to me, how much time we spent away from each other she would always have that control over me.

Being the only woman I've ever loved she still knew how to pull my strings. Creating a beat I felt obligated to march to.

"William I just spent three hours begging you to take me while getting you drunk. Why can't you just fuck me?" Her delicate voice asked a confused look settling on her features.

For as long as I've known her there has never been a day I've ever turned down sex with her until today me mustering the strength to say those words shocked me as well but as I sat here one person came to mind. Amora.

"I'm taken." I answered my answer sounding more like a question.

"William that has never stopped you before." She pointed out her hands settling on her naked hips.

"Well this time it's different. She's ... different and I can't do this to her she doesn't deserve it. Even agreeing to come to this room with you was stupid and irresponsible of me. I took a vow and I never want to break that. I don't want to break her the way you broke me." I babbled my heart swelling painfully as a shaky breath pushed past my lips.

"Go home to your girl. I'm sorry for pushing it's just you've never told me no and actually meant it I just thought you were high or something." She apologized as I slid out the room.

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