Okay guys, so it's been over a year since I've published anything on here. I've had a lot of difficulty this past year with family issues and dating an asshole and breaking up with the asshole...it's just been crazy but here recently, I started writing again. I've been thinking about publishing another book but I haven't decided if I want to or not. I hardly have much time but writing is something I just can't give up. I'm not great at it by any means, but it helps me with stress and it makes me happy when I'm writing. It's honestly one of my biggest passions... Anyways, I'm going to post the first chapter of my next book on here just to get some input. I'll probably go back and edit it. It's definitely a work in progress. I don't even have a title yet and I've only written a few chapters. I hope you guys like it! PLEASE let me know what you think! My new books life depends on it! Alright..Well here it is! Don't hate it too much! :/

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Life sucks. Let's be honest, most of us have more sad moments than happy moments. My family always says "Everything happens for a reason", but I think that's just a load of bullshit they tell me so I don't feel too bad about my horrific life. We all know that nothing will ever go right for me so why do we keep lying to our selves? It's stupid and pointless and I'm getting so tired of hearing it all of the time. I'm nineteen years old for crying out loud. I'm not a child anymore and I would appreciate it if I was treated like an adult. Yes, I still live at home with my mother, but I have a job and I pay my own bills. Hell, I pay half the rent on this piece of shit house but yet, I have to live by her rules. Like, what the fuck right? I should be free, taking the world by storm, not feeding the countless cats my mom has and washing dishes on a Friday night. It sucks monkey
balls. Don't get me wrong though, I'm very grateful for what I have. My mom, my little sister, and I have been through a lot in the past two years. Well, the past nineteen years if you want to be technical.

"Kenslee, I'm going to the club with David. I left $20 on the table for dinner. Tori said that she's probably gonna hang out with Hannah tonight so I need you to make sure she's home by eleven. She's been sneaking in late at night and I'm about to put a stop to it. That girl is getting worse and worse about breaking the rules."

Like always, I'm left doing the dirty work. "Fine mom. Just go and have fun. I'll sit here and watch TV while my mom and sister are out having the time of their lives." I rolled my eyes and plopped down onto the couch, which feels like bricks by the way.

"I've done told you to make some friends, Kenslee. You choose to stay home. Don't blame this on me."

"You can't trust anyone these days, mom. And I'm not blaming it on you. I'm just tired of being here all of the damn time. It gets old fast."

"Well you're the only one who can change that, sweetie. Don't wait up on me tonight. I'll see you when you wake up tomorrow. Love you." She kissed the top of my head and smiled down at me.

"Love you too mom." I watched as she walked out the front door.

After making sure she's gone, I ran over to my sisters room and put my left ear against her door. I know damn well she's not hangin' out with Hannah tonight, you know, since they haven't been friends for months. Hannah is a fuckin' back stabbing bitch, in my opinion. What she done to Tori is a total Regina George move. She's lucky I didn't march over to her house and chop all of her hair off while she was asleep. If it wasn't for Tori locking me in my room, I would have. Oh, and if you haven't noticed, I kind of have anger issues and I have the mouth of a sailor. My mom thinks it's because I'm trying to hide my "true feelings" or whatever but I'm not. I just think it gives me character and makes me stand out from everyone else.

"Okay so we're meeting Alex and Drew at the city park, right?"

Alex? Really? What the fuck is wrong with her? Alex is an asshole and a cheater. I thought she dropped his ass a long time ago.

"What? No, Kenslee doesn't care what I'm doing as long as I'm not getting into trouble. And besides, she's not my mom. She can't tell me I can't go anywhere."

Bullshit. If I don't want her to go, I'm gonna stop her from going. She's just actin' bad so she doesn't seem like a lame ass kid.

"Alright. Pick me up in like ten minutes. I've gotta change real quick. I'll see you later. Bye Ashley." 

I didn't even bother running back into the living room. I'm gonna let her know real fast that I don't want her near Alex. She opened her bedroom door and man was she mad when she saw me.

"Were you eavesdropping?" Her face resembled an angry beast. It was a bit comical if you ask me.

I stifled a laugh and shrugged my shoulders. "Duh. Why else would I be standing at your door?" I smirked at her and crossed my arms.

"What the hell, Kenslee? Who I talk to is none of your business." She walked past me, making sure she shoved my shoulder as she went by.

I followed her into the kitchen and glared at her. "Why are you talking to Alex again?"

Her shoulders dropped and she slowly spun around to face me. "I don't want to talk about this, Kens. We're just friends, anyway. There's nothing wrong with having friends."

"There is when he cheated on you with your best friend." I furrowed my eyebrows and took a seat at the table.

"Ex best friend." She sat next to me and opened her bottle of water. "He apologized and I forgave him. I can tell he's really sorry for what he done."

I looked at her in disbelief. This bitch is crazy. "Victoria, he took your best friends virginity. He cheated on you with a million other girls and he lied to you about everything. He doesn't deserve anymore chances and you're so dumb for continuing to forgive him. He's just using you and taking advantage of your kindness. Just leave him alone." I love Tori, but she can be too nice sometimes. That's how I used to be, but life can change a girl.

"You have no idea how Alex and I are when we're alone. He's a totally different person and I wish you would quit bad mouthing him. You can't control my life and I'm tired of you talking shit about my friends." She grabbed some chips from the cabinet and pushed in her chair. "I'm done with this conversation. Ashley will be here any second and I still have to change."

She slammed her door, of course being the drama queen that she is. I went to the fridge and grabbed a mountain dew, leftover lasagna, and spray cheese. It's times like these that I wish I had someone to talk to and hang out with. But oh well. It's just me, myself, and I tonight. Time to binge watch pretty little liars and eat a shit load of junk food.

(Like I said, it needs work. I'll probably make it longer as well. Vote and comment please!!)